Work Text:
Mizuki walked with Tsukasa through the streets of Scramble Crossing as they listen to him and his stories.
His fucking happy ass stories filled with joy and love and laughter.
“Rui and Emu ended up being the villains of the story while Nene and I were the heros and then the villains and the heroes joined sides! Rui told me that he’s going to try and convince Nene’s rival to come and be the main character! Doesn’t that sound cool?! I told some parts of the story to Toya and Saki and—“
Mizuki grips their umbrella tighter, heart filling with jealousy over the fact that even if Tsukasa has similar problems to Mafuyu and themself, he shines brighter than them.
And they despise that.
“and they both loved it! I’m considering telling their partners about it too! Akito and…actually I’m not sure who I should tell for Saki. Ichika? Shiho? Honami? I have no idea haha!”
His laughter is genuine. He has everything they don’t.
He has everything. A boyfriend who he could place his heart and troubles in now, perfect siblings who love him, support. While he’s getting better and better, they’re rotting away like slime and strawberries. They grit their teeth.
“Hey! Don’t slouch your back! It makes problems in the future more terrible! I wouldn’t want that of my dear friend!” Tsukasa smiles at them, stopping before them.
“Oh! Are you feeling alright? Do you want me to stop walking so fast?” Tsukasa asks worriedly
“You…you have everything I want.”
“Huh?”
“You have similar problems to Mafuyu and me….yet you still break through.”
“I have my best friends and my family by my side!” He smiles brightly at them
“I’ll rise to become the world’s future star with them! No matter what!”
“You don’t understand me. You don’t understand at all!” Mizuki pushes past him and through the people in front of them
‘Tsukasa…why can’t you understand?! You could be the perfect child, the one that everyone wants to be…but you still choose your own route instead of what other people want? How?!’
They trudge through strangers on the streets, not apologizing as they almost knock them over in their haste.
‘Tsukasa, I want to be like you! I want to be better! If I was like you, everything would be perfect! I would tell Ena what’s wrong and be a better significant other, Mafuyu to leave her mom, Kanade that it’s not her fault! I wish I’d disappear forever as the useless, worthless, and fraud Mizuki Akiyama!’
They break through the crowds of people waiting for the crosswalk.
‘Everyone wants you by their side Tsukasa, everyone, every fucking one!’
“H-hey! Mizuki-Kun! The lights red! Wait!”
‘You’re the one people want to cheer on!’
“Mizuki-Kun!”
‘Unlike me, who’s useless at everything you can reach your dreams and be loved by everyone! I just wish I was good enough for everyone!’
“MIZUKI!”
A harsh push comes from the source of the voice and they feel their feet flightlessly leave the rocky streets
Time stops for a second.
They open their eyes and see Tsukasa’s outreached hands pushing them away with frightened eyes, his umbrella flying backwards and his bag hanging on his arm in mid air.
Oh.
A screeching sound and a loud horn is heard before Mizuki’s world is showered in darkness again, feeling themselves hit the ground and roll to their side.
Screams and shouts awaken all around them as well as frantic people calling the ambulance. Their umbrella seems to have dropped by their side and their bag somewhere in front of them. Mizuki looks up from their arms slowly, horrified at what they had just seen. Their bow coming out of their hair, letting the drenched pink strands drop around their face. They can feel their legs burn with friction burns and sprains but it’s numb to what they see next.
Oh no. No no no.
Across from them, they see Tsukasa lying on his side, his eyes are shut and blood leaking out of the right side of his head. His umbrella is next to him, broken apart in the collision, his bag in front of him with items dropped. They watch petrified as his blood mixes with the rain water. His clothes absorbing the watered down blood, making his yellow cardigan turn a dark red.
“Tsukasa?”
The older class remains still as blood trickles out of the corner of his mouth.
They hear a soft instrumental of Fixer all of a sudden and they look over at Tsukasa’s phone which used to be in perfectly crisp condition was now shattered. The ringtone grows in Mizuki’s ears as they realize who it is. They weakly reach out for his phone and accepts with tears brimming their eyes
“My star! When are you coming? Everyone is waiting for you!” Rui happily asks
That cut the string to their heart and shattered it upon impact
A sob tears through Mizuki’s throat as they dig their head back in their arms, hair messed up, dress messed up yet they didn’t care.
‘Rui, Saki, Toya, Kanade, Mafuyu, Ena, everyone….’
“Mizuki? What happened? Where’s Tsukasa?” Rui asks anxiously
“I’m sorry…I’m sorry…I’m so so sorry. I’m so…sorry.”