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" Okay let's go!" A red hair witch says in her charming scottish accent and pick her stuff up, ready to go. A tall hunter shakes his head, takes her bag, puts it on the table.

" No! Rowena you stay here. " 

" What! Come on, Samuel. You can't fight with them alone and you know I'm a greatest witch! You better have me. " Sam rolls his eyes at her confidence.

" I don't trust you, Rowena. And--- " Sam sighs, glance at his older brother who pick Rowena's witch potion out of her bag and play with it.

" Ouch! " Dean cries when a witch slaps his hand.

" Don't touch it! " She scolds.

" Sorry. "  Dean says with a sad puppy look. " But their colors are beautiful. "

" Yeah! But their are dangerous too, Dean, you can't play with it. " Sam walks to his amnesiac brother and put a voodoo doll in his hands " Just play with this, brother. " Dean squints his eyes and looks at it for a second.

" Okay! " He's pouting and pokes it with a needle. Sam look at him, worried. 

" You see it, Rowena. Even if some miracle can change you to be a really good friend to us, want to help us with nothing turn back to your hand. That I know it's not possible. I still can't leave him alone. "

Rowena scoffs, a smug smile in her red lipstick curls up on her face. " Who said that he's going to be alone. "

Sam's eyes narrowed but before he can question anything the door is knocked. Rowena smoothly head to the way, welcome the blue eyes in the trench coat. " Hello, sunshine. "

" How's Dean? " The angel ignore her greeting and stomp into the room

" Hey, Cas. " 

" Hey, Sam. You should told me that Dean--- "

" Argh!! Damn it! " Dean cries out. He opened the bottle of potion and accidentally drop it, now his hand is burning.

" I told you to don't touch it!! " Rowena yells while Cas is immediately running to Dean.

" It's okay, Dean. Let me-- " He told him gently as the way he holds his hand, the angelic grace run through the wound. Dean's painful escaped, he gasps and eyes wider.

" Holy shit! You are-- " 

They stare at each other with their hands still hold. " Are you Castiel? My best friend angel! " Dean ask with excited and joy in his eyes. Cas let a little chuckles out. It's been a long time Dean call his full name.

" Ah --- Yes. I'm Castiel and---ahh-- your angel best friend. "

Dean giggles, ruffles with Cas's hair. " Can I call you Cas? I think Castiel is a little bit hard for my tongue. " He asked and examining the angel attire and all the look.

Cas smiles and nods. " You're the first one who call me Cas. So, absolutely yes. You can call me that. "

Dean smiles is shining like his soul that bright before Castiel's eyes. He look at him like some teenager in the movie that Dean draged him to it when Sam wasn't with them. It make the angel little flustered and then it higher when he feels the heat of human hands cups on his cheeks. " You look cute more than I expect, Cas. And look at that! Oh my god, it's so blue. " Dean said and breaking the personal space rule to gazes in Cas's eyes.

" Your eyes are collected of ocean and sky. It's fresh, pure, and lovely. " With a huge beam, he continues. " I really love it. " Cas suddenly feel a hot prickles on his cheeks where Dean still tenderly hold and a heart in his vessel racing rapidly. All the act of Dean now is like poison. Cas wants to tell him to step back a little more inch but he's paralyzed and maybe he could stop breathing if Rowena didn't clears her throat.

" Calm down, boy. I think the angel can't get enough room to breathe when you get close like that. "

Dean looks at her and pouts then looks back to his best friend again and pulls his hands off. " Sorry, Cas. I don't know that you have to breathe.

" It's okay. Don't have to sorry. " Cas blushed, he scratchs the back of his neck when he talk to Dean and then he glances at a witch, try to say thank you through his eyes. She knows and smirks.

" Uhmm --- Can we go now, Samuel. " She look at Sam who is holding his smile.

" Yeah! I agree. " Sam nods and slightly chuckles.

" So! Where're we going? Cas go with us, right? " Dean asked with a big smile shines on his face and he holds Cas's hand tight, make the angel flustered again.

