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Original work (ch11)
If Wei WuXian has to describe his life, he would say "Cursed".
Sure , he had some sweet lovely time with his siblings, husband and his little ducklings throughout his life, but most of his life was full of misery, pain and lots and lots of sadness. Not to mention the gore events.
In the beginning, Wei WuXian thought that his second life -third life actually- in Mo Xuanyu's body will be the last one, and that it can get better with time. However, that was what he believed until some lunatic who declared himself to be his biggest hater, an opposer of him, put a curse on him and his husband.
Wei Ying first thought it was meant to kill him slowly yet painfully.. But, thinking thoughtfully as he may.. no matter how genius his brain could be.. Wei Ying didn't expect for it to be something as absurd and vicious as this. The spell was actually responsible for re-living one's life multiple times, as long as they fail in protecting what they want and desire; thus he kept repeating his life for more than ten times.. starting from the age of 15 until he dies again just to re-open his eyes as a teenager for what seems to be an endless loop.
What is the worst part in this is that he each time ends up watching every single one of his dear people die in front of his eyes, or between his arms or by his hands over and over again, and that what has drove him crazy slowly.
For example, his last life was the happiest so far. Him and WangJi married each other, his relationship with the Jiangs was better despite his deep buried guilt he feels towards them. The Lan sect and especially Lan Qiren do not hate him nor do they dislike Wei WuXian. Lan XiChen didn't see him as his younger brother 's only mistake or the cause of his pain.
But again, this is a cursed Wei WuXian's life he was living. Therefore, when the Jin sect planned a rebellion with the Wens against the rest of the cultivation world, there were no other options than a war. Hence, what explains why he is in the middle of a battle he swore to never be in again.
And the more the fight went on, the more loss they received. However, even if that was the status their life got to , Wei WuXian was still holding on.. that is until he stabbed his sword in the throat of someone who was coming from behind his back. He thought the person was an enemy, not his husband when he did what was the right thing to do!
Wei wuxian carefully turned around just to find suibian's sharp blade in Wangji's throat, whose eyes were wide.
Wei WuXian doesn't know what he should be feeling. Numb? His body.. in fact, his whole being was like that already. Scared? Sure he is. Guilty? He doesn't deserve that. Sadness? It' is but his soul's dayly anthem and melody, nothing new there.
Then, like a cursed demon destruction compass, the centre of all horrible things. He is a demon anyway, so why would the others think he is a crazy man if he was hugging his dead husband's body to him, while laughing loudly like a madman, with tears after tears falling from his shiny silver eyes that started to take a hint of crimson tide in them?.
What made him even more insane is the fact that his sweet beloved husband, starts his life with no memories of them until he remembers their previous lives painfully slowly in the end.. Each time! And when Lan WangJi recalls everything, his Lan Zhan dies after 3 days in front of him. In the most gruesome ways.
In his 5th life after being cursed, Things were never good. The war with the Wen never happened, but the XuanWu turtle happened.
They were 19, him and WangJi. While they fought it together, Lan Zhan started to get flashbacks of thier past. As expected, the spouses succeeded in killing that menace of a turtle just like the first time. But by the time they got out of that ominous cave, Lan WangJi remembered every single detail of his past 5 lives.
He didn't tell Wuxian though. It will be bad news, Lan WangJi deduced. He took the chance of living his last 3 days with his beloved, wishing for the curse to end so his love won't be harmed and hurt again.
But a curse is a curse, henceforth, WangJi found himself thinking of very colourful words about the one who had put it on them, just as he was taking his last breath in the middle of the night on his bed. What he felt his heart clenching for,, is that when his beloved wakes up in the next morning, he will have to find his dead body beside him.
That is why, when he opened his eyes for the eleventh time as a 15 year old boy in the middle of Lotus Pier.. while Jiang FengMian, Yu Ziyuan, Jiang WanYin and Jiang Yanli, and him were sitting around the table eating lunch, he stood dizzily, tears blurring his eyes, and looked around him. He couldn't hide his trembling body, HELL he did not even try to do so. He merely started screaming frantically:
WWX: "No! No, no, no!! I can't do this anymore!
Wei Ying proceeded to let go of an agonizing sound, a mix of him screeching and wailing.. no.. is it shrieking?
WWX: "Please, let that stop! I want to breath!."
He saw the looks of astonishment on the faces of the Jiangs around him but he gave them no mind.
Yu ZiYuan and Jiang Wanyin thundered: "WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO WEI WUXIAN!?"
A fearful yelp came from Jiang Fengmian and Jiang YanLi: "A-XIAN"
They screamed as Wei Wuxian reached out for his sword, suibian, and unsheathed it, looking deeply at its sharp hilt before he pierced it/stabbed his sword through his heart with a small, hopeful smile.
Because, there was one thing that has kept repeating over his 10 lives. He wasn't the one to kill himself, so hopefully, if he was the cause of his death this time just like the 1st -2nd, the first was when he was thrown down Burial Mounds- time on the burial grounds, this curse will end.
So, in his own logic nobody, can blame him for that.
WWX: "Sorry Lan Zhan" teary smile "I couldn't wait until I meet you."
Whatever happened after that was chaos. Madame Jiang Yu screaming for the healers, Jiang yanli trying her best to press on the wound, Jiang wanyin channeling his brother spiritual energy and JFM stood there frozen in his place, until his wife yelled at him to move and do something.
The healers tried their best but they could not save him in the end.
