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1. if being awake means being alone by tworoads

   Fandoms: Never Have I Ever (TV)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/M
   • Complete Work

   01 Aug 2021

   Tags

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   • Ben Gross/Devi Vishwakumar
   • Ben Gross & Devi Vishwakumar
   • Ben Gross
   • Devi Vishwakumar
   • Eleanor Wong
   • Fabiola Torres
   • Eve (Never Have I Ever)
   • Paxton Hall-Yoshida
   • Trent Harrison
   • Aneesa Qureshi
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Post-Canon
   • Canon Related
   • Accidental Christmas Fic
   • Ben centric
   • this accidentally turned into a ben gross character study
   • paxton never showed up at the dance
   • i tried really hard not to do dirty by aneesa or paxton!!
   • ben gross is just really lonely and confused okay
   • Pining
   • Angst

   Summary

   His strength with Devi has always been his words, the two of them for years now having the ability to speak about anything. From frustrated insults to jealous taunts to the very moment she looked at him across the centre console in Malibu and he was so easily able to tell her, “I wanted to make sure you were okay”, he looks at her and rarely falters.

   Canon-divergent: Paxton never showed up at the dance, but Ben has 'the conversation' with Eleanor at the after party and it sends him on a very existential holiday break.

   Series

   • Part 1 of lonely boy ben gross

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