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For you, I yearn.

Summary:

Hanamaki and Iwaizumi have one thing in common. They're both in love with people they can't have.

Notes:

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Hanamaki's fingers danced across the keyboard as he poured all of his focus into the game he is playing. His mouse moves rapidly across the gaming pad he has laid out on his desk, Iwaizumi's gentle humming filtered through his headset. Iwaizumi was working on his assignments while Hanamaki played, He heard a grunt from the other side and hummed.

"what's up Iwa?"

"Shittykawa hasn't texted me at all today, by now he'd usually be spamming me to call"

Hanamaki chuckled still focused on his game "isn't that a good thing?" Iwaizumi paused "yeah I guess it is, I'm just worried about him" Hanamaki's fingers slowed their movement "isn't Matsun there with him? he's probably busy"

Iwaizumi stayed silent, Hanamaki went back to his game, ignoring the dread building up in his chest.

"I'm glad he's hanging out with Matsun, this is new so I can't help but be nervous"

Hanamaki let out a frustrated grunt, exiting his game all of his focus gone "Oikawa is more than capable of taking care of himself, he's a grown man"

He heard rustling on the other end and chose to ignore it assuming it's just Iwaiuzmi's notes "besides aren't you supposed to be studying? why are you so concerned over this?"

"I've been friends with Oikawa since I was three maki, I always knew where he was or what he was doing, I can't help but be worried"

Hanamaki swallowed, biting at the inside of his cheek "I know Iwa, I didn't mean it that way, I'm just saying that it's not like Oikawa is alone either, Matsun is with him....unless you're worried about Matsun doing something"

Iwaizumi was quick to react "NO! no, that's not what I meant at all. I know Oikawa is an adult and I know that he's not alone, I'm just saying that it's out of the ordinary which is why I'm nervous"

Hanamaki opened his mouth to speak but was quickly interrupted by Iwaizumi's ringtone "speak of the devil" Iwaizumi murmured "Shittykawa is calling I'll be back"
He left the voice chat before Hanamki could respond. He sighed and stuffed his face into his hands, besides him, his phone pinged with a notification. He lifted his head to stare at it for a moment before reaching forward to grab it.

 

From: Matsun

➛ I did it!
➛ Matsun sent one attachment

Hanamaki swiped up on his phone to view the photo. His breath hitched when he saw it. It was a picture of Matsukawa and Oikawa laying in Oikawa's bed, Oikawa had his head on Matsukawa's chest and his phone to his ear, Hanamki stared at the picture silently. He wasn't sure how to react or what to feel, giving up he decided to be supportive of his best friend and text back

 

To:Matsun

From: Maki

➛ congrats bro, does this mean that the days of me listening to you ranting about how in love you are have come to an end?

 

He shut his phone off-putting it face down on his desk, he looked up to see that Iwaizumi was back in the voice chat again and put his headset back on. "what's up iwa?"

Iwaizumi stayed silent for a moment, Making Hanamki's nerves rise "Shittykawa has a boyfriend now"

Hanamaki chuckled "no way, Matsun finally confessed?" Iwaizumi sighed "yeah, apparently it was at the top of the Tokyo tower and everything, just how Oikawa likes."

Hanamaki noticed an edge to Iwaizumi's voice "are you not happy about it?"

Iwaizumi clicked his tongue "no, I'm glad. Now I want to have to hear him complain anymore, I'm just worried" Hanamki's phone pinged again. He ignored it and chose to further question Iwaizumi

"Why do you say that?"

 

"well, He's in Tokyo and Matsun is still in Sendai, you know how Oikawa can get with attention, just thinking it might become an issue"

Hanamaki joins his game again, determined to not let Iwaizumi's dejected tone bring his mood down "with all due respect Iwa, you're in America and Oikawa is here in japan yet you still manage to be on call 20 hours a day, you're practically married at this point"

 

He heard Iwaizumi splutter on the other end "what! we're not!"

"Yeah, yeah they don't even have to deal with timezones like you and Oikawa do Iwa, I think they should be fine...I guess you have to settle for fewer calls from now and on"

He heard gulping from the other side and assumed that Iwaizumi was chugging his water, when the gulping turned into coughing he became concerned "hey dude you okay?"

Iwaizumi coughs a few times before giving a coherent response "yeah, I'm leaving I have work to do bye maki"

A beep rang through Hanamki's headset signifying Iwaizumi's departure. Hanamaki shut his PC off, not in the mood to play anymore and then checked his phone to look at the notification from earlier.

 

From: Matsun

➛ Tōru just got off the phone with Iwa, also now that he's my boyfriend you'll never hear the end of it. He is too cute

 

To: Matsun

From: Maki

➛ yeah Iwa just informed me of the status of your relationship. I hope you're ready for the competition

 

Matsukawa saw his text as soon as he pressed send, Hanamki watched the little bubble at the screen dance while Matsukawa typed.

