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Beomgyu heard the word 'soulmates' when he was seven years old.

He was always a curious kid,so it was understandable that even when he is a seven year old kid,just a little boy.he was curious and found every little thing interesting .so on a peaceful day when he was playing with his mother in the park near by their house ,jumping and running with his mother trailing behind him a few meters away. The park was lively as ever. many people strolling the pavements of the park.old people lingering there,around the flowers and admiring them,a few kids ,around the same age as him, playing around with their parents around them somewhere close and pairs sitting on the grass enjoying each others presence,people sitting alone basking in warmth of the evening sun ,gentle rays falling on their faces as the cool breeze touches their cheeks and neck.

It was around the starting of the winter so it wasn't that cold,the pleasant wind was soothing.it's humming causes pleasure run through their body as it touches them.and it makes him happy seeing how people are living their life to their fullest.enjoying the day to day of their lives and also making time for themselves in this busy world.he knows he just seven year's old ,a kid but he wants everyone to be happy and take time for themselves.his age people always only do what they want playing and going to school,making friends watches around the park jumping and twirling in circles and then decided that it's better to go back to his mother.

He was about to turn around towards his mother but something caught his eye. A few feet away from him, there was a couple sitting on the bench near a small ice-cream truck situated beside the bench.

He saw how both the people were holding each other hands and their empty hands were busy eating their own ice-cream.they were looking at each other with so much adoration while talking to one another that it made his little heart full with something he didn't understand,then his eyes trailed to down their joint hands ,he caught something shining on side of their hands near the wrist,a rose to be exact on one of the person's hand and the other person's was adorned with small butterflies fluttering around. the black ink making the rose glow in the sunlight,and the butterflies shining,it was beautiful. Even though he couldn't see it clearly he knows it is.So without any second thoughts he approached the couple with bright eyes. His feet took him towards the bench and looked at the couple who were sitting on the bench still holding hands.They didn't notice him though,the pair were still looking at each other and it felt like the world around them both faded and they could only see each other.

He clears his voice ,"excuse me?" He said in an excited voice and the couple came out of their trance and looked at the little boy standing in front of him and blinked. "Yes.hello there,kid. how can I help you ?" the woman on the right asked, they both were women and looked beautiful in his eyes.

"Umm,if you don't mind.Can I ask what is on your hands?" He asks politely pointing out the black ink.his mother taught him enough manners how to approach any stranger, bad or good.

And the person who just asked broke apart from holding the other person's hands and reached for his hair,ruffling slightly.and looked at the person beside her both smiling at each other and then turning back their attention back to him,giving him a slight smile 

"This-"she starts and this time it was the other person,lifting her hand towards him showing him the tattoo which was imprinted on the side of her hand. Now that he can see it clearly he can't take his eyes away,it was so so pretty.

Then she took her other hand trailing her fingers over the rose and the butterflies dancing on the pale skin,"- is a tattoo",she continued "a soulmate tattoo to be exact."

"A soulmate tattoo? what is th-" before he could continue, his mother was calling out for him and running towards him.

"I'm sorry!"said his mother as soon as she reached him.backing him slightly so that he rested his back on the front of his mother's knees and then she proceeded by putting her hands on his shoulders. "He is a curious kid and gets excited over every little thing he finds interesting."he heard his mom explaining to the pair and he turned his head to look at his mom and when he met his eyes, she was already bending him in half making him bend his head slightly.

"Oh no,it's totally okay ! You have such a cute kid, ma'am."said one of them, he couldn't see who it was because his eyes were on the ground and his mother was still holding him by his shoulders.he wiggled out of his mother's grasp and whined loudly.

"Mom, I was just asking a question !!" this made the people in front of him giggle and he flushed red, embarrassed.

"Thank you for telling me that."he thanked them both as his mother turned him around and started walking.

"I hope you find yours one day too",said one of the ladies loudly and he smiled,not even knowing the right meaning behind the word the pair said.

