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Six months, it’s been six months since Foolish and Punz have been a thing. And it’s also been six months since they’ve last seen each other.
”I’ll be back before you even know it!”
Saying Punz was angry was an understatement. Whenever he tried asking Foolish for a meetup, Foolish would always say he’s busy or something along those lines, only for him to literally be on a meetup with Karl or anyone else but him the next day. Yeah he was on the verge of breaking down and yelling at Foolish in a fitting rage. But he couldn’t, it’s hard to when Foolish was just so nice,
he’d still call Punz despite being in the meetup, even if it’s just for a few minutes, those few minutes felt like heaven and comfort for Punz.
But today’s the day they finally get to see each other again. On their half a year anniversary, which relievingly for Punz, Foolish still remembered.
A week, once again it’s not long enough, but Punz was just happy to finally be able to see Foolish again, his boyfriend.
“Luke!!”
“Noah.”
Yes, they started calling each other by their real government names, surprisingly it was Foolish who started it. It felt weird at first but it started to grow on them both until eventually it was habitual for them to call each other that and it felt domestic. They try to avoid calling each other that in stream of course, but sometimes it slips and chat would always be filled with 90% mockery and teasing, 9% asking who that was, and 1% aww-ing.
“I missed you.” Foolish mumbled in Punz’s neck, arms wrapped around him.
“I missed you too.” Punz missed this feeling, the feeling of Foolish.
———
The first three days went smoothly and greatly. It was just them being in love with each other, a lot of lighthearted bickering here and there, but a lot more of cuddling and sweet talking with each other. And they also went on a date which was romantic.
But then day 4 happened, it wasn’t that much of a big deal, at least for Foolish it wasn’t, but for Punz it felt like a knife just stabbed him in the back.
“Karl!!”
Foolish invited Karl.
“Heyyy sup Foolish, sup Punz.” Karl handshakes them both, but pulls Foolish into a hug specially.
Punz knows Karl’s like this to all his close friends so he doesn’t think much about it, though he’d be lying if he didn’t say he was the littlest bit jealous. I mean, Karl and Foolish have spent more time together than they did together, at least for seeing each other physically, online-wise Punz is still leading by a mile.
Punz just hopes Karl doesn’t end up hoarding all of Foolish’s attention.
———
Why did Punz have to jinx himself?
Punz watched as Foolish and Karl leaned against each other on the couch, occasionally showing each other something on their phone. It looked oddly familiar to Punz for some reason.
Punz scoffs to himself and gets up, marching his way towards Foolish and Karl with the most pettiness and exaggeration possible and then forcefully sits in between them.
Foolish was quick to lean his head against his shoulder and it made Punz’s heart flutter. Karl does the same and Punz mentally forgives him for practically stealing his boyfriend.
Yeah this is more like it.
———
Punz stares at the ceiling, he misses Foolish. Since they haven’t told anyone (except Dream and Tina) about their relationship they had to act like it, so now Foolish was sleeping on the couch, downstairs, away from Punz.
He wants Foolish.
Punz gets up and before he knew it he was walking down the stairs and into the living room where Foolish was sleeping.
Once he got there he felt a million knives stab him in his heart.
I promise.
“NOAH!?”
Punz watches as Foolish quickly pushes Karl away from him before standing up and rushing to him, grabbing him in a hug.
“It’s not what it looked like I swear!” Foolish was quick to respond. Punz pushes away from the hug and glares at Foolish, tears threatening to fall out his eyes at any second.
“You and Karl kissing each other isn’t what it looks like?! So what? Was I just hallucinating the way your hands were all over Karl’s back?!” Punz glares daggers at Karl who was on the floor, face staggered and he looked like he was about to cry. Punz couldn’t give a shit.
“I swear it’s not like that!” Foolish tries to defend, his face disturbed as he looked like he was on the verge of tears as well and Punz laughs, a sorrowful, broken laugh.
“Fuck you, fuck you both! Is that why you couldn’t see me for six whole fucking months!? Because Karl’s been a good fucking whore to you?! Is that what you guys were doing in your meetups? Fucking each other when no ones looking?!” Punz hated it, just when he finally manages to be in a relationship with someone, it falls apart.