" No, Dean. You two are not going anywhere. " Sam shakes his head. " Just me and Rowena. "

" Why? " Dean pouts. " That's not fair!! I want to go too! And driving. You haven't let me go outside for days. It's boring. "

Sam sighs then Rowena grabs his shoulder and says to Dean. " Oh, darling. But Cas want a company here. His grace is low. It's not good for him to go with us right now. He will get hurt or maybe worse-- " She smiles teasingly. " He will die. "

" No way! " Dean's eyes wider. Looking at his friend, feel terrified. " Are you gonna die, Cas? An angel can die? "

Cas glances at Rowena as the way she wink at him. " Ah-- I'm not gonna die, Dean. My grace can be recharge. I'm gonna be fine but yeah I can die-- one day-- maybe--"

" No, no, no! You can't. You won't. Not on my watch. "  Dean says and cups on his face gently. " You're my best friend. If I still breath, no one can hurt you. I'm not gonna leave you anywhere and I'll protect you. I promise. "

" That's it Dean. " Sam smiles, staring at them. The magic will erase his  brother's memory but not his instinct to protect the people he love.

" Alright! Don't you think we should go now, Samuel. " Rowena interrupts and clears her stuff that Dean messed up in her bag.

" Ah--yeah! Well. " Sam glances at her and shrugs then back to Dean who finally let go of Cas. He pats his shoulder.

" Don't worry, Sammy. I'll do my best, take care of him. " He said with proud and confidence. Sam chuckles.

" Yeah, you will. " Sam looks at Cas who really have a responsibility to take care of someone in this room. The angel smiles and nods as a promise.

" And don't forget my pie! " Dean says when he walks to the fridge.

" Yeah, man. I won't.  "  Sam answer. Dean turn around and looks at him suspiciously.

" Are you sure? Why I feel like that you're gonna forget it? " Dean said, drinks his water, then walked up to Cas' side. Sam rolls his eyes, wondering how much time he forgot to brought Dean's pie for it to become ingrained in his mind.

" Don't worry, big boy. I'll remind him that. " Rowena smiles and squeezes on Dean's cheeks affectionately. He giggles and nods.

" Okay! I believe you, Rowie. And don't forget to take care of yourself. "

" Aww, I will, Candy. " She slightly chuckles and softly presses her finger on his nose before glances at the blue eyes beside him. " And I wish you will really have a good time. " She winks and grabs Sam's arm, walk to the doorway. 

" Hey, wait! " Dean called. They both turn back. " You know that pie and cake are different, right? " Sam eyes narrowed.

" Yeah! Who is not know that. " He shakes his head, going to walk off.

" Hey, again! " 

Sam make a long deep sigh. " Alright! I promise. I swear to heaven and hell that I'm gonna buy you pies. Both meat and fruit pie, okay! " Dean happily laughs and claps his hands.

" That awesome, Sammy! But I just-- I just want to tell you that-- please be safe. You both. Umm-- you know, if you can't keep yourself to stay in my memory just keep your lives to stay in this world. That what I want the most now. " Sam blinks, he looks at his big brother with a lump rising high in his throat.

" I will-- " He glances at Rowena and swallows. " We will keep themselves both in this world and in your world, Dean. We're not gonna lose each other. I won't let it happen. " The brother nod in the silence that fall into the room. Four of them smile at each other.

" See you, jerk! " Dean squints and tilts his head at Sam's word. The younger hunter sighs and closes his eyes for a second before meet a familiar pair of green eyes that feel different and drive the well in his eyes. " And then, you will call me bitch. " He said then walk off the door with Rowena behind him.

After the door shut Dean turn his face to Cas who is feeling sympathy.

" Are you okay? Feel sick? " Dean asked. Cas shakes his head, gives him a little smile.

" I'm okay. Just feel for Sam. It must be tough to ahh-- " 

" I've tried. " Dean cut in. His eyes dart on the floor. " I've tried to keep him, you, mom, me in my head but it just keep going away. I'm screw. "

" You'll be fine, Dean. " Cas touches his shoulder, send him a comfort. Dean grabs that hand and squeezes.