Soulmates.he thought as his mother took his hand into her palm as she ranted how he shouldn't just go to anyone and ask them anything he wants.

But her words were unheard as beomgyu gave her a blind eye and didn't even listen to his mother and continued to walk beside her still holding her palm while his mother resumed the journey towards their home.

He could not take the image of the imprinted roses and butterflies on the skin of the two ladies and how beautiful it looked from his mind ,how it was glowing the whole time he was staring at that sight which was in front of him before,he was untranced.

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He was eight years old when he learned what soulmates are.

Since that day he saw the couple in the park he was fascinated by idea of soulmates.even though he doesn't really know what a soulmate is nor does he know what's a soulmate tattoo,he finds it interesting .always bugging his mom to take him to the park after he returns home from his school everyday and his mother did.

As always his mother takes him to the park and he watches the couples sitting around them.he thinks it's beautiful how the people around him with soulmate matching tattoos glow when their partner looks into their eyes.it looked like stars,.sparkling and shining,glinting when they catch the glimpse of the other.

It's been almost a year since he had been doing this,his birthday passed and now he is a eight year old.

So one day after going to the park while returning home,his mother was shuffling through her pursue probably looking for something through her left hand and her right hand was busy holding his.he watched her shuffle through her bag, digging something then pulling out her phone as she went through something on the screen and switched it off and put it back.

"Mom,what's a soulmate?"he suddenly asked, which caused his mother to look down at him curiously from the sudden question."hmm,why do you wanna know huh?" She questioned him back, bringing her other hand towards his face as reached his nose,booping his nose.he just scrunched his nose making his mother giggle softly."let's get home first shall we? I will let you know everything,"she suggested.

He muttered a small 'okay' as they walked through the pavement near the road of some street near to their house.

After reaching home,he hurriedly removed his shoes throwing it on the floor but quickly putting it in its right place softly grunting as he heard his mother make a disapproving sound. he waited until his mother entered the living room of their home.grabbing her hand swiftly ,he pulled his mother towards the couch positioned between the big hall,sitting them both there.

His house wasn't very big but very not small either. it was big enough to fit their small family and he liked it,the walls are painted in the shade of dark brown with thin black strips on top of it.there was a kitchen on left side of hall in the corner.It's furniture was in the color of white many drawers to put the crockery in it.And to the right side of hall in further corner there were the stairs which leads them to their own bedrooms.His own bed room on the middle of top floor and can be seen while,when climbing up the stairs.his room was in the color of green,the walls filled with portraits of his family,the study table filled with water colors and sketchbooks and a frame of his own painting.his bed was in the middle of the room with cartoons decorating on top of the comforters.(eight year old beomgyu loved cartoons.)there was also a bear plushie which he liked to hug when he was sleeping ,A heart shaped lamp on one side of the bed,other than that,there was nothing interesting.

When his mother finally sat on the couch beside he asked the question again."mom,now we are back home,please tell me what are soulmates, pretty please?"as he looked up and gave his mother his best doe eyes he can give.beomgyu knows how well it works when he gives them puppy eyes. His mother just lets out an amused chuckle.ruffling his hair,messing it's curls." Of course gyu you don't have to pretty please me"she answered by  patting down his now mess of a hair after her ruffling.

"soulmates are our other half."she begins, staring at the photo in front of her,it was a picture her and Beomgyu's father with a baby beomgyu resting on his chest.she smiled at the picture then looked beside her,looking at him as she saw how intently her son was listening to her. she shook her head. her son can be very enthusiastic when he is interested, she thought as she continues."Our perfect half.you see we live in the world where everyone has a soulmate with whom they can spend their eternity with, someone who loves them just as much they do or more for the other.someone you can cherish for the rest of your life and someone you want to take care of.its sounds lovely doesn't it ?"she asks tilting her head towards her son when she sees him nodding.she smiles'',you always want to be with them and spend day and night talking to them.it's just feels so right to spend your time with them and all you want to do is stop the time so the day couldn't end.it feels magical.."

