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You decide to sit with Saeran as he's busy on the computer playing LOLOL.

It's not easy considering he's moving unintentionally.

And of course he notices.

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Happy new year everyone \^∆^/ 🎉

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"This is weird. I can't remember putting the item in there."

"Hm.. Maybe you forgot because of the boss fight?"

You tried to guess, not sure what exactly triggered his oblivion in the first place. Not that it's always easy to keep track of every item in such a difficult game, something you wouldn't have the patience to even attempt. Yet Saeran usually remembered where he put his stuff. Although it seemed like a bad idea before, considering Saeran's not the best at keeping composure at times, he's oddly talented to play games like LOLOL. The moment Yoosung called to celebrate that Saeran agreed to join his group, you've been stunned since the he wasn't much fond of technology anymore for obvious reasons. But he agreed to try, it didn't surprise you as he quickly became one of the best players in that small group. So much so, some already gave him the nickname of God. So hilarious..

Even though he kept himself away from the computer most of the time, there's no denying he's owning an hand for everything you could control with the mouse. He pushed the buttons of his keyboard with the speed of light, not in need to look down either as he's more than well acquainted when to comes to type until either the keys steamed or his fingertips started bleeding. Is there anything this devil can't do!? The room's lit by only the little bedside lamp of his, the screen showing the game that's running with you resting on his lap after a rather stressful day passing by. The emails for the guests were your last concern, the fact you're going to lead the decorations this year, however, soaked lots of energy from your system. 

That's why you enjoyed to just chill inside the redhead's arms, his familiar sent rising into your nose while he's busy defending the other players. Although they're all in a call, Saeran had their voices just running in the background without actually joining. Curious as to why that it, he just shrugged his shoulders before mumbling something about privacy, and you figured that's fair. He needed that more than anyone else you knew, Saeran deserved everything he asked for. Apart from teasing you, one day, you swore you both in silence, you're going to slap his face red. However, today's quite calm for his standards. He didn't touch you as much, no comments either and if so, only about the game on the screen. Good. Finally some peace.

Nevertheless, his sent stayed stuck inside your head for the rest of the evening. The sweet note that corrupted your senses never failed to let you become aware of the position you're currently in. None of you thought much as you brought him tea, he just grabbed you by the waist to ask about your opinion for some stuff. And before you're able to process it, you're sitting on his lap with him playing the game. You didn't point it out, instead you used the rare moment of his focus being somewhere else to cuddle against his chest with your back. It's warm, comfortable. Saeran.. Although it's probably stupid, you couldn't help but turn your head to keep your nose against his neck. He didn't seem to mind anyways.

"I can't believe I forgot to heal the goddamn tower.. Jesus Christ it's not so hard."

You pulled your lips into a thin line in order to suppress another giggle, you couldn't help admitting that his constant hissing and cussing's quite funny. Especially as it's due the most easiest things inside the game, how come he could beat ass without batting an eye but not remember to heal the most important tower? Such a silly douche.. The red color on your cheeks increased drastically because he suddenly jerked forward to see the text on the bottom better. Oh-! Immediately cursing yourself for feeling hot by that unintentionally movement, you bit down your lower lip. Hell no. No way you're letting that get into your body in form of excitement. For once he's behaving, you couldn't fuck that up now.

But to your shame, it caused your legs to tremble for a short second the moment he did it a second time. What's wrong with my body!! Sometimes you wished to hit yourself for being both shy albeit easy to get. It's no use, the way his lower body pressed up against your butt had you think less about LOLOL. His touch's overweighting everything else. Man.. Only now you noticed his breath close to your bare neck, the air hitting the heated skin there forced your body to shudder. Did he wore shorts that thin the entire time? You could feel more than before, realizing once again in what kind of position you're in. Both his arms blocking the way as he's typing. The cream colored sweater soft when leaning back more against his chest. 

He's so hot all the time. Despite his icy glare or cold eye color, there's no day where Saeran's body temperature didn't dwarfed the heat of the heater. You tried not to squirm in his lap, surely he would become aware of the situation if you're grinding against him, not that you wanted. Absolutely not. I can't even blame him now– The bitter taste of defeat spread on your tongue when remembering he's completely invested into the game. You looked up from the corner of your eye, his red hair as chaotic as ever. Pale skin affected by the different colors of the screen while biting his lower lip from time to time. Shit. He's way too handsome, it's unfair. His brows frowned the moment he's unpleased with something, yet his eyes shone brighter after winning the round. Captivated in all ways possible.

