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I wish to touch you... but I can not. For if I were too, you would die.
Sometimes... I dream. I dream of you. I feel your hand in mine. I see your beautiful smile, and fall in love with you all over again.
But then I wake. And it all disappears without a trace. I look around, but I see you nowhere.
I wished to hug you, hold you close, and if you wished... kiss you. But you're free now, and need me no longer.
I helped you to find an exit from the life and pain you suffered from. I wanted your happiness, no matter what.
Even if it meant I lost you.
Even if I'm lost without you.
You reaped my heart and ran away with it. So I close my eyes and dream of us. In a reality where we are together. Where you love me and I love you, where we are peaceful.
I let the illusions pull me down, until I could feel the difference between them and reality no longer.
I miss you so much, it truly hurts me.
It kills me inside.
You are gone and in peaceful rest, but you left me here alone and in restless heartache.
Sometimes I regret it, and tell myself I should have never let you go... But then I remind myself of how you sobbed when alone, the dark circles under your eyes, the scarred arms you tried to hide, and how you told me you wished to leave this world so badly.
When I offered to give you that exit, you took it. Cried and thanked me for giving you mercy, and asked for it to be painless.
It truly crushed my soul, but it made you happy.
I reaped your soul.
And you are now gone, far from my reach.
I wished you farewell and safe travel from this world to the next as I shed my tears
" Goodbye, My love. Goodbye My dearest, Geno "