"Really?" Beomgyu asks and he sees her nodding her head,there's still a soft smile tugging on her beautiful face.he shifts his head down to his lap and starts playing with his fingers and asking the question which he always had in his mind since he heard it."Oh so then what's a soulmate tattoo? I heard that word when i asked the two young ladies on that day."he looks up again to see his mother already looking down at him.she takes her son's hand in her hand holding it gently."A soulmate tattoo appears when we first look at our soulmate and make eye contact with them for the first time.lts like a sign that your soulmate is the one you are looking at.the tattoo is imprinted on our body permanently since the day we see them,bounding us to each other.

"Wow that's so cool."beomgyu breathes out, finding everything his mom is saying fascinating."Are you and dad soulmates too.mom?"he questions right after he breathes out and this made his mother chuckle lightly." Yes,honey.we are." she says, looking at her son with a fond look as she watches her son's lips turn into a little 'O' as he nods.

"So do you have a soulmate tattoo too!?"voice laced out in excitement as he asked his mother immediately after."can you show me,i want to look at it!"

Beomgyu's mother just laughs, prying her hands from where she was holding his hand and pulls the sleeve of her dress so that she can show her the tattoo to her son.

When beomgyu sees the tattoo the first thing he does is gasp,eyes roaming over and over again on the pretty little sunflower on the skin on his mother skin and then reaches out touching the upper arm of his mother's,fingers dancing and tracing the little flower outlined with yellow streaks with delicate hands."it's beautiful."he whisper then looking at his mother."its beautiful,mom. it's so pretty." he says again like he couldn't get enough of the little sunflower,hands still tracing the tattoo."does dad have a tattoo too?" "Yes,honey he does."she replies.."but it's an iris."

"A yellow iris,to be precise,It's beautiful."

"But why flowers though,why a sunflower and an iris?"

"Because-",she starts." flowers have different meanings to it and they can be deep in a way that only few people know about it.take iris for an example,its a normal flower but it looks beautiful and the meaning behind is even more.it's the symbol of love and trust,but there are different irises,many colors but a yellow iris means happy love.and a iris alone is symbol of true love.But it's different for a couple,the tattoo kind of shows how our relation with our soulmate is going to be or how we will play a role in there life"

"So you are like the iris to dad?And he is like a sunflower to you?"

"Yes honey,i think it is that way "she says,chuckling softly.And she sees the way her son's eyes lit up and couldn't help but squeeze his cheeks, applying a little pressure on the skin with her fingers and pulls on them lightly and beomgyu just winces,whining saying how he doesn't like his cheeks being squeezed. 

"You are so cute,my little gyu-gyu! "She chirps and wraps her arms around him,hugging him tight.

"Mom,Stop, I'm not a little boy anymore !"

"What are you talking about?You're just eight years old and you will always be my little gyu-gyu."

Beomgyu just sighs and gives in. Hiding his head in his mother's chest as he tries very hard not to grin.he loves his mother so much and will always eat up how his mother coddles him all the time.

"Am I going to have a soulmate too?" He asks in a small voice, afraid of what answer he is going to get in return,still in his mother's embrace feeling content in her arms.

"Yes gyu you will when it's the right time to meet them. "

He smiles.

I can't wait to meet you,soulmate.

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Beomgyu was seventeen when he first met his best friend.

It was an ordinary day as always,he goes to his school and sits himself in his bench and looks outside the window when there is no teacher present in his class.there are noises coming outside from the classroom,shuffling,yelling as students pass by.but now he tries hard not to fall asleep as the teacher goes on about something about science.he was not a top student but he thinks he scores enough for both him and his parents to be satisfied with his results so that should do.there's a notebook lying on his desk as he doodles little bears and hearts on it,filling the paper with cute stuff.if you ask him why a bears and hearts it's simple.bears are cute and likes hearts so that's pretty much it.he is currently waiting for the lunch bell,he checks is watch which was delicately wrapped around his wrists.okay just twenty more minutes he thought as he waits.