"Ah, there. Have you seen the arrow pointing into the right direction? I missed it."

Your heart skipped a beat when he lowered his head, looking at you. As quickly as possible, you turned your face back to the screen with the blush reaching your shoulders. Oh God I didn't pay attention-! The attempt to swallow the lump ended in vain. What should you say? Would your voice work? Somehow you doubted it, therefore you decided to shake your head. Saeran luckily didn't bring up anything about your weird behavior before looking back up to run to the next spot. Sadly the pressure that's bulding between your legs didn't let go, stubborn whenever he's the one in your space. What do I do? You didn't want to excuse yourself to take care of the problem, you didn't get to stick with the younger Choi in peaceful moments that often.

But staying now would make the feeling worse, the way your heart began to hammer against your chest by how wrong it felt. Hopefully he couldn't notice the heat that corrupted your skin. I'm screwed either way. Great. You almost rolled your eyes, it's intoxicating to breath his sent. But at the same time it caused your legs to rub against each other. No chance to deny, you're excited from such a simple, unintentionally touch. That's what Saeran did to you every day, even when not being aware. Maybe.. Feeling your nerves dancing Tango, you pushed back against him to create friction. Just a bit, like you're trying to adjust to stay comfortable. Unable to miss how his fingers flinched for a moment, he went right back to play. You're unsure what that meant.

Regardless, that felt really good. Having no full control over your body anyone as the air became thicker, you did the same motion again. You swallowed the gasp, whenever you're moving against him, he responded by flinching forward an inch. Not much, but it's definitely there. Fuck this is... Ashamed for your actions, you tried to focus on the fight in front of you instead. But your body decided to work against that order and press deeper into his lap, that way you felt more of him. This is really good– Your thoughts got interrupted as one of his big hands suddenly grabbed you by the waist, it scared you so much your breath stayed stuck in your throat.

"Please don't move so much, lovely. I need to concentrate on the task."

You blinked in shock, that's not what you expected him to say even remotely. He's not..? Incapable to finish that thought process, you didn't know how to feel about it. That's unusual, you would've bet money once he noticed your movements he would take advantage of that. Yet he clearly didn't try, too busy keeping the game running. Wow. Somehow that sparkled a new feeling in the depths of your stomach. He prefers the game over me, huh? Jealousy greeted your heated body, not able to stop it creeping up into your head. Normally he's onto you in no time, giving you full attention once you're allowing him to come close and play his silly game. But now he's too occupied by finishing in game tasks? Bullshit.

A little groan vibrated in your throat before you moved back against him, using more pressure on purpose. This time his breath hitched, the hand coming back to take hold of you a second time. Difference now, he didn't take it away anymore. You don't get to decide when we play all by yourself.. it's not fair! It really wasn't. Then again, Saeran never played fair towards you. It took lots of selfcontrol to not whine by how unfair everything was, instead you laid your head back against his shoulder when he jerked his hips back against your lower body after you pushed back for the countless time. The low growl coming from his mouth made your legs weak.

"Doll, stop that. You're going to make me lose focus when you move like that."

"What if.. I want that?"

That's a win for you, considering you're never bold enough to speak such words. They're nothing more than a whisper, yet you knew he received them as he squeezed your waist. Fuck the game! You glared at the screen with acid, like it's responsible for the envy running through your veins. Since when did you feel that way, though? You've never been the jealous type, but this was different. Just like he's different. Saeran ran the hand down to brush past your shirt and touch your bare skin with his fingertips. You inhaled sharply, although he's an heather, his fingers were always freezing cold. Oh.. Your eyelashes fluttered shut when he pulled you even closer against him. If you wouldn't have known better, you'd say he's getting harder underneath you.

"You're doing it on purpose.. Naughty thing."

Now he got the message, it's very embarrassing. Did he have to call you naughty, seriously. He's more naughty than any other person you've ever met. But you couldn't care all that much as his hand's running slowly over your belly, feeling the flesh there twitch by how sensitive you felt. That's good.. Your leg pulled up without premission, trying to lean deeper into his body. 

"Damn. Since when are you so willing? Don't tell me.. Are you turned on for a while by now?"

Unfair. How he's able to read you without even seeing your burning face. Aware you didn't have to answer since he already caught you, Saeran chuckled beside your ear. It send a shiver down your spine. Shit I'm so done for again. Even worse, it's all your fault. Since when? This just wasn't fair, but for once you're not in the position to judge. On the contrary, you probably should insult yourself for becoming wet from such a simple touch. It's quite impressive how he managed to continue playing with one hand, as the other wandered up your body. It's over, the moment his hand squeezed around your bra, you whined lightly. Given he laughed again, he must've enjoyed teasing you.

