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1. To the boy I loved before by Celestiar

   Fandoms: SK8 the Infinity (Anime)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   04 Aug 2024

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Nanjo Kojiro | Joe/Sakurayashiki Kaoru | Cherry Blossom
   • Sakurayashiki Kaoru | Cherry Blossom
   • Nanjo Kojiro | Joe
   • Childhood Friends
   • Friends to Lovers
   • slowburn
   • Pining
   • Comfort/Angst
   • Friends with Benefits
   • mentions of past Adam/Cherry
   • blurred lines
   • Unrequited Love
   • .... or is it?
   • emotions get more complicated the older you get
   • he's just a fool in love alright
   • sorry this shit gets painful it's how I cope
   • Letters from the past
   • young matchablossom
   • First Kisses
   • First Dates
   • Intimacy
   • mentions of original characters for the sake of story flow
   • Kojiro uses letters as a diary to deal with some very repressed feelings
   • occasional nsfw intermission
   • dates in foreign countries
   • Growing Up Together
   • Long-Distance Relationship
   • well .... sort of
   • Misunderstandings
   • that one trip to Paris that changes EVERYTHING
   • why tell your best friend you love him when u can. U know. pine after him for a long looong time
   • the literal Cherry on top (if u know what I mean winkwonk)
   • matchablossom's years apart
   • idiots to lovers
   • can they just get their shit together and KISS?!
   • (they can. but they wont)
   • no beta we die like langa's dad

   Summary

   It all starts with one letter.

    

   "Dear Kaoru.
   I really don't know how to say all this or how I should even start. You know I'm not the master of big words or great in any sort of explanation. I apologize in advance if this is all just rambling. I thought writing this down would be a lot easier than saying all this stuff face to face."

    
   Kojiro writes these letters over the course of many years. He hopes to finally be able to confess to Kaoru how he feels.
   But life deals you a mean hand sometimes and sometimes things don't really go as planned.

   He soon wishes to have sent the first of them. Maybe they could have avoided the pain and the misunderstandings. The intimate moments they shared together under the premise of only being friends.
   He loves Kaoru and does it with all his heart. There is a life awaiting that only makes sense with him by his side.

   And yet they both fail to communicate how it looks deep inside of them.

   Loving each other is complicated. Loving each other is not as easy as it sounds.

    

   ... or: a mix of letter style-story style fic that turned out way more dramatic and heartbreaking than the author originally intended.

   Series

   • Part 2 of Tales of Fruity Skating

   Language:

   English

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