Archive of Our Own

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During the first ever Sleepy Bois meetup, Tommy couldn’t find an opportunity to bring up what he had designated as Topic One.

Living in their house, only a few blocks away from the Brighton pier and the beach, was a dream come true. Especially considering their wonderful Christmas, and the snow, and how absolutely everything couldn’t have gone more right, he was hesitant to dampen the mood.

That was when he’d split it up into three topics. Topic One was woven into their gift opening ceremony.

“So, the second gift - which is really just a gift for myself- but, um. There’s a New years celebration that my extended family does every year. We all get together and do the sparklers and eat and watch movies.” Tommy looked up, face warm. “I want you to be there. I’m inviting you.”

Topic One had been well-received with Wilbur, thank fuck, but that still wasn’t all. Topic Two came up as they stood side-by-side and drew dicks on cookies.

“Umm, Wilbur.” Tommy began, shifting his weight from foot to foot.

Wilbur turned to look at him, handing him another few cookies to place on the tray. “Yeah?” He responded casually, eyebrows furrowed slightly in concern. As he received no answer, he asked tenderly, “What’s up, Tommy?”

Tommy picked up the icing piper, giving him a reassuring smile. “See, the thing is…” Wilbur nodded. He took a deep breath. “My family are super overprotective,” Tommy began firmly. “My mum is the youngest of her siblings, and the Simons’ - it’s like a cult, I swear, and she kept her name and shit. So…”

He paused again, colouring in the outline nervously. Realising that Tommy was avoiding eye contact, Wilbur went back to decorating a slight-burnt cookie with a hum.

“We have this- tradition. Where, um, whenever somebody is in, like, a serious relationship? Yeah, when any of my cousins have been near engaged, we’ve invited them to a New Year’s to ‘evaluate’ them.”

Wilbur glanced up at him, a smile tugging at his lips. “I think I see where this is going.”

Tommy laughed nervously. “Yeah. So my aunt caught wind that I’m moving out of home in a few months, and that it’s with a bunch of online friends who are guys way older than me, and she wants me to bring someone.”

“I see how it would sound dodgy, from an outsider’s perspective.” Wilbur agreed kindly.

“What I’m trying to say is that you don’t have to come if you don’t want to. They probably won’t be extremely welcoming at first, cause that’s part of the strat - intimidate you into messing up.”

Wilbur placed his hand on the back of Tommy’s neck, letting the physical contact anchor them both. “I’d be happy to come and get bullied by your extended family. If it means you can stay with us, I’m happy.

Tommy blew out a breath, relieved. “Okay. Good. Great, actually, I’ll message the fuckin- the Whatsapp groupchat. There’s a Whatsapp groupchat, by the way.” he added as an afterthought. “You can probably join if you pass.”

“If I-” Wilbur blinked. “Hold on. How can they tell if I pass or not?”

“It's, uh, it’s pretty intense. They end up voting, although Grandma Simons always gets the last say.”

Wilbur hesitated. “Should I, like… prepare?”

Tommy snorted. “Absolutely not. There’s no way to prepare for my family.” He seemed to notice Wilbur’s clear anxiety and softened. “Don’t worry, they’ll love you. Be yourself, man.”

“I’ve heard that before,” Wilbur mused, tugging Tommy into a spontaneous hug. “Usually that means ‘be overpolite’.”

“I’m pretty sure Aunt Tinnie would stab you if you were overpolite,” Tommy mumbled into Wilbur’s shirt.

There was a pause. “...what the fuck am I getting into?”

Tommy laughed. “Wait and fucking see.”

8======D

Wilbur ran a hand through his hair as he approached the stairs to the house he’d become familiar with over the past however long. Tommy’s mother answered the door as soon as he knocked, immediately stepping aside to let him in. “William! Come inside, darling.”

As Wilbur leaned down to hug her, he couldn’t help but smile. “Hi, Sarah. How are you going with decorations, and shit? Do you need any help?” he asked as he pulled away.

Sarah beamed at him. “You’re such a sweetheart. Don’t worry, we’re going great, Paul is having a fucken’ breakdown trying to mentally prepare himself for my relatives. We’re a lot.”

Wilbur threw his head back with a laugh. “I’ve heard that, actually.” he responded, amused and just a little bit afraid, before remembering what was in his hands. He pushed the bouquet of red wattle flowers towards her, along with a bottle of wine.

“Oh, thank you, honey! These are wonderful.” she smelled them. “Ooh, yes. Paul, honey,” she shouted suddenly, making Wilbur jump. “Could I please have a vase? For fuckin’- flowers?”

A vague noise of distress responded from where FatherInnit was having his breakdown. Sarah rolled her eyes, waving a hand to dismiss him. “He’ll be fine.”

Only then did Tommy come downstairs, bounding over to hug Wilbur.

Wilbur reciprocated the hug, looking away from Sarah for a moment to wrap an arm around his waist. His eyes caught on Tommy’s hands, nervously twisting into Wilbur’s sweater, and how he was hiding his face, and he frowned lightly. That was never a good sign.

Shooting Sarah a look of concern, he reached down and gently pried Tommy’s hands from the fabric of his sweater, intertwining their fingers instead. Sarah shook her head slightly - leave it alone.

Wilbur understood. If Tommy wanted to tell him something, he would.

Tommy ducked out of his arms, slipping a little bit into his persona. Another habit meaning stress stress stress stress. “Okay, we have two options. The relatives will start arriving in half an hour, so we can either have the awkward small talk while they arrive, or go out for dinner and come back when the party’s in full swing.”

“Uhh- how awkward small talk, are we thinking?”

Tommy sniggered. “Yeah, let’s just go out. I know a really good bagel place nearby, c’mon.”

Wilbur rolled his eyes. “Alright, grab your shit, I’ll just wait outside.” He gave Tommy a side-grin, hugged Sarah again, and left to sit outside on the front steps.

It was surprisingly loud, the longer he sat. A cockatoo swooped overhead and actively tried to shit on him, bees hummed around one specific tree, the sun’s last ditch efforts to stay relevant faded over the horizon, and his mind wandered to the lavender bush in the backyard. It had felt so strange, the first time he’d gone over to Tommy’s place, to see so much domesticity in everything - the well-loved garden, the old books on the shelf, the little rack to kick off your shoes.

He was reminded of reality when he heard voices inside. Normally, his first instinct would be to block his ears and hum a song and pointedly drop no eaves, but he heard the quiet tension in Tommy’s voice, and he listened.

