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'Tokidoki, hontou ni netai,' (I really want to sleep,)
Techno rolled over to where the alarm clock side is.12. AM. The alarm clock seemed like it was mocking Techno with its numbers. It wasn't unusual for Techno, though it bothered him. A lot. He really tried to calm down his mind, he really did. But the thoughts came back anyways. His Angel and Demon were fighting again.
Sleep.
Would they actually care if you died of sleep deprivation?
Close your eyes, don't open them.
I mean - you don't have to. Remember, you're the one who dug yourself into this hole.
And you can get out of it!
Only if you can ask for help. Oh right, you don't wanna be a burden..
Of course Demonblade made everything worse. Of course Techno believed it. Was it true?
…
He can never know.
Memories meant nothing to him. Only guilt. Great, now that thought was creeping up against him.
So many thoughts drowning himself from time. Too many. Who could've thought? Techno drowning in his own thoughts, not the good way.
Drowning, you say?
Why, why, why. He's created a monster inside himself already and it's growing, eating him up alive.
…
What is there to eat if it's already eaten? Nothing is left. Exactly, he's already been eaten alive by his own thoughts. It took over. He can't make it if he tried.
'I just wanna sleep', thought Techno, 'even the simplest of wishes don't even come true.. Or just my wishes.'
Losing more sleep every night, more and more. Sleepless nights became a thing, and falling asleep but then waking up three hours later and not falling back to sleep became another thing.
'Demo, kono waado dekinai.' (but I cannot.)
But as the voices say,
' Oyasumi,
Oyasumi
Oyasumi
Oyasumi.'
(Goodnight x4)
'Even the voices are telling me to sleep. But should I listen to them?' the boy in bed questioned.
…
'Probably should.'
It's dark in his room, besides the red light emitting from the alarm clock. It's like his mind, dark and only had thoughts.
Blurry. Is this sleep or death?
His eyes became heavy. It's black.
'Most definitely sleep.'
For Techno, that felt like an eternity. But in reality? Only five minutes has passed.
12:05 AM.
Oh how Techno was excited on how he's gonna wake up in a few hours.. Yay..
But hey, least he's getting sleep?