 

From: Matsun

➛ fuck, well I'm just glad Tōru is oblivious, Besides there is no competition, I'm the Boyfriend He's just a friend.

 

Hanamaki clenched his jaw at Matsukawa's text. He knew where Matsukawa was coming from, but it was simply wrong. Iwaizumi and Oikawa weren't just friends. They were so much more, they have known each other since born. Iwaizumi knew Oikawa better than Oikawa knew himself. If it were Hanamki in Matsukawa's spot he would be way more worried about Iwaizumi.

 

Not that Iwaizumi would do anything. He respected all of Oikawa's relationship no matter how much it hurt him. Part of Hanamaki was genuinely convinced that Iwaizumi was so deep in denial about his feelings that he wasn't even aware of them.

Iwaizumi was a closed-off man, He bottled up all of his feelings and only let them out when it became too much to handle. Hanamaki was afraid that this relationship would push Iwaizumi to his breaking point.

Besides all of that, Even if Iwaizumi came to realize his feelings, it's not like Oikawa likes him back. It was painfully obvious that whatever feelings Iwaizumi harbored towards Oikawa are one-sided. Hnamaki cringed at the memories of their interactions, Iwa was trying too hard and Oikawa was as Oblivious as a rock.

Swiveling in his chair, Hanamaki tossed his phone onto bunched-up sheets hogging up his bed, Before standing up and flopping down face-first into the bed, letting himself get drown in the variety of fabrics splayed out across his mattress. He turned his head to the side, eyes scanning over his mess of a room. He'd been hauled up in here all week and the place barely looked livable.

He stared at his room with exhaustion, just wanting to lay in this bed and never get up. He flipped onto his back blankly gazing up at his ceiling and sighed. The rooms need to get cleaned either way. Doing it now would be better than later.

Reluctantly he got out of bed and started on his task for the day. Making sure his room is spotless before 11 pm. He started slowly, picking items of clothing off the floor and throwing them into small piles on the floor, one for his pants, the other for jackets. One was for clean laundry he had yet to put away and another for dirty laundry he needs to do by the end of the day.

Before he knew it, the floor was spotless, his clothes were neatly folded in his drawers, the only thing left to do was tidy up his bed, then he'd be done.

He stood with his hands on his hips, admiring how nice his bedroom looked when it wasn't as filthy as a barn. He felt tired yet serene. It had been a while since he had felt this way, the feeling of fulfillment was one that he had forgotten.

He started to handle his bed, Pulling the sheets off, the many blankets and pillows he uses falling onto the floor in one swoop. Amidst the destruction of his bed, his ear picked up on a humming noise, one all too close to the sound of a vibrating phone. He looked back to the pile of plush on the floor knowing that his phone was somewhere in there. After a few seconds of blindly searching through the multitude of fabrics on the ground, his fingertips came into contact with cold glass. He gripped it and pulled it out of the mangled sheets with more force than necessary. Managing to pick the call up on the last ring.

He swallowed before speaking, his throat suddenly feeling dry "uh..hey?"

"I'm coming back to japan"

Hanamaki stood in silence for a moment, his brain not having registered the familiar voice yet.

"uh...when?"

"for Christmas break. Tooru says we should book a fancy hotel room and spend the day together"

"Oh"

"....yeah"

 

"that's really good to know Iwa, I'm glad you're coming back it's been a minute I was starting to miss your grumpy face"

He heard Iwaizumi laugh on the other side "yeah It really has been, also I'm not grumpy you guys are just stupid"

Hanamaki chuckled "Only sometimes, you know you love us, also did you need anything else you know you could have just texted me?"

"we've been talking about this in the group chat for the past hour"

"oh...my bad"

 

"no worries Hiro, just glad to be coming back, to be honest"

Hanamaki felt his cheeks heat up at the sudden nickname "..Hiro?"

Iwaizumi was silent for a few seconds before letting out a sheepish laugh "sorry about that, it kinda just slipped out"

"no! no...I don't mind it.."

The call was starting to get a little awkward and Hanamaki was sure his face was red

"it's better than maki, that's for sure"

Iwaizumi huffed "well then...see you soon Hiro....I missed you too...by the way"

 

Hanamaki sucked in a breath, chest feeling very tight all of a sudden "see you soon iwa..."

Iwaizumi hung up and Hanamaki dropped onto the floor covering his face in embarrassment

"god...I'm so whipped"

Notes:

Decided to expand on the original Matsuoi fic! that one can be read as a stand-alone still but that fic gave me so much inspiration so here I am with this one :)

 

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