"Sorry princess, but I can't let them down right now. I need to focus."

He's saying lots of that stuff when running his hand back down into your pants, scratching his fingernails against your thigh. You asshole.. Biting the insult, his hand's suddenly gone from your body entirely. Saeran used the hand that worked on you seconds ago to type again. You couldn't believe it, he really dumped you for some stupid ass game. Not sure what to do next, you lowered your head slightly, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. Maybe.. Old insecurities rose back into your chest, leaving you to suffocate. Maybe I'm not important.. Sure, he's not playing often, it only made sense for the younger Choi to actually focus once he's putting time and effort into this. Not to mention, he pulled the team a lot, they needed him.

It's stupid to think that way, you're aware best. Yet it didn't imply for the habits of doubting your relationships to suddenly disappear. Your brain, (N).. Stupid anxiety.. You breathed through, wondering what your next move should look like. Should you leave? Actually give him space? But you're not happy when thinking about parting from him. I'm such a mess.. Why's he even keeping up with me. You pressed your hand to your forehead, trying to numb the slight headache that's pounding against your skull. He's surely just messing with me after all.. Before you're able to continue drowning in regret, you're pushed forward by the sudden pressure on the back of your head. Did he just.. kiss my hair? What–

"Sorry, angel. You know I like it when you touch me, just give me some time to finish this, okay?"

There. You fought the hot tears that raised behind your eyeballs. Did he realize..? He couldn't, you never told Saeran about these insecurities. Yet he found the perfect words to calm the storm taking place inside your mind. Feeling your chest warm up as the butterflies decided to flap around for the countless time, you leaned your head to the side. Damnit Saeran.. No way you're able to hold out now, the excitement that followed the cheesy emotions almost impossible to resist. The touch of his fingertips still burned on your thigh and breast. Payback? You smirked to yourself, it's just fair in your opinion. Therefore you turned your head again to leave a light kiss on his neck.

"But Saeran..."

He tensed, clearly affected by the pouting tone in your voice and your lips on his soft skin. He shook his head, a warning growl coming from his throat and it melted your knees to become jelly. It's your turn to rob his better judgement, that's revenge for all the times he teased you in public. You left a couple of kisses on his neck, grinding back against his lap. Fuck-! You almost moaned by how rough that one had been. His friends would understand he's busy, they couldn't really scold at him either since he's their backup. Saeran took your chin without care to pull your ear right next to his lips.

"If you don't stop I will punish you. So get the bratty act together and let me play."

A whine's all you could offer, that's a new way for him to talk. Normally he's teasing or mocking you a bit, but he'd never threatened you like that. Punishment? Honestly it fit Saeran, by his strict and straightforward personality. It's kinda hot– Catching yourself being a pervert, you shuddered as he nibbled on your ear for a moment, abandoning the game that showed no mercy and continued to run. That's it.. You breathed more heavily after he let go, hearing his character fight some monsters. He's serious, huh. No way you're letting this opportunity slip between your fingers. That's why you wiggled out of his grip, for the first time since the evening broke in you're capable to see his facial expression.

He's not looking back though. A light shade of pink covered his cheeks, red hair inviting you to pull. Truly a beautiful and tender boy. Saeran caught his breath as you sat back down, this time face to face. His mint colored eyes stared back at you for a moment, scanning for anything regarding disobedience. You just smiled sweet, giving him enough satisfaction to pay his attention back at the screen. Not for long, I won't let you win this time! As he's looking forward, you put both hands onto his shoulders for stability, laying your head down at his chest in order to hear his heartbeat. Very pretty sound, you loved hearing he's alive and well beside you. Another smirk crept over your lips, this time you rolled your hips back and forth.

The feeling caught you both off guard. You because it's much more intense when sitting closer and for him since he'd expected you to listen and take his words serious. Oh damn.. It caused you both to breath harder, the sound louder than his computer by now. Not waiting for consequences, you leaned up to kiss his neck again, running one hand down under his shirt like he'd done to you moments ago. He feels really good. He twiched under your touch, probably unaware he titled his head more to give you better access. This time he's the one pushing his hips up, rubbing against the wet spot between your legs. You gasped against his neck, meeting the next trust for the both of you to move together. Oh my god..

"Damnit (N)."

