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The day started as any other day would.
Leviathan woke up at around noon after watching the new episodes of the latest obscure anime everyone in the anime forums Levi spent a lot of time reading and updating were talking about and after that spent hours analyzing every tiny detail and making theories about how the next episode would resolve the cliffhanger the episode ended in.
After taking a quick shower and eating something before Beelzebub had time to empty the fridge again that day after whatever training routine he started doing.
After all that, Leviathan decided he would put in his favorite cosplay and take some pictures and see if he could post some in their secret cosplay Devilgram account that they were sure none of their brothers knew of.
Make-up done and outfit and wig on, Leviathan stood in front of the body mirror and smiled proudly and how good everything had come out before reenacting Ruri-chan’s iconic pose and lines:
“Petunias stand together! Flowers say never! Evil demons be on alert as I’ll plant your rears on the dirt! JUSTICE FLOWER! HANA RURI RU-RU!”
Leviathan couldn’t help but to squeal after doing so because it looked so damn amazing and cool! They couldn’t actually believe how good they looked at the moment, it was almost astonishing how into it they felt right now.
Feeling good and comfortable in cosplay wasn’t new to Leviathan, but this felt different in a way they couldn’t explain.
Levi just couldn’t stop admiring how good they looked in that outfit. But not only that but how the thigh highs hugged their thighs and made them look that plush and nice. How the flowy skirt moved around when they twirled. How the long hair of the wig framed their face just right making them look so pretty. Seeing themselves not only looking but also feeling so good dressed as their favorite character made Leviathan smile brightly and flap their hands in excitement, not able nor wanting to contain it inside while in the safety of their room.
At the moment Levi attributes that feeling to the inherent excitement of dressing as Ruri-chan because of course she’d feel like that when being her, who wouldn’t? Ruri-chan always made her feel like this, so, of course, this time wouldn’t be any different. She’d just had to accept that as fact.
And with that in mind, Leviathan decided it was moment to start taking the pictures while she still and felt so unbelievably good, even if she was sure the images wouldn’t be able to capture the reality of how truly divine she felt because if Leviathan had to describe what they were feeling at the moment, it would be euphoria.
Wait, wait, wait… Did she just say whatever is what she was feeling was euphoria? And for how long had she been referring to herself using she/her? And why did that feel so fucking great? It made no sense!
Well, it did make sense if what she was starting to think was actually true. But it couldn’t be true, could it? After all, if that was indeed true, it actually would make SO MUCH SENSE, so she guessed it might actually be true.
Leviathan knew she was non-binary, had been since… well, literally forever. Turns out she was also transfeminine and she was only finding out about it after cosplaying as an anime character.
Though, knowing how much of an otaku she was, it just made sense anime was how she realized that.
It would be a funny story to tell her brothers.
WAIT! SHE WOULD HAVE TO TELL HER BROTHERS ABOUT THIS!
How in the devildom was she supposed to tell her brothers about all this?
I mean, she was sure her brothers would be supportive. They had been back when she had told them she was enby. And it wasn’t as she was the only trans sibling around, not a single one of them was, so why was this such a difficult thing for her to do so?
She wanted to but she couldn’t just bring herself to actually do it.
When she thought of doing it, she wanted to curl in a ball in her bathtub bed and never show her head around.
Well, she could always wait a few things and think over how she could approach telling this to her brothers in a way she was comfortable and wouldn’t be awkward for any one of them.
Yeah! That sounded like a good idea! That’s what she’ll do!
****
Tonight’s the night.
Tonight is the night Leviathan had decided she’d tell her brothers about what she’s known for sure for around a week. She had even put the plan she had made in motion.
For starters, she had sent a message in the family chat that read like “I have something important to tell you all after dinner”. Something vague enough as not to raise suspicions but that still relayed the importance of the message, or so she hoped.
Before dinner time Leviathan decided to put on some cute clothes that made her feel so good in her own body, hoping that helped raise her confidence and put a stoop to her ever-growing nerves.
So with her favorite outfit on, a lolita cat overall dress combined with thigh highs and her favorite shoes, the demon took several deep breaths, clenching and unclenching her fists repeatedly, trying to keep everything under control and not ruin everything before it even had a chance to happen.
With that in mind, and taking several stops during her journey, both to make sure no one was around and to calm herself when she felt her anxiety taking the wheel.
But when her phone vibrated, she fished it out of her pocket and saw a message of Lucifer in the group chat telling her to hurry, that she was the one asking for them to be together and so she should be there already albeit in a more Lucifer way to say things.
Not wanting Lucifer to scold her further, Leviathan steeled herself and with a steady pace finally arrived at the dinner room, going to her chair not stopping for nothing, not even when she heard some of her siblings curious and confused stares directed at her and her outfit for such a normal occurrence such as dinner at the House of Lamentation was.
Once she sat down, dinner started and went on as normal, with Leviathan not raising her eyes from her food and trying to ignore the stares her several siblings kept on sending her ways and the questions that went with them.
It’s not like Leviathan was actually processed or heard anything her brothers were saying, so nervous and trying to keep her cool until dinner was over.