“-think I’ll tell him, while we’re out. If that’s - if that’s alright, yeah?” Tommy asked, nerves in his every word. Wilbur could picture him shuffling, swallowing thickly, playing with the drawstring on his hoodie.

“Of course, Tom.” Sarah responded firmly. “Your choice, honey.” A quiet pause, in which they must’ve hugged. “Love youse.”

Footsteps approached. Wilbur closed his eyes and held his chin on his hands, elbows propped on his knees.

“Love youse,” Sarah repeated, a little more aggressively this time.

The footsteps paused. “Love you too, Mum.” Tommy grumbled, sounding flustered. “See you in a minute.”

Wilbur didn’t move as Tommy opened the door, forcing his posture to relax as a smile spread on his face. “Ayup, king.” Wilbur held up an arm. “Help me up, will ya?”

Tommy grasped his hand, providing an equal amount of resistance for Wilbur to pull himself up by.

Pretending that he’d heard none of their conversation, Wilbur grinned. “Lead the way, brother o’ mine.”

8======D

It was only as they sat in the car (can’t get recognised if you dont go outside), all bagels finished off, that Tommy breached Topic Three. He started, eloquently, with “So.”

Wilbur immediately glanced up at him, concern carved into his features. “Hey,” he spoke softly. “What’s been bothering you, man?”

Tommy rubbed a hand up and down his arm. “Uhh… just a thing. I wanted to…” he hesitated, thinking everything through. “I wanted to warn you,” he settled, nodding to himself. “Because there’s actually a reason why my family are so overprotective, with inviting you to our New Year’s.”

Clearing his throat, he sat up straighter. “My dad isn’t my biological dad,” he said bluntly. “I’ve always called him my father, and he is my father, because even before he was dating Mum, he was always around? Like, he platonically co-parented me, and then they started dating and shit and got married when I was six.”

Wilbur blinked, taking a moment to let his mind reconcile with his newfound knowledge. “Okay.” He held out a hand to Tommy, palm facing up, and Tommy took it. “I’m guessing that’s not the whole story?”

Tommy’s fidgeting increased by a million. “No. So the way I was born-” he took a deep breath and muttered something to himself. “N- no. Yeah. So I was born because- one of me mum’s boyfriends-”

Squeezing his hand tighter, Wilbur assured, “It’s alright, man. Breathe. You don’t have to tell me anything, but I’m gonna listen either way, yeah?”

Tommy nodded, letting his eyes flutter shut. Wilbur had rarely seen him acting this anxious before, and his chest continued to heave at near-hyperventilating speeds. “This guy forced himself on her, and that’s how I was born.”

A tense pause let his words almost echo before the world was tipped upside down. Wilbur’s stomach dropped, and his throat closed up, and his heart broke a little bit for him. For Tommy. For his pseudo-brother, wiping away a tear and trying to pretend that he wasn’t bothered by the words coming out of his mouth.

The story wasn’t finished, he realised, but had trailed into a ramble. “-aren’t anti-abortion or anything, but it was fucking taboo, and mum said it wasn’t personally for her, but it’s still a fucking lot to have to-”

Tommy cut off as Wilbur leaned over the gearstick to wrap him in a hug. He froze at first, startled, but quickly sunk into it, burying his face (and tears) in the crook of Wilbur’s neck.

Wilbur’s embrace surrounded him, like the endless ocean enveloping a sailing boat. Tommy gasped for air, entire body shuddering with poorly-suppressed sobs, and balled his fists into Wilbur’s sweater once again. They stayed like that for and entire minute to let his breathing slow, Wilbur resting his cheek on the top of Tommy’s head, as a quiet feeling of contentment settled over them like a weighted blanket.

There was no sound but them, a bubble of peace filling the car in it's entirety.

“You’re fucking amazing, Tom,” Wilbur murmured finally, the words feeling much louder than they were as they broke through the silence. “And if anybody doesn’t see that, they don’t fucking deserve you.”

Tommy started to tense, but relaxed the more Wilbur spoke. “Thanks, Wil.” He whispered. “And thanks for being… nice, an’ shit.”

Wilbur’s arms tightened around him, but he didn’t say anything, just falling back into their comfortable quiet. Eventually, he shifted a little bit with a groan.

“The gearstick if trying to kill me, I fucking swear,” Wilbur muttered as he untangled their limbs. He smiled shakily at Tommy as he sat back. Suddenly, his face went slack, and he clapped a hand over his mouth. “Oh, no. Tommy-”

Tommy’s head jerked up in concern, only to see that Wilbur was repressing giggles. Mirth danced in his eyes. “Fuck, Tommy - Phil’s the only one in Sleepy Bois who doesn’t have daddy issues.”

Tommy took a moment to think before he burst out laughing alongside him, leaning back into his chair. “Shit, that’s - you’re so right,” he choked out, doubling over. “He really is Dadza- holy fuck, this is perfect.”

It took far too long for their hysterics to fade into hiccups and giggles. Tommy reached across Wilbur without warning to steal his keys and turn the car on.

“What - why did you do that?” Wilbur asked, perplexed.

Tommy’s ears reddened slightly. “I wanted to check the time.”

Wilbur’s shoulders shook with silent laughter. “And your phone wasn’t an option because…?”

“Shut the fuck up, Wilmbur Scoot. It’s past eight pm, anyways, we should head off.”

Rolling his eyes, Wilbur turned on the engine and reached for his seatbelt. “Alright, buckle up fucko, we’re diving headfirst into a socially terrifying scenario.”

8======D

The moment Tommy pushed open the front door, a wave of chatter swept over them from further in. Wilbur’s eyebrows shot up his head. “That- either you’re all really loud or there’s half of Nottingham in your living room.”

Tommy grinned at him, clearly elated. “Are you kidding? The chaos is the best part of New Year’s Eve.” He grabbed Wilbur’s arm to drag them into the living room, but Wilbur tugged back and slowed him to a stop.

“Do you wanna wash out your eyes first?” he offered with an apologetic grin. “We wouldn’t want to have a bunch of people thinking I made you cry.”

Tommy’s excitement dampened slightly, and he chuckled nervously. “Right. This way, then.”

They turned a sharp left up the carpeted stairs, avoiding the entire mob of people in the process. Tommy switched on the light of the bathroom as he stepped in, quickly splashing water over his face and drying himself off.