“We weren’t fucking or screwing each other! Also I was actually busy whenever you tried planning a meetup!” Foolish defends himself, arms flailing around out of distress. Punz chuckles, tears finally rolling off his eyes.
“Wow…you’re still defending yourself? You couldn’t even apologize or say sorry to me for kissing Karl? You’re still defending yourself even though you were the one who was unfaithful. Not me, I think of you literally every night before I sleep and everyday when I’m just doing the most normal things like eating. ’I wonder what Noah is up to?’ Or ‘I wonder if Noah is having fun in his meetup?’ Foolish, did you even think once about me when you were in your meetup with other people? Or were you too busy having fun and getting laid that you forgot you have me? Your partner, someone you promised to love forever?” Despite the words he threw out, Punz couldn’t bring himself to hate the other. Disappointment? Anger? Sadness? But not an ounce of hate in his body.
Foolish stayed quiet and despite him and Karl already crying, Foolish still had not a single tear rolling down his face, and that hurted Punz, it was like salt to his open and exposed wounded heart.
“Did you even love me?”
“Yes! Of course I loved you! I still do! I promise you this is the first time this has happened between me and Karl or anyone else!! You’re still the only person I’d date or be in a relationship with!! Not Karl or anyone else!” Foolish still continued to defend himself.
“Notice how you said all that but couldn’t even say ‘I’m sorry.’ “ Punz has had enough.
“We’re done.”
“Luke please! I-I’m sorry! This won’t ever happen again, I promise!!” Foolish wails, on his knees, and yet still not a single tear.
“Get out, please...”
Punz looks at Karl who was weeping on the floor as well.
“Both of you.”
———
A day, two days, a week, two weeks. Nothing’s been the same for Punz ever since that. He hasn’t talked or texted Foolish ever since, Karl as well. The lack of interaction aroused his fan’s suspicions but he couldn’t care less.
Right now he was talking to Dream, his therapist if you will.
Punz knows he still loves Foolish, Dream knows as well and he’s giving relationship repairing advice. But Punz never makes any effort or attempt to do so, he wants to but he’s too scared.
“Like, how would you feel if you see George kissing a close friend of yours…like Sapnap?” Punz asks, laying down on his bed, his phone next to him on speaker.
“First of all, George would never do that.” Dream starts and Punz interjects with a mumble.
“I thought so too…”
“Right…second of all, I’d be pissed of course. I mean, who wouldn’t? Like this is the person you love and is supposed to love you back as well we’re talking about here. Getting mad or sad is a normal human reaction to something like that.” Dream says and Punz mentally agrees.
“Like, if you don’t get mad or sad or even feel anything if you saw that then did you even love them in the first place?” Dream adds and Punz thinks about that night. How Foolish was on the verge of tears but nothing ever spilled.
Was he…sad?
“And third and last of all, I’ve known Sapnap long enough to know that he didn’t mean to hurt me or something when he kissed George. Like I know him enough to know that he’s not a boyfriend stealer or anything. Plus he doesn’t seing that way so.” Dream finishes with a shrug and Punz thinks again. He thinks about Karl, the two weren’t the closest but he’d consider himself pretty high up in his close friends list.
Would Karl…hurt me?
He wouldn’t, Karl’s a great friend, he’d never purposely hurt or offend someone, especially a friend. Yes, he’s a bit annoying sometimes, and a bit touchy as well, but it’s all in good fun. And he knows for a fact Karl isn’t a boyfriend stealer.
Wait does Karl even know me and Foolish were together?
He didn’t, only Dream knows as far as Punz is concerned.
So would Foolish tell Karl we’re dating?
He wouldn’t. Foolish would never tell anyone, especially if Punz graciously asked him not to. But then again…he also graciously asked Foolish to promise him to love him forever.
He doesn’t know.
“Would you cheat on George?”
“Punz what kind of question is that? Of course not! George is the love of my life and I’m the love of his life.” Dream quickly answers with full conviction.
Punz laughs. “Yeah that was a pretty dumb question wasn’t it?”
“In the top ten list of dumbest questions I’ve been asked.” Dream chuckles and Punz chuckles as well.
“So, you would do anything for George?”
“Of course.”
“Would you kill me or any of our friends for George?” Punz asks, it’s a joke of course, just to lighten the atmosphere a bit, but a small part of him wanted to know Dream’s answer.
