Archive of Our Own

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TW: Mentions of anxiety attacks
Brothers with an MC having an anxiety attack

(An Mc That’s ok with touch)

Prologue

You can’t even quite remember what triggered it. You woke up, ate, went to RAD, and now you’re walking to your next class . It started off as a creeping pain in the ribs and upper chest. As nothing was off beforehand you thought it would pass. You thought wrong. You felt your face heat up remarkably, and had the undisputed feeling of a sinking coal in your abdomen/diaphragm. You wouldn’t let yourself go though . Not here. You walked yourself to the bathroom as fast as you could , and locked yourself in a stall. Focussing on deep breath’s proved ineffective, so you went through your bag in hopes of gum , a snack, water , something that could distract you. The fact that you had nothing only pushed you further into your spiral, and your arms were shaky and heavy as stone. Leaving for the stall and opting for the sink, you try to splash some water on your face to bring you out of it. While doing such, your DD continuously went off, as the brothers were now aware of your absence in class. You couldn’t explain. You didn’t have it in you to articulate the situation. After sending simple “I’m going back to HOL” and shut your phone off completely. Any noise or stimulation only proved to further aggravate your anxiety attack. Once returning , you went straight to your room and shut the lights off, and curled up in bed facing the door. You refused to close your eyes, you needed to see, it was the only thing distracting you now. All you could do is sit, and hope it would pass.

Lucifer

• most likely the one who is initially annoyed by your lack of attendance, however he was in the middle of a meeting with Diavolo, so he couldn’t just leave to drag you back to class
• afterward he returned home to question your motives, making a beeline to your room with a cold knock- he’s a gentleman, he’d never barge in, right?- he awaited your response he knew you were in there, did you really return home just to nap?
• opening the door, we was met by a dark room, and you, curled up on your bed he initially thought you had fallen asleep, but his assumptions were snuffed out the minute you made eye contact with him you looked….wrong
• “MC?”
• you just kept looking at him, you didn’t have it in you to respond you looked like a live wire to him- colour had long left your face, eyes reflecting a perturbed space you were clinging onto your comforter as if it was your lifeline
• he had a hunch of what might be going on, but wasn’t sure
• “can I touch you?”
• you didn’t say anything, so he wouldn’t take that as a yes, but you didn’t protest as he scooped you up bridal style
• his hand cradled your back as he made his way to his room he tucked you into his bed and put on the fireplace
• he wasn’t sure if touching you in this state was a good idea, so he gave you space, reading through some of his paperwork at the coffee table on the other side of the room
• as you slowly came down from that state, you felt how exhausted your body was from being in a prolonged fight or flight state
• you were getting kind of drowsy, but heard some shuffling at the end of the bed looking over, lucifer gave you a soft smile-quite rare-and simply said
• “get some rest, you must be tired. I’ll wake you up for dinner.”
• you didn’t even register the gentle kiss on your forehead as you slipped into a peaceful sleep
• It had been a couple days since that incident, and the brothers have noticed a bit of a softer spot between lucifer and you
• you hadn’t brought up what happened, and he wouldn’t pry if you wished not to talk about it however, he has made a point of checking in with you, and monitoring your stress levels throughout each week.
• on the days you look especially overwhelmed, he does your chores for you, and lets you rest in his room and study while he works
• prideful and a secret tsundere, lucifer texted you the night after your anxiety attack “Come to me next time you feel like that.” and that was all. Nothing more, nothing less
• it was this unspoken communication. You’d go to him, and nothing ever needed to be said, your face said it all.
• you were grateful for the privacy he gave you though he’d never tell you, on some of the nights where he is stressed, he pokes his head into your room while doing his rounds, and relaxes at the sight of your peaceful sleeping form

