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May, 1989:
Sirius felt betrayed. Two hours back in London and bloody James Potter couldn’t stop talking about Lily Evans. This was weird. Sirius remembered clearly when his best friend said “I’ll never get married. Who needs love when I got you and Football”?
Traitor.
Sirius thought that going to Paris with his uncle Alphard would be the best experience. A year was all Sirius needed to realize his home was were James was. Sure, Sirius had met many gorgeous Parisians. Sirius had had the time of his life, partying all night, sleeping all day. And with the nasty influence of his uncle, Sirius had free will to be a naughty boy. If Walburga were to find out his eldest son waisted a year of French Education in party, sex and drugs; she would go absolutely mental. But Sirius had had enough. He had missed James like a lunatic, but apparently James hadn’t missed him that much.
Lily Best Friend Stealer Evans was all James cared about now.
“I can’t believe you replace me”
Sirius said making a pout. He looked like an absolute cool Rockstar with his black shades, black nail polish and tons and tons of jewelry. Hair flew with the wind as James drove them home.
James laughed. That kind of laughter he only used when he was really happy.
“I think I want to marry her Pads” James rubbed his hair.
Sirius simply sighed “You changed”
“Anyway, what is that look?”
“Parisian fashion!”
“You’re the one who changed Padfoot”
Padfoot was the nickname James had given him. His name literally meant Black Dog Star. The legend of Padfoot, a black dog demonic entity found primarily in the folklore of the British Isles. James’ favorite. Sirius decided to call him Prongs because after watching Bambi for the first time, James cried saying “I don’t care what anyone says, I’m gonna adopt Bambi”. Prongs was an evolution of “Papa Bambi”.
James. That cheesy bastard was blushing. Sirius looked at him.
“You mean that?” Sirius asked “You want to marry her?”
James sighed “I mean that”
Sirius swallowed “Fuck. I’ve lost my best friend”
James simply laughed. What a tosser.
“Just wait until you meet her Pads”
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Sirius met Lily and he was disappointed. He had tried to find a flaw, something horrible, a deep dark secret that could make James unfall in love with her and be back to be his best friend. But Lily was perfect. That girl was beautiful, smart, a badass. She was perfect for James. She controlled him, made him better, more mature. And damn, the way James looked at her was out of this planet. Sirius couldn’t ruin that.
Lily finally won Sirius over thanks to karaoke night. Sirius and Lily bonded over ABBA, Journey, Whitney Houston. And also, after four glasses of vodka and two shots of tequila.
Sirius also met Lily’s best friend. A bloke named Remus Lupin. Sirius almost laughed when they were introduced. He seemed that kind of nerd who dressed up like a librarian. He had a terrible posture; he was incredibly tall. And boring as fuck. Sirius tried not to pay him much attention.
The important thing was that Sirius had missed getting drunk and having fun with James. They partied for a long time.
They decided to walk home, nearly at 5 in the morning, to sober up. James and Sirius were singing at the top of their lungs “DON’T STOP ME NOW” and Sirius thought how much he missed James, how much Sirius needed James.
James turned to sing the “And I don’t want to stop at all” bit to Lily. She bit her lip smiling.
“You’re an idiot James Potter”
“Oh Lily, you’re so beautiful!” James moaned “I need to kiss you”
James was definitely drunk. Lily giggled before kissing him. Sirius sighed. He would have to get used to that. Sirius could tell the lad Remus was annoyed as well.
Eventually, James and Lily started snogging. Sirius thought they were going to be out of breath.
“Ehemm…” Remus cleared his throat “Lily I promised your mum I would take you home”
Lily hummed in response. Honestly her lips were glued to James’.
Sirius thought Remus was such a nerd. But he was right. Sirius wanted to go home.
“Prongs” he said “Oi! Prongs!”
James moved his hand in protest. He was too invested in that kiss.
Both Sirius and Remus sighed in response.
Sirius looked at Remus for the first time. Properly. He was cute. Maybe it was the alcohol or his horny drunk ass thinking that, but Remus was cute. Sirius was straight but he could totally appreciate a boy being cute. The Librarian Style was kind of hot. His hair looked particularly golden on the light. He had freckles, wow. That was cute. And his arms, they were crossed around his body as if he was cold.
Remus noticed that he was being watched.
“What?” he spatted angrily
“Your name means Werewolf McWerewolf, did you know that?”
Sirius was drunk. He said stupid things when he was drunk.
“And your name means Black Dog Star”
They looked at each other, unsure of what to do next.
“So…” a very flustered James said suddenly, making them brake eye contact “We are going home…”
James was holding Lily’s hand. Both were very red and happy.
“Finally!” Sirius rolled his eyes.
