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Lost
I was sound asleep happily in my bed when the phone started ringing and they woke me up I looked at the clock on the bedside table and it was 3:00 am the one that had to have woken me up must be something important, I grab my cell phone and answer the phone half slept.
"Hello, this is Daniel LaRusso," I replied, yawning.
“Good evening, Mr. LaRusso,” the tearful voice of my mom's housekeeper answered and that made me wake up completely distraught that something had happened to my mom.
"What's wrong Jenny something happened to my mother" I commented with panic in my voice.
"I'm so sorry sir, Mrs. LaRusso passed away, I went to check on her because normally she was still awake, but when I saw her to check she was lying lifeless on the floor" she commented and I already had tears running down my face, my mother told her great Lucille LaRusso just passed away and I wasn't there to see her off I feel a huge guilt in my chest.
"Thanks for letting me know, Jenny, I'm coming right now," I said through tears as she hung up.
I couldn't believe that my mother had died and I was completely alone and devastated, well not only did I have my children, Robby and especially Johnny, as I would like him to be by my side right now, but he slept in his old house, because both Miguel and Robby wanted a sleepover alone with Johnny, although he was hesitant I convinced him to go have fun with the boys, as I regret right now that I insisted Johnny so much to go and now he wasn't suffering alone the loss of my mom.
Johnny and I have been together after I divorced Amanda on good terms, when it happened with Kreese, she saw my deep infatuation with Johnny from before and she understood perfectly well that I no longer made her happy as she did for me, that's why we got divorced she deserves to be happy with the person she chooses.
And I'm so glad the divorce was amicable and didn't end so bad, it was good that Amanda was very understanding, she deserves a great man who truly loves her.
In addition to the fact that Johnny also has feelings for me since we saw each other again at the dealership and since then we had to talk about our differences and feelings, to get together it took us five or six practices, for us to go out formally and I do not regret it at all .
Johnny was so affectionate on our dates he didn't want to ruin any time he wanted our dates to be perfect, even if they were or not they would be spectacular being with Johnny by his side is all perfect.
And since then we have been married for three years without killing each other, he smiled, when my mother asked us smiling how it is that we are married without killing each other.
And although at first Lucille LaRusso did not agree with our relationship, the only thing she wanted was for me to be happy next to the person who would make me happy and if it were with Johnny I would accept it and that made me tremendously happy to know that my mother accepted my relationship with Lawrence.
And although at first they did not get along, little by little Johnny won her heart when we went to his house for dinner or when she came to mine and we talked for hours about my childhood and when Johnny told my mother about his childhood, he felt sorry for me. him and told him that he is always welcome to the LaRusso family, that made my heart burst to see that Lucille LaRusso definitely accepted our relationship, that day I cried happily in his arms and I would greatly appreciate that he accepted Johnny, and Johnny leaving her daze hugged her, thanked her and promised her that she would always take care of me and protect me from anything bad happening to me and she just smiled as if knowing that Johnny would keep that promise.
But now my mother is no longer with us and my heart hurts so much my tears wouldn't stop, they got worse and that made me start hitting everything around me the bedside table, the clock, everything destroyed until I see that my hands are full of blood.
I quickly begin to heal with the first aid kit in the bathroom and when I put on the bandages, I try to calm down, but I couldn't, my mom is dead and I will never see her again and I received her hugs and kisses from her.
I put on a gray pant and a blue sweatshirt, I also take my phone and grab the car keys, to go to my mother's house to say goodbye, I then need to call the funeral home to make the cremation arrangements.
And I need to call Johnny now more than ever I need to be in his arms, but I didn't want to wake him up and even more so if Miguel and Robby are at his old house I didn't want to ruin their sleepover for them.
So I have to wait in the morning to tell him about my mom.
When I arrive, Jenny greets me and hugs me to give me her condolences, and then takes me to where my mother was, already lying in her bed with her eyes closed as if sleeping, but she knew that she would no longer be with me.
New tears began to fall on my face and I approached his bed and took his cold hand that only increased my tears and sobs, I could not believe that my mother would no longer be here with us and would not see my children arrive. to his adult life my heart aches so much.
I still remember the first time he took me to a fair or took the little one to the beach and above all seeing that big smile to see the birth of his grandchildren oh how he will be missed so much.
I still remember perfectly when she gave me the news that my father had passed away, she was always by my side.
flash-back
I was in my room when I was eight years old and my mother was accompanying my father who got cancer and I was not allowed to see him because I was a child.
I was crying I wanted to see dad and apologize for being a bad boy and now I couldn't see how unfair life was.