No time to complain that he's using your name instead of the million nicknames he had for you, Saeran leaned back against the chair to make eye contact. Oh shit– You felt sweat run over your back, the half angry and half aroused look's really doing something to you. I'm in trouble.. You acknowledged a bit too late since both his hands went back to hold you by the waist.

"You want attention? Fine. But we do it my way."

You nodded, biting your lower lip while wondering what exactly that meant for you. Saeran lifted you up before sitting you down from above, now that felt even better, even more of him to witness. He pushed your shirt up, which you let him do without resistance, he'd seen you naked before. The heat on your ears reminded you though, it's embarrassing regardless.

"Since you're that needy to push my limits, don't expect me to be nice with you."

Somehow that made the wet spot in your underwear even worse, shouldn't you be scared of that? Why's it such a turn on? Are you sick, perhaps? Who am I kidding.. You sighed as he leaned in to bite into the crock of your neck. Of course you are, otherwise you wouldn't let this devil come close all the time. His big hands went behind your back, cooling down your spine when following the bone down until he could take hold of your butt. That is– Thoughts lost themselves as he pressed back against you while holding your body down onto him. Your forehead hit his shoulder, hair falling over your face since that's immensely pleasurable. Now you could feel it clearly, he's at least half hard by now.

Saeran didn't ask as he opened your bra, but honestly, for once it's fine. You're far too gone to care about shame, you wanted him to take care of you and nothing more. Hm.. Your hands went through the slighty dry hair, feeling them fall softly over your fingers. It made you smile for about a second before you gasped loudly, feeling his mouth back on your neck to suck. It's sensitive-! You frowned, trying with pathetic strength to push him by the chest. But that only spurred him on to suck even harder, have you moan in response. Your back ached by the pain of his fingernails scratching down from your neck down to your coccyx. He took the opportunity to lean in and lick over your collarbone.

"Sae– I.. Too much.."

"Not my problem, you asked for this. So don't complain, darling."

How considerate. You thought sarcastically, moving back against him and mess up both your heads even further. Saeran carefully placed one hand back onto your chest, without fabric in the way, it scared you at first. He never touched you there before with bare skin, it's quite nice albeit unfamiliar.

"Is that okay?"

He asked in a rather soft tone, causing your heart to bleed for him. So much to not being nice.. Of course he wouldn't forget consent, even with the words that left his mouth at times, he's not a bad person. He's actually really lovely sometimes. Idiot. You nodded, letting him use more pressure to squeeze again, hearing you breath out unsteady. It made you jump in his lap when he pinched your nipple, that's a pain you didn't expect to experience. But the moment you jumped, it created another pleasurable friction between your bodies. Dear God.. It's a lot to take in, but too good to deny. You're able to hear him chuckle, although you're a bit distracted since he repeated giving you that pain.

"You're really cute, you know? If you wouldn't be so bratty right now."

Not sure if you should apologize, your hand pushed against his forehead by reflex after he leaned down to take the other into his mouth. That's weird-! Not sure how to feel about it, you let him lick over the sensitive skin there, the heat inside your body now running down your veins. Instead of actually getting distance between you, your hand ran through his hair to make him moan. You almost teared up by the vibration. God I'm so done for again! You chewed on your inner cheek as he left a bite right underneath your chest. The signature grin reappearing on his face's never a good sign, yet it made you whine out for him harder than before.

Saeran just smiled to himself, coming back up for a kiss on the lips. Sweet as always.. You titled your head by his hand taking hold of some of your hair. He immediately licked over your lips, demanding entrance which you could never refuse when it came to him. You moaned into his mouth as he went rough after pressing his tongue to yours. He leaned your head back completely, holding you in place by using pressure on your jaw with his fingertips, such a familiar touch by now. More.. You tried to pull away, sadly the man on the chair didn't let you as he pulled your hair back. No other choice left, you moved your hips over his again, your heat coming in contact with his erection.

"Shit.. You really want this today, don't you."

He pulled away to whisper with a husky voice, having the hair on your neck stand up. Maybe you did, maybe for once you're the needy one. But he couldn't blame you, either. Saeran's breath felt like fire when hitting your shoulder, both his hands coming around to open your pants. It forced your eyes to widen and your heart to skip a beat due to fear. Wait.. not like that!

"Saeran!! Not w-without–"

"Shh, I won't. One layer less would feel better, that's all I do. Alright?"

It's shameful he's aware what you're trying to communicate, but on the other hand you're grateful he could understand without much words. That spared you some embarrassment. He really knows me by now, damn.. Therefore you hummed in agreement, letting him take off your pants before they landed somewhere on the ground. Suddenly you realized you're sitting in only panties while he's completely dressed. That ain't fair.. You tugged on his cream colored shirt then.

