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He knew something was off.
The guy just seemed so damn familiar. From the moment Jisung dropped into his life, Felix found him familiar.
Not familiar in the oh-did-we-use-to-go-to-the-same-school familiar. Familiar in the I'm-almost-entirely-convinced-that-you-are-some-random-youtuber-I-have-watched-videos-of familiar.
Turns out Felix has watched videos of Jisung.
Jisung just isn't a youtuber.
Felix is ready. He has the video pulled up on his phone, the names CB97, Lee Know, SpearB and J.One in the title flashing up at him mercilessly.
A rock band. A rock band of the name Phobia, only one of the most well known rock bands in the country. A rock band which debuted a year ago and immediately shot to fame.
A rock band whose members have never revealed their real names or shown their bare faces, even travelling with a full face of makeup or a mask and a big cap.
A rock band with a definitely not straight member J.One who apparently likes going on dating apps, have a blind date with an unsuspecting poor guy, sleep with him then claim he is straight.
He comes back week after week to the same hotel to spend the night with Felix and still claims that he is straight.
"Hey J.One," says Felix nonchalantly as soon as Jisung closes the door after coming in.
Jisung freezes.
Felix can't see his face but the way he goes completely still is very telling. He has confirmation now. This is J.One.
Jisung is J.One.
"Gotta say if you just told people you are a member of the band Phobia, you would have a much easier time hooking up," says Felix. Of course he understands why Jisung didn't tell him who he is but that doesn't mean he doesn't feel just the tiniest bit betrayed. Even though their arrangement is simply to have sex. "Will get more guys like that."
"I'm straight," is the first thing Jisung says because he is a complete and utter idiot. Felix rolls his eyes, mild irritation bubbling up at Jisung's constant insistence of heterosexuality. "I told you, I accidentally-"
"Yes, yes. You accidentally went on a homosexual blind date instead of your usual straight hookups and then decided why not just give it a try, then you accidentally keep coming back for more sex with a dude and basically say 'no homo' every night after it's done. Did I get that all correctly? Oh, and you also happen to be the member of a famous rock band, a detail you just accidentally forgot to mention."
Jisung sighs and finally turns to face Felix. Felix suddenly feels sorry for everything he said when he sees the pitiful look on Jisung's face.
"Don't tell anyone," he begs. "Please. I am not allowed to hookup with anyone, let alone guys."
Felix frowns, his confusion winning out over his pity for Jisung. "Wait, you told me you hookup often. Was that also a lie?"
"No, I really do."
"But you aren't allowed to."
"But I clearly do it anyway. I have doing that with you for the past few weeks, it's obvious I am breaking the rules here, isn't it?"
"Wouldn't it just be easier to not hookup with the same person over and over again? It's clearly risky when you are trying to hide your identity. I mean, I did figure out this."
Felix shoves the screen of his phone forward at Jisung's direction and Jisung winces when he sees one of Phobia's performance videos looking back at him, paused at his own face, coated with thick, heavy makeup making him almost unrecognisable. Almost.
"Yeah, I-" Jisung scratches the back of his head. Suddenly he changes from local-fuckboy-Felix-has-been-messing-around-with-who-is-secretly-in-a-rock-band to the most adorable guy ever. Felix wants to pinch his cheeks and just barely holds back. In the past few weeks, he has found himself drawn to Jisung despite his growing suspicions about him. "It's just that.... I always mess around with girls when I feel stressed and need a release-"
Felix smirked. "A release, huh. Yeah, I bet."
Jisung's face colours brilliantly. None of that aggressive rock band persona is sticking to him right now, he is just an adorable guy who deserves hugs and cuddles and kisses-
Felix shakes himself. He can figure out what to do with his dangerous infatuation later.
"I always mess around with girls," Jisung goes on hastily. "And I really did accidentally...uh-"
"Go on a homosexual date," says Felix and nods. "Yes, yes, carry on."
Jisung looks more embarrassed than ever but Felix reaches out and holds his hands gently. Jisung looks up in surprise.
"I said go on," says Felix, making sure to make his voice gentler and more encouraging. This seems like a huge moment for Jisung and he wants to make sure it goes correctly.
Jisung nods. "And well, after I slept with you I realised I might not be so straight after all."
Felix giggles softly and Jisung joins in with his own nervous but infectious laugh.
"And well, I spent the entire week just debating about that. I figured that if I tried it out one more time, I can be sure whether I like guys or not. Only I didn't want to do it with some other guy. That night, even after I told you I am straight, you did not push me away or were mean to me."
Honestly, that was because Felix just really needed a good fuck and not because he wanted to help a guy find out more about his sexuality but he is happy that he helped with the second one.
"So I texted you to do it again and you said yes."
Again, Felix only said yes because his first night with Jisung had been amazing and he wasn't opposed to having a great night again.
"I know you only did it for the sex," says Jisung and startles Felix with his observation skills. "But you are just really nice you know? And that can't be faked. I liked you. That's why I kept coming back. I'm sorry for... for using you to figure out my own repressed shit and also for not telling you who I really am-"
Felix shakes his head and speaks over Jisung. "And who are you really? J.One, straightest fuckboy to ever exist? Or Jisung, cute, funny, probably bisexual sweetheart I have been sleeping with for some weeks because he also happens to be great in bed holy shit."
Jisung squeaks and hugs Felix and it feels so warm and pure. "Don't say stuff like that. I already have a crush on you, you aren't making it any better."
Felix laughs and hugs Jisung back tighter. "I do too, actually," he whispers. "Why do you think I was so adamant about finding out more about you? I discovered honestly very shocking information regarding your celebrity alter-ego."
Jisung chuckles and lets go, making Felix immediately miss the warmth of the hug. But it's okay because suddenly Jisung's lips are covering his own in probably the softest kiss they have ever shared. The kiss has no intentions of turning into a make-out session, no intention of being hot or filthy. It is just sweet and holy fuck, Felix is sharing a sweet kiss with his crush. Does that mean...?
"I'm not sure how we are gonna work this out," mutters Jisung against his lips, "but... Wanna date me?"
Felix pulls back, wide-eyed and Jisung immediately panics.
"I mean, only if you want to! You said you like- you actually said you have a crush on me, shit, is that not the same as liking someone? Do you only just have a celebrity crush on me? You probably hate me for lying to you, you don't wanna go on dates with me, I'm sorry! I messed up! I should go and just-"
"Jisung, mate, calm down," Felix laughs and Jisung pouts. Why is he so damn adorable?
"You can just say no to me, you don't have to call me mate you know?" says Jisung, pout intensifying and Felix smiles before pecking Jisung's lips.
"I didn't mean it like that," he says. "I call everyone mate. Force of habit."
"Australian habits die hard I guess."
Felix laughs, less at the joke and more at the sheer easiness of them making jokes together so. "Yes, exactly. And I would love to date you. You, Jisung. I have an actual crush on you. Not J.One."
*
After getting teased by Jisung's friend Minho (who turns out be Lee Know, because of course he does and he also tells Felix how much Jisung used to- "scream about this angelic dude he has sex with- Jisung if you hit me one more time, you are Dead. Meat.") Felix and Jisung go on their first real date and, even though it ends with them spilling soup messily over their shirts as they crack jokes way too loudly in the restaurant, it is the best date of Felix's life.