He turned to Wilbur, summoning a grin. “How do I look?”

Wilbur gave him a quick glance up-and-down. Just his black Dream hoodie and jeans. “You look great,” he approved with a mini-thumbs-up, unable to resist the urge to add cheekily, “although you’d look better if you brushed this mop on your head.”

He reached out to ruffle it affectionately, pretending to get his hand stuck in it. “Where the fuck do you find this shit? If I ever need to mop up anything, I know who I should call-”

Tommy slapped his hand away. “Go fuck yourself, Will.” he grumbled, running a hand through his hair a couple of times to fix it before clearly giving up. Wilbur grinned, then faltered anxiously as he remembered why he was there.

Tommy seemed to soften and bumped their shoulders together. “Nervous?” Shit. That kid was too observant for his own good.

Wilbur shrugged, hands in his jean pockets. “Just a little.”

“Let’s go down.” Tommy said gently, pulling on Wilbur’s arm to intertwine their fingers. “I promise you’ll be fine. And if they say anything mean, I’ll clart them. Yeah?”

Smiling to himself, Wilbur squeezed his hand once before letting go. “I believe you, Tom.” He responded simply.

“Great,” Tommy shot him a mischievous grin, and they moved to head downstairs-

A voice cut in, “Alright, what the fuck are you twats doing not immediately coming to say hi?”

8======D

“Sister Sarah!” Tinnie cheered, wrapping her not-so-little-anymore sister in a tight hug. The newcomer was a plump, middle-aged woman wearing a mid-length swishy skirt paired with a denim jacket, of all things. “Oh, my love, we’ve been separated for so long!”

Sarah laughed at her antics, returning the embrace enthusiastically. “I weep for joy to see your lovely face once again, you beloved bitch.”

Tinnie pulled away to hold her at arm’s length, face going solemn. “I hear your world-famous son has finally brought home a candidate for bullying,” she spoke emotionlessly, a little twinkle in her eyes.

Sarah threw her head back in a laugh. “Don’t make that joke in front of Tom, he might try to clart you for insulting Will. They’re like brothers, honestly, the fucken’ arsewads. It’s sickening how soft they are.”

Humming, Tinnie asked, “Does that mean you’re gonna give him your vote of approval? You know yours counts as double since you already know him,” she pointed out.

“Of course I am!” Sarah responded, seeming almost offended that anybody could consider otherwise. “They may not be romancing, but I swear they love each other more than Romeo and Juliet.”

“Not a good example, honey, they were obsessed with each other and both died.”

“They love each other more than Romeo and Mercutio,” Sarah amended.

Tinnie whistled (decidedly ignoring that they, too, both die by the end of the play). “Big claim, big claim. They here yet?”

Sarah nodded. “They just ducked upstairs for a bit. I think Tommy told Wilbur about - ya know - all The Shit.” she waved a hand vaguely, but Tinnie immediately understood.

“Alright. I’m gonna go fuck with them.” she decided. Before Sarah could disagree, she dashed away, and poked around upstairs to find her nephew standing in the bathroom with some tall arsehole.

Tinnie put her hands on her hips, pursing her lips to glare at Tommy. “Alright, what the fuck are you twats doing not immediately coming to say hi?”

Tommy jumped and turned to face her, lighting up immediately and bounding over like a puppy to hug her. He had to bend over to properly reach her. Horrible, truly.

“Aunt Tinnie!” he beamed as he stepped back. “Fuck, man, it’s great to see you again.”

“Lovely to see you too, hun.” she spoke half-mindedly, checking over his so-called ‘brother’ appraisingly. Knitted warm yellow sweater, jeans and sneakers, hair falling in his eyes and round, golden-rimmed glasses.

He waved shyly. “Hi, I’m Will. It’s great to meet you.”

Tinnie rolled her eyes and grabbed his hand to shake it instead. “Call me Tinnie. I don’t know how I got the nickname, it just happened.”

‘Will’ gave a bemused laugh, albeit a genuine one. “Don’t worry, I understand. My birth certificate says William, and somehow all of my primary school friends called me Wilbur. It’s kind of my name, now.”

Tinnie nodded at Tommy. “I like him. Good job. I’m going to kidnap him.”

Will’s eyebrows shot up his head. “Uh- alright, this is fine,” he sighed, letting himself get dragged along with a resigned little ‘goodbye’ to Tommy. Tinnie took him downstairs into Sarah’s study, where she knew they could talk in peace.

“Alright. Who are the other two fucks moving in with you, and how can I trust you?” she asked, sitting in Sarah’s seat. All around them were bookshelves, although they appeared to hold more photos and trophies and random shit than books.

Will blinked. “Straight to the point. Okay.” he paused, leaning against the doorframe like a twat, before nodding to himself. “Alright. I’m Wilbur, our other friends are Philza and Technoblade - real names Phillip and Dave, although we don’t call them that.”

“Why do you have fake names, then?” she interrupted rudely.

Now, just an interlude. Tinnie knew that her interrogation may seem unnecessary to many, but she also knew that this was the best way to get information quick. She’d done that to one of Sarah’s boyfriends (before Paul had been anything more than a close friend) and he’d admitted to not having a particular commitment - just using Sarah as a way to pass the time.

Interrogation was by far the most efficient method, and considering the circumstances of Tommy’s birth, it couldn’t hurt to throw in some extra aggression.

“Well, they aren’t so much ‘fake’ names as the ones we use online,” Will explained, looking a little afraid but not worried, which was good. “Same reason we don’t call Tommy ‘Tom’ most of the time - it’s not his screen name.”

“So why should I trust you? If all you care about is his screen name-”

“What?” For the first time, Will looked genuinely shocked by her words. “That’s not it at all! It’s just the same as your family calling you Tinnie. Of course I care about Toms, he’s an absolute sweetheart and one of my best friends in the world. I could talk about how wonderful he is for hours.”

Tinnie gave him a look. (She was very approving of how protective Will seemed, but the intimidation tactics could not let up for a second.) “Okay. Tell me about why you aren’t going to do anything… bad to Tommy. He’s in a vulnerable place, moving in with three adults from online.”

“Well, first of all, that’d be a fucking shitty thing to do,” he responded darkly, “if you’re hinting at what I think you’re hinting at. It’s disgusting to take advantage of anybody, let alone that ball of sunshine.

