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I’m leaving.
Don’t worry. I’m coming back. It’s just for a few weeks. I don’t … I need some time. For myself. To find … something. I don’t even know what I’m looking for. I just feel like there’s something to be found. Something got shaken inside of me when Deucalion bit me and I don’t know what it was. I need… I just need some time. Some time to get used to seeing again. Some time to get used to the wolf that was forced on me.
I never wanted this. Everybody knows it. Even if it did – I want to say fix me, but that would categorize me as a item. Or an object that was shattered and needed repairing. I didn’t need fixing. I’m just – I don’t know where my mind is right now and I need to find it. Maybe that’s what I’m looking for.
Part of me thinks that I should be happy. Should I be? I … don’t know much anymore. Please don’t worry. Please. That’s really the last thing that I want. If you want to be mad, that’s okay. I’ll take it all when I come back. Because I will. Like I said, it’s just a few weeks. A month at the most. I just wanted to make sure that no one freaked out.
Scott – don’t come looking for me. I know that’s the first thing on your list to do. You won’t find me. I know how to cover my tracks. Bud; I’ll be okay. Just trust me on that one, Scotty. I know the golden boy inside of you wants to save me from myself; but I’m not even sure what inside of me needs to be fought. Let me fight this battle on my own, Batman. I’ll be back before you know it.
Dad – I’m sorry. For so many things. For scaring you to death too many times to count. For being responsible for more than half of the gray hairs on your head. For making you second guessing having a kid. Just know that one thing always remains the same. I love you. I always will. Make Scott keep your diet up while I’m gone – I’ll be disappointed if you fall back from it while I’m gone. It’s just a few weeks, I have faith in you. Keep the piano tuned for Derek, will you? You can ground me for a lifetime when I get back. When I’m in a better place.
And Derek –
Thank you. For everything.
Stiles Stilinski