When the bell finally rings, he quickly gathers his stuff, putting it in his bag , slinging it around his shoulders as he exits the room.

As he walks the hallway of his school he sees many people gathering around,friends talking near the lockers,couples meeting up after parting ways since morning.he was envious of them,the couples.how they hands just naturally finds each other as they greet,their eyes warm glimmering in the afternoon sunlight.he sighs as he watches one of them as they hug the sleeves of the shirt riding up,revealing the tattoo on their forearms.it was beautiful all soulmate tattoo are.Then he diverts his attention somewhere else looking at left side totally missing out the person walking rapidly towards him with a small banana shake in his hand.

He was just about to turn his head when he fell.his bag slipping from his shoulders as both the people fall on the ground as the shake spills their dress shirt,staining them.

"Shit!!"

He hears a voice and he turns his head towards the person."I'm so sorry I didn't see you." It's a boy maybe around his age with small eyes, a button nose and perfect heart shaped lips and the more he looks at this person the more he sees a bunny.And he taller than him,now that is new not many people are taller than me.he thinks as he watches the boy rambles to him.

"Oh god,I ruined your clothes.'' The boy says again he just smiles, gathering his bag back to his shoulders,dusting his shirt and pants and he gets up."Its okay, now get up."beomgyu answers as stretching his hands helps the boy on his feet.

"But your clothes.."the person mumbles and he shakes his head. "I told you it's okay but if you really want to do something you can go eat lunch with me,what's your name?"

"It's soobin and really- just eating lunch with you is enough?"

"Yes,it is ! now let's go before the next class starts." beomgyu says already walking to the cafeteria,"by the way,My name is beomgyu!" He says,his hands in either of his pockets as he sees the person(soobin) trailing behind him.

And that was the start of their friendship.they were inseparable since then ,always hanging out any chance they got.

beomgyu found out that soobin was just in the class next to his and he was just three months older than him.they have so many things in common and to be honest he had a little bit crush on the other,don't blame him. soobin is kinda cute and he couldn't help it.

They were(still are)soulmates.Not that kind of soulmates you fall in love and want to spend your lifetime with them but the kind of soulmate you always need by your side .your emotional support,the shoulder to cry on.people call them platonic soulmate or so as he heard.there will be no markings on their skin but it's the bond they feel within themselves is what makes them that and soobin was his only true friend in the school.don't get him wrong he has other friends but they were not like soobin nor they were soobin,who he always goes to when he feels down and he is also the only one who soobin comes to when he is feeling down or just needs someone to be by his side.

So he stays by his side,always.

Cause soobin stays too,always.

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That didn't change when Soobin found his soulmate and beomgyu found another best friend,another person he could trust and rely on.

It all happened in his first year of high school and he had to skip school because of his fever.he was lying in his bed, sleeping but his eyebrows were scrunched,his hair was sticking to his forehead.when his mother came to wake him up she noticed something was wrong with his son as she reached her to his hair brushing his wet bangs away from his forehead when she touched his forehead,it was slightly burning she gasped as she slowly woke him up with a worried look on her face.

"Gyu,dear. You have a slight fever. I don't think you should go to school tomorrow" she said as she started combing his slightly wet hair.he just nodded and reached out for his phone sitting on the lampstand as his mother retrieved her hands from his hair.

He texts soobin how and why he couldn't come to the school.he throws his phone beside him and drifts back to sleep right away.

He dreams about falling in love with someone and waking in their arms.two hands holding each one of his hand,stolen kisses at the back of a empty classroom,legs tangled with one other as he was squished in between.And the last thing he sees before everything goes blurry is tears on the faint faces before they all disappear into nothing.

And by the time he woke up, it was already evening."That was a weird dream I had" he muttered to himself but didn't think much about it as it was buried in his heart without him knowing it.

