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Reason By K_27
4 weeks...3 days...and 7 hours.
That's how long it's been since I saw him. Since I held him. Since I heard him laugh. Since I felt his breath against my neck, leaving those little sparks under my skin.
I miss him. I knew I would. There was a time when he saved me. When he was all I had. All that I was worthy of.
Taehyung didn't treat me like they did. He smiled at me and held my hand when I fell apart. He didn't laugh at me when I cried. He didn't expect me to be perfect.
I felt like he made everything better. The little mumbles, the hugs when I felt like I was going to collapse, the midnight dancing...all just to make me laugh.
My everything.
I still remember...as if it were yesterday. The first time he kissed me.
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"Taehyung-ah", I smiled as I felt him against my back, his heartbeat against my shoulder, and his soft breaths over the skin of my neck.
"How did you know it was me?", he pouted with a slightly annoyed look in his eyes.
I turned around, my arms wrapping around his waist as his settled around my neck.
"I feel you. As soon as you're around me, I can almost sense it", I grinned at the shorter boy, resting my forehead against his.
"You scare me all the time", Taehyung frowned while looking up at me.
"That's because you never pay attention. Anyone can scare you", I mumbled, my eyes flickering to his lips for a millisecond.
"Well...", his arms tightened around my shoulders, bringing my face closer to his.
"I've noticed you looking at me more often. Here especially", he flickered his eyes in the direction of his lips.
"It's nothing, forget about it", I sent him a half-smile as I pulled my forehead away from his.
"It's okay. I...I want to", Taehyung smiled up at me, closing the space between us slowly.
"We don't-", I started to say, only to be cut off by his lips pressing against mine.
He angled his head closer toward mine, tilting with each movement of his lips. I barely registered the action as my lips moved in time with his.
I tasted the lip balm that he always used. Cherry. As his tongue slid into my mouth, I felt a tingle run down my spine. He tasted like coffee and honey...the two things that he always seemed to smell like.
I pulled away from him slightly, my eyes opening cautiously. Worry crossed my face so quickly as I noticed the single tear that ran down his cheek.
"I love you", he whispered against my lips, a soft laugh leaving his lips.
I could almost feel how much he meant it, his eyes..his voice..his face...everything seemed to pull me in as he spoke. My entire world shattered and pulled itself together a million times as my heart thumped in my chest.
Tears filled my eyes while I rested my forehead against his for a second time.
"I love you more", I smiled through my tears, earning a soft laugh from him.
He was the only one who made me feel cherished, important...loved.
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"He knew me better than any of them ever did", I whispered, my chin resting on my knees after I pulled them to my chest.
"Kim Seokjin, 04119213"
"Yes?", I turned my head to the door, the nurse stared at me for a few seconds before motioning for me to go to her.
"It's time for your therapy session", she smiled at me, her eyes flickering to the bandages wrapped around my wrists.
"After you", I smiled, my eyes flickering to the nameplate on the door as I walked out.
Gyeonggi-do Asylum
Kim Seokjin (No. 04119213)
Hallucinations
Schizophrenia
Depression
A soft laugh escaped my lips as I shook my head.