“Second of all, from a purely logical point of view,” Will grimaced. “This isn’t how I feel, but… doing anything gross would mean less content. Tommy wouldn't make content with me, and if he told people - which I fucking hope he would - I would lose all of my fame in an instant. Literally, he has such a large following, could crash my career with a few words if he wanted to. Cancel culture is honestly a bit of an issue, but in this case-”

Will seemed to catch himself, ears a little bit red as he realised how loudly he’d been talking.

That, of all things, was the final straw that let Tinnie finally trust this boy. He was so genuine in everything he did - shy but not too polite, sweet but not overly flattering, passionate but not drowning out those around him or putting on a front. Plus, when he’d complimented Tommy, his eyes had been alight with adoration.

She relaxed a little bit, rolling her shoulders back. “Alright, you’re fine. Tell me about Phillip.”

Will looked confused at the sudden personality flip, but once again wracked his mind for words. They spoke for a few more minutes, Will gesticulating and joking as he settled a bit more. They went to call Phil at one point, pausing when they realised he was live, and watched some of the stream instead.

“He’s younger than me,” she had complained. “How the fuck does he act so much like a dad? I didn’t even realise my lack of a father figure until I heard him!”

“Me neither,” Will admitted, smiling. “That’s just the Philza charm.”

He described Techno, talking about his humour that was so deadpan and yet so expressive that it never failed to make them laugh. He talked about their Minecraft server, about the stories of their characters, and although she didn’t understand a lot of the lingo (Twitch, twitter, trending, other things beginning with a ‘T’), she found herself smiling.

Will had this natural charisma that just drew her nearer magnetically, and she was struck with the realisation that this was how he had such a wide audience. The more they spoke, the closer she found herself to making a final decision that she would vote for his approval.

Before that, she had to see one last thing.

They left Sarah’s study to join the group, and she saw Will’s trepidation about talking to all thirty of the Simons’ that were there so far. At first glance that could be seen as not wanting to be judged, but she could see how much he didn’t want to mess this up for Tommy.

Speaking of - the moment Tommy was in sight, all of Will’s fears seemed to melt away like snow in the Sahara. They seemed so purely happy to be near each other, no matter if they were living in peace or if the world was crumbling down around them.

She clapped Will on the back and said softly, “You have my vote.”

Will perked up, instantly glad. “Actually? Just like that?”

Tinnie laughed. “Well, you’ll find that I’m the most forward with this all, even though we’re all quite protective of our own. But,” she dropped her voice to say, “I saw first-hand how much of an impact ‘The Shit’ had on Sarah in the past. I won’t let the same thing happen to Tom, and if it does, I will use Twitter or whatever the fuck to make sure nobody wants to talk to you again. Understood?”

Will smiled wryly. “If I let the same thing happen to Tom, I’d do that myself.”

Tommy was wading through the group to reach them, a toddler attached to each leg. “You guys are so heavy,” he complained, trying to pull one of them off. They giggled and stayed there, so Tommy rolled his eyes. “Okay. Time’s up, girls, you need to get the fuck away from me before I tell your dads that I heard you say the ‘shit’ word.”

The toddler on the left squealed, tackling her sister so that they could run and weave through the crowds. A few shouts arose as people nearly tripped over them, and Tommy jogged up to Will with a puff and relieved grin. “You’re alright! I thought Tinnie would’ve killed you by now,” he laughed.

“I didn’t expect you to be good with children, Tom. I guess like attracts like,” he teased, returning the hug before letting him go. Tinnie slid right into easy conversation with them, exchanging quips and dry comments until the three of them were finding it hard to breathe.

Thankfully, their lungs were saved by the ring of a doorbell.

8======D

Benjamin bounced on the balls of his feet as he rang the doorbell. He hadn’t been available for the last New Year’s, and as such hadn’t seen Tom in two years now. Even with the four year age gap between them, they had always felt the closest of all the cousins, and he was ready to beat the crap out of this Will fellow as a warning.

Not that he was strong, though. He fell on the short and skinny end of the spectrum, so that fight would probably end up going totally wrong if he picked it. He’d do it anyway; self-preservation instincts were for losers.

Uncle Paul opened the door with a cheer, giving him a quick hug. “Benji! Wonderful to see you, my favourite nephew. Shit, you’re twenty-two now, aren’t ya?”

Benjamin stepped into the house with a grin, taking everything in like a spot-the-difference. “I’m as immature as always, don’t even worry. Nothing’s really changed since I left, innit?” he glanced back. “Except Tom’s moving out, and all. What are your thoughts on this Will fellow?” he inquired. The least subtle subject change, maybe ever.

Paul shrugged, shutting the door. “I wouldn’t shoot him if I had a gun,” he began.

“High praise,” Benjamin noted sarcastically, shrugging off his jacket. “You might be the most bloodthirsty person I know. I mean, are you gonna vote for him?”

“Yeah, ‘course.” Uncle Paul responded. “Wilbur’s a lovely chap, honestly, he’s made his care for Tom really clear. It’s impossible not to see it.”

“What about Freddie and Eryn?” Benjamin questioned, a little bit worried. His cousin didn’t have the most amazing history with making and keeping friends, despite his outgoing personality. “He still in contact with ‘em?”

“Yeah, yeah, about as much as all his online friends, these days.’

Benjamin frowned slightly. How did Tom make so many friends online? How much could he have changed in barely two years since seeing him?

They came to the entrance of the living room, where almost everybody turned to greet Benjamin with enthusiastic hugs and stupid jokes of abandonment. Tom was one of the last to get there, hanging back until the others let go before pulling Benjamin into a hug.

“I’m finally taller than you,” Tom teased as he moved away.

Benjamin scoffed. “Not my fault my parents are shorter than life.” He scanned the crowd for that one unfamiliar face, so that he could square up to them-

His jaw dropped. He blindly fumbled for Tommy’s arm. “Tom. Mate. Do my eyes deceive me, or is that Wilbur Soot?”

Tom looked at him, shocked, then buried his face in his hands. “Fuck.”

Benjamin exhaled shakily, somehow knowing the answer but wanted to hear it from the horse’s mouth. “Tom, why is Wilbur Soot in your house?”

“I, uh, may have forgotten to tell you something-” Tom stuttered.

Benji looked at him incredulously. “Yeah, I think you might’ve.” He spoke with his voice many octaves higher than usual. He was suddenly aware of his heart thumping and hands sweating, as the urge to fanboy came over him. He hadn’t even watched minecraft youtube since SMPLive, why was this such a big deal to him?