After a while, what for Levi felt like centuries but also as fast as a blink, dinner was over and once the dirty dishes had been taken to the kitchen, everyone sat down again waiting for what Leviathan had to tell them that was so important it even required a text message to make sure all of them were there together.
Making sure her breaths were even and that she was feeling ready, Leviathan looked up for the first time since she had entered the room that late evening and took the time to look around the table at each of her brothers in the eyes, her own face as expressionless as possible even if she knew her anxiety was apparent, if the cold sweat she was experiencing was anything to go by.
The expressions on her brother’s faces went from being calm yet curious to rather concerned to what she had to tell them.
Taking a deep breath, Leviathan prepared herself to say the speech she had rehearsed countless times in her mind and out loud in her room preparing for when she had to actually say it to her public.
“Okay, I have something to tell you all. I just want none of you to interrupt me while I say it or else I won’t be able to start again.” Leviathan started with that little request.
“Okay so I discovered, or rather, my egg finally cracked, like a week ago. I just needed time to put my thoughts in order and prepare myself and some kind of plan to be able to tell you at my own pace and in a way I could still be in control of the situation.” Leviathan continued, her hands fidgeting with the frills in her dress, her eyes fixed on the wood table “You already know how I’m non-binary, right? I mean, that’s quite the norm in this family after all… But yeah, as I was saying, around a week ago I realized I am actually transfeminine and more comfortable with femenine pronouns and words rather than masculine.” Leviathan confesses, feeling a huge weight off her shoulders once she’s finally shared this with her family.
But before she even has time to revel in the joy of the moment and while her brothers were in different stages of processing the news she’s just told them, Leviathan felt something.
A wave of utter and nauseating disgust hit and washed over her, drowning any positive emotions she might have been feeling, as she felt her throat constrict and could feel herself choking as tears welled up in her eyes without actually falling, just making her vision blurry, and from all the words she managed to get out, none were good and each worse than the last.
“Why did I just tell you?” Levi asks, not allowing no one to reply before continuing “It’s not possible for someone like me, a dirty and yucky otaku, to feel so good by just being me. I don’t deserve it.” she adds. Holding her head in between her hands, fists grabbing and tugging her hair in despair, Leviathan goes on and on with spewing demeaning and self-deprecating comments. “Either way, I’m just probably just projecting some disgusting fantasies and making them to be real outside the Internet and shit, taking this weird roleplay way out of context and its actual place. I’m probably just faking it all for a shred of attention.” Levi adds, so focused in her rant to even notice the tears falling down her face nor the horrified and concerned expressions on her brothers’ faces.
“Someone like me can’t be beautiful and feel cute like others do. It’s something I've always wanted and yearned for, but it’s just not for me.” the demon talks, Envy taking over her. Looking down as she was, Leviathan didn’t hear all her siblings standing up and walking up to where she was, wanting to comfort her but not sure if their touch would be wanted or if it’d send Levi further down the whirl she was in.
“It's just for me to look at from afar and just want it and never get it, making me envious of others and just make me miserable by knowing it will never be me. Still, not having it is something relieving since beauty and being cute and feeling good is something I don’t deserve.” she affirms, barely a whisper yet loud enough for her brothers to hear.
At this point, Lucifer was the one to take action.
“Leviathan, stop talking right this moment and look at me now that I’ll speak.” the oldest said, deciding to put a stop to his sister’s spiel.
“You do deserve feeling good and comfortable in your own body. You should not feel disgusted for simply existing and being you.” Lucifer continues, his ruby eyes never leaving Levi amber ones as he speaks.
“Take pride in living as your true self, and I think I speak for all of us when I say that we’re grateful you decided to share this with us. And that none of us think nor agree with what you said about yourself, so please don’t think so little of yourself.” Lucifer finishes, looking at the rest of the members of the family as they agreed with the eldest.
“I realized halfway through dinner that you weren’t listening to what any of us were saying,” Asmodeus pointed out, “because if you had been, you’d have realized I did say I found your outfit very cute and asked you where you had bought it. And you know I have the best eye for fashion and that I wouldn’t have said it nor asked you.” they said, kneeling down so they could wipe her tears away with their thumbs as they held Levi’s face so she could see they were speaking the truth.
“So believe me when I say this. You look very cute. And you’re beautiful as well. Not as beautiful as me, but that’s because that's just impossible.” the fifth born said, not letting go of Leviathan’s face so the girls got all the words they spoke through her thick skull and all the walls of self-deprecation she had up almost at all times.
“Leviathan, let me ask you one thing.” Satan then said, from where he stood next to her older sister, one hand on her shoulder as his way of comforting her. “I heard everything you just said but what struck me the most is when you said you had to be faking it.” he continued, feeling bad when he saw the way Leviathan cringed at his words and tried to defend herself.
“Before you say anything, allow me to continue. You said you thought you had to be faking it, when you think of yourself, what pronouns and what terminology have you been using?” he asked, looking at Leviathan a smirk appearing on his face when he saw how her eyes widened in realization confirming his suspicions.
