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Yamaguchi and Hinata were sitting on swings next to each other. It was kind of late. But they met after school. But they hadn’t talked about it. They went to see a movie together, then they went to a ramen shop, then to an arcade. But they never actually talked about it. It.
“So. How’d you think to get on there? I mean. It’s not like I don’t kind of know. I was there too. It was just. Uhm.” Yamaguchi wasn’t sure how to approach the topic. He wasn’t sure where Hinata was at in this.
“I mean it’s not complicated. I just thought now that I’m in high school I could try dating. I don’t think I ever ‘didn’t know’ about it. It was always really even.” Hinata’s voice was steady, not shaky. Yamaguchi was thinking Hinata probably was more at peace with this than he was.
“Right. I guess it wasn’t too different for me. Always grew up with crushes on lots of people. It’d be an actress, then a guy friend at school, then a guy teacher, then a girl who worked at the gas station.” Yamaguchi scratched his neck as he slowly kicked his feet off the ground to give his swing a little more impact, actually making it swing. “I mean. You weren’t the last person I’d expect to see there. Like, I mean, the fact our school put on a private gay prom thing shows what kind of area we’re in. It’s really cool. To you know. Announce a dance just for the gay and trans kids, to have fun in peace at. Not worry about their friends thinking they’re weird.” Hinata was kicking off now too.
“Yeah!” He was trying to sound excited. Peppy. “I mean, man, wasn’t it a trip seeing Takeda-sensei with rainbows painted on his cheeks? That was so cute! I mean, he’s so nice! I was surprised anyone came up with the idea, but someone did, and I’m not surprised its him.”
Yamaguchi nodded as his forward arc passed Hinata’s backwards arc. “Do you think he actually is just an ally? I mean, he seemed so happy and jumpy. Do you think he’s doing it for himself too?”
Yamaguchi shrugged. “Maybe. I didn’t know any of the other students there, but it seemed like enough for him to know about it and do it anyway.”
Hinata turned a little while he swung. “You didn’t talk to him though. I did, he started sobbing when I just out and came out to him. I know he saw you, but you didn’t go up to him.”
Yamaguchi sighed kind of too loudly. “I’m not good at telling people. I mean I typically don’t. In fact, I only really sat down and had the conversation with my parents and one other person. I just really didn’t have more than one close friend until this year. So I guess even though he knows now, I just didn’t think to tell him, haha.”
Hinata looked a little conflicted. “Well, you just told me!”
Yamaguchi giggled. “I didn’t tell you, you found out.”
Hinata smiled faintly. “You should tell the others! I mean, I bet the person you told was…wait, are you and Tsukishima dating??”
Yamaguchi looked down softly. “No. That’s why I came out to him though. I wanted to. I told him I was gay. And he let me know very…confidently, that he was straight. He definitely knew why I was telling him, and he really wanted to make sure he didn’t lead me on on accident. I bet he thinks I still like him.”
Hinata cocked his head. “Don’t you? I mean, now that I know you’re gay, it sure seems that way.”
Yamaguchi slumped a little. “I don’t think its that I still have a crush. And I know he’s straight, and he’s not gonna wait for me. But I never fell in love before him, and never after him. So I mean…it’s hard to say that things really got different. I mean. I want to fall in love. I really do. He knows that. He probably knows he gets my affection cause it just spills out, I have nowhere else to give it. But I don’t think its cause I’m still in love. I just think I want to be in love with him.”
Hinata began swinging his legs to swing higher and higher. “Do you think you could fall in love with someone else?”
Yamaguchi looked up to the stars. “I want to. I can. I just think it’d be easier if I knew I wouldn’t get rejecte—” Yamaguchi cut himself off because he saw Hinata in the sky. He had shot himself out of the swing at maximum height. Yamaguchi knew he probably wasn’t actually all that high in the air, but Yamaguchi thought he looked like he was 15 feet up.
Hinata landed perfectly with a low squat. And turned around and began walking softly up to Yamaguchi, who in silence, stopped kicking, slowing swinging to a halt.
“Do you wanna go to the dance with me?” Hinata was smiling, and reached out and held his hand out as he said it.
Yamaguchi’s face glew a little bit, but he wasn’t aware of that. “Hinata?”
“I don’t know why. But I feel like it might be fun to try something out. You know. An experiment. I won’t reject you. You can give me your affection.” Yamaguchi’s gaze lowered to Hinata’s hand, and back up to his face.
“Do…do you think we would…uh…are you saying you think we can fall in love with each other?”
Hinata smiled wider, to the point of his eyes closing, before opening softly again. “We can try.”
Yamaguchi put his hand into Hinata’s who pulled him up. “Okay.” Yamaguchi could feel his face heat up, and wondered if his shade of blush was matching Hinata’s. “We have a few days before the dance. Do you wanna hang out a little more?”
Hinata nodded. “Okay!” He walked gently into a hug, which Yamaguchi gently reciprocated. Hinata muttered muffled into Yamaguchi’s shoulder. “I’m going to a dance. A real gay dance with a real gay boy.”
Yamaguchi put his hand on Hinata’s head and giggled. “Actually, I’d been thinking Yachi is cute, so I think I’m actually bi. But I guess I’m kind of spoken for for now.”
Hinata giggled to. “I guess so.”