“Okay well, let's not give me any dilemmas here okay? Like, we’re supposed to be talking about you, not me.” Dream mumbles.
“Y’know what, maybe I will talk to Foolish and Karl about what happened.” Punz says, and it dawns on him that he just called out Karl.
“Karl? Seriously? He was the guy Foolish kissed?” Dream asks, not angry or anything, just processing the information.
“I mean, I’m not surprised I guess? Like, he’s way more touchy with Foolish than he is with other people. Actually no, Sapnap’s number one, he’s number two.” Dream says and Punz groans in annoyance.
“Well, here’s what I think about that newly spilled info. Karl definitely didn’t mean to hurt you or anyone when he kissed Foolish. He probably didn’t even know you guys were together in the first place.”
True…
“Well, thanks for that. I will maybe actually talk to them both now, or tomorrow, or next week, or next month, or next y-“
“Talk about it in three days, and with one at a time, don’t talk to them both at the same time. Also I’ll pay for your flight tickets to their place so just tell me who you’ll talk to first, okay bye.” Dream cuts him off and leaves just like that.
Punz blinks in confusion before a grin slowly spreads across his face before a chuckle came out.
”Thank God for Dream.”
———
Punz was on his way to Dream and Sapnap’s shared house, apparently Karl was staying there and Sapnap was the one taking care of him. Once he arrives, Dream guides him to Sapnap’s room where Karl is. Dream told Sapnap to give them room and Sapnap nods, leaving them two alone in the room.
“I’m sorry…” Karl whispers, facing the wall.
“You better be.”
“I didn’t know, okay?! I didn’t know you and Foolish were together, I just thought that- I thought that since Foolish was being so nice to me that maybe he felt the same way..” Karl says, guilt clear in his voice.
“Look, Karl, I know you’re not the kind of person to kiss someone's boyfriend and I know you didn’t mean to hurt me or anything.”
“Then-”
“BUT, I haven’t forgiven you just yet. We can start talking again and be friends again but just know that, I’ll hold this grudge against you for a long time. I’m just here to tell you what’s on my mind that’s all.” Punz says and Karl gives a weak nod.
“That’s fine, I messed up and kissed Foolish, your boyfriend, I understand…it feels like a huge weight got lifted off my back even though you still haven’t forgiven me actually.” Karl gives a sigh of relief and stands up.
“I’m sorry for what I did, really, I didn’t mean for anyone to get hurt or for our friendship to break just like that.” Karl says guiltily and Punz exhales and opens his arms wide.
Karl’s face quickly changes into a happier one and he quickly wraps his arms around Punz, Punz gently pats Karl on the back.
“I still haven’t forgiven you.” Punz says and Karl responds with an ‘I know.’
“Look, just, don’t kiss Foolish from now on, okay?” Punz says and Karl pulls out of the hug.
“Gotcha, will write that in stone, ‘don’t kiss Foolish.’ But…you didn’t say anything about kissing his other hot boyfriend.” Karl snickers and Punz rolls his eyes but couldn’t help but give a smile.
“Don’t kiss me, or Foolish, or anyone who’s already got somebody.” Punz rephrases and Karl gives it a thought.
“C’mon, just one kiss on the lips? It’ll be platonic I swear.” Karl nudges him and Punz chuckles.
“No.”
Maybe forgiving Karl’s gonna be easier than he thought.
—---
The other party was also affected by what happened during that night. Foolish was, well, slightly doing worse than Punz. He let himself go to say the least. A guilt was slowly swallowing him whole and he hopes he’d be able to give Punz the apology he deserves and wants before the guilt drowns him.
But right now, a daily call with his ‘therapist’ (aka Tina) was his only lifeline to not drown in the ocean of guilt. So he’s thankful for that.
“Like, I miss him so much. I hate myself for giving in and kissing Karl like that, and under his roof as well! Tina I want him back, I want to hug and kiss him again, I want to talk to him again, I want to see him again. I want Luke!” Foolish says, progressively getting more and more emotional with each sentence.
Yeah he’s a wreck, but Tina relates to that so she’s being extra careful as to not break already broken glass.
