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Things have been stressful for jungkook lately, more so than usual. It has been a hectic month with comeback and promotions. He thinks that maybe with time he will get used to this but that was immediately proven wrong at the beginning of every comeback.
Don't get him wrong, he loves being an idol especially when he is part of the most amazing boy band in south Korea if not the whole world but such record breaking achievements come with immense pressure. Of course his passion and love for music and army far outweigh the bad things but sometimes he just gets overwhelmed .
The fact that he feels like he’s slipping just makes things worse. He doesn't know what’s happening but sometimes it feels like he is not himself.
He has been having this urge . This urge to just cry out and demand things to go his way. To stomp his foot and cross his arms if he doesn't get enough attention or to throw a tantrum when he feels tired. That's weird right? He's an adult, he shouldn't be acting that way. He should act his age right? To make matters worse, he keeps doing things he wouldn't normally do.
For example, a few weeks ago he found a colouring book with a few color pencils scattering around the dining table. Nobody was supposed to be home that day so he had no idea whose book it was. It was a children's coloring book but for some reasons it intrigued jungkook's interest. Without him noticing, half of the book was filled with colours and drawings. They were nowhere near to his standards though. Most of the colours were outside the lines and the drawings were just scribbles. He's the golden maknae , he was supposed to be great in everything.
Another example is when he found a stuffed bunny last week. The bunny was the epitome of cuteness with her long ears and fuzzy peach fur. There were little stars on her feet and the inside of her ears. She was the softest bunny to ever exist. Jungkook couldn't stop rubbing his face all over her. She smelled so nice too. A soft floral scent with a hint of peppermint. It reminded jungkook of his hyungie. A couple minutes (half an hour) passed before he caught himself. He's
jeon jungkook
, he doesn't do stuffed animals. He's a gamer, he should play with his computer not with a plushie. So he did the normal thing and left.
Now bun bun is a permanent resident in jungkook's bed but nobody needs to know about her.
That wasn't all. He also has this craving for sweets like all the time . He would mostly be craving chocolate and ice cream and maybe snacks too. He desperately wants some candies but they rarely have those in the house which jungkook thinks doesn't make sense, every house should have candies in them. Wait, stop, he shouldn't be thinking like that, he's an idol. He needs to take care of his body. He has to look good for army and the camera. He shouldn't consume too much sugar.
He also thinks that someone is onto him. He found a few colouring books and a set of colour pencils on his bed three days after he found (
his
)
the first book. There were also some puzzles and a few toy cars. Jungkook was confused at first and wanted to ask the hyungs but something inside of him was grateful and excited for the new gifts.
He spent the rest of the day playing with his new toys.
Today is one of the few days where jungkook feels extra bad. He didn't get a wink of sleep last night or any proper sleep for the whole week to be exact. The comeback is a great success and things should be less hectic by now but with their rising popularity, they keep getting booked day after day. Everyone is beyond exhausted by this point. Namjoon hyung had to talk with the management to get a few days off which he successfully did. It was supposed to be today as they have no performance for the next three days. Unfortunately, after their performance last night, they received a message.
From manager : Sorry for the late announcement but the management made a mistake. You have a performance in two days so all of you have to come for practice tomorrow. Sorry for any inconveniences.
To say that jungkook was devastated is an understatement. All of the frustration for not getting the day off has kept him awake through the night and in the morning he feels stupid for not getting any rest while he can. He's mad at the management for their mistake but he's furious at himself for not handling it better.
He ends up dragging his exhausted body to the studio. His body feels like a deadweight. He is so so tired that he actually thought of stopping and just lay down on the floor. He wants to rest, he doesn't want to practice anymore.... He wants his bun bun and ice cream and his toys. He misses his bun bun so mu... -pause-
Jungkook shakes his head clear of those thoughts and scolds himself for having them. He should focus on practice instead of thinking that. All of his hyungs are practicing hard, he can't be the only one slacking off....
but he is exhausted and sweaty and hot. The room is stuffy. He just wants to go home and nap, maybe have a bath and play with bubbles and maybe before napping he could cudd..... Wait, WHAT !?
Yoongi hyung must have noticed his internal struggles as he suggests taking jungkook home to unwind. The rest of the members look at the both of them - at jungkook for a moment longer - and agree. Jungkook does not want to be a bother but before he can protest, he is interrupted by a kind voice.
"We all have noticed that you look tired lately kookie. It's okay to take a break once in a while" said jin hyung with a kind smile. "Yoongi ah, please take care of the maknae". Yoongi hyung just nods with an affirmative grunt.
With that being said, yoongi hyung drags jungkook to the car. Together they make it back to the house. Jungkook still feels weird but with the consistent back rubs and brush of his hair, he feels a lot calmer now, almost serene. He leans against yoongi hyung and swears that yoongi hyungs kisses his head a few times. Yoongi hyung isn't the type to show affection easily that's why this moment feels precious.
They hold hands the entire way and even after they enter the house, yoongi hyung still doesn't let go. Yoongi hyung caresses the back of his hand with his thumb. He looks up at jungkook with a nervous but hopeful glint in his eyes like he knows. He just knows .
"Kookie.... It's okay. Hyungie got you"
Slowly oh so slowly, a pair of arms wrap around jungkook's torso. A hand finds its way to his hair and brushes them gently. Jungkook feels warm and so so small even though he knows that he's bigger than yoongi.
He feels like he's falling, slipping and he is struggling to hold on. He feels like if he slips then there is no turning back. Desperately he tries to hold on.
"Let go kookie. Hyungie is here. Hyungie will protect you" a soft soothing voice whispers to him. The voice makes him feel safe, that there's nothing to be afraid of so he stops struggling. He lets himself slip but this time he isn't scared because hyungie will protect him.
"Hyungie....." A tiny whine resounds from jungkook. He hugs his hyungie tighter never planning to let go