"Can– Can you also.. t-take something off..?"

The young man with red hair and mint eyes huffed amused before taking hold of the sweater from behind, coming off soon afterwards while the blood red tank top's still on his body. Such a color contrast, the shirt's torn at the edges and ridiculously loose, showing a lot of his chest just by that. I can't believe he used to walk around like that– He took hold of the red top as well, didn't manage to take it off however since you caught both his hands. Giving him a rather shy look through your eyelashes.

"K-Keep it on, please? It.. looks really good on you."

The compliment lost on strength the more you spoke, it's hard to be so open about things that had multiple meanings. Saeran's brow raised in surprise before he cupped your cheeks for another, more sensual kiss. While you're melting into the affection, you moaned into his mouth as he pulled your body back down onto his. Without your pants in the way, it's painfully obvious that he's hard. It let you feel excited for some reason. More.. You put both arms around his neck, deepening the kiss yourself by running your tongue over his lower lip. He made a small sound in the back of his throat, digging his nails deeper into your hips before starting to constantly grind against you.

"Fuck that's better.. You feel really good."

He cussed breathless, having you bury your face into the crook of his neck once again. Your nails also took hold of his shirt when he repeated to press his erection against your burning body, having your legs shake from the desire. Oh my god. You bit down a whine when meeting him halfway, both of you rubbing against each other when playing with the pressure to go either harder or softer messed up the rest of your functional brain. His panting's louder against your ear, his colder touch constantly ran from your waist down to your butt and back, like he couldn't decide where to keep his hands. The thought melted with your noises, you didn't even realize you put one of them into actual words.

"Take off your pants too.."

You whispered, only then becoming aware what you just asked for. Oh no- Before you're capable to take it back, the sound of fabric filled the room, pushing you off for a second to do exactly what you asked for. Seeing Saeran in only boxers and the red tank top's an imagine that's now forever burned into your head. Especially with that lustful expression, his eyes shone much darker, it's almost intimidating. No time to think as he quickly pulled you back into his lap, probably impatient by now since he immediately pressed you back down against him. And oh dear god. That's dangerous. You could feel the tip of his cock push against your entrance now, he's twitching too. But you would be lying if saying it's not hot like hell.

"Like that, pretty girl?"

He teased, you nodded right away. That's much better, way too good. How would it feel.. Your back ached by the sudden push, grinding down onto him over and over again without remaining control of your body. He's rough when trusting his hips up, hitting you halfway every time to fuck over the rhythm you're trying to maintain. He makes it impossible, though.

"Shit, Saeran.. that feels s-so good- ah.."

"You're really into it t-today, I bet it feels amazing."

He's right, no way you're able to argue about it. Instead you let the pressure build up in your lower stomach, whining and moaning as much as you wanted. The noises seemed to get the redhead going faster as well, the sound of your bodies grinding against each other's luckily covered up by the fabric, otherwise this would've been shameful to the bone. Then again, thinking about him actually entering you's making your legs twitch. How would he feel? Would it hurt? Would it burn? You wanted to find out one day. Saeran hummed when biting down a moan himself, he mumbled something you couldn't quite identify before he took your body to lean you more forward, it almost costed your balance.

You didn't get to question, it's answered the moment you're able to feel him trust more upward, against the most sensitive part of your body. Shit!! You yelped, that's even more intense than before. He didn't let you pull away from that torturing fire as he held your waist with strength. Oh no, fuck I'm gonna.. If he would continue trusting up in that angle, you're pretty certain it wouldn't take long anymore before coming undone.

"God sweetheart– ha.. You're gonna make me explode.. You feel so fucking amazing."

The praise chased another wave of pleasure throughout your veins, lifting your head to pull him into a sloppy kiss. Not caring about the mess you made, you just moved in sync with his hips, coming closer and closer after every single trust. It caught you off guard when he went faster, having you both moan from the rough handling. He must be close as well.. You broke the kiss, meeting his eyes in that situation's new. But he's looking so good, red from the exercise and sweat making his even redder hair sticky. Without thinking you reached out to brush it away, revealing all of his face. Beautiful. It's not uncomfortable to stare into his eyes like that, it's actually a lot more intimate than you assumed. A good kind you cherished.