He stirs awake checking his phone for time and his eyes widen a bit when he sees the time,shuffling to his feet.He goes to the bathroom, brushes his teeth and freshens up and he goes down to greet his parents.

He says hello to both of them and his father immediately asks how he is feeling and that if he needs some meds for his fever but he shakes his just mumbles a small "I'm fine,i don't really need any meds" as he walks away to sit on the couch and grabs the remote watch to watch the television.

Just as he starts it. The doorbell rings.he hears his mother say something which he quite couldn't catch on and the next thing he knows,soobin is barging in . He sees his best friend greeting his father and now that he noticed him and seeing him properly, beomgyu sees him breathing unevenly looking like he just sprinted straight from school.

And beomgyu just looks at him with wide eyes as he storms towards him and starts dragging him towards his own bedroom.Not listening to any of his parents worried questions towards both of them.

He misses the sight of blank ink on Soobin's wrist.

"What ?? What's happening??" he yells as soon as soobin slams the door shut with a loud bang.

And all he gets is a blank stare from soobin and they both go to sit in his bed.But is it just him or soobin's eyes shining brighter than usual?

"I have to tell you something." Soobin confesses as his fingers play with the hem of his sleeves.

Why is he acting like this..why is he nervous in the first place??

"I found my soulmate in our school," soobin says and it takes a while for him to understand what soobin is saying then he yells.That explains why his eyes were shining and why he was nervous,he thought to himself.

"Oh my god ,soobin?Are you serious? Oh god, is this true ?? I'm so happy for you" he rambles then he is jumping on him,giving him a big hug.

Soobin just chuckles and hugs his best friend back. "yes it is true! His name is Huening Kai and he is a grade below us and looks like he transferred just a few days ago.''and then he pulls away just a little to tug his sleeve up, revealing his soulmate tattoo and beomgyu gasps.

It looks like with a single ship on it there were slight waves on the water and it's so pretty.he reaches it by brushing his fingers on the tattoo.

"It's so beautiful"he gasps out and soobin just smiles but beomgyu doesn't see it, his eyes stay still on the pretty tattoo on the wrist of his best friend.

"His tattoo looked like the lighthouse at the top of harbour with black and white strokes and it looked winsome. ''he says softly pulling beomgyu out of his trance.beomgyu looks up meeting soobin's eyes.

"Oh."he says looking at soobin's tattoo then looking back into his eyes.then looking back down shortly after. "He is the lighthouse to your ship." beomgyu speaks,voice laced with nothing but fascination "umm,wait let me explain a bit more distinctly so you can understand what I'm trying to tell ,"he pauses and resumes after finding the right words to explain to his best friend about what he feels when he looks at the lone tattoo on his wrist,which is now striking brightly in the dark room ."You know like how the lighthouse helps the lost boat to find its way back to the shore as it's light shines on the deep blue sea? Showing the way to the boat that wanders helplessly as it floats on top of the water because of the strong storms or something else which caused ruckus in the sea.just like that,He will be the light in your life,who will guide you further and you will find your way home always."he says softly.his whispered voice full of astonishment. "And you know soobin,he is made for you like how the lighthouses are made to bring the ships back on the land and i know that you will also be there for him just like how he is going to be with you." this time it's soobin who gasps,taking in everything as his best friend explains to him.he never thought it in that way and beomgyu always has this way (his way) of explaining things to people which leaves them in awe and that is what he is feeling right now.he is in awe.his hands joins beomgyu's in hurry as they both trace the tattoo together.And when beomgyu lifts his head to look at his best friend again,there were small pricks of water on his eyes.

"You really do have a way of telling things. huh?" says soobin,eyes meeting beomgyu's and he hears his best friend snickers,then he laughs and soobin joins him.

"So you asked for his number?" He says after a while now sitting with his back on the backboard of the bed.

"No it just happened so suddenly and gyu it was magical we were just staring at each other for straight two minutes i couldn't believe.it was such a beautiful moment .he was beautiful "he says the last sentence in a low voice and beomgyu just smiles at his best friend.there's slight blush on his face and his ears turning red as the time goes by.