Mammon

• he had wanted you to come with him to his photoshoots after class, why’d ya hafta run off from him?
• another one to go straight home, worried you might be sick, or worse- injured.
• one of two boys who doesn’t knock, just barges straight in
• “Oi Mc! where’d ya-”
• he feels like he’s going to be sick no, correction, he might shit himself
• what the actual fuck- you’re lying in bed with a look of absolute unease, in the dark with your eyes wide open at him
• you don’t even move or respond
• “m-mc?”
• what should he do? he’s panicking, straight up he looks you over, looking for any sign of physical injury, he’s an anxious wreck
• oh. oh . that’s what’s going on. he’s felt this way many times before, but how does help you through it?
• the fact that you’re in pain right now is hurting him so much.
• he doesn’t even say anything, he scoops you up and silently walks to his room he keeps the lights off, so it’s a miracle he didn’t trip on anything and drop you
• tucks you into his bed and holds onto you
• you tensed up, so he went to let go of you, but as you did you felt your unease start to rise, so you held onto him like he was your lifeline; and he was ok with that.
• you didn’t sleep, he didn’t speak, he just held on tight to you as you stared at the wall as the hours passed, he felt you slowly start to relax in his arms, and that filled him with relief
• didn’t know what to say, but wanted to help
• “…wanna talk about it?”
• and so you did
• he just held you and ran his thumbs in little circles on your shoulder
• you were his human, and he was gonna make sure everything was ok
• he’s a bit more overprotective now, and sometimes in the middle of things will stop and turn to you, and with a serious face ask
• “you ok right now?”
• a little confused but he’s got the spirit!
• he just wants to hold you on the nights you two sleep together, he waits for your to fall asleep first, and watches you while stroking your hair
• he prefers this peaceful, somber bliss on you

Leviathan

• This otaku shut in was sitting in the kitchen eating a snack between online classes, and poked his head into the main hall to see who had just come home at such a random hour
• as he realized it was you, he called your name to greet you, but did not expect your reaction you had straightened up, and slowly turned around to make eye contact with him
• what the actual fuck??? was he in a horror movie? the way you looked at him was almost, pleading.
• your body language however was that of cornered prey
• I hc he deals with some sort of anxiety, which means he’d be pretty good at detecting others in anxious states
• as he realized what was going on, he slowly walked towards you in a non threatening way, and guided you to his room by the hand
• you had looked like you were going to collapse, so as he sat you down beside him in his room, he wrapped his tail snuggly around you like a hug, which was something he learned can act as a decompresser in relaxing anyone in a heightened state of adrenaline
• went to put on video games, but realized the chaotic noise may not be very helpful.
• instead he opted for a peaceful slice of life anime he placed an open water bottle near you and a snack in case you wanted it, but you just stared at the screen
• as the episodes went on, you relaxed into his tail, so he loosened it a bit when he realized you had fallen asleep, this man was blushing like no other you were peacefully sleeping, cuddled up to HIM in His tail like a blanket
• absolutely moe
• Man he’s so awkward he’d struggle to talk to you about it the day after , so he sends you a text message
• Whenever you feel like that you will either text him or go to him
• The days you can’t make it to him, he will come to you and bring you to his room, and swaddle you in his tail like a sleeping bag
• This man is blushing every time this happens, but it genuinely seems to help, so who is he to stop doing it
• Maybe if you’re lucky he’ll work up the courage to cuddle up to you afterwards, drawing little shapes on your back with his hand as you lie with him in his bedtub

Satan

• He was the one to initially notice you weren’t in class- you had ancient literature together, and tardiness / absence wasn’t your thing
• The text to him spoke volumes, as out of anyone he is aware of language and its use
• As much as he didn’t want to leave a class about reading, he had a nagging impulse to check on you
• And so he did
• As rapping at the door gave no response from you , he slipped inside and gently shut the door behind him
• “Mc?”
• Unable to respond , and you could do was look at him. Speaking was too much right now
• He walked over and seemed to be lost in thought
• As gracefully as he entered, he left - only saying a brief
• “I’ll be right back”
• he returned with a book in hand. Scooting you over , he positioned you so that you were curled up against his lap while he read his book
• With one hand he held his book, the other holding onto you and playing with your hair
• As you started to settle into his arms , he read part of his book out loud- something for you to focus on
• He guided you upright and brought you to the kitchen Sitting you at the counter, he prepared hot drinks and a snack
• You two sat by the fireplace and discussed what today was about, exploring any possible triggers or factors
• As you grew more comfortable he was able to ask questions about what it’s like, what he can do and more about any conditions you may have
• He’s gentle , but has a tactical approach to the situation overall
• Ensures that you have a safe area whenever you start to feel overwhelmed
• Loves when you snuggle up to him on the couch in his room.. Might not tell you that though… who knows

