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I saw two birds out the window this morning
It was a rare sight
Not because we hardly get birds here
No
Because isn't wasn't the season
I miss you
I thought this would help me
Writing this down
I'm not sure
I've always wondered
Why seagulls were your favorite bird
I mean, there's so many beautiful birds out there
Even more better sea birds.
They were oyster catchers
Remember when you taught me how to prepare oysters?
The birds make me think of you.
I don't know why.
I miss you.
I miss enjoying the ocean.
You're not one for emotions.
But you've found a way to manage them
Atleast for now
It should keep your employers happy
While also having a good report for them
They appear little by little
Very small steps.
You hope that this progression is healthy
If it becomes unhealthy
You will have to do something about it
You fear that
So you take it slowly
You write it out on paper
It helps you understand
The emotions get out and settle
Then you can move on.
You lied to your employers when they asked how these emotions started
You did not want them to know the truth
They believed you.
You are good at hiding the truth from them
One could say you're more powerful than them.
That's a thought for another time.
So why did you lie?
Because
You wanted to protect your son
Your employers have no understanding for bonds
They think it is a waste of time
They think it is dangerous
So you had to lie
Because
They might have hurted your son.
And you can not allow that
But you cannot leave just yet
No
You want to see how things turn out
The future will be better.
You are sure of it.
You need it to be better.
For the sake of everyone.
Your son
And his friends
Humans deserve happiness
And so does your son
Meddling is
Wrong.
And
You want to prevent meddling
So you just observe
Not interact
Has this determined attempt at not interacting with others crippled your chance at bonds?
Yes.
But that's the price you must pay.
Maybe you have
Started
To see bonds as useless
Just like your employers
Deep breath.
Relief.
Calm down.
Bonds are dangerous.
Bonds have done nothing but hurt you.
The bonds in the past
For they have died.
You cannot handle that.
The less the bonds
The less hurt.
So you stay away from your son
The less interaction
The less attached
The less pain over your passing
He will be happy.
Your son
Tommy.