" Thanks, man. You really a good friend to me. " The angel smiles shyly, then his arm is tugged by his human friend. They both sit on the end of the bed side by side.

" So tell me why the cutie handsome angel like you become friend with a regular guy like me? " 

" Regular? " Cas shakes his head after heard Dean defined himself like that. " You're far from regular, Dean. You're very special. " He's staring at his eyes, confirm the truth. Dean looks at him and laughs. 

" Okay, ocean eyes. I'll believe that. " He smirks.

" No! You have to believe that. " Cas insists. Dean still laughs but nods. 

" Alright, whatever. How we met? Wasn't you should stay in heaven? " Cas takes a deep breath. He thinks back to that day at the pit. He doesn't want Dean to remember it but doesn't want to lie to him either. 

" I-- I rescued you from hell. " Cas decided to answer the truth. Dean's eyes wider, blood drain out of his face. 

" Hell! " He exclaimed. " I was in hell before? Am I a bad person? What have I done? Did I killed people or I was a criminal or a thief or I-- "

" Hey, Dean! Easy! " Cas gently grabs his arms that was panically thrown in the air. " You're not a bad person. You're the most selfless, caring, loving human being that I've ever known. "

" So, why was I in hell? Don't lie to me, Cas. I trust you. " 

" I don't lie. The reason you were in hell is you sold your soul for help your little brother. You love him so much. " 

" What? I have a brother? Where's he? " His eyes search around the room. " Did he left me? " 

" No, Dean. He just-- just go to the store. Buy some pie for you. He'll be back. " 

" Oh. " Dean's smile starts to glow up. " He love me too, right? " 

" Yes. He love you so much like you love him. " Dean nods, he kicks his legs between the air, and looks around the room before turn back to his best friend.

" How about you? Do you love me? " He asked with a innocent smile. Cas stuns. This is like a sucker punch, he choke on the word. His brain is drowning in the mystery kind of love Dean ask for. But not for long, a laugh of Dean pulls him up. He punches his shoulder in friendly way. 

" That fine, buddy. You don't have to tell me. Just you being my friend is enough, amazing thing ever! " Cas's staring at him, swallows and nods. Be friend with Dean is really amazing for him too. He make him feel things that he never thought he can have. Especially love. And especially for him. Castiel want to diving in his soul and glue all those broken pieces with gold everytime he saw it.

" Hey, Cas! Cas!! Castiel! " Dean's voice snaps him out of thought. " Are you sure that you're okay?

" Yes! I'm really okay. Don't worry. " 

Dean pouts, his eyes concern. " Did you tired of me asking questions? "

" No! I'm happy to talk to you. What's your question? "

" Ahh-- I asked you that how did I looked like in there, hell? "

" I don't think you want to know about it, Dean. " Dean scoffs at Cas answer.

" Well, I know it's not a good first impression. I hope it would be somewhere else but that the first place and time we met so I want to know how are you gonna describe it. " Dean give him a small smile. The angel mind flies back to the day his life change. It's all blood, screaming, suffer, and miserable. And then there a one human soul catched his eyes. The righteous who broken and lost. All blood in his hands. All chains on his body. Mystery deep feeling built a war in him.

" You're beautiful. " 

" What? " Dean's forehead narrows. " Do you think it's funny? " Cas shakes his head for answer. Dean rolls his eyes.

" Com'on, man! You said you don't lie. " 

" I'm not. Yeah, I lie to you sometime but this-- saying you're beautiful. It's the most honest thing I say to you. " Dean squints, he presses his hand on Cas's forehead.

"  Cas, you're not okay. Your head must be hit by a truck. " 

Cas chuckles. " You told me this when I said that I come to save you. And I think you're right but if you're a truck. "

" I hit your head? " 

" You hit every part of me. " Dean's brows raise up, his mouth puckers, thinking.