I don't know how long I was crying until I saw my mom coming into my room with a tearful face, I immediately got up and hugged her and she hugged me back and burst into tears so hard that it scared me I never saw my mom like that .
"¿What's wrong mom, did something happen to my dad?" I asked alarmed and watch as my mom takes me straight to my bed and she made me sit on her lap and I look at her confused.
"Unfortunately, Daniel, your dad is now in heaven and now he will be an angel who will take care of you" he replied with a sad voice and then new rounds of tears fell down my cheeks knowing that my father was dead and I was never going to see him again.
“It is my fault that this death is no longer with us because of me” I confessed and I see that my mother is horrified by what I said and I hug her more.
"Never say that again, Daniel, you listen to me, it wasn't your fault that he died, your father was very sick and there was nothing you could do now, understand, son," he replied, stroking my hair and I just kept crying in his arms.
"But he left angry with me, when I couldn't spend time with him because of his illness" I replied with a hurt look and my mom smiles slightly and kisses me on the forehead.
"He will never be angry with you my love, your dad always loved you even though they argued later he never got angry with you Daniel, so stop blaming you my son, none of this is your fault" she replied softly I looked at her amazed by her words I never expected him to upload those words to me that my father wasn't mad at me.
"But what am I going to be now without my dad, he's gone, I'm completely alone" he answered desperately, although he knew he wasn't, he would always have my mom with me.
"You won't be, Daniel, I'm always going to be by your side, I'm not going to leave you alone, my boy," he replied tenderly and hugged me again and I returned his hug, crying and feeling his caresses and kisses on my forehead until I stayed. asleep in his arms.
One thing was certain that day, that my mother would always be with me and that she would never leave me alone.
end flashback
But now my mother left along with my father and now I was completely alone and just thinking that I would tell more children about my mother broke my heart.
My kids loved her so much and it will be too much of a blow for Sam and Anthony but I know they will eventually get over it just like me but now I am a broken man who just lost her mother forever.
I couldn't take it anymore, I need to have Johnny by my side, with this pain I feel in my chest I feel like I'll break at any moment, if I don't have Johnny, I needed my husband now, not caring about waking him up, I needed to be in those strong arms and comfort me.
I take out the phone and dial his cell phone on the third ring, he answers me.
"Hey LaRusso, what's going on, it's 3:40 am, you're fine" - he commented with a sleepy voice and I just hope my broken voice won't alert Johnny, but I highly doubt it, Johnny always knows what's happening to me, it's like a radar of problems Daniel, that thought makes me laugh internally.
"I'm not, could you come to my mother's house, I need you right now please" I answered with a hoarse voice after all the tears that came out on my face and that made Johnny wake up completely.
"¿What's wrong with your mom, Daniel?" I ask worried and I listen as he gets up from the bed sure grabbing something to wear and then come here.
"She's dead Johnny" I answered again crying and I hear Johnny curse on the phone and rush to get dressed.
"Ohh... LaRusso, I'm so sorry my love, I'm going there right now, I'll let Carmen know so she can stay with the boys" he commented seriously and hung up.
While I kept looking at my mother how she died, it's not normal for her to die while she was asleep, Jenny said that at this time my mother was still awake, these will be unanswered questions.
She kissed her forehead with affection, as I am going to miss her so much, giving me her advice, loving my children, making jokes with Johnny, all this is going to be missed a lot, I still do not believe that she will no longer be with us.
I don't know how long I was looking at my mother that I didn't feel Johnny's arms hugging me and I stopped seeing my mother and I clung tightly to Johnny letting out tears for the millionth time.
"He died, Johnny my mom died" I commented between sobs in his chest while I felt kisses on my forehead and hugged me closer to him.
"I know, LaRusso, and you don't know how sorry I am, my love, but you're not alone, I'm here with you, Daniel, I will never leave you alone," he commented, trying to reassure me, and I just snuggled closer to him, "and what happened to your hands, LaRusso? ?” he asks me to see my bandages on my hands and I blush in embarrassment.
"Destroy our room" I replied very sheepishly and Johnny looks up to see the disbelieving eyes on his face.
"¿Are you kidding me because you would LaRusso?" I wonder confused.
"I was full of pain and I did it without thinking how you would react if Robby died, you wouldn't take it very well or if Johnny" I asked with still a hoarse voice.
"You're not right, but you would have called me earlier so you wouldn't have to go through this alone Daniel, you know I care a lot" he commented seriously, although he continues kissing my hair while I relax in his arms.
"Yes Johnny I know, but since you were with Robby and Miguel I didn't want to wake you up, I didn't want to destroy your sleepover with the boys" I commented and I see that Johnny rolled his eyes.