Yu ZiYuan could not understand what happened at all. She was the one seated closest to him when he grabbed his sword then, if she were not caught in surprise, she maybe could have prevented what happened. Sure, the Jiang matriarch never liked her husband 's disciple, rather she hated him more than anything else, madam Yu used to whip her sect's head disciple whenever she felt angry or he did something to upset her, which means pretty much everyday ; but she never ever wanted him dead. Especially not by his hands, and in front of her nonetheless.
Jiang Yanli sank to the frighteningly cold ground.. she.. wasn't sure if this was an extremely bad nightmare or her actual reality. Because, why would her A-xian want to kill himself all of a sudden? Was he suffering all that time silently without telling anyone? Not even her!? Was she really that bad of a sister, that she did not notice her cheerful younger brother was in pain?
The Jiang heir always held WuXian in the place of a brother, not just a shixiong or a servant. He did feel jealous of him for different reasons. The most important of them being his insecurities towards his level at cultivation and his place to his father. But no matter what, he loved him. He loved his smile even if it annoyed him how much shiny it is, it was.
Wait.. was his idiot of a brother always smiling to hide his death desire? To hide his pain? How fool was Jiang Cheng to never notice that?
Jiang Fengmian decided one thing, this was a dream. If not then an horriblly unpleasant illusion. He is sure that just this morning Wei WuXian was jumping and running around, laughing as loud as usual, while saying he would be the strongest head disciple to ever exist. That he would support his dear son in the future when he takes over as a sect leader. Then why would that boy who just said that earlier try to end his life?
So he decided this was not the reality.
The following day was the funeral of the head disciple of Yunmeng Jiang sect, that was interrupted by the second young master of the Lan sect. Lan WangJi.
Both his brother and uncle following behind him confused.
Earlier, by the time wwx took his last breath in the healing pavilion, in gusu:
Lan wangji couldn't understand what happened. He suddenly opened his eyes remembering all his previous lives. What was strange is the fact that it is so early, he didn't even met his husband in this life yet, except for when they were children in Yiling streets.
If that's in that meant something, then it says just one bad thing , his husband did something that harmed him. Therefore, Lan WangJi didn't wait for his uncle who was speaking with him or his brother who regarded him worriedly, and rode his sword towards Yunmeng without further ado.
His brother and uncle flying behind him.
When he finally arrived, he didn't want to believe his guts, he didn't want to believe his ears, he does not wish to believe his eyes.
There was funeral in front of them, Wei Ying no where in sight, but every other disciple is present. Even the main family.
He walked slowly towards the coffin in the far end of the hall and mumbled slowly but softly:
LWJ: "I am sorry for my late arrival, Wei Ying"
Jiang Yanli 's eyes widened at that name, she was sure her little brother said the second young master of Lan's given name before he.. he died. And here is that said young master mumbling her xianxian's given name. When did they meet? It is not like the lectures at gusu started yet.
When he reached the coffin, LWJ bent down and caressed his each lives husband 's face , hands landing on his cheeks last and continued; his voice shaking:
LZ: "Please forgive this soulmate of yours for his fail. You know, this time I remembered you earlier than usual, my love."
The tension in the air grew more but with confusion this time rather than curiosity. What does he mean by those words'f his?
LXC 's eyes widened little by little due to his brother 's actions. First he came here without solid reason, and now they found out that the Jiangs head disciple died yesterday. Apparently, killed himself. But what makes him anxious is the fact he doesn't know how his brother knew him , let alone call him love.
Just as Xichen thought of that , Qiren's breath stuttered besides him at Wangji's next words..
LZ: "Could you not wait for your Lan Zhan, my Wei Ying?" Voice cracking and tears cascading down his cheeks "Wei Ying.. You are really great. I like you. Or in other words, I fancy you, I love you, I want you, I won't leave you, I whatever you."
Lan WangJi kissed every inch of Wei WuXian's face with every phrase , and he continued.
LWJ: "I don't want anyone but you, it can't be anyone but you. I'm yours, you're mine. I wont move on , my beloved."
Then he kissed his lips with tenderness softer than any kiss they had shared before; LWJ continued with a voice close to whisper but due to the dead silence in the room , everyone could hear his words.
LZ: "I hope, I wish this to be our last life that you suffer in, if we still have another life coming I wish you never remember what hurt you, I hope you never get hurt even if that means we can never be together again. As long as you're happy, I'm happy. I Won't Move On but I want you happy my love. To never lose your sweet smile. Rest now, and wait for me little more/longer."
Lan WangJi straighten up and took off his forehead ribbon then tied it around Wei WuXian's wrist. He could hear his relatives gasping in the background. He turned briefly towards his brother and uncle muttering a small "sorry" before he once again face WWX.
LWJ smiled a little as he reached for his sword, Bichen and stabbed his heart deeply enough so that the healers can't save him afterwards.
The last thing he remembers is his brother's scream. If there was one regret he has for his death like this, it that his brother was forced to see it Infront of his eyes.
The next time Lan wangji opened his eyes Wei WuXian didn't remember him, but his smile is wide and warm as he confessed to him. And what is important for him.
They got married again in a world with no cultivation sects.
His husband didn't remember their past lives and that all what LWJ hoped for to continue.
They adopted two lovely boys, Lan SiZhui and Lan JingYi .
Their life continued to be happy, and for that LWJ is thankful & forever grateful.
In the end, he did not move on his love of his multiple lives.
The End.