Cas slightly chuckles. " You fought me in hell. But you can't remember it because my grace. I burnt your shoulder to calm you down and that erase the moment we met from your head. You were screaming and told me to left you in there. You didn't thought that you deserve to be save. That made me curious and I think that start our relationship. It's the open door for my feeling after that. The more I get close to you it the more I feel, it the more I want to protect you-- and-- ah-- everyone I love. You taught me about family and so many things, Dean. We become friend because of this. " 

" So, I'm a good guy? "

" Yeah, and really worth saving. " They smile and staring at each other long enough to time and space could make their twins, then Dean dramatically gasps.

" Wait! You said you burnt my shoulder? "

Cas nods. " I'm sorry but it the way-- "

" Left side? " Dean cut in.

" Ah-- yes. " 

" Woah, dude. " He took off a flannel and tugs a sleeve of his shirt up, show a handprint on his shoulder. He giggles in excited, grabs the angel hand, and seal on that spot. " This is awesome! You're awesome, Cas." Cas smiles shyly, he take his hand off Dean's skin.

" And you know? I see that you're beautiful too. " The angel look at him with wide eyes, his cheeks go red. " and especially when you smile " Dean says with a big genuinely smile as it's a normal thing like saying good morning. Cas's heart flutter, he can't stop to smile and scratches on the back of his neck that feels prickle.

" Dean, you make my cheeks hurt," Cas says and then his body freeze by the soft of warm peck on his cheek.

" Better? " Dean asked and bite his lower lip.

" I-- I--- Ah--. "  Cas tries so hard to push the word out of his mouth but that not successful and far from it when Dean pecks him another cheek. The angel feel like he's burning. The man who sit in front of him tilted his head with a worry on his eyes and start to kiss on his cheeks again and again. He melt Cas by every touch. 

 " It's still hurt, huh? " He asked then lean forward for another kiss

" Stop! Stop! Dean, enough! I'm fine now" Cas's hand covers on Dean's mouth.

" You sure? Your cheeks still red! " Dean asks after Cas put his hand out.

" I'm sure! Absolutely sure! Thanks, Dean. "

" Okay, if you say so. " Dean pouts, squish Cas's cheek then look around the room like nothing happened. " Ahh. I think I'm hungry. " He walk to the fridge, grabs the nougats out, show it to Cas. 

" Do you want some? "

Cas looks at him fondly and softly shakes his head. " Thanks but no, Angels don't have to eat. We're not hungry. Our life didn't depended on that. "

Dean's pouting with unsatisfied " Angels are cheater! I'm hungry all the time. You know! Maybe I can kill someone for food." He says and continue searching for his food. 

Cas laughs. " But angels can't taste the flavor of the food. No matter how much human say it delicious. " Cas says. He smiles and is staring at Dean who drinks a chocolate milk from a mini box in his hand, such like a big baby.

" Oh, that suck. " Dean sighs. " Seem like our lives is always bad in a different way. "

" Yeah, I think so but good thing happens too. " Cas says when Dean come back to sits by his side. He shrugs and eat the nougat and groans with pleasure of the taste. His legs and hands can't stay still, his head think about the topic he want to ask his friend before he will forget everything.

" Hey, Cas. " 

" What, Dean? "

" Do the angel have wings? "

" Yes, I have."

" Can I see that? " Dean jump, his eye full of glint, his hand being squid. Busy to searching Cas's hidden wings.

" Hey! Hey! Hey! It's not in my coat and you can't see it. My true form will burn your eyes."

" What! " Dean whine and throws his back on the bed but then a second he bolt up to sit. Smiles with his idea. " But if I wear the sunglasses? "

Cas laugh and shakes his head. "It doesn't help. " 

"Is that mean you're hot more than the sun? " Dean asked with his pouty face. The angel just shrugs.

" But I want to see it, Cas, please. " Dean's pleading while grabs Cas's arm and shakes.

" You can't, Dean. I'm so sorry."  

" I hate when you say sorry, Cas. I don't want to talk to you right now. " His eyes drops. Silence take control all over them. Cas fold his hands together, disappointed in himself that fail Dean.

