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Donnie was in his lab again.
By again, it means he never left it.
He had been their for 2 days now, refused to come out of it for even family dinners, his family understood that, they gave him the space he needed.
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None of them were in their best state right now, so it was better if they try to get through it slowly and recovering together. Raph came in hour ago, gave him lunch, said something that donnie probably didn't pay attention to hugged him and left, donnie had a staight face and said nothing the whole time, he was pretty sure mikey was observing all of that from the doorway, anxiously fidgeting with his bandaged hands, donnie remember treating his hands this morning, his eyes being dead and him not paying attention to whatever mikey was saying. Mikey hoped that donnie would say something at least this time, but he didn't both of his brothers frowned at him and left the lab after exchanging a concerned look. Donnie had been taking care of their injuries and they all had been recovering fast, he was happy to see that, but the emotional wounds they have now is something donnie thinks he can't treat, heck he can't even spend one day without crying now. Sleep wasn't a factor of his life anymore, he should sleep, he was tired, but even sleeping felt wrong, everything felt wrong.
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Donnie sighed and glanced over the plate that raph brought for him.
He refused to eat again and started to look for something to do that will keep him distracted.
Unfortunately he found nothing.
He sat on his chair and took the plate in his hands only to stare at it and put it back where it was.
It had been a month, at first donnie would just stay in his room, refusing to get out of his bed even though he didn't actually sleep much, he still didn't sleep but now he would just stay in the lab.
No one was doing okay after the kraang invasion, after leo-. No one was. Splinter would just stay in front the projector which he normally does, but recently he would just stare at it mindlessly as if his mind is just saying something else.
Mikey the usually cheerful one, doesn't speak much too now, which hurt donnie a lot.
Raph, he didn't show but he was deep deep down blaming himself for everything. Donnie would often see that side of raph that he'd never seen, the one filled with guilt. He had seen his older brother sad before, but this, this seemed different, it was almost as if he would never be the same again.
All of them had changed, lost themselves, and it felt like everything is out of place, and it would never change again.
It felt like, like the life of the lair had been sucked out, leaving nothing but dead memories.
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Donnie left out a shaky breath, then another which was followed by tears flowing down his cheeks, he started sobbing.
He had stopped counting how many times he had had a mental breakdown today, he didn't care anymore, he lost his other half, his twin, he didn't care about anything right now, he lost a part of himself that he probably would never get back again, angry tears came out of his eyes more and more as he wished badly he could kill the thing that took away his brother.
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Donnie opened his eyes slowly, trying to blink away the tears that had blurred his vision, after they were gone he could see his brother in front his eyes, Leo, but a younger version of him, he seemed to tugging a string that was attached to donnie's mouth.
"Careful leo!" Said younger version of donnie in a grumbled voice.
"Don't worry Don, i got this!" donnie heard younger leo's overconfidence voice, just like it's been like it always was just a little baby like.
Donnie closed his eyes shut with force as leo pulled the string hard, there was a sound of leo falling backwards after donnie felt pain in one of his teeth, he opened his eyes to see leo holding a tooth out to him covered in blood "I got it Dee!" he said with a wide smile. Donnie touched his teeth only to realise that that was the wrong tooth, he said slowly "That- that was the wrong one leo..." "what?!?"
"You dum-dum that was the wrong one! You pulled out my fine tooth!"
"Well you should have told me which one it was properly!"
They both glare at each other before started laughing at the situation, after a few while leo spoke up " so you want me to-" "no it will eventually come out" donnie replied knowing already what leo was about to say. "Fine" leo said as he leaned on his brother's side. Donnie leaned against him as well and closed his eyes.
When he opened them again it was dark, darker than his lab was, which immediately made him realise that wasn't his lab, it was the prison dimension that he had a depiction of in his mind ever since leo trapped himself in there. Donnie looked around panicking until he heard a loud noise of something hitting another thing, he floated to find what the source was, his eyes widening as he saw leo being beaten up by that....thing.
His body was motionless, as if he was dead, but the thing won't stop hitting him, donnie screamed.
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He woke up with tears in his eyes and him sweating his heartbeat higher and he found himself on the floor his chair knocked over on the ground along with some stuff that were supposed to be on the desk. He looked at the doorway and found no one, being relieved that he did not disturb anyone. He looked at the time and it seven in the evening. How long had he been passed out for?
Suddenly he remembered the source of his condition, his dream, he curled into himself laying on the cold floor, letting out another sob and then another, until he was crying again.
A part of him was gone and lost forever and he knew, he'd never be the same ever again now.