“Foosh, it’s okay it’s okay, I know you didn’t mean to do that, it was a heat in the moment mistake thing and it’s fine! You still deeply love Punz and Punz only, like obviously, and that's what matters.” Tina says softly with a smile as she puts a hand on his shoulder. She was there in person, basically taking care of Foolish and being his emotional support. And that’s what good friends are for.
Foolish sobs into his pillow. “It’s my fault, it’s my fault, it’s my fault-“
“It’s okay it’s okay it’s okay.” Tina hushes him.
“We’re all human, we all make mistakes sometimes, some small mistakes like dropping your phone in the middle of the ocean, and some huge ones like accidentally leaking a nuclear launch code to the enemy. It’s fine, we all make mistakes and compared to the huge one I just said then this isn’t so bad right?” Tina says humorously, trying to comfort the other and make him laugh if only a little.
Foolish chuckles weakly, “I wouldn’t say dropping your phone in the ocean is a small mistake but sure.”
“See? You’ll be able to fix this problem, it’s not the biggest problem out there. Punz is a really good person, he’s brutally honest at times but that’s what’s good about him. I’m sure if you talk to him he’ll forgive you, or curse you out.” Tina says and Foolish looks like he was about to cry again.
“But that outcome has the smallest percentage of actually happening!” Tina quickly adds before Foolish starts crying again.
“He’ll forgive you I’m sure, as long as you be honest with him as well, tell him why you kissed Karl, say sorry, and tell him your heart only belongs to him.” Tina gently says and Foolish gives a weak smile.
“He’ll forgive you, I know he will.”
Foolish sniffles and looks like he was about to cry again and Tina panics.
“I’m so glad you’re my friend, I don’t deserve you– just like how I don’t deserve Luke.” Foolish sobs and Tina hugs him, hushing words of comfort to him.
“Dude that’s funny because I think you and Punz are the ones who are too good for me.” Tina says and Foolish looks at her in curiosity.
“Like, both of you guys would always just listen to my problems and be there for me, you two are probably the people I come running to about my problems because you guys don’t judge me or say anything that will make me feel worse. Punz’s brutal honesty is actually something I really like about him. And your sunny and bright personality really makes me feel comforted.” Tina says with a smile and that made Foolish feel a little better, better enough to stop sobbing at least.
“I want to talk to Luke again…”
“You can, tell him you guys wanna talk things out and he’ll accept, I’m sure of it.”
“But what if h-”
The door opens.
—---
The door suddenly opens, cutting off Foolish from his sentence.
A foot steps in before the instigator was revealed to them both.
“Oh- I’ll uhh, I’ll just…” Tina awkwardly stutters before walking out the room.
“Luke!” Foolish launches himself at the blonde man and wraps him around in a tight hug.
“I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry. I love you and you only, the thing with Karl was just an accident and what you saw about my hands was me trying to push him off! I w-wasn’t indulging in the kiss a-and and I know you- you might never forgive me or even want to be with me again but just know that I still love you.” Foolish breathes out in a quick succession, sobbing as he hugs Punz tighter.
Punz didn’t waste a second and quickly hugged back. Oh how he missed this feeling.
Punz starts hushing Foolish words of comfort but before he knew he was also crying, tears slowly falling out of his eyes and he hides his face in Foolish’s shoulders.
“I missed you too…and I’m so so sorry for overreacting.” Punz tries to pull out of the hug but Foolish only tightens his arms.
They both stayed in comfortable silence, enjoying each other’s warmth. Oh how they both missed this.
“Do you hate me?” Foolish breaks the silence.
“I couldn’t even hate you when I was yelling at you back then.” Punz says and Foolish could hear the gentle smile in his voice.
They both pulled out from the hug and gazed at each other, heart eyed. They’re both wrecks. But the only thing they could see from each other was perfection. Love just does that huh?
“I’m so sorry Luke. I’m so sorry for doing that, I’m sorry for even letting that happen, I’m sorry for being a bad boyfriend. You’re the only person I love in this world, and- and it won't happen again.” Foolish takes a deep breath.
“I promise.” Foolish ends.
Punz smiles and leans in, the kiss is slow and chaste, neither of them rushing to end the kiss, their love for each other overflowing and they both get engulfed in it.
Once they pull away the face they give each other makes both their hearts flutter. Foolish’s signature wide grin and small eyes, Punz’s signature soft smile and gentle eyes.
“I’ll take that promise.”