" Hey! What if--- " Cas take a deep breath. Dean still looks away from him. " What if I let you touch it. " That word made him suddenly turn to his angel. 

" My wings." Cas continue and give Dean a small smile.

" Really? " Dean's smile draws in excited but then he squints and tilts his head. " But you're hot more than the sun. " Cas chuckles

" Sense of touch not like the eyes. " As he says the warm wave length spread around Dean's body. a human's eyes wider when he perceived the angelic of his friend.

" Oh! this is!" He wrapped arms around himself. Senses something soft like feather, his mind relief in the way he can't describe. He feel really happy. " This is wonderful! " He giggles and stares at Castiel who his eyes just faded from glowing. 

" Is it okay? How do you feel? " 

" I don't know! It's just-- I love it, Cas. It's like I'm dreaming, you know. I feel warm like-- " he laughs. " Like I'm a bird in the egg or moth in the cocoon. Huh! " He slightly pats where Cas's wing exist with his smile that growing. " Or a beef in burrito! "

Cas laughs with his eyes close. " Yeah, Dean.  My wings are tortilla. " 

" Right! " Dean nods in agreement. He continues to touch and caresses his wings like it's his pet. " It's soft more than your cheeks! " Cas's staring at him with a smile that glued on his face. It's a rare chance to seeing Dean like this. He move his wings gently, cuddling with him, a happiness run through his veins. The angel feel care free and then that happens. Lips on lips. Kissing Dean is heavenly sweet more than anything he expected for.

" What is that? " Dean squint his eyes. It's like a thunderstorm in Cas's heart.

" I'm sorry, Dean. It's my fault! I didn't-- " 

" What's you sorry for? I didn't mad. I just asked that what a tickle thing in my stomach. I feel it when you kiss me. It's kinda weird but I like it. Can you do that again? " 

" What? Are you serious? " Cas confused.

" Yah! Come on. " Dean smiles big then shut his eyes. Cas smiles but this moment remind him that it's not right. 

" I can't. " 

Dean slowly open his eyes that full of confusion. " Why? You just did it and I'm okay with that. Why-- "

" No you're not. Thee Dean that I love will not. Now You got curse. You lost your memory and I can't take this opportunity for myself. This is not right. This is not re-- "  the word were cut out by the lips that gently presses on the angel. 

" I love you, Cas. I don't remember all of you but I can feel something inside me. The wanted. " Dean cradling on Cas's face and gazing at his eyes. " When you wrapped your wings around my body I knew that I need you, Cas. I love you. " He slowly leans forward, give his love and a long deep kiss. Cas grips him tight, pray for the time to stop at this moment forever. The moment that he being loved by Dean.

" I love you too. " 

" Oh, thank you? " It's like the world turn upside down. After they pulled off, after Cas said the word love. Dean changed. Things got wiped away, his smile, his laugh, and the happiness that Cas just knew.

" Who are you? "

Cas clear his throat. " I'm Castiel, I'm an angel of the lord. "

Dean's face freeze then a loud laugh bursts out. His hand put on his stomach, his head shakes. " C'mon, dude! Angel? So I must be a god, right! There's no such thing. "

" There's have, Dean. Look at me. " Cas takes a deep breath and show shadow of his wings that he let the only one human touch. Smell of him still got all over them.

" The hell." Dean mutter under his breath, looking terrified.

" I don't hurt you, Dean. Don't be afraid. I'm your friend. "

" What!! Are you kidding me! I'm a friend with an angel? Whoa! wai-- " Dean's whole body freeze. His face show the confusion and curious to only man who sits right next to him. " Who am I? " 

Cas make a long deep sigh. " You're Dean Winchester. " 

He starts it again and then again. Tell a story about him and about them. He was staring at the innocent Dean and let him play with his wings over and over. They kissed and Cas said he love him almost a hundred times, sometimes Dean said back but sometimes he's not. The angel do that like a mouse in the wheel. Going cycle as long as Dean keeping forget. And it's really scared him when it get shorter and shorter over the time.  

" I love you, Dean. "

" Why you telling me this."