Beomgyu just chuckles, amused.he already sounds so whipped that he couldn't help but chuckle.he never saw his best friend like this except when they first met for a few days but he eventually warmed up to him.

"So you guys wanted to take it slow I guess? That's good."

Soobin just hums."Yes we do,after the whole moment we just sat down on the bench and just talked for a while and decided we will take it slow and will meet up when we have time."

"But how are you gonna meet up when you don't even have numbers?" He asked,he was curious,okay.

"Oh I told him which grade I study in and he told me his, it'll be easy."Soobin replies and there's a grin on his face then he sighs dreamy still with a grin on his face,"god he is so pretty."

Hearing his best friend sighing happily beomgyu just shakes his head but his smile gives him away."So you have told."he says catching someone's attention back to him,"when I'm going to meet him as your best friend?"

"Soon",soobin replies and beomgyu gives him a soft look.

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And soon he meets.He sees why soobin sighed happily when he was talking or thinking about him cause huening kai really was beautiful,a literal sunshine and his laugh just makes your whole day.the way he talks was so cute and all beomgyu wanted to do was squish his cheeks till the other tells him to stop.

Kai becomes his best friend in no time.they all spend most of their time together but leaves them after some time to give them their personal space,he loves spending time with the both but he wants them to have their own time.so they can talk about themselves more.

So he leaves.

But sometimes he can't help but look at them in envy when he sees them sharing secret glances at each other when the other person isn't looking.

He wants to feel that way too.he wanted to look and be looked like that.

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When Soobin lets him know that he and Kai have finally started dating as boyfriends,he rushes towards them,pulling them towards him and gives both of them a tight hug, congratulating them.

"I know you both love each other so much and will always look out for each other. I'm so happy bin and kai."he says once he pulls away from the hug and looks them in their eyes with his hands still around their shoulders.

"Thank you hyung,I'll take care of him,always."beomgyu hears kai say once they pull away from the hug fully,now standing in front of each other."And i know he will take care of me too so you don't have to worry !"

Beomgyu's heart feels full.looking at both of his best friends and there love for each other is the most beautiful sight he has ever seen.now,he standing in front of them he can actually feel there love for one other the way there whole body just relaxes when the other looks into their eyes is something one cannot describe in words.

"I'm sure,you guys will."

That was before a month of their final exams.

It's his and soobin's last year of high school and the year ending finals are approaching,they decided to meet at the library with their pile of book in their hands as sat where there are less people,(cause less people,more concentration on their books and also because beomgyu doesn't want to get distracted by watching people cry how they were going to fail their exams.) the finals are almost two weeks from now so every place in the library is occupied except for a few at the back.They sit there for a while,going through the pages over and over,studying whatever they find difficulties in.

But the silence comes to a stop at his table when he slams the book shut causing people to glance at his side of the table."soobin I can't do this anymore. let's go get some coffee or something i feel like my brain will melt if i continue what I'm doing right now." beomgyu whines and he hears soobin laugh as he too gets up from his seat to go to some cafe near the school.

They make their way inside the cafe which was pink themed, the walls shaded in baby pink and there were small cartoons on it.the cafe looked so cute and you know how beomgyu feels about cute things.

They order their coffee and go to sit on an empty table as they wait for their drinks to be made.

They talk,mostly about the books they studied and clarify the doubts they had which they didn't quite understand.And when the waiter calls their names, beomgyu gets up from his seat.going towards the counter to bring their coffee to their table they are currently seated.he gives soobin's drink to him and pulls the chair a little backwards as sits himself back on his seat.

"How is Kai? "Beomgyu asks as soon as he sits himself on his chair and starts sipping his coffee.the taste of the coffee immediately melting his tongue as he gulps down his drink slowly.

"He is doing well,he is a little bit worried about how he is going to do in his exams but other than that he is fine."Soobin says as he starts sipping his coffee too,looking at his friend as he sees him hum and nod his head.

