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Sero was bored. Or more like he was lonely. Its ridiculous to be lonely when your surounded by people 27/7 but he guessed he just wanted some contact. He was on his bed and wondered why god made him have a face like soy sauce, the nickname didnt hurt his ego mainly because it didnt make sense but it was one of those days where he just hated everything about himself. Well it wasnt really hate really, more like dissatisfaction, he wasnt insecure or depressed or anything as tragic as that. He was a fairly happy person and a loved child as much as children can be loved. Man he just needed a hug.
He could go to minas room, shes the queen of makeovers and as loud and bubbly as she can be shes actually a good listener, shed say things like "its not because your not depressed that your not allowed to feel sad honey" or even things like "look at you!! You have the most adprable grin in the universe your beautifull" and admitely she says things like that to everyone but it still feels so good when she says them, like all the happiness in the world comes into his chest and that he might just burst, torn between denying to hear more of those sweet words or just accept them as hard as it seems.
He sat up from his bed, looking around for a minute. Damn he was pathetic. He got up and started to make his way to the corridor, he didnt know where he wanted to go but he saw kaminari make his way to his room, holding what seemed to be a mountain of snacks and looking like a criminal. He suddenly saw him and waved one hand, half the snacks fell on the floor and acting like hes been cought red handed he just let out a loud "shit!". And scrambled to pick them up.
Making his way over he looked down at kaminari amuzed.
"Munchies?" He asked since it was obviously that.
"Oh dude u have no idea, i ate some bread with butter on top and its like i saw god" he said while picking his snacks up but some kept on falling, he decided to be nice and picked up the pringles and kit kats that were making his friends life harder.
"Thanks dude, wanna come in?"
"Yeah sure" he guessed his decision was made for him, its better this way otherwise he would have kept wandering in hallway like slender man wondering if hed be allowed to knock on someones door. He was that kind of guy.
"Alright" kicking his door open and losing a kinder bueno bar along the way he made his way into his room and just threw his snacks onto the bed. There rly were a lot, the most terrible part were the mix of salty things with sweet things. "Im a man of varied taste" kaminari said when he saw seros disgusted expression.
"Wanna roll yourself a spliff"he asked while he pulled out his little weed kit from under his bed, its all kept in an old metal box with some 70s design, he liked kaminaris taste in things, hes really into old school things you can guess it just by his music taste. He took the box and started to roll one of his sero joints, he rolled very good looking joints he was proud of himself for that at least.
Kaminari started eating some pringles and was looking at him as he was sat on the floor. He suddenly asked:
"Are you alright?"
The question startled him, mainly because he wouldnt have thought that kaminari would notice it so quickly especially while high, he wasnt rly showing how he felt and it wasnt much anyway. Maybe his pause gave him away more than anything.
"Well, yeah, cant say im feeling bad or anything."
"So your not alright?" He asked with an unempressed expression while still muching his pringles, hes sat on the bed and leaned forward to be eye to eye with sero who just finished licking the paper. He was really close actually but the fact that he was still loudly munching his pringles killed all romance that could have been interpreted in this scene. He kept on staring at him and he started feeling mildly annoyed.
"No im okay im just not in the best of moods is all, im really alright" he said while scooting away a bit and put the joint to his mouth and got kaminaris zippo out, another cool artifact he had, honestly kaminaris taste can be resumed to awesome and terrible at the same time.
Kaminari was looking at him a bit too seriously and it worried him because that expression should only be there if he was in some sort of mortal danger or having a real mental breakdown, not just when he feels bummed out and a bit lonely, that happens to everyone everyday why worry so much.
Kaminari got up and threw his whole pile of snacks on the floor, honestly what was wrong whith that guy? He put his pringles on the floor and sat back on the bed and then laid down on it. He was looking at him expectantly.
"What?"the annoyance was really showing now and he wondered if hed rather be alone maybe. Kami just looked exasperated and started patting his bed.
"What what? Im telling u to come on my bed dumbass"
"Why the hell do i want to go on your bed you probably havent changed your sheets since we moved in" by kaminaris expression he was right, he just swatted that comment away.
"Stop being a macho with a stick up his ass and just come on my bed." Alright insults now and still that unsettling look, well whatever its not as though hes doing much on the floor either. He got up and sat next to kami.