Cas smiles with his eyes well up. " Because I love you. "

And then again after the word run through. Something in his big green eyes changed

 " Who are you? " 

The angel can't save the tear from meeting the curve of his cheeks anymore. He can't see Dean's face, he can't look at his eyes. He will find nothing and his sob will rise more.

" Hey! What's wrong. Who hurt you? I'm right here, okay! You can talk to me. " Dean pats a shoulder of a guy he doesn't know. Cas shakes his head. Dean's touch is the last thing he want right now. He just want this to stop.

" Hi, boys! we're ba-- ack." Then the rescue is here. Sam and Rowena get into the room. They look at each other and shifts to two man on the bed.

" What's wrong with Cas? " Sam asked

" Who are you? " Dean answers with a question then turn back to Cas who's wiping tears out of his face.

" I'm fine, Sam. " Cas tries best to keep his face into the word fine.

" No, you're not. " Dean says. His eyes and hand still lay on the angel.

Rowena sighs then walk up to them. " Can you go with me, freckles? " She grabs Dean's arms gently. He look at her with eyes squint. He shakes his head.

" Please I want your help. " She continues.

" Is that sasquatch hurt you? " He points to Sam with a little angry in his eyes.

" Oh, no, sweetie. He's not strong enough to hurt me. " She glances at Sam and smirks then back to Dean. " I don't feel good to say this but--- he's a good guy, kind of. And he's Sam, your brother. Don't worry that he'll hurt anyone here. "

" My brother? " He looks at Sam who give him a nod. " I think he doesn't look like me. "

Rowena chuckles. " I don't know, darling. But DNA test later. Now I need you to come with me. "

" For what? And who are you? My sister? "

Rowena sighs and rolls her eyes. " Please, Winchester is a curse. Don't get me involved. I'm Rowena MacLeod. I'm ahh-- " 

" Our friend. " Sam filled her pause. Rowena scoffs with a small arrogant head tilt. 

" Okay. I like you Rowena but do I have anything that can help you. I mean I just saw this guy-- " he glances at Cas. " And I can't stop him from crying and I don't know anything. You know, not even my name. " 

" That why I want you to come with me boy. I'll tell you when we get to that room. " Rowena points to the bathroom and bend forward, whispers in Dean's ear  " It's something that could make that guy feel better. "

" Really? " Dean's eyes wider. Rowena give him smiles and nods to insist. " Then, okay! " 

" Finally. " Rowena says as when Dean move his ass up from the bed. His hand still hold Cas's, linger on it until distance make them apart. 

" Cas, Are you okay? " Sam asks when the door of bathroom shut. He sit next to Cas, give him a concern eyes contact.

" Yeah. I'm great. Dean just forgets everything over and over. I just have to talk the same things like I'm a tape. "

" Cas. " Sam shakes his head. " I'm sorry to put you in this situation. Seeing him like that-- " Sam pause and let a heavy breath out. 

" It's alright, Sam. You hurt too, I know. I'm glad that I be here for help." Cas smiles and pats a younger hunter's shoulder. " He will be back. Our Dean will be back. "

" Thanks, Cas. " Sam smiles and then they sit there with highest hope. When the door open they immediately look at the same direction. Dean walk after Rowena who that show them worry. She shakes her head.

" Who are those hippies? " Dean's question make their heart sink. Their face was drawn with sadness as a tear welled up in their eyes. Rowena bites her lower lip and then turn to face the one who bursts a wheezing laugh out. She smiles and then join him the club. Two men were left in irritate.

" This is not funny at all! " Cas yells and stomp off the room. Ignored his name that was called. Sam rolls his eyes, blame on his brother. 

" What? " 

" You hurt his feeling, Dean. It's very hard to saw you slowly losing yourself! And Cas losing count to saw you like that.  And me too, you know? I thought we will really lost you for good. You're an asshole. " 

Dean sighs. " Yeah I am and I'm sorry, Sam. I didn't think about that. I'm sorry. " 

Sam looks at his brother and shakes his head with boredom. " I know you will and I forgive you, jerk. "

Dean chuckles. " Yeah bitch! " The brother run into each other hug. Sam rest his head on Dean's shoulder. He cuddles his little brother tenderly.

