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“Pony, don’t you miss Darry?” Johnny asked me. I take my head off his shoulder.
It’s been a couple of months since ma and Johnny ran away from the murder scene. Did I miss Darry? The last I saw him he slapped me, he slapped me hard. I still missed him, a lot though. I missed everyone: Twobit, Soda, hell even Steve Randall. But, I knew I wanted to stick by Johnny’s side. He was my best friend, maybe even more.
“Yeah sometimes,” I responded. I ran my hand through my hair, it was a bit longer than before.
I was getting paler and paler each day. Johnny was also getting paler, but he stayed outside most of the time.
“Pone, I think it’s time to turn myself in.” Johnny said suddenly, pulling a long strand of his curly dark hair. His dark eyes looking up at me.
“What.”
“I said I w-”
“I know what you said, I’m just really confused.” I interrupted him.
“I realized Pony, I can’t keep you here.” Johnny muttered.
“Johnny I want to stay with you. I don’t want to leave you.” I begged, boy I was getting soft.
“Ponyboy, your too young and too smart to be out in the middle of nowhere,” Johnny started to tear up. “You’ve gotta go to school, you’ll have more of a life out there than me.”
“Johnny I’m not going back to Tusla without you.” I was sticking to my guns with this one, no one could convince me to leave Johnny. No one.
“Pony, if I go back there I’II definitely be sent to jail. You don’t hide out for months from a crime and get out a free man.” He explained to me.
I knew he was right, but I couldn’t leave him. I knew I was being immature, maybe even selfish. But, I couldn’t leave him, I really couldn’t.
“What are you two crying about?” A deep voice asked. Dally must’ve seen Johnny tearing up and immediately walked over to him. “What’s wrong Johnnycake?”
“Dally, I want to turn myself in.” He repeated.
Dally’s eyes widened, he seemed just as confused as me. I could feel myself tearing up.
“How many months has it been Dally?” I asked suddenly
“2 months, why?” Dally responded.
2 months had passed, only 2 months. It’s felt like a whole year has passed, 2 months without hearing one of TwoBit’s poorly made jokes, 2 months without Darry scolding me, without hearing Soda’s voice. Just 2 months alone with Johnny, a rundown church, and baloney. I could feel myself getting skinner, weaker, paler. My hair was getting longer and longer than it was before. My red hair was beginning to show now. The weather was getting colder, I was lucky that the shirt Dally gave me was thick enough for the cold. Johnny’s hair was also getting longer, it was going past his nape. It was getting darker and curlier.
“Gosh, Johnny what are you thinking? If you go back now, you’ll certainly go to jail.” Dally said trying to speak some sense into him.
But, Johnny didn’t seem to care.
“Dal, it’s the right thing to do.” He argued.
I couldn’t take this anymore, I stood up and left to go outside. Having a smoke would probably make me feel better. I could already hear Darry in the back of my head telling me to smoke less.
It hurt to hear Johnny take about turning himself in, all that we’ve been through he wanted to do that. I sat in the grass and lit up a cigarette, I watched the sunset slowly. I heard Johnny and Dally arguing in the background, I tried to tune it out.
After hours of arguing about the matter, I put my cigarette out in the grass, and I heard footsteps come from behind me.
“Ponyboy do you hate me?” Johnny asked sitting beside me.
“Gosh, no Johnny. I could never hate you.” My voice wavered as I spoke. “I love you Johnnycakes.” I lit up another cig, the smell confronted me.
“Hey, wanna go to the store? I’m running low on cigs.” I asked, I needed to get away from the church. A new change of scenery would be nice.
Johnny nodded, getting up along with me.
We went to the town, I could feel eyes roaming all over my body. I didn’t understand why everyone was looking at me. We stepped into the drugstore and roamed before I picked out a pack of Camels before going to the counter.
“Hows your day been angel?” The cashier asked flirtatiously.
“Uh, good,” I said.
“So, are you new around here? I ain’t never seen a doll as pretty as you around here.” He said brushing his hand against mine.
“Just a few months ago,” I responded smoothly.
“You know what doll, you can have this pack for free,” the cashier whispered in my ear seductively. “You know what, you can get anything you want for free darling.”
I felt my face redden. He thought I was some good-looking broad! I get three more packs of cancer sticks and 3 chocolate bars.
“You sure smoke a lot-”
“Pony.” I said finishing his sentence.
I smirked at him, sucker. Winking, I shoved the packs in my pockets and tore one of the candy bar open.
“God Pony, you have such an amazing bod.” he drooled, looking me up and down.
