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You closed the door softly, gently set your bag and coat down on the chair as you made your way to Peter's room. Normally he's out to greet you when you come home...
He must be working on a video.
You lightly knocked on his door. “Come in Darling.” was his muffled response. “Hey.” you poked your head in, he was editing in his chair. You closed the door after stepping inside and walked over to him.
Without a word you crawled onto him mounting his lap and nuzzled into his neck. “It's been a day.” You mumbled as you held him close. You felt his right hand rub your back with just the right amount of pressure. “Did you want to talk about it?” his baritone voice rumbled from his chest. You shook your head 'no'. Your grip tightened and you buried your face into his neck more.
The two of you sat in silence for almost an hour. The sun was coming in though the thin white curtains. Casting the room in soft yellows and oranges. You started to dose off listening to his breathing and clicking of the mouse.
“It's been more then a long day...I guess.” You mumbled out. He stilled moving to look down at you. “What happened my love?” his grip tightened around your back. “Just a big sad.” you cuddled more into him and pulled him into hug.
He easily moved his arms under you and moved you both to the bed. You were facing each other and he ran his finger in your hair as the other stroked your cheek. “My Darling. Sunspot. Light of my life.” He showered you in pet names as he looked in your eyes. You started to tear up and looked down to his hoodie string as you mindlessly played with it. With a tight throat you started to speak. “Peter? Can I ask a selfish question? And can you say yes? Even if it's a lie.” you tried to blink a way the tears as your cheeks heated up and you started to shake.
He stilled and moved your chin up. When you looked into his large dark blue eyes they were full of concern and love. He wiped your tears away with a gentle smile. “You can be as selfish as you want with me, sweetheart.” You tried to smile but you just started to cry harder. “Wi-will. Will-” you cut yourself off with a repressed cough. You could feel the panic attack coming on as your eyes darted around and looking everywhere but in his warm, loving, eyes.
He didn't say anything, he just kept wiping your tears patiently and looking at you with love. “If. If.” You tried again before letting out a sob. You felt the snot and spit come out and run down your face. You opened your eyes in a panic. “I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!” You moved to get a towel or something. He just smiled and wiped your face off with his sleeveless hoodie. “Darling. It's okay, I can handle this.” his soft voice rumbled out. If he knew how much those words meant to you... “Now, what can I do for you?” he started running his fingers in your hair again.
You pulled on his long sleeves and hid your face in his neck. With a deep shaky breath you took the plunge. “Please don't leave me alone when you find someone better.” The flood gate opened and you could feel both his skin and hoodie get soaked. You were both pulling him as close as you could and tring to curl into yourself.
“I-I know, I'm not the best at sh-showing affection. And. And I can't. I. Pet names. It's hard. And you can just rattle them off...I want to. I can't.” You rambled on. “And someone will be able to give you what you deserve. And I. I'm sorry. I can't.” You felt him pull you close by the small of your back and cradle your head. He let you let it out as he set his head on top of yours and snaked his long legs in-between your own. “When I'm not shiny and new anymore. Or when I get to be to much...” You hugged him close by his chest.
“Please. Please. Don't leave. Leave me alone.” You brokenly sobbed throat raw and voice scratchy. He whispered your name and you could feel his chest rumble. It calmed you just enough to listen. “You are the best thing to ever happen to me. And if I have to spend the rest of our life's proving it to you over and over again. I will. I promise.” You moved to look up at him. He rubbed the back of your head as he looked into your bloodshot eyes. “You are my world. I'm never leaving you. You will never be to much, my love.” He has a soft smile. “I'll never leave you alone. No one can keep me from you. Ever.” He pecked your forehead before he touched it with his own.
“I love you.” You said. It was the first time you said it. Normally you could just say 'you too' when he told you. You were shaking, fluids coming out just about all the holes in your face and bloodshot eyes with cheeks to match. But he looked at you with such devotion and love. Like he was seeing a cyprid in person. “Oh. Oh, Darling.” he started to tear up. “I love you too.” he kissed you. “I love you so much.” he said before he went in again. “I love you more then life it's self.” His wide grin showed off his sharp teeth as he let out a happy giggles.
You couldn't say how long you two stayed in this calm happy bubble. You didn't want it to end. The sun set and only light was from the table lamp he turned on. “I want to see the face of my one and only.” he almost slurred as if he was high off just cuddling. “What one do you want?” You blushed not meeting his eyes. “What do you mean Darling?” he breathed into your hair. “Nickname. What one?” You had your arms around his waist and was smoothing out the wrinkles. Trying to calm your nerves...somehow. He softly chuckled. “My Angel, anything you give me I will treasure.” “Then. Then what about Love Bug? Or Beloved? Is Honey good?” You moved your head to look at him to see what he would say.
Instead you were met with Peter red in the face and frozen stiff. Almost like you broke him. It was cute. Really cute. You worked up the courage to say one more. “You okay there Hon?” He blinked a couple times and pecked your lips. “Your playing a dangerous game Bumble Bee.” He playfully warned.
You smiled and kissed his cheek. “Alright, I'll stop.” You were to emotionally and physically drained to do anything tonight. And as if on cue you tried to hold back a yawn.
“I love you. So much Darling.” his eyes didn't leave you as he reached over to shut the lamp off. “I love you too Peter.” You smiled pulling the blankets from behind him. You touched your foreheads together and started to drift off. “You don't know what a gift you've given me Darling.” You heard him when you was half asleep. “I'll do anything for you.” You hummed breathing in catching his smell of fresh laundry and cigarettes.
You sighed and the last thing you felt was his lips on your cheek.