" I'm back now and I can't wait to be your pain in the ass, Sammy. " 

" Didn't you already be? " Sam says with a huge smile. Dean shrugs his shoulder and smirks.

" Yeah, I always be. "

" You should go and talk to Cas, Dean. I believe he's waiting for your apology. " 

" All right! " Dean pull off his brother after a long hug. Then go on his way to an angel he hope that will be there for him.

And he is there, a man in a tan trench coat is sitting on a bench. Dean walk to him and find a lot of empty can around him, beer coke, soda, and so much type of drink. Dean wipes the litter out, clear the space for himself to sits next to Cas.

" You robbed a store, huh? " He give an angel a laugh and hope he will get that back but Cas just give a straight face.

" Yes! But not from store. " He points to a vending machine nearby. Dean nods, understand. 

" So which one you like the most? "

" No one, it all the same, molecule taste. " 

Dean's forehead furrowed. " So why-- " 

" Stop asking questions! " Cas throws the last can on the ground. " I'm tired of answer, Dean. Today is enough. "

" Okay, Cas. No question and you don't have to answer anything just listen to me that-- I'm sorry, man. I know I gave you a hard time. And I still being an asshole. I can't help it anyway, you know me. " Dean slightly laugh. Cas crosses his arms, listening with a scowl face. " I don't know what to say but sorry, Cas. Can you forgive me and stop doing that face. You still handsome but-- " 

" I didn't mad at you. " Cas says and faces a human he fall for. That's really him, the complex and deep feeling are there behind his enchanted eyes where it can make the angel's heart clenched. It remind him about there no more chance to get close to him like that and to being loved like that again.

" But you yelled at me and walk off. It's 99% you mad at me, dude. " 

" I'm just scared-- but-- but I'm okay now. " He says and gets up. Dean immediately grabs his arm to stay and look up at him.

" Scared to lose me? " Dean smirks. Cas looks away.

" Yes! And just-- just don't do that again. " He flicks Dean's hand out and walk to their room.

" Do what!" Dean yelled after Cas. Huge smile stucks on his face. " Forget things or kisses you!! " Cas's legs stopped. All the sensations in the body were gathered in his left chest. He feel happy, anxiety, and fear. 

The hunter make himself standing in front of the angel. Cas's staring at him. Dean's smile could burns him to dust, " Dean, what are you talking about? "

Dean chuckles. " Sometimes Rowena isn't a bad witch. " Cas can't believe that Rowena brings that memory back to Dean. Why's she did that? 

" Do you remem--- "

" Yes! " Dean cut his word. Cas's mouth agape. This isn't Dean's joke. He screaming internally. It's real, It's happening. He need to stay calm but how. Cas doesn't want to know himself right now.  How's Dean gonna think about it. Would he's gonna do? 

" Dean's I ah-- I-- " Cas struggles with his word. He's so scared and sweating like a pig. What if Dean tell him to leave. What if we can't be friends for that. His mind go crazy and crazier when Dean's lips touch on his. If he's not wrong he hear a giggle noise while it's happening.

After the come of nowhere kisses, Cas does nothing but blink his eyes to fight the beaming sunshine on Dean's face. And sure that they kiss each other more than hundred of times but this is---this is glory.  This is the real Dean, the Dean who he touched on every piece of his soul, the Dean who has so many thoughts, the Dean who cares deeply about everything. The Dean Winchester who both broken and beautiful.

" I love you, Cas. And I won't forget it. " He says it with a happy smile. He returns the word that Cas had been hidden for a decade. The angel have faith with so many things but not this. This now their love can be express in the way they want to.

" Cas! Are you okay? " Dean concern and clings with him. His voice echo in Cas's head and his face is blurry.

" I'm not sure " After the word, his vision goes black. This feeling is hard to baer. Castiel fall in Dean's arms as it's wings.

END... :)