To your surprise, he's the one who lost it first. Your eyes pinched close when he went even quicker than before, he would certainly leave fingerprints on your waist after this. Saeran's rhythm began to stutter, making you wonder as he started to breath heavier. He then suddenly shuddered, cussing through closed teeth as if he's hissing instead. You could feel him twitching underneath you as it became wetter than it already was, you understood after a moment that he just came. Oh my.. Knowing that, it somehow send you over the edge as well. Since he continued to give little trust, you felt yourself shake due to the intensity of your orgasm, having you die down another loud moan. Fire exploding like a bomb, the bliss better than usually. Oh, oh God.. His hand on your back's hot now.

After your body stopped shaking, you both breathed loudly, chest raising and falling to catch yourself and come back to reality. Damn. You let go of his abused shirt, running your hands through his hair instead. That felt really good.. Maybe being the one asking for this rather than have him tease you's also quite nice. Maybe you should jump over your shadow from time to time and actually be the one going for it. You're certain he would like that.

"I liked this, Saeran. I liked it very much."

Figured it's okay to be open about it for once. Embarrassment or not, shame or not, he's making you feel good and that's worth acknowledging. The man with minty eyes nodded, still finding his composure while rubbing over your back. He's kinda cute.. You watched his eyes search for focus when cupping his hot cheeks in your hands. Saeran sighed before smiling a genuine happy smile, it made your heart scream for him so much louder. He's always pretty after these kind of things, showing actual feelings rather than just desire.

"Good.. I liked it too, princess. I love–"

He stopped himself right away, both your eyes widened as there's tension coming back into the air. Panic crawling over his face, yet the damage's done regardless. You couldn't do anything other than blink, waiting for him to finish that sentence. Is he... About to admit he loves me?! Or what's happening– Your heart showed no mercy as it banged against your ribcage. Same case for Saeran because the color on his cheeks went many shades darker. He licked over his lips, looking away while clearing his throat.

"I love that.. we have so much fun together."

His voice's not as certain as normally, there's a slight hint of hesitation behind his statement. It actually confused you, which must've shown in your posture as Saeran gazed your stare before tensing his shoulders. Oh.. Your big doe-eyes scanned every inch of his burning face. Is he.. ashamed? You couldn't help but feel your stomach sink, the flat hand of rejection hit you like a freight train. Is he scared to have feelings for me or something..? There were endless possibilities as to why he cut himself off and said these words in the first place. That's a nightmare, maybe you interpreted everything wrong. He might not want to actually form a relationship with you, what should you do if that's the case? There's so much at once to feel.

You pushed your hand against his chest to climb out of his lap. He's always messing with me.. Somehow the scene back at the beach filled your head, the way he avoided to answer you correctly and kept on postponing the subject afterwards. Am I.. just a plaything to him after all? You could've cried, instead it frightened you as he pulled you back into his lap sideways. The air now cooling down your body temperature, having you shiver. But Saeran's arms made it bearable. He didn't let you squirm out of his grip, he's holding onto you rather tight. His voice nothing more than a whisper, it sounded wrong to hear it waver with emotions.

"Don't leave! I just– You know me. It's not always.. easy."

He placed your head against his chest, his heart's beating pretty fast. Oh. Now it clicked in your head, that's what's going on. He really was.. about to confess. Wasn't he? Your body burned all over again, yet for much different reasons. Saeran's someone that dealt with lots of betrayal and abandonment in his past, it's giving him a hard time interact with other people. Or just open up about himself. He's not ready. That's what's going on. The relief managed to let the weight of your shoulders fall down, you slowly put your hand over his heart. Silly. You smiled, a little giggle escaped your lips, even. Saeran relaxed again as he heard that sound filling his room. 

"You're okay, don't worry. I get it. I also love that we have fun together."

He placed a kiss on top of your head, pulling you as close as you could come. Now that you're capable to inhale without pressure, the uncomfortable mess between your legs required attention. I need to pee. You turned his face with your fingertips, making eye contact. My pride.. it's doable. Unsure how that happened, you smiled at him, making sure he knew it's alright. Saeran returned the gesture smaller, but therefore truthfully.

"I need to get clean. By the way, sorry for um.. interrupting your game."

"It's fine, I just say I had to take care of something. Would you mind me joining in the shower maybe, baby girl?"

There it was again. The grin paired with the words spoken seductively had you cover his face with your hand. Saeran's voice's muffled to your luck as you pushed him away, being ashamed to the bone by the mere imagination. Cursing yourself for your voice coming out high pitched.

"Shut up!! You won't s-shower with me you pervert!"

"We'll see how that works out in your favor, my dear (N). We will see."