“Just what I thought.” Satan concluded. “To fake it you would have to put time and dedication and time in doing so and you would know you were doing it. When someone thinks they’re faking their transness but feel as you were, it rarely is true. You are not faking it, you just discovered and are just being your true self.” Satan concluded, Levi’s shy smile slowly making way on her face making Satan feel proud. “I, for once, agree with Lucifer about what he said.” the blond added, before realizing what he just said biting the inside of his cheek not to make an undignified noise.
“You even made me agree with Lucifer and say so out loud, and that’s already a feat on its own.” he joked, allowing himself to chuckle once he heard Leviathan and the rest of his brothers laugh at his despair, Lucifer not included even if he looked close to doing so as well, a cocky smirk on his face.
Now that Leviathan wasn’t crying anymore and, with her family’s help and support, was feeling better by the second, a comfortable silence settled in the room as the seven siblings didn’t say anything and enjoyed each other’s presence.
After a while, Asmodeus was the one to break the silence when a rather high-pitched shriek as they stood stood up from where they were sitting and went to grab Levi’s hands on their own, a delighted smile brightening their face as their eyes showed their excitement for the idea that had just popped into their mind.
“We’re going on a shopping spree trip tomorrow!” Asmodeus exclaimed, their voice leaving no way to refute, so Leviathan allowed herself to be swept away by her sibling’s passion.
“It will be so fun! An only girl’s trip for bonding and gossip!” they added, the grin on their face growing when they saw Levi agreeing to it.
****
The following day came and it started with Asmodeus waking Leviathan up so she could get dressed and make the most of the day Asmodeus had planned for the two of them.
So after a quick breakfast, Asmodeus dragged them to the city, and even if Leviathan would have gone willingly Asmodeus didn’t even give her the chance to say so before they were already grabbing her arm and starting walking.
Once in the city, Asmodeus lost no time before taking Leviathan to several shops before Majolish where they made their sister try on several outfits and clothes and buy the ones they passed their high standards.
Of course Asmo allowed Leviathan to choose her own clothes, after all this trip was so she could get the wardrobe she’d be the most comfortable in but, Hell would be damned before they allowed her sister to walk around in ugly clothes. They had already given up on Satan and Belphegor, they would not do the same with Leviathan.
On their long, long walk before actually going to Majolish, the pair stopped on the café that was the hot-spot of the moment so they could eat and drink something as well as Asmodeus could post some of the pictures they’d been taking to Devilgram and brag a bit about the day they were having.
And when they finally made it to Majolish, before they could even set a foot inside, they saw Mammon exiting the building.
Turned out the second oldest had a modeling gig there and he had just finished for the day. And, with that, Mammon joined the other two on their spree, there was a gorgeous wine red suit she had seen while working that had been calling her name and he needed to have right this moment. He, also, wanted to see and have a say in what Levi was buying as well, “It was my duty as the oldest one there” or so he said.
Once Leviathan had seen enough clothes to last for at least two entire human lifespans, she begged her brothers to stop.
Nervously fidgeting with her hands, she shyly asked if they could help her get some new make-up. Yes, she already had some and was knowledgeable about it due to her cosplay experience, but, for some reason, it was different now she could ask others for help with this. Asmodeus, after hearing her words, practically started vibrating, barely containing her urge to just jump into the opportunity, allowing Levi to be the one to set the pace.
While browsing the make-up section, and while Asmodeus and Leviathan shared make-up tips and talked about which brands they both prefered, they didn’t notice Mammon slowly sneaking away. Or so she thought, because they had indeed seen him walking into a display case and whispering a string of curses, they just allowed her to do her own thing, assuming she’d come back at some point.
It wasn’t until the two youngest of the three finally exited Majolish, with several more bags to add to the several they had already acquired before, that they saw Mammon walk out of a jewelry store, hurrying towards where Levi and Asmo were now waiting, hiding something behind her back.
Once he joined her siblings again, Mammon finally showed them what he had just bought. Well, it was more like shoving a little velvet case into Leviathan’s hands, looking away to hide her very obvious blush she got for doing for his sister, and urging her to open it already so they could finally go home already.
Giving in to her brother’s insistence, Leviathan opened the case, her eyes widening when she saw what was inside.
Inside there was a pair of rose shaped earrings made of rosy silver with some
beautiful crystal embellishments. At the sight of them, Leviathan couldn’t help it when she started to tear up and gawked up at her brother, who right now had a soft yet very smug smile on his face.
“Of course the Great Mammon would give you something!” Mammon boistered “And since you’re always talking about that one anime with the flower magic girl, I thought I would give you something related to that. I spent all night looking for which flower represents Ruri-chan and these earrings were the most similar to it.” Mammon explained, her blush reappearing now that his two siblings were looking at him as if he had just grown a second head, a pout on his face as she made sure Leviathan put the earrings on.
So, with her new earrings dangling from her ears and carrying several bags and boxes, the three of them walked back to the House of Lamentation, talking about the plans they had the following days and the bonds between them stronger than ever.
Leviathan could finally proudly say she was living as her true self, sure her family would always be there to help pick her up whenever it was needed.