“But you are also important Daniel, you are my husband and my duty is to be there in the most difficult moments and especially if your mother has just passed away, you should not spend it alone LaRusso you have many people who care a lot about you, and above all All of me, I don't like to see you suffer, I don't want to imagine how you found out, it must have been very painful for you, love” he commented, I just hugged him tighter without letting go of him, I was afraid that if I let him go he would leave like my mom and I would never do it again watch.
"It was Johnny, I still can't believe that she, Johnny is gone and the worst thing is that I couldn't say goodbye to her and tell her how much I loved her" I commented seeing her body on the bed and the tears kept falling on my cheeks without being able avoid it.
"She knows how much you loved her Daniel, and although you couldn't say goodbye to her, Lucille always knew that you loved her, you shouldn't feel guilty, she won't be happy if she saw you like this all sad and broken Daniel" commented Johnny looking at me worried and trying to wipe my tears that increased every moment.
"I know, but it's very difficult Johnny, she helped me when my father died when I was a child, she was always with me when he hurt me or I got sick, she always worried that I was happy and happy, but now my mom is gone. to be without her” I commented and I see that Johnny is still hugging me.
“Keep going my Daniel, that's what Lucille wanted you to do to get ahead and be happy and not be so sad and depressed please Daniel I know it's difficult, but let me help you not to be like this, it breaks my heart seeing your Bambi eyes so broken” he commented and I just look at him with my big eyes surprised by your words.
"It's okay Johnny, but don't ever leave me, please, I don't know what I would do without you, if you also left my life" I commented terrified and I see that Johnny smiles at me and brings me closer to him.
"You're not going to get rid of me easily, you're stuck with me LaRusso and I'll always be by your side because I love you" commented Johnny kissing my forehead.
"Thank you Johnny" I commented with a tired voice and he notices it and wraps me in his arms.
"What if we sleep a little and tomorrow we plan the funeral Daniel" he commented with a sad voice, I look at him the same and I separate myself from Johnny's hug to see my mother.
“Okay Johnny” I said walking towards my mother and I grabbed her hand.
“I will miss you so much mom, I will miss your hugs, your kisses, your meals that you made for me and my children, your advice, your smile, thank you very much for giving me life, for taking care of me and loving me, I will always love you mom ” I commented again with tears, but I didn't care, I was saying goodbye to Lucille LaRusso forever, I kiss her forehead and go to Johnny's side who hugs me and guides me out of the room and takes us to the bedroom. guests.
"¿Are you going to be okay Daniel?" he asks me as we undress and lie on the bed, my head on his chest and he hugs me with his arms and kisses my forehead.
"In time I will be, right now I'm completely broken" I confessed looking at him sad and Johnny sees me the same and kisses me on my forehead.
"I know what LaRusso feels, but in time your heart will heal, believe me I know, I lost my young mother and it took many years for her to fully heal, I still think about her a lot," commented Johnny sadly and now I went I hug him giving him a few small kisses on the lips.
“I'm sorry Johnny” I commented sadly and I see that Johnny gives me a sad smile and now he kisses me.
"Okay, LaRusso, it was a long time ago, now let's sleep because a long day awaits us, Daniel," he commented and I smiled sadly at him.
“I know the funeral, telling Amanda, my children and above all not breaking down in front of them” I commented feeling tears soon in my eyes and Johnny notices them because he starts kissing my eyes and I laugh nervously.
“It is not good to make you strong all the time Daniel, you just lost your mother it is normal that you want to cry, nobody will make fun of you for being weak because you are not, you understood me you are a human and you have feelings so if someone makes fun of you for crying they will see it with me” he commented that seriously and I look at him surprised by his words.
"Understand Johnny, thank you very much for everything you are doing for me" I commented shyly and I see now he smiles at me and kisses my forehead.
"That's because I love you Daniel and I want to make you happy for the rest of our lives" he replied I just kissed him.
"And you won't leave me alone right" I commented fearfully even though he just confessed that he wants to make me happy I'm still insecure about myself.
"Of course not LaRusso we will always be together until you get sick of me, don't be insecure of yourself because I hate the way you despise yourself" Johnny commented looking at me seriously and I blush.
"I'm sorry Johnny I promise I won't be so insecure anymore" I smiled as he settled me on his chest listening to his heartbeat and with that I closed my eyes.
"I love you Daniel LaRusso"
“I love you too Johnny Lawrence”
And even though he has lost my mother, Johnny Lawrence will always be by my side through thick and thin, not for nothing is he my husband.
End