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ludus; love as a game
It started out as just fun for Changbin.
He enjoyed watching the way his little dongsaeng followed after him like a little lamb. Grabbing Changbin with his small hands whenever he could.
Felix was always so awestruck by him, looking at Changbin like he was a god or something. Even from the day they met Felix had already begun to hold him in such high regard.
And as for Changbin, he couldn’t help but let the boy be, secretly basking in the other’s obvious admiration.
So when Felix gets challenged on the show to make two people kiss, Changbin isn’t all that surprised he chooses him. Caught off guard, maybe. But the boy had been giving him the heart eyes so blatantly that even someone who wasn’t as observant as he was would have noticed.
Changbin himself just plays along. It’s funny, and he knows it would be good service for the fans.
It’s not like it was hard. Felix was not a bad looking guy. The kid was actually really, really cute.
When Changbin leans over to press his lips to Felix’s cheek, he can’t help but notice the boy’s excitement. Changbin keeps the peck brief, and when he quickly pulls away and falls over for the camera, he’s surprised by how easy it had actually been.
Felix, on the other hand, becomes a mess, screaming like a banshee and generally not being able to control himself.
His reaction makes Changbin curious.
As soon as he gets home Changbin pulls up the video. He watches he and Minho eat chicken by the Han river as Felix reads the little wooden block. This time Changbin takes him in. The look in his eye, the smile that stretches too wide on his face when Changbin kisses him. It gives Changbin pause.
He plays it over. And over and over again.
By the seventh time Changbin is almost certain, but he has to know for sure.
He knocks on Felix’s door that night. The others aren’t there, outside having dinner after Felix declined, saying he would stay in the dorm to study his Korean. Changbin made up some excuse about recording a verse when the others tried to invite him.
It’s just the two of them, now.
“Ah, hyung,” Felix says, opening the door after a few knocks to the sight of Changbin.
Now that he knows what to look for Changbin can’t help but notice Felix’s wide eyes, the way his fingers tremble slightly on the door frame.
He reaches over to grab his hand, making Felix jump.
“Hyung, what’s-“
Felix makes a noise at the back of his throat when Changbin wordlessly leans over to kiss him, soft and firm, the sound easily getting muffled by the press of Changbin’s lips against his.
Seconds pass before he pulls away. Felix’s face is so flushed, a pretty shade of red that Changbin wants to see all over him.
“Wha- what’d you do that for?,” Felix says, words slipping into English now that he’s flustered. Felix’s breathing is heavy but he doesn’t seem angry at all, and Changbin knows for sure now.
He smiles up at the younger boy.
“I just really like you.”
When the other doesn’t reply Changbin pulls him further inside the room, closing the door behind him with a ‘click’.