Asmo

• He was in your potions class that morning , you weren’t looking unwell - had something changed? Had someone upset you?
• He needed to go back to HOL anyways to pick something up, so he thought he could poke his head in
• Though he knocked on the door, he opened it right after (seriously what’s the point of knocking then??)
• After seeing your form lying down , he came over and cooed at you
• “Mc honey you look awful!”
• At your lack of response , he grew genuinely worried , though he’d rather not focus on those emotions
• Was stumped on what to do so he sat by your head and brushed your hair, humming now and again to pass the time
• You hadn’t realized you had dozed off until you had woken up again, only to find asmo looking at you with a smile on his face
• “Feeling better now, are we?”
• You offered him a small smile in return
• Though he wanted you to have a relaxing activity filled night, you weren’t up for much
• You ended up eating dinner in his room with him, and you two did your make up, nails and a skincare routine
• He sat and talked about taking care of yourself
• Beauty comes from within, and the first step to that is taking care of your mind
• He tries his best, but it’s a little frightening to him, as he tends to avoid his emotions quite a bit
• You guys could work on that together though, And that’s all that matters
• He now consistently has self care sessions with you , and you both use that time to decompress It’s nice honestly

Beelzebub

• You were supposed to meet him for lunch after second class, and now he’s sad :(
• He decides to go home for lunch, so he can check up on you
• He knocks twice and waits each time , but after waiting he gets worried, and cracks open the door just a bit
• “Mc? Are you ok?”
• Upon seeing the apparent distress on your face , he’s panicked, ngl
• He picks you up like a baby and looks you over
• You were just so overwhelmed, and so much was going on.
• All you could do was huddle into his chest and cry
• He wrapped his arms around you gentle and swayed slightly for some movement , with small words of affirmation to you
• “It’s ok, you’re ok, you’re safe”
• He’s seen this with belphie , so after realizing you weren’t injured , he was relieved .
• however after you started to cry his heart broke into tiny little pieces
• How did he not notice you were so anxious today??
• As you started to calm down he wiped the tears from your face and looked you over
• “let’s go get you something to drink, you’ll get a headache from crying”
• He carried you downstairs as you had yourself wrapped around his frame for comfort
• Handing you a water bottle , he eyed you carefully as you took small sips
• You always felt safe with him, he radiated comfort and warmth
• When he offered his ears, you two talked about how you’ve been feeling
• You guys missed the rest of class, but that’s ok
• He now constantly pulls you aside to ensure you’re taking the time to calm down and focus
• You, him and belphie take naps together during the especially demanding weeks
• He ensures you eat the right foods, so that you minds can function properly
• He’s just worried you, and wants you to be happy and safe

Belphegor

• He was napping in the main hall when you came home and heard you run to your room
• Followed you upstairs, and wasn’t sure what to do, he can be emotionally constipated sometimes
• He lay beside you and held you close, pulling you into a deep sleep to help you calm down
• You awoke a few hours later to him looking at you, with an unreadable expression on his face Was he concerned ?
• “ let’s talk about it”
• Didn’t even give you an option , which you are secretly thankful for
• You sat and talked for a couple hours, belphie opening up a little bit , and vice versa
• You two stayed in bed , fussing with each other’s hair and having mundane conversations
• You two now had a better appreciation for what the other goes through daily
• Whenever you look stressed , belphie pulls you aside and rests with you for a little bit to recharge
• The attic now becomes your safe space , in which you two retreat when things become too much
• Who would’ve thought he had such a soft spot for you in the end?