James snorted “I meant Lily and me… We are going home”
James looked down embarrassed. Lily bit her lip.
Oh fuck. They were going to have sex.
“Lily…” Remus began
“Please Rem. Just tell my mum that I would stay at yours” she smiled
Remus shook his head.
“Please!”
“Please” James added
“Fine!” Remus said
James and Lily giggled.
“What about me?” Sirius asked crossing his arms.
Sirius and James lived in a tiny apartment. Sirius could hear everything from James’ room. One time he heard him wanking. It was awkward. And ever since then, when they wanted to wank in peace, they would put loud music to cover it up. Sometimes Sirius was surprised of how much he knew James.
“Oh…” James said rubbing his neck
“You can stay with Remus” Lily suggested
“What?” Sirius and Remus asked at the same time
“I just met the guy!” Sirius added “He could be a serial killer”
“You’re the one that looks like a vandalist” Remus muttered
“Excuse me?”
“I can assure you Remus is the sweetest person” Lily said “He won’t hurt you”
“Yeah…” James added “You two are our best friends. You should get to know each other”
“And become best friends” Lily added
“James…”
“Lily…”
“Please Pads” James said “I will buy you dinner, I’ll be your slave, whatever you want…”
Bloody horny wankers they were already walking away.
“Prongs….” Sirius pleaded.
“Lily no…” Remus cried
“Thank you, darlings” Lily giggled.
“I owe you one, mate” James whispered.
Before they could do anything, James carried Lily on his arms. The girl laughing at the top of her lungs. They walked away
“James!”
“Lily!”
But they disappeared at the end of the street.
Fuck. Sirius was definitely sober now.
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Remus began walking frustrated. Sirius immediately followed clueless on what else to do. He didn’t have anywhere to stay. James was his only friend in London. And there was no way, Sirius would stay with his mother. The woman was a nightmare. Sirius hadn’t seen her in years, not since…
Remus walked fast and Sirius tried to keep up.
When they finally got to Remus’ door inside an old building, Remus turned to look at him.
“I only do this because I’m a nice person and I’m not gonna let you sleep on the street”
“Emm…. Thanks”
Remus sighed “Welcome to the Lupin residence”
Remus opened the door.
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Remus offered Sirius tea. Sirius accepted.
While Remus was making the tea, Sirius got a glance of the place. It was a tiny flat. Kitchen and a living room. And on the corner, a hall which lead to one room and one bathroom. Remus was a bloody collector of books. He had tons. And the place was very organized and clean. Yeah, this lad was a nerd.
“Tea” Remus said giving Sirius a cup.
Sirius took it.
“Thanks”
There was an awkward silence after that.
“I just want to clear something up” Remus broke the ice “I’m not having sex with you”
Sirius almost choked with his tea.
Sirius laughed. Remus smiled amused.
“Oh, don’t worry” he said “I’m not gay…. Are you?”
Remus smiled “Yeah. But I am in love”
“Really? With who?”
Remus pointed to a poster on the wall. There was a man with his eyes closed. Red hair, makeup and a lighting paint on his face.
“Who is that?”
Remus opened his mouth offended “Don’t tell me you don’t know David Bowie”
Sirius raised his shoulders.
Remus gasped “Okay Black” he put his cup down “You’re about to be Bowieducated”
“Oh…” Sirius hissed “That’s the nerdiest thing I’ve heard”
“I’m sorry Mr. Cool and sophisticated” Remus responded sarcastically.
Remus took an album from his self. Sirius sighed of course he was that kind of nerd that kept old records because “It sounds cooler”
“Of course, you have a record player” Sirius rolled his eyes
“Shut up” Remus said putting the record in.
A delicious tune began playing. Remus sway around and sang along.
“There's a starman waiting in the sky. He'd like to come and meet us. But he thinks he'd blow our minds… Oh hey! It is your song. Star Man”
“Shut up Werewolf McWerewolf” Sirius smirked.
Remus Lupin was not so bad. He still was a complete nerd. But in a good way. Sirius didn’t know that was possible.
Remus sat back down whistling the tune.
“David Bowie” he sighed
“Do you want to know what I have?” Sirius asked raising an eyebrow
“I terrible taste in music?”
“Ha, ha…..” he rolled his eyes “No this”
Sirius showed a joint he had been reserving to smoke with James. But fuck James. Prongs was a complete traitor.
Remus smiled in complicity.
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“I think David Bowie just winked at me”
Sirius didn’t know how many hours passed. All he knew was that he was high. And Remus Lupin was his new best friend. Fuck James.
Sirius started giggling.
“Bloody Grandpa music”
“You insult Bowie, you sleep on the street”
Remus laughed and Sirius laughed as well. In fact, he was really liking Bowie’s music. It was pretty cool. But he made a mental note that he would never say that to Remus.
