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Chuuya wakes up with the voice of the god inside him in his ear. "You useless child sleeping so late it really is a terrible arrangement that I'm stuck with you pathetic thing." Arahabaki's voice is not only annoying but also painful, it sounds like distorted screaming right in his brain he is genuinely surprised it hasn't driven him crazy yet.
"Shut up." Chuuya growls at the god
Chuuya drags himself through his morning routine except that doesn't really go well with Arahabaki's constant nagging and teasing which gives him a migraine so terrible he wants to kill himself. He completely skips breakfast having no appetite. He takes two ibuprofen dry and then walks back to his bedroom, turns off all the lights, closes the curtains, and digs out a blanket covers his head with it squeezes his eyes shut and attempts to block everything out.
He stays like that for less than two minutes before Arahabaki's laughter fills his mind "Seriously you can't even stand a tiny headache how is it that you are even still alive? Running around with the mafia now that all of your useless idiotic friends betrayed you because they knew you were a loose cannon that would have gotten them killed in the end." Arahabaki is laughing again and god his laughter is so much worse than when he speaks. The laughter is more like multiple people screaming at once at different volumes and pitches and it's so loud it feels like someone is stirring his brain with a red hot poker.
"The Sheep are not idiotic or useless they gave me everything." Chuuya says through his gritted teeth. He is never going to forget the way he felt when he was stabbed and realized that the Sheep no longer wanted him around the pain from their betrayal hurt less as he went on but thinking of them still managed to bring a sting to his eyes.
Arahabaki laughs at his defense of the Sheep and Chuuya once again ponders committing suicide. The thought of suicide makes him think of Dazai. He vaguely wonders where Dazai is as far as he knows they don't have any missions today so that means like every other day they don't have a mission Dazai would probably drag him to an arcade in which they would make stupid bets and try to make the other as miserable as possible.
As if Dazai had been waiting for a cue he opens the door to Chuuya's bedroom announcing his presence in his annoying voice "Oh Chibi I've come to see my dog I!"Dazai says before he opens the curtains."Time to get up your master is calling" Dazai sing-songs oblivious to Chuuya's pain.
"Go away shitty Dazai." Chuuya hisses at him. He had kicked off the blanket before Dazai had even come in the curtains had given him little solace but he was still pissed that Dazai had opened them.
"But Chuuuya we have to go to the arcade we made a bet yesterday, remember?" Dazai is whining now and it was not helping with Chuuya's still growing headache.
"I don't remember making a bet." Chuuya snaps at him angrily.
"Poor dog can't even remember things from a day ago. Don't worry though it's a good thing your master never forgets" Dazai sounds way happier than the situation calls for.
"Yes poor dog so stupid and forgetful can't do anything without his master's orders you really are pathetic." Arahabaki is still laughing at Chuuya's weakness.
"Shut up." Chuuya says sharply at this point he doesn't even know whether he's talking to Dazai or Arahabki.
"Chuuya is so mean to me. He might drive me to kill myself." Dazai is pouting now, normally Chuuya would laugh at him but now he just wants to be left alone.
"You get on that then." He says with more bite than he means to. He contemplates apologizing but decides against it not willing to deal with the inevitable teasing that will come from Dazai if he does.
Dazai laughs unaffected by Chuuya's words "Anyways about the bet yesterday we bet that if Chuuya can beat me I will do whatever he says for two days." Dazai is now attempting to pull a very reluctant Chuuya out of bed.
Chuuya doesn't know why he doesn't just tell Dazai he feels like shit. He thinks about just yelling at Dazai until he gets out and leaves him alone. Before he even gets a chance to decide Dazai is attempting to pull him out of bed and his bare hand touches the uncovered skin on Chuuya's wrist and he has to bite his tongue to stop the relieved noise that is threatening to escape through his lips.
Chuuya, in his pain and discomfort hadn't even thought about Dazai's ability and how it would be able to silence the raging god inside him. He considers telling Dazai about Arahabaki so he won't let go.
"Pathetic you have to rely on him the one you hate you truly are a disgrace." Arahabaki is laughing again. Chuuya was so out of it that he didn't realize he had gotten out of bed and that Dazai had let him go. The world is spinning now but Chuuya annoyed at Arahabaki and embarrassed at the prospect of asking Dazai for help does his best to ignore it and pretend nothing is wrong.
"Good dog!" Dazai says praising Chuuya for getting out of bed.
"Fuck you." Chuuya snaps at him."I'm not your damn dog."
Dazai just laughs before telling Chuuya to get dressed so they can go to the arcade and settle their bet before leaving Chuuya's room to give him privacy.
After Chuuya gets dressed they're off Chuuya tries his best to get Dazai to agree to go another day. In all honesty Chuuya enjoys the arcade the noisy machines and people makes him feel less alone and it's nice to be around normal people his age. In this case though Chuuya is dreading going the noise and bright flashing lights certainly won't help his still growing headache. The whole walk there while Chuuya is still trying to convince Dazai to turn back Arahabaki is still laughing at him and his efforts.
Chuuya's efforts ultimately end in failure as he and Dazai end up in front of the arcade. "Come on Chuuya there are bets to settle!" Dazai sounds excited and Chuuya tries to mirror his enthusiasm with a smile but he can tell that it doesn't work because Dazai's face changes into something that Chuuya thinks might be concern but he quickly dismisses the thought all together because sure they made a really good team and they spent almost all their free time together but Dazai didn't care about him and he didn't care about Dazai they hate each other. Right?