“So.” Tom rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. “You know how I was really into making this youtube channel?”

Benjamin sucked in a breath. “It actually worked? You- you got big enough for Wilbur bloody Soot, next you’ll be telling me that Jschlatt collabed with you-”

Tom laughed nervously. “Yeah, no, that’d be ridiculous, right?”

Benjamin continued to gape at him. “Give me the channel name.” He looked it up, suddenly wordless as he scrolled through his phone. “You have millions of followers on Twitch and Youtube. What the heck, Tom, this is so cool!” he grinned. He looked over to where Wilbur Soot was chatting with Aunt Tinnie, looking far too casual in their house. “Can you introduce me?”

“What, like Jane Austen?” Tom snorted. “Yeah, let’s go.”

They wove their way through the crowd of thirty, Benjamin feeling more and more apprehensive as they got closer.

Tom slapped Wilbur’s arm to get his attention, and Tinnie drifted away to bully Paul. “Okay. Wil, this is my cousin Benji,” he hesitated, floundering for words, before landing on- “The one who introduced me to Schlatt’s videos?”

Wilbur raised his eyebrows at Tom. “You- you didn’t think to warn him?” Wilbur Soot, talking to his cousin. Actually what was happening.

Wilbur Soot, the man, the myth, the legend, the dirty crimeboy himself, turned to Benjamin with a grin and an outstretched hand. “Ayup, lovely to meet you.”

Benjamin’s mouth opened and shut for a moment before he took the handshake. “Yep. Hi. It’s great to- uh, pardon my confusion, but I didn’t even know that Tom was still streaming until thirty seconds ago. How did you two…?”

Wilbur laughed. “Well, he kind of bullied my editor into letting me onto this SMP I made - you know SMPEarth?”

“I’ve heard of it,” Benjamin realised. “Oh, holy crap, I’ve heard of it. I’m pretty sure I’ve heard my friends talking about TommyInnit! For goodness’ sake, this is so weird.”

Tom giggled nervously, patting him on the back. “Yeah, I had a straight-up mental breakdown after I first talked to him.”

Benjamin shot him a look. “And who are the other two people you’re moving in with? They can’t also be famous, right?”

When Tom was too flustered to respond, Wilbur Soot cut in, “Philza Minecraft - the hardcore guy, with a five year world? Yeah, him. And Technoblade, who did the potato wars and the skywars streak.”

Benjamin just stood there for a moment, too shocked to process, before calmly walking towards the nearest wall and hitting his head against it. Tommy barked out a shocked laugh, running over to try and pull him away. “No- no, Benji, don’t- Benji-” Benjamin groaned and knocked his forehead into Tom’s collarbone instead.

He heard a quiet chuckle from a few metres away, and his mind blanked unhelpfully. Holy heck, Wilbur Soot just laughed at my joke.

“I still can’t believe you forgot to tell him, Tommy,” Wilbur giggled.

Tommy whacked his arm. “Shut the fuck up, man. It’s not the kind of thing that regularly passes my mind. Plus, how was I meant to bring that up? ‘Oh by the way I’m friends with this guy we both used to watch’, fuck off.”

Benjamin moved away as he scoffed. “I agree with Wilbur, a little mental-preparation time would’ve been much appreciated.” A thought entered his mind, without any prior indication, and he stopped where he stood.

“Holy crap, I need to message Mat.” He realised, pulling out his phone. He spammed them immediately, not even ashamed at the onslaught of notifications his spouse must be getting.

Mat responded by calling him. Benjamin glanced up at Tommy, raising his eyebrows for a moment, before answering and putting them on speaker. “What the fuck do you want, Benji, I’m eating a tub of ice cream right now, I’m a little busy.”

“I’m in a conversation with Wilbur Soot… who is moving in with my cousin… who has millions of subscribers, apparently.”

“Oh, bullshit, mate.” Hovering in the background, Tommy and Wilbur burst into poorly-suppressed giggles. “You know babe, if you wanted to call me, all you had to do was ask.”

Tommy’s laughter got even louder. “Mayb- Benji, try- fucken-” he couldn’t talk because of how overwhelming his laughs were.

Wilbur clapped him on the shoulder and whispered theatrically, “I think Tom’s trying to tell you to turn on video call.” Tom nodded, wiping away a stray tear as trying desperately to control his breathing.

Benjamin grinned. “Who am I to deny Wilbur Soot?” he responded cheekily.

He could all but hear Mat’s playful frown on the other end. “Benji, honey, are you cheating on me with somebody who isn’t Wilbur Soot? I’m honestly ashamed. If it actually was Wilbur, I’d totally get that, y’know? But you can’t just…” Video call on, Mat’s jaw dropped, and they brushed red hair from their eyes.

Wilbur waved. “Hi. I’m Will, and the one who’s sobbing into my shoulder is Benji’s cousin Tom.”

Mat gaped, forming absolutely no words. “I- holy fuck. Benji. Benji, I’m a useless gay, you can’t fucking drop this shit on me-”

Benji giggled. “I know, I’ve been freaking out since I got here.”

Finally composed, voice still filled with little chuckles, Tom nodded. “He has. Hi, Mat, did Benji get around to asking you out already?”

“Old news, man. I’d rather talk about-” they tried to calm themself down. “Lovely to meet you, I’m Mat, they/them. Now can you tell me why the everloving fuck Wilbur Soot is at your Simon’s cult New Year’s?”

“That would be Tom’s fault.” Wilbur slung his arms over Tommy’s shoulders and settled his chin amongst his curls, swaying them from side-to-side. “He’s famous, you know,” he added, as though that was a surprising revelation. “More subscribers than me and Schlatt combined.”

“Wait, really?” Tommy cut in, trying to look up at Wilbur (and pretending he wasn’t blushing from the praise).

Wilbur nodded. “Yup, and he’s got the most subscribers out of all four he’s moving in with-”

Tommy squirmed, unable to get out of his grip.

“-and he’s also the youngest out of us by far, and we’re honestly so proud of him.” He squeezed Tommy tighter. Tommy gave up on escape, flopping back into Wilbur’s chest and taking his hands with a grumble and a pout.

“That’s actually really cool, Tom,” Benjamin remarked. “Congrats, man, genuinely.”

Tommy stared at the ground, feet shifting in embarrassment. “Thanks, Benji.”

