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He tells his big brother what he wants to hear, how could he not? He tells him it’s okay, and that he can go, but he’s clinging to Dean the way he did when they were little kids, crossing the street and looking both ways. Hopes that his desperation makes Dean change his mind, that he’ll say, “It’s okay Sammy, I’ll hang on.” But he doesn’t, just holds Sam tighter and tells him goodbye.
This is not how it’s supposed to go.
Sam barely remembers helping the kids out, he just remembers the way Dean’s skin was cold to the touch when he got back. He lifts Dean off the rebar and Sam can’t stop the intrusive thought of taking his place, it’d be perfect, Dean could go live the life he so dearly deserves. But it’s not perfect, and Dean’s blood dries onto the leather in the backseat as he drives them home.