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2007
I can't believe it
Right in front of me, I met you again after two years
There were a lot of things that I want to say to you. A myriad of words in my mind that I want to articulate for you, but at the same time my tiny heart told me it's better to remain silent.
But I'm allowed to say some, right?
"Also, last from me, Kokonoi Hajime," said the blonde seconds after I started to walk away from him. I turned my head to see his face, the face that I will never forget for years and more. I can see his eyes are full of worry.
"After all of this, are you happy now, Koko?" Asked Inui aka the guy that had been on my side for years, the guy I used to saw him as his sister and the guy who recently I fell in love with.
I snorted. So, he really still worried about me, huh? After all this time? Classic Inupi. "Your happiness is my happiness. As long as you keep happy, I'm happy too."
I turned my head, closed my eyes and smiled to Inui, "Make yourself your own new life, then life a good life with it. Find another person that make you the happiest and the luckiest man in the world, unlike me that treated you bad back then, Inui."
"I hope for your health and prosperity, so when I'm already on another side, I don't have to be worried about you anymore. I think It's the time for us into our part of separated ways and shall never ever meet again. Goodbye, Inupi. I see you in another time, another place, and maybe in another life."
Then I walked away from him, passed through the rain, that felt heavier and heavier as if the rain really teasing us (really, I was soaking wet. I have to get rid of this wet clothes and get a proper warm bath after this). The first minutes, my feet felt heavier to walk and I want to see his face again for the last time but my mind reassured me to not looking back at him.
"It's enough, Hajime. You already saw his face for the last time. What are you waiting for? It's time to go." The Boss will looking for you.
Then next second, it feels so light to walk away from him. It feels so light for my legs to ran away and left Inui Seishu soaking wet under the heavy rain.
After the tiring day and the unexpected reunion, I gave myself an appropriate warm bath and then go back to my work room, dropped myself down to a small couch because my body and my back was tired as hell after the previous gruesome battle. How can I forgot the battle? Mikey just beated the hell out of Terrano South's face, I doubt he's still alive after Mikey's severe attacks on his face. Foremost, he broke one of Takemichi's arm immediately before he beated South like Takemichi was an insect that blocked him.
I know that Mikey felt empty after Draken's death even he didn't saw directly. At first, I assumed that Mikey wasn't aware of Draken's death in the battle because he show no reaction or emotion there but I know he felt worse and I heard he said, "Ken-chin, my chest feels empty."
After this battle, I realized the one who I following now is a soulless creature in a form of a 18 years old blonde invincible criminal without a single drop light in his heart anymore and he can kill anyone in seconds. But who am I to disobey his decision? Now I'm one of his vital members, as the money river of his. This is my life now.
Out of blue, my pocket vibrating and I opened my phone. It's from one of my subordinate who texted me, told about someone who already sent me an email to talk about company cooperation. Right, I almost forgot I'll have a company business to do but it can wait for minutes.
I checked my gallery because I remembered I saved some photos about the details on there. I was searching for the picture down and unintentionally I was searching way too down until I saw my all old photos.
All of my old photos full of Inui's that I haven't (or forgot) delete from my phone at all.
I aside my time to see some good old photos of Inui and me with him in my gallery. Looking at those photo, I just realized how there were so much good and great moments when I used to spend my days with him. We were hand in hand for each other, like struggled how to start a life in Shinichiro-san's old garage as a place to stay after I ran away from home with Inui that I just saved him from fire. I was looking for money, for our living and for the sake of Akane-san, and Inui did most of our house chores (sometimes, he yelled at me how I often overwork until midnight and told me to stop so I can sleep).
Then I found one of the most beautiful Inui's single photoshoot. I remember when it was taken. We were strolling on a park and I offered him to take a pic of him with my phone because the blue sky was so bright, the wind was so cool, and everything used to be so beautiful there. The background suits his beautiness.
I rub the phone screen of Inui's beautiful face as if the last time I caressed his face and his blonde hair years ago and slowly tears down from my eyes until my hands were trembling and I decided to put my phone away and regain my focus back to my business, which I always do. Looking for money like usual.
Even now I declared myself that I'm moving on from you, why I still all of those? Look, you photos are still cluttering in my gallery and I haven't delete a single of it
It's so hard, so ton like to let you go. My first nights used to waste my tears for you and it seems like today I cry a river for you again. I can't forget your face, not hers but yours. I can't forget everything about you, that had been on my side for years and took care of me. I just can't...
This is the heaviest thing that my mind ever faced into. I still can't let you go off my mind. I can't.
I can't...
They said if you thinking romantically about a person more than two years, it means that you love the person. If that so, I can't get you out of my mind. If that so...please, Seishu, I love you. I repeat. I really, really love you so much and how I regret so much when you were gone from me. I'm so sorry to never look at you before and always to your sister instead when you always worried for me most of all the time. I'm sorry to never realized it before. I'm so sorry. Oh how much apologize do I want to say to you, but everytime I want to say it all to you, my mouth feels heavy and heavier.
Now, our world is different now and seems like we're not meant to be together in this big, cruel world, I have to go away from your life if that makes you happy. I have to as a form of my punishment for what I have done to you.
If there's currently another world when we don't have to be like this, will I become a good guy for you? Will me and you become a great couple, regardless what gender are we there, that we can't be now? Will I become a good boyfriend, a good husband for you? Will I spend whole my life everyday with you on my side and wake up in the morning to see your beautiful face and kiss me when you say, "Good morning, Hajime"? Will I hug you a lot in the morning, day and night? Will I kiss you tenderly for the first time and I try again, again and again with pink in your cheeks?
If reincarnation was real, let us reborn and meet again in the same era, in happier situation, wherever and whenever we will meet then, when I can become the best man that you will have.
So long, Love. You may be not mine here and soon I leave you soon or kill you soon, but I make sure that I'll be yours and you'll mine in another world when we don't have to be suffer like this anymore. So don't cry for me when I leave you soon. If the situation turned bad for me, then I should met your sister first up there. I'll tell everything and apologize to her, I promise.
Inui Seishu, I know this world is cruel and not for us, but I still love you.