“Just thought I’d let you know,” Mat butted in, “I’m screen-recording this shit. No way anybody will believe me otherwise.”

Tommy pouted even harder, and elbowed Wilbur in the side to escape. Wilbur grunted and let him go, rubbing his injured ribs and glaring.

“You’re the worst, Tom.”

Tommy fluttered his eyelashes overdramatically. “I thought you were proud of me, Wimblur.”

Before Wilbur could retort, Auntie Sarah suddenly inserted herself into the conversation. “Wil, honey, we’ve got an hour until the council votes around midnight, you’d best be talking to more people.” she spotted the phone and beamed. “Mat, my darling human being! You must feel welcome to come to our next New Year’s, I know your family are dogshit. I’ll even tell the folks to be nice, just for you, sweetheart.”

Wilbur and Mat both looked flustered. Maybe it was the lack of healthy parent figures in their childhood mixed with Sarah’s motherly vibes. Who really knows? Not them, that’s for sure.

Tom quickly agreed with Sarah, grabbing Wilbur’s elbow and going to drag him off. Before he did so, he paused, and gave Benjamin a little side-hug. “Great to see you, Benji. You too Mat.” With that he was gone, off to bully Wilbur another day.

Benjamin and Mat shared a look. “Well. That wasn’t what I expected when I got up this morning.”

Benjamin gave a little laugh, watching the odd pair as they found someone else to talk to. Wilbur looked strangely nervous, and he was acting much more polite than what Benjamin recalled from watching old streams and videos. But there was something so natural about how he interacted with Tommy, joking back and forth, shoving at each other, grinning so wide it made his mouth hurt just from looking at them.

“Neither. I’m really glad Tom found his people online. Everyone but, like, four people sort of isolated him in high school.”

Tommy made a random joke and Wilbur burst out laughing, so loudly that a few relatives got jumpscared.

His cousin would be fine.

Sarah watched on proudly as her son (+pseudo son) quickly enchanted the room faster than gas could’ve knocked them out. She frowned as Wilbur faltered for a moment, unsure where to move his hands or how loudly to talk, recognising his look as the same lost expression that Tommy had worn on his first day in high school.

Quickly shoving into the conversation, she blurted, “Hey Leo, do you think Ryan has more embarrassing stories about Tom than Will does?”

Ryan (her oldest sibling) rolled his eyes, linking his elbow with his husband’s. “I very much doubt it, I helped you raise that chaotic kid.” Leo sighed and brushed back his hair with his free hand, obviously resigning himself to the fact that he’d married a competitive dumbass.

Wilbur quirked an eyebrow, more comfortable after falling into banter, and Sarah did a mental victory dance. “Oh, really? Well, I think my stories could probably be worse, because I know about things that happened in front of the entire internet. Last I checked, twenty million people have seen the video of you breaking into my office and streaming from my computer.”

Tommy groaned, covering his face with his hands. “I can’t believe I’m having this conversation right now.”

Ignoring him, Ryan retorted, “It’s not as bad as him literally eating batteries and scaring the ever-loving fuck out of me.”

Leo let out an oof as his daughter Ollie - wearing denim overalls that were stained more than life itself - slammed into his middle. He laughed and hugged her back. “You trying to kill me, pumpkin?”

Ollie whined up at him. Unlike her sister, she preferred actions and sounds over words. Somehow she was still the most outgoing out of them.

Leo smiled. “If you’re gonna be all aggressive, maybe you should attack Will over here?” He spun her around. Ollie stood on her father’s feet, staring up at Wilbur almost threateningly, before barrelling into him.

“Oh sh- shiver me timbers,” Wilbur cursed, catching her as well as he could. Almost in the circle (Ryan, Leo and Sarah) attempted to stifle their laughter, but Tommy had no qualms in instantly making fun of him.

“Fuckin- what was that?” Tommy cried, throwing his arms in the air. Sarah covered her mouth, not wanting to make fun of him, but sniggered against her best efforts.

Wilbur glanced up at them as Ollie ran away into the crowd. His cheeks were red. “There was a four-year-old in front of me! My mum would fucking kill me if she heard me swearing around my eighteen-year-old stepsister.”

Tommy clapped him on the shoulder and explained between giggles, “It’s basically a Simon’s tradition to swear in front of kids and see how long it takes them to start swearing. I think Grandma started it, she swears more than Gogy.”

“So do you,” Wilbur pointed out. “It’s not very hard to swear more than Gogy.”

“Dream hasn’t managed yet.”

“Dream’s a pussy.” he paused, shifting through the words in his head. “Wait. Sarah, when did Tommy first swear?”

Sarah grinned. “Well, his fourth word was actually ‘bastard’, because I used it as a term of endearment for literally everything he did. He stopped swearing for a while when he went to kindergarten, then I’m pretty sure he started up again when he was, like, eight?”

“Yeah, but I never swore around you,” Tommy pointed out stubbornly. “Because you and Ryan are fucking hypocrites.”

“You wanna know how Tom went back to swearing around us?” Ryan interjected, grinning cheekily.

Sarah laughed. This was a good opportunity to help Wilbur settle down, plus the added bonus of embarrassing her son. “Oh, this’ll win the embarrassing stories for sure. Tell him, Ryan.”

“Don’t tell him, Ryan-” Tommy tried, “please, I’ll never hear the end of it-”

“So we wanted to watch this show together,” Ryan began. “And Paul wasn’t used to the Simon’s family back then, so he didn’t really understand our swearing thing, and he argued that it has a lot of really coarse language.”

“And twelve-year-old Tom here,” Sarah continued, walking over to throw an arm around Tommy’s shoulders, “Says in this exact tone and accent, ‘Oh no, not a fookin’ swear word’.”

Wilbur burst out laughing, bringing his hands together in a single clap. He did that a lot. “Is this true, Tommy?”

Face burning, Tommy opened his mouth to speak, then gave up and closed it. Wilbur laughed even harder. “I’m just trying to picture- like, a young-” he covered his face with his hands, unable to speak.

“Breathe, dude,” Tommy pulled away from Sarah’s grip to place a vaguely concerned hand on Wilbur’s elbow. “Are you fucking dying? Take a chill pill, holy shit.”

Wilbur nodded, hiding behind Tommy while he composed himself. “Dramatic fucks,” Sarah muttered. Leo laughed quietly, turning to her and ignoring his dumbass husband talking about shampoo (for some reason).

“You’re a bit of a hypocrite, Sarah, you enable their bullshittery more than you’d like to admit.”