“Thanks.” I laughed, leaning on the counter towards him.
The only person who had complimented me this much was Johnny. Though Johnny’s compliments were more sincere, this man just wanted to get in my pants.
“Pony are you done?” I heard Johnny ask, but I was too busy scamming this sucker for free candy and cigarettes.
“Oh, Johnny I was just talking to- Daniel.” I flirted, hoping to get more items.
“Anyways you doin’ anything tomorrow night?” Daniel asked, his southern accent deepening.
“Maybe, maybe not.” I giggled fakely and batted my eyelashes like I’ve seen girls do to Soda. I twirled my hair around my finger and tilted my head to the side.
“O-oh, okay.” Johnny stuttered, he looked uncomfortable. I had to wrap this up quickly.
Giving one more fake giggle, I waltzed out of the store like a supermodel.
I met Johnny at the front of the store. He was leaning on the wall while looking at the ground, he seemed to be in deep thought. He looked really cute.
"Hey, Johnny wanna cigarette?" I asked him, giving him a slight smile.
He nodded and take the cancer stick from my hand, taking a deep breath of it. His shoulder sank, and he looked less tense than he was before.
"Johnny, are you really going to turn yourself in?" I asked him, looking at the moon.
"Yeah. " He said shortly.
I sucked in a deep breath trying to compose myself.
“Lets go back to the church Johnny.” I whispered.
We went back you the hill to get to the church. I couldn’t help but look at Johnny all the way we got there. This maybe the last time I will ever see him before he goes to jail, I walk a little closer to him. He felt so warm.
We walked inside the church and we both sat on one of the pews. It was awkward.
“Ponyboy, I love you. Like I want to marry you, Pony.” Johnny suddenly said. “You’ve been with me through out every trouble I’ve been through, but I have to leave you Pony. It’s not fair for you.”
I cried, I cried so hard, my eyes hurt from how much I was crying. I immediately went over and kissed Johnny. I wrapped my arms around his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around my waist. I kissed his passionately, trying to give him all of me. He pulled me closer, trying to get as close as possible to me.
“Johnny.” I moaned quietly, my eyelashes wet from tears.
“You’re so addictive.” He muttered in my ears, his hand went up my back.
I unbuttoned my shirt, as his mouth travled all over my bad. I felt him suck all over my neck. I moaned as he licked a specific spot and he continuted to assault that area. He looked up at me, and smirked. He went back up to my lips and continued to makeout with me.
“Johnny, I love you. I love you so much.” Is this want Soda felt like whenever he was with Sandy. Love felt so good, it was so addictive and I didn’t want to let go of Johnny.
He pushed me down on the pew, slowly unbuttoning the reset of my shirt and he threw it on the floor. He went down and unbuttoned my pants, still kissing.
“J-Johnny this is my first time.” I said shly.
“Mine too. I’m happy it’s with you.” He said smiling at me, I could hear the love in his voice.
My member began to harden has he teased that area repeatedly.
“Johnny, I need you.” I moaned. The need for Johnny was burning in my gut, slowly expanding with each stroke of my member.
God, Johnny looked so beautiful above me. His tan skin was red and dripping with sweat, there was drool coming from his bruised red lips. His eyes wild, not a hint of fear was placed in them. His black curls framing his face perfectly like, a painting of an angel. I was desperate for him, I wanted, no needed him. He was perfect, everything about him was gorgeous.
I wanted to give him everything: the perfect life, my heart, my soul, my body. I was starting to tear up again.
“Fuck you Johnny Cade for being so perfect.” I whispered lowly.
“What.” He groaned, pulling my underwear all the way down.
“Your so- perfect.” I let out a sharp breath as he put my member in his mouth. I groaned lowly, as he sucked up and down. I was so close to finishing before he took his mouth of it, and began to kiss me again. Invading my mouth, licking every part of it.
“Baby get up.” He said.
I reluctantly got up, he laid down on the other side and placed his hands behind his head. I looked at the large tent in his pants, I unzipped his pants and sucked his off through his underwear. I heard him groan and moan quitely.
“C’mon baby suck me, I didn’t do this to you.” He pleaded. I smirked back at him, slowly taking his underwear off . His member sprang out. Golly, it was huge. My eyes widened and his laughed my at my shock. I tired to fit all of it in my mouth, but I needed up gagging.
“Slow down, Pony. Take it slow.” He laughed.
I did as he said and slowly took it in my mouth, working my why through every inch of the member. I took my mouth off of it and began to kiss it, and lick it in strokes.
“Pony, I want you to ride me.” He begged.