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Basking in the dim lights
Feeling everything at once until I went numb
Failing to not let down others once again
My efforts are in vain
I embraced myself in the Pillar's workshop
Alone, dull; on the floor against the wall
My half lidded eyes blocking my peripheral
As I let out a sigh so visceral
I get reminded that my armour turned blue
It's how I feel right now too
Life can be too gruesome and cruel
My head hurts
I can't even cry
It's been this way for a long time
It's always me
Why? Why is it always me that's failing?
I remember their glares, filled with anger
I don't understand
What did I do?
Why can't I do things right?
Why can't I just disappear?
I grieve and grieve, my chest tighten
I almost let out a sob
My emotions and thoughts racking together
Please, make it stop.
Tipped over the edge
My senses failing
I barely hear your footsteps
I almost didn't hear it
You calling out my name
With me looking up with tears
I didn't even realize it falling on my face
When you come near.