Chuuya is still lost in his thoughts when once again Dazai's hand touches his wrist and Arahabaki is quieted. Chuuya had once again completely forgot about Dazai's ability. As Dazai drags him into the arcade Chuuya decides on his mission, get as much skin on skin contact from Dazai.
Arahabaki is laughing again and Chuuya feels close to tears "Weakling you truly are useless needing your master to relieve your pain and you won't even tell him you're using him for his power just like those stupid children in the Sheep used you for yours"
Chuuya pauses and realizes that he has just been using Dazai for his ability he hates to admit it even just to himself but Arahabaki is right. Laughter fills his head again this time it seems much louder it hurts so much more with his own thoughts mingling.
"...ya"
"...uuya"
"...ease"
"why...?"
"...rying?"
"...hat's wrong?"
A hand touches Chuuya's face and all is silent in his mind. He can finally focus on his surroundings and realizes that he is no longer in the arcade but on the sidewalk just outside and that Dazai has been talking to him."What?" Chuuya asks before he cringes at the sound of his voice which sounds like he's been swallowing glass.
"Why are you crying, what's wrong?" the concern and relief is audible in Dazai's voice as he repeats his question. His hand is still cradling the redhead's face.
"What?" Chuuya questions before reaching a hand up to touch is face which is wet from the tears he has unknowingly been shedding."Oh um I.." Chuuya stumbles over his words as his face gradually flushes a red that could put his hair to shame."I have a um headache." He's still floundering over his words as he stutters out an excuse still terribly embarrassed about crying in front of Dazai and besides he technically isn't lying he does have a killer headache he is purposefully omitting the embarrassing information that he has so little control over his ability that it's causing him pain.
"You're lying." Dazai says bluntly staring the shorter boy in the eye as he tries to decipher the ailment his partner is currently suffering from.
Chuuya blushes at their close proximity and pushes Dazai away flustered. In the moment he had forgotten that not only was Dazai's hand on his face but that also was actively repressing Arahabaki. Dazai stumbles back in his rush to let Chuuya go after being pushed by the redhead by a relatively weak hand to his chest. Chuuya regrets pushing Dazai away immediately after his hand is gone from his cheek.
Chuuya screams in pain after Dazai lets him go prompting the brunet to rush to him. Dazai hovers anxiously over Chuuya who is now crouched down on the concrete with his hands clamped over his ears and tears running down his face. "Make it stop please make it stop it hurts." Chuuya is sobbing and Dazai has no idea what to do he has never seen his partner in this much distress before and he has certainly never seen him cry.
"What do you want me to do Chuuya? I don't know how to help you!" Dazai lets the desperation slip into his voice. Chuuya says something that Dazai can't understand "What?" Dazai asks turning the sound Chuuya made in his mind trying to make out whatever words the other said. Turns out Dazai doesn't have to do this for very long because Chuuya repeats himself "Touch me." The words are simple and easy to understand but Dazai is still confused about them. What could his touch possibly do?
Dazai even though he doubts that it could have any effect on Chuuya's current condition grabs the redhead's hand and gently pulls it from its place at the side of its owners head unknowingly silencing Arahabaki in the process. Chuuya lets out a sound of relief and slumps towards Dazai who is still very confused about the situation. "Come on Chuuya." Dazai says quietly coaxing the other to his feet before starting the walk to Chuuya's apartment.
Dazai holds Chuuya's hand for the whole walk back still confused about whatever Chuuya is suffering from.
"Will you tell me what's wrong with you now?" Dazai asks once they get into Chuuya's apartment.
Chuuya swallows before looking at the floor and mumbling something. "Chuuya needs to stop mumbling if he wants me to understand what he's saying." Dazai says in a joking tone but Chuuya can tell there's something more serious under the layers of humor. Chuuya takes a deep breath before repeating himself just loud enough for Dazai to hear "Arahabaki won't shut up it hurts."
The pieces click together in Dazai's head and he comes up with a totally intelligent response to the new piece of information he's been given "Oh". Okay maybe not totally intelligent but good enough.
"Why didn't Chibi tell me earlier? The solution is so easy" Dazai sing-songs while gesturing to their intertwined hands but underneath Chuuya thinks that he can hear something that sounds like hurt. "I didn't want you to think I was too weak to control my ability" Chuuya says still looking at the floor as his already red cheeks burn brighter.
Dazai makes a clicking sound with his tongue before speaking "You're not weak your ability is just an asshole." Chuuya actually looks up at him before smiling and giving a weak laugh. Now that Dazai can see his face he realizes that he looks exhausted. "Are you tired Chuuya?" Dazai asks. Chuuya just looks at him before blinking owlishly at him his eyelids drooping.
Dazai walks them to Chuuya's bedroom before sitting on Chuuya's bed and guiding Chuuya to do the same. The minute Chuuya sits down it's like he deflates he leans almost all his weight onto Dazai who uses the hand that isn't currently holding Chuuya's to run it through the smaller's hair which succeeds in making him relax even more. Chuuya is on the verge of sleep when he decides to just lay back he falls from his sitting position onto the plush mattress effectively taking Dazai with him. Dazai is initially surprised when Chuuya falls back onto the bed but follows him immediately and wraps around him.
They shift around for a bit before getting comfortable with Dazai essentially spooning Chuuya whilst playing with his hair. Chuuya drifts off shortly after practically a puddle as he melts into Dazai who also falls asleep not long after.