Sarah whacked his arm. “Don't blame me! Besides, Ryan wouldn't do half the stupid shit he does if you didn’t laugh at it. He’s so in love with you, it makes me sick.”

Leo laughed a little bit louder, watching on as Wilbur cursed his head off and then realised Ollie could hear him. “I like this kid,” he decided, changing the subject. “I don’t know why, but he feels like he genuinely wants us to approve of him. Not in, like, a self-absorbed way though, it’s like… shit, this is difficult to explain.”

“Like it’s for Tom’s sake?” Sarah suggested.

Leo snapped his fingers. “That’s it! Yeah, like he owes it to Tom just… because, you know?”

Sarah smiled. “I know. He was like that when he first met me and Paul as well.”

“Paul and I,” Leo corrected absentmindedly. “You think there’s anyone who won’t vote for him?”

Sarah cocked her head, thinking. “Ryan hasn’t voted for anyone except for you, just out of principle, so that’s probably a no. My cousins all seem to like him, though. Why, what do you think?”

Leo sighed through his nose. “I don’t think anyone here particularly dislikes Wilbur, but that doesn’t guarantee they’ll vote. He needs to talk to more people.”

“I agree. I’ll tell him.”

Finally, with ten minutes until the New Year, it was time for the vote.

Paul clapped twice to gather attention and bellowed, “Dickheads! It is time for the moment of great anxiety and momentous decisions, get your asses out back in five to discuss.”

Many people murmured to each other, flocking to the back door despite Paul saying they had five minutes. Wilbur looked down at Tom and said something quietly, gesturing for him to join the others, but Tom scoffed. Even from metres away, one could hear his words- “Don’t be fucking ridiculous, I’ll stay out here with you. Mum and Dad are sure to argue the case as well as I can, and they know what I’m voting.”

Wilbur smiled. He was a nice lad, that one, always taking care of his son whether they were vlogging or just hanging out.

Paul picked up a chair for his mother-in-law and followed everybody out, finding that they were already grouped around the campfire. Seeing that Sarah’s mother already had a seat, he sat down in his chair and watched on.

“Do we wanna talk, or get right into this?” Ryan asked, his natural charisma silencing the others. “I doubt that there’s anything that could change people’s minds, at this point.”

“Don’t be a cock,” Tinnie dismissed him. “I was talking to a few of my cousins, and we all want to know more about their online career.”

Paul paused to think about that. “What do you mean?”

“Like, what the fuck do they do? Around each other, is what I’m asking? It feels like we’ve been handed a quick way to figure out if he’s putting on an act around us.”

“I don’t think that’s reliable,” Sarah countered. “They all pretend to be somebody else when they’re online. Half of the internet believes that my son is a brash and annoying troublemaker because of his persona.”

“Still, it can’t hurt,” Benji shrugged. “I don’t mind looking it up, see what happens.”

Many people agreed. “Okay, uhh… Wilbur Soot and Tommyinnit just comes up with a few of their videos, I don’t think that’s the best place to start.”

“Try chucking a wholesome on the end,” Jenna suggested. “Usually works quite well.”

Ben nodded, going to comply. “The first result is… ‘Wilbur Soot calls TommyInnit his best friend’. Sounds quite promising.”

Tinnie raised her eyebrows. “Put it on, then. Turn up the sound.”

As Ben held up his phone, everybody leaned in almost unconsciously. The clip kicked off with Wilbur’s now-familiar voice, a little more performative than normal, as people asked why he had been gone.

Wilbur’s response didn’t really answer, as he began talking about how he wanted to give big ups to someone - to TommyInnit.

“That’s my fucking cousin,” Benjamin whispered, almost in awe. He was immediately shushed.

“So, during my time being fuckin- anxious, and miserable, and sad, and have pretty much not spoken to anyone, because why would I reach out?” Sarah hummed quietly, and Paul’s mind went right back to coaxing her out of her mind, slowly, allowing her to regain trust.

Wilbur’s recording explained a little more about how he’d been feeling, leading into - “And here he is, big man Tommy has been fucking messaging me every day, and like saying ‘we’re talking today- come talk to me’.

“He’s basically been dragging me over to my PC and making me chat to him, and it’s- it’s- it’s so nice, Taylor thank you for the five gifted, I get out the shower, fuckin- five pm after lying in my bed on my phone for three hours, and the only reason I’m getting out of bed and going to my computer is because TommyInnit has said, ‘come talk to me’.

“He’s my best friend. He’s my best friend, and I used to tell him how depressing that was, that I’m best friends with a sixteen-year-old, but it’s not depressing. He’s a fucking legend, Tommy, and he deserves every bit of success in the world, and I’ve said that from day one.”

Ben paused the clip there. “There's still a whole minute. That feels like very incriminating evidence that he’s not just fucking with us, I’d say.”

Grandma Simons raised a hand, and all who had moved to speak stopped. “Does anybody have anything more to say, before we vote?”

Paul hesitated. “We aren’t- we aren’t going to pressure them about anything, right? This is mainly because I'm too scared to say no to Tinnie."

Grandma Simons nodded sagely. “Yes, Paul, we know you're a pushover. You aren't a Simon by blood, you cannot be blamed. Anybody else? No? Alright, raise your hand if you approve.”

Paul and Sarah were the first to raise their hands, with Ben, Tinnie, and Leo just after them. The twins, who had been babbling in the corner, saw that something was happening and joined in for shits and giggles. Sarah’s cousins and their children were all for him, whispering between themselves and silencing when Grandma Simons glanced at them.

Paul sucked in a breath through his teeth when Ryan raised his hand, making eye contact with Sarah from across the circle. Now that was unexpected. Leo glanced at his husband with a grin, but made no comment.

All of them had voted in an overwhelming yes. All of them except one…

Everybody’s gazes fell upon Grandma Simons. It was an unspoken rule that, despite whatever their votes were, this was the most important one. A mother, so heartbroken when her daughter was hurt that she created an entire system in order to intimidate any future arseholes - after all, it had been Sarah’s boyfriend of two years who didn’t care for consent.

Grandma Simons breathed in deeply-

Wilbur flopped back on the couch, surprisingly tired. “I should’ve had four expresso shots before this, I’m so fucking dead.”

Tommy gagged. “I would hate meeting you on that much caffeine, dude. Would you even survive that?” he sat next to Wilbur, resting his head on his shoulder.

