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Minho's eyes were dark with lust as Jisung was laying on the bed looking at his exposed torso. The older just stood for a moment looking at his boyfriend's covered body, biting his lips as he got on top of him just to remove his shirt.
And then he stopped.
Every single drop of lust and enthusiasm left Minho's body as he looked at Jisung. The younger wouldn't look him in the eyes, wouldn't smile, wouldn't make any kind of advances on his own. Everything about Jisung seemed to scream he didn't want to be there.
- What's wrong? — Minho spoke softly, hand caressing Jisung's cheek.
- Huh? Nothing... Why did you stop? — Jisung looked up into his eyes for the first time.
- Hannie, my love you don't seem to want this..
- But I told you I want this, I gave you my consent. — The younger shrugged.
Minho let out a sigh, getting up only to pick up his shirt from the floor and putting it on his boyfriend, kissing his forehead lovingly.
- We can just cuddle for the rest of the night. — Minho spoke softly.
- N-no! I... You can keep going, really, I-
- Sungie, that's enough. I'm not doing anything with you like this. I don't want the lack of a "no". I'm searching for a yes in you and it's not there.
- I don't want you to break up with me.. — Jisung's voice was small as he said it, Minho almost didn't catch it.. Almost. But he did and it broke his heart.
- Baby, I would never break up with you. Why would you think that? — The older spoke immediately, hugging his boyfriend tightly while peppering kisses along his face.
- You'll get bored of me. That's what everyone says.. — That. That was the moment Jisung's tears started streaming down. — That I should let you go to people your age so you could have some action because if I'm not making use of what I have, I should let you have sex with someone else.
- Use of what you have? That being...?
- My friends talk about how I have a nice body that would be a pleasure to have sex with..
- Hum... do they talk about you like that a lot, Hannie? — Minho pulled his boyfriend into his arms, quietly leaving soft kisses on his chubby cheeks.
- Yes... They always talk about me that way. About things they would do to me if they were the ones dating me. Even when they think I'm not around to hear.. Either it be because my waist is slim and gives a good grip to be rougher. Or because my mouth is small and it would feel good to... you know. And... they focus a lot on the fact that I'm a virgin.. But it only seems to be a good thing when it's because I'll feel really tight..
Jisung kept talking about the coments made about him and his body and how it bothered him, like he kept it for too long and only trusted Minho to hear him out. And Minho was proud of that. That him and Jisung were that close and trusted eachother that much. They were clearly doing something right in their relationship.
- Did I ever say anything that bothered you like that? — Minho spoke lowly.
- Sometimes I'm so fed up with my friends that anything tips me off, even the simple fact of you calling me sexy makes me uncomfortable. But you always notice and apologize.. I'm sorry for being so sensitive.
- You have nothing to be sorry for. Hannie you are being constantly and heavily sexualised by those so called "friends" and that is not right and I honestly don't want you around people like that, because, as you can see, it heavily affects you. But I want you to know Sungie, — Minho paused, resting his forehead on Jisung's. — when I call you sexy, I have absolutely no second intentions. I want that to be absolutely clear. But it changes nothing. If it makes you uncomfortable, always let me know, yeah? — The two shared a soft peck after Jisung nodded. — Tell me more, what else led us here?
- Well... Do you... Do you think it's a turn off that I'm a virgin?
Jisung felt scared when Minho's expression turned dead serious, bordering on mad. Had he said something?
- Did your "friends" tell you it was a turn off? — Minho asked lowly.
- Y-yes.. They're always mocking me for being the only virgin in the group. One even said that was the reason why you hadn't tried anything with me yet..
- You know that's not true, right? I never tried anything because we never talked about it, and you never seemed ready for it or keen to do it and I didn't want to pressure you. — Minho's hands found the younger's squeezing them lightly.
- Thank you for respecting my pace. — Jisung whispered shakily.
- You're thanking me? Baby, that is like the bare minimum to do. You don't have to thank me for that.
- It's just.. I hate this. I hate the way they mock me. I hate how they turn everything into something sexual. I hate how they turn me into something sexual.
Minho held Jisung close when he started crying again.
- My love, you know I don't like to meddle in your life outside of what concerns me, but I worry about you. And I don't want you to hang around those people anymore. It's obviously hurting you more than it's doing good. — The older spoke carefully.
- But what if they're right? And I should just get this over with? Wouldn't it be easier? To lose my virginity? — Jisung questioned weakly.
- Princess, listen to me carefully. That idea of virginity you have is a social construct that means nothing in real life. Each person has their own rhythm, and whenever they want to, feel ready and think it's time, they do it. It's really not that big of a deal. — Minho explained his point of view.
- It's easy for you to talk..
- Maybe. Sungie, we both know I'm no saint. When you met me I was sleeping around with everyone I wanted, and we both know that created some issues in our relationship. But I won't let this be one of those issues. I'm not with you for sex. And I don't expect sex. What I want from you is all your love, kisses and cuddles and I will be fine. — Jisung giggled at that.
It was true, their relationship wasn't always perfect and throughout the beginning there were a lot of doubts from both sides. And in that moment Jisung was indeed insecure again, and was incredibly thankfull for Minho's assurance.
- You already have all my love, kisses and cuddles. — Jisung spoke pecking Minho's lips repeatedly.
- Then I'm a happy happy man. And, Han Jisung, always remember, above anything else, the biggest turn on for me will always be enthusiastic consent.
- E-enthusiastic consent?
- Yes. Like I told you, I don't want the lack of a no. I want you to show me it's a yes in every way you can. And until you can do that we will cuddle and watch anime together and just overall, be the most wholesome couple. — The couple giggled as they cuddled up in bed, sharing soft kisses.
The more he thought of it the more Jisung
reasoned that Minho was right. Nothing mattered. Only they mattered. And yeah, Jisung needed new friends, definitely.
This time it was Minho falling on the bed, shirtless, as Jisung sat on his lap, kissing him deeply as he grinded down on Minho's hard-on.
- So hard, already.. — Jisung teased as he bit the older's lip.
- I told you enthusiastic consent was a turn on. — Minho joked, making both laugh. — I love you.
- I love you.