“You know, when Lily talked about you” Remus began “I thought you were a complete tosser with a huge ego. And I completely hated you”
For what Sirius found out, Remus and Lily had been best friends since they were fifteen. Long time neighbors or something. But went to different schools. Remus studied Literature Major in a local University. Sirius didn’t tell him he waisted his studies in Paris. Remus was impressed Sirius had “studied” in France. Sirius loved impressing people and something told him Remus was very hard to impress.
“Thank you so much” Sirius said sarcastically offended
“But I guess you’re not that bad”
Sirius smiled. Sirius had never had a friend so different from him. James and him were platonic soulmates. But Sirius liked the idea of having a dork friend.
“And I first believed you were complete boring nerd…. I still do”
Remus snorted
“But you’re not bad yourself, Lupin”
Remus smiled. Then he closed his eyes enjoying the music. Only a nerd with a werewolf name would do that.
“I think we should tell James and Lily that we load each other. Just to piss them off”
Remus laughed “Deal. And… revenge”
“Revenge!” Sirius yelled putting his fist on the air.
Remus laughed “You’re so bloody weird”
“Speak for yourself”
Sirius and Remus laughed even more.
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October, 1994:
“Honestly I am a good old soul. I love the good old classics”
Sirius used his best smile to flirt. He knew exactly what it provoked on girls. Sirius just went for bloody coffee this morning in his favorite place Honey dukes. And this girl (Jessica?) spilled her drink over him. Sirius knew it had been in purpose. He had seen her giggling with her friend before. Luckily for Sirius it wasn’t a hot drink. It was easy to talk to her and before he knew it, there he was third coffee cup and this girl was totally into him. It was the Black’s perfect bone structure; he would tell James.
“You’re totally lying!” the girl said. She was biting her lip to avoid smiling
“I’m not!”
Sirius was getting closer. It was working. She didn’t protest.
“Which classics?”
“David Bowie”
Shit. Moony would totally kill him. Moony had been the nickname Remus acquired after five years of friendship. Sirius thought of it while he was drunk, they were outside and he and James had made fun of Werewolf McWerewolf. Remus had used a lot his middle finger that night. Anyway, Bowie was his and only his. Well, Remus didn’t need to know…
“I like him!” the girl smiled “What’s your favorite song?”
“Easy. Starman!” It was the only bloody song Sirius knew the name of. Remus constantly said it was Sirius’ song.
It totally worked, and before Sirius knew it. The girl and him were fully snogging on his bed. Luckily James no longer lived there. Sirius made a mental note to think Remus and his Bowie later.
Sirius phone rang. Sirius sighed, immediately hating the person who called him.
“I’m just going to ignore it” he said
“Good, now kiss me Black”
Sirius did. Things were getting heat. But the phone was ringing and ringing again.
Jessica sighed “Just answer it and get it over with”
“Fine”
Sirius rolled over to pick up the phone on his night desk.
“Hello?”
“Mr. Sirius Black?” a man said in the other side on the line.
“Yeah?” Sirius raised an eyebrow.
“This is London Police. I’m sorry to inform you, a terrible accident just occurred with Mr. James Potter’s vehicle…”
Sirius stopped listening after that. He didn’t excuse himself with the girl. He took his motorbike and left.
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When Sirius arrived to the Police station, his heart was pounding on his chest. Remus was already there. He looked so small, so little with tears on his eyes.
Sirius was out of breath.
“Sirius!” Remus exclaimed noticing him.
“Remus what happened? Where are James and Lily?”
They had to be safe, right?
Remus shook his head crying.
Sirius’ world stopped. There must be some sort of explanation, of mistake.
“No” Sirius snorted “I’m pretty sure James is okay… JAMES?” he yelled around “JAMES POTTER?”
“Sirius…” Remus whispered
“James is okay…. Lily as well… They are okay…”
Then why he felt a knot on his throat? Why did Sirius feel an inexplicably amount of pain?
“And Harry? Is Harry okay?”
The boy was only one year old. Sirius loved that little Bambi so much. They always joked saying Sirius was Harry’s favorite person in the world.
“Yeah Harry is okay” Remus sniffed.
Remus grabbed his arm, gently.
“Remus…” Sirius pleaded “James and Lily…”
“They are dead” Remus’ voice was very small
“No…” Sirius shook his head. But he was already crying.
“I’m sorry Pads” Remus cried as well
“Moony…” he cried “Please not James… Not James and Lily…”
Remus hugged him as Sirius’ world collapsed. He sobbed on his shoulder. The world was horrible, the world was bad. The world was dark without James and Lily.