"Not like this, lie down" he was really annoying, with that mentality in mind he also took the joint out of his hand. Damn what an asshole. He just laid down, thank god kaminari had a mountain of pillows, he started looking at the ceiling feeling even more pathetic than before. Kaminari leaned his head on his hand and was looking at him now.
"So tell me whats up"
"Your ceiling" he couldnt help but reply.
"Dont play that game with me sero somethings up, you can tell me, i know im not the sharpest shack in the tool but i can still listen" he grinned at his stupid word game and he couldnt deny him a tiny smile, still his reaction wasnt worth the little bad mood he had today.
"Its really nothing kami, im just not in a great mood you know" he looked at kaminari and saw that his look asked him to go on, oh well whatever " like i dont know i feel a bit lonely and maybe i miss my family and your just blowing this out of proportion, its nothing bad" kaminari kept looking at him and seeing as he wasnt going to say anything more he started talking.
"Well maybe i blow it out of proportion but it doesnt take a lot for things like that to become a real big snowball so its better if you tell me now i think." He said that with more gravity then he should have, suddenly the roles got reversed and sero leaned on his elbows as well to look at him.
"Do you have anything you want me to tell me about?" He asked because he suddenly wasnt feeling sure and kaminari was the one person you never see unhappy, now that he thinks about it thats more worrying than actually showing unhapiness.
Kaminari just made a weird face and laid down, he took a long drag from his joint and now was looking at the ceiling, he looked sad for once and that look felt more painfull than anything he felt today.
".. i dont really want to talk about it you know but i might as well. It might be stupid for me to coddle you but i really am worried." He stopped and looked at him, he clearly felt embarassed but more than anything sad, he shuffled his hair so it cover his face a bit more and avoided looking sero in the eyes. "I had a good friend a couple of years ago. He was always happy and always there for me when i felt sad. We hung out everyday in school and after school, we'd go out to karaoke or to my house and stay there for hours. I never felt bored or sad with him it was as though we completed each other perfectly. Sometimes he was sad and id try to cheer him up but it was always too superficial when i think about it now. Compared to him who would dissect my problems to solve them and do everything he could to make me happy id only say a few words like "itd get better" or "youll pull through this your the best' until he simply stopped telling me when he was feeling down" he suddenly stopped and we both knew how the story would end, kaminari just shook his head and looked at the ceiling again "well one afternoon we went bowling, it was fun we had a good time, he looked tired but i figured it was finals season so everybody looked tired, we went out to the vending machine and he bought me a soda, he smiled and asked "are you alright?' I said yeah i was always alright when i was with him, its the one time he truly looked sad and he looked at me as though expecting something, like the idiot i am i didnt ask him the same question, i think it would have saved him, or maybe it wouldnt but anyway we went our seperate ways home after that and the next day i got the news that he killed himself, hanged himself from the ceiling of the garage." He stopped talking and just kept on looking at the ceiling, sero felt like the worst ass of humanity, he didnt know what to say, theres nothing to say in those cases its simply horrible and crushing. So he just said the thing anyone else would.
"Its not your fault denki" he knew he didnt sound convincing enough, how could he it may just be a lie what he said.
Denki saw right through him and just made a sad smile " you know its not true, and even if it was its clear that i didnt do enough, no its not my fault but i was a bad friend and i lost miko because i couldnt be bothered to see farther than my own nose to see how much he was suffering" he kept staring and the ceiling and then sat up again when he turned his face he had his kaminari signature smile, but now he could see the cracks alond the eyes and a deep underlying sadness in them.
"And thats why i want you to tell me when things are bad, i dont want to do the same msitakes you know" sero looked at him and saw how the roles were badly asigned, he sat up in front of kaminari and looked him in the eyes. Kaminaro kept the smile for a few seconds but then as though a mask fell down he just stopped smiling. It really was terrifying seeing someone who always smiles stop, you could see lines of fatigue and sadness all over their faces as though the price of hapiness is perpetual misery. They just kept looking at each other and sero knew who was the actual happiest between them both. He figured he might just kill two birds with one stone and hugged kami really hard, he leaned into him as though relieved to not show his face any longer. He let himself fall backward and kaminari was now lying on top of him with his face hidden in his neck, he started petting his hair and asked:
"Are you alright?" Kami laughted a bit and shook his head.
"Not really but im fine as long as your here