Wilbur slung his arm around him. “How do you think I survived high school?”

“Honestly? Pure force of will.”

“My caffeine levels are directly correlated to my force of will.”

“You’re an awful influence,” Tommy responded, trying to hold back his laughs.

Wilbur swatted the back of his head playfully. “Shh, don’t tell your family. I think they might just kill me on the spot.”

Tommy snorted, pulling out his phone and immediately opening his Reddit. They sat in a gentle silence, each doing their own thing on their own screens with an understanding of comradery hanging in the air.

It felt as though no time had passed when the back sliding door screeched open in the other room. Wilbur sat up straighter, pushing Tommy off of him (with love) and standing. Tommy scowled at him, gabbing Wilbur’s elbow to pull himself up.

“Wilbur Soot, the council has approved you.” Sarah announced dramatically as she entered the doorway.

Tinnie whacked her in the side. “You couldn’t give it a tense wait until our darling mother arrived?”

“The boy’s been through enough anxiety, look at him!”

“Which one are you talking about?”

Wilbur completely tuned out their conversation, focused more on Tommy’s elated grin. He returned it without a thought and hugged Tommy tighter than he’d ever done before.

“You did it!” Tommy cheered, pulling away and turning to face Ryan with a suspicious look.

“We did it!” Wilbur beamed elatedly. All of the stress that had built up that evening from interactions and intimidation and shocking new pieces of information drained out of him as though someone had poked holes in the bottom of his feet. Like water from a pot plant, he thought.

Before they could celebrate further, Leo called out, “It’s eleven fifty-eight, guys, we need to watch the countdown.”

Everybody was sent into a panic, dashing around and picking up glowsticks and party poppers as though they could conjure them from thin air. (Notably, Tinnie was enthusiastic to grab a bottle of wine off the counter.) Wilbur stood in the centre of the chaos, laughing when everybody shrieked at the lights getting turned off.

They crowded around the television, counting loudly, revelling in the chaos when Ryan decided to chant out of time. Wilbur joked to Tommy, “There’s always one,” and was shocked when more than one person laughed aloud.

This was family. This was everything that he’d been missing for so long, and he couldn;t stop smiling so wide that his face continued to hurt, and he dragged Tommy back into another hug. His eyes stung with tears. We did it. Fuck, we actually did it.

“Happy New Year, Tom.” he whispered. Poppers went off around them, Ollie screeched spontaneously, and a bottle of champagne was opened to another round of cheers.

Tommy smiled. “Happy New Year, Will. You fantastic bastard.”

A few minutes into the new year, Grandma Simons approached the new boy with a smirk. “You want wine? We have plenty to go around.”

Although Wilbur jumped upon realising she was there, he smiled kindly and shook his head. “I think I’ll be heading off, actually. I’ve got to get home before it’s too late, and I’d hate to overstay my welcome.”

“You were voted in. There is no longer a welcome to be overstayed.”

“Really, I need to leave.” Wilbur insisted. “Thank you so much, though.”

He was polite. Really fucking polite. What a sweetheart. “Of course, dear. Feel free to come again next year.” She could’ve sworn she didn’t imagine the tears in his eyes at her offer.

Wilbur went to find Tommy, being pulled aside a few times with congratulations. He managed to shake them off softly, not too harsh, and caught up with his friend. Tommy pouted after Wilbur spoke, seeming to bug him to stay, but got dragged over to the door anyway.

Grandma Simons walked slowly out onto the porch, lowering herself into the chair. A wave of crisp night air made her shiver, but she held her ground. Tommy and Wilbur stood just inside the door, and she took the opportunity to listen with absolutely zero qualms.

In their family meeting, she had decided to withhold her vote in order to catch this exact moment- what would they say as a ‘goodbye’? If there was any moment for a facade to drop, it was then.

“I’ll call you in the morning, yeah?” Wilbur spoke tenderly.

“This is my least favourite thing about you,” Tommy’s voice was a little bit muffled, as though he was hiding his face in fabric.

“What, hugging me?” Wilbur teased. “Well, if you feel so strongly about it, I suppose I can stop-”

“No, dickhead.” Tommy grumbled. “We just-” his voice broke a little, and he paused to summon his courage again. “Every time we see each other, I end up having to say goodbye. I fucking hate it.” His voice was completely genuine, a little bit peeved.

Wilbur cooed. “We aren’t gonna have to say goodbye forever, yeah? Just a couple of months, and you’re moving in. We’ll get to see each other every fucking day, and I’ll hug you as much as you want. Okay?”

Tommy hummed quietly, and there was a rustling of fabric as they must’ve pulled apart. “Okay. I’ll talk to you later.”

“Happy New Year,” Wilbur responded, closing the door behind him. He jumped suddenly as he noticed Grandma Simons. “Fuckity piss shit cumbuckets,” he cursed under his breath, kneeling to pick up the keys he’d dropped.

Grandma Simons smiled. “I’ve never heard that one before.”

Wilbur glanced up at him, a blush dusting his cheeks. It was probably a mix of embarrassment and cold. “It’s another part of my charm,” he tried to quip, although the effect was ruined when he almost fell over just from standing. “Shit, I’m tired. I haven’t even had alcohol, how do I feel tipsy?”

“I just wanted to tell you,” Grandma Simons spoke clearly, using her cane to push herself up, “That not a single person held back from voting.”

Wilbur choked on air, coughing into his elbow. “Fuckin- pardon?” he laughed incredulously. “Everyone?”

“Everyone.” she confirmed.

“Even though I’m in my mid-twenties and Tom isn’t even eighteen?”

Grandma Simons shrugged. “You’re a good fit for him. A blind person could see it from miles away, considering the way you always light up around him.”

“I- thank you,” Wilbur said sincerely. “Really, I’m super fucking happy that I was well-received, Tommy really looks up to all of you.”

“You, as well.” She raised her chin slightly. “If it turns out that my faith is a poor decision, you will most certainly regret bringing any harm to that boy.”

Wilbur nodded, taking the threat seriously despite it coming from an old lady on her way out. “I believe you. For now, can I…?” he jerked his thumb towards his car.

Grandma Simons pushed down a smile at his hesitation. “Of course. Drive safely, William Gold.”

“You too.” as he jogged out to his car, she could hear him saying, “What the fuck did I mean, ‘you too’, she’s not driving anywhere. And how did she know my full name, what the shit-”

She giggled and went back inside.