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Ar lath ma vhenan,
There are no words to express my sorrow for the pain I have caused you.
You were right to be angry with me. You deserved more than what I had left you with.
I cannot begrudge you that right, for I have done you a great injustice.
I was foolish to let myself fall into your embrace. Yet I would be misleading you if I said that I regret the moments we had together. You made me feel more joy than I could have ever believed in such a short time. Joy that I am unfortunately unworthy of.
I was ill prepared to face one such as you, for I could never have foreseen meeting such a rare spirit. I became enraptured by you before I had even realized the implication of my emotions. When you expressed that you felt in kind, I crumbled at the touch of your hand. I found my mind drifting from the Fade only to focus on the shape of your face, the sound of your voice and the lingering feeling of your lips against mine. I was selfish to allow myself to chase my desires, ignoring the other considerations that spoke against my very actions towards you.
I have left you for your own safety. Where I must go, I must go alone and my situation is not a simple one. It will not be safe for you to follow and my fate will not be one that you will find comfort in. Although I cannot tell you the nature of my quest, I can tell you that I left you behind not because I do not love you, but because I do.
I do not write this letter to beg for forgiveness, for I know that it is not something I deserve. I can only hope that my words may help you find happiness.
You are a precious and marvelous spirit. I wish only that you continue to live your life to its fullest as you bring a better future for all of Thedas.
Do not forget who you are ma vhenan, for there would be no greater tragedy if you do.
Walk softly on swift feet.
-Solas
-Letter found hidden between the pages of the Inquisitor’s copy of ‘Hard in Hightown’