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He could hear Kid yelling and arguing, they had gotten captured because of course they did.
Of course they couldn’t have normal lives, they’re pirates. Who were they kidding?
He sat, waiting, for what? He doesn’t know. He was tired and scared, he hasn’t felt scared in a long while.
Being around Kid always took away that emotion, he knew they were safe, nobody could stand in their way.
Now they’re stuck, captured, taken away from their freedom.
He doesn’t know how to come back from this.
That was until Kurozumi Orochi showed up. Offered him a fruit, said he could save his captain, his Kid.
He took it without hesitation, ate it, waited for it to work.
Laughed.
And laughed.
And laughed until he couldn’t breathe.
He still felt an undeniably large amount of anxiety and dread, but he wasn’t able to show it. Why wasn’t he able to show it. He wanted to cry.
But he couldn’t, he just laughed.
His mind rang loudly;
‘Stop Laughing. Stop Laughing. STOP LAUGHING. STOP LAUGHING.’
It didn’t help. He sobbed a bit, through vicious laughs. He hates his laugh, the sick fuckers who took them captive laughed at him. Making fun of his stupid laugh.
“He sounds like a monkey!”
“Looks like he didn’t get the good stuff, loser.”
“Man he sounds insane, what a weirdo heh.”
Stop it, stop it please. He eventually just shut off his emotions, thinking about old happy memories. Calming his laughing to small giggles until he could sit, smiling quietly.
Later on, they dragged him from the cell. Chained him up instead, which was in the cross paths of the fuckers prison. Each time someone walked by he got beat, kicked, forced into things he never wanted to do with them, laughed at.
In which his only response was to laugh back. As much as he dreaded it. He was helpless.
Helpless. In Pain. Scared.
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He sat curled in a small giggling ball, tears in his eyes as he relayed the story to his therapist, Kid beside him, holding him close.
“I’m so sorry Kil.” He whispered into the blondes hair, rubbing his back with his one arm. The therapist nodded, they’ve been seeing her for a month now, she eventually joined their crew to come along in case anyone else needed her.
The blonde choked out a few laughs through tears, his body language showing he was crying inside. Relaying everything they did to him. Everything he didn’t want to do, but had to do with them. It hurt.
Eventually after calming down in Kids arms he fell asleep, Kid rocking him back and forth before thanking the woman and walking out to their shared Cabin on the ship.
Laying down, holding Killer close, he kissed his forehead, then his cheek, then his lips. Eventually falling asleep with the blonde, playing with his hair as he holds his right hand man protectively.