"Oh I should give him a call.I hope he isn't stressing himself out much,I barely remember anything because of my own preparation for the finals.I barely get any sleep these days…"

"Don't worry gyu you are going to do great,don't stress yourself too much and sleep well."

Beomgyu gives his best friend a smile,silently thanking him for the appreciation he has given him.,between them they don't really need words to say what they want to,one look at the other's face and they can tell what they are feeling,they were best friends after all.so beomgyu knows that soobin will understand the reason behind his smile.

And the time goes by fast since then.beomgyu attends his classes as usual,eating his lunch in the cafeteria with soobin and kai.spending most of his leisure time in the school library,studying.And returning home eating ,then studying again the same old routine he has been following since the starting of this month,he doesn't know when the days went by so fast that it's already two days before his finals and if he is freaking out inside how is doing to do in the exams it's totally an understatement.

Now he is sitting on his bed going through the topics again and again.he doesn't have school the next two days the teachers told them something about studying in their own houses so there is no disturbance and he gets that,they might not concentrate on their studies if they are surrounded with their friends and he would do the same if he is with his friends,chatting with them not giving attention the books that would just simply lie on the desk while the air flips it's papers and he doesn't want that.as much he loves his friends he can't do that and just flunk his finals (which is very important) and be careless.

He has to be productive so that he can enter a good University, with soobin(hopefully).So he concentrates on the book in his lap until he falls asleep.later that night, his mother removes the book from his lap when she comes into the room to check up on him,she pulls his comforter until it reaches his torso.till it wraps around on his body comfortably, and sets him on his pillow comfortably,she sees the way he curls himself in his blanket and she just pecks his forehead, smiling then exiting his room.

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He thinks he did well in his exams,he doesn't know it's already been a month since that happened and his head is in a literal mess now that he graduated highschool (Read : he can't believe he graduated highschool now he is gonna go to a university)And fuck his head hurts thinking about everything.he already talked to his parents about how he wants to move out and live in his own apartment and they agreed,with words saying,"we can and will for your pay for your rent for a few months or atleast a year but afterwards you have to do on your own son" to which he gladly agreed ofcourse he would, he was not going to depend on his parents fully .maybe he should get a job? He doesn't know but what he does know is that he has been constantly searching places to live in and getting his application form ready so he can immediately submit when his results come in, they are going to move out once the results are out , finding a decent place to live in , beomgyu himself thinks that he is not going to be roomates with soobin as much as he like the idea of it, he thought maybe kai would move in with soobin when he is out of highschool so beomgyu declines politely when his best friend asks him to stay in the same apartment as him telling the latter that it would be best if he keep the space for himself and ask kai to move in with him in the future.

He is currently on his laptop searching and browsing to the places he could live,affordable and nice atmosphere for him to live in but hasn't found any,it's already been almost an hour which makes his eyes strain from all the brightness coming from the screen so he shuts his laptop and meanlessly scrolls through his phone,then chose to exit his room when her got bored with his phone too.

This whole month, he and his family have stayed at his grandma's in daegu and it felt good and the air here is more fresher than compared to air in Seoul which is very refreshing and new.they are set go today back to their home back in Seoul so he just decides to look for his place to live after moving out.after exiting his room he sits himself on a swing which in the yard there. looking at the plants as the breeze touches his skin and he shivers. There are many insects fluttering around the trees , butterflies and bugs laying on top of it delicately. It's February and it's cold outside. He is covered with two layers of clothes but it's still so cold but at the same time it's nice and pleasant. Beomgyu loves cold weather and he doesn't understand why many people don't,(yes it is sometimes annoying) but he thinks that liking cold weather is like falling in love with snow ,cold and icy but at the same time it is beautiful. 

He watches the people on the road opposite of his house,sees little kids running around with their friends and he smiles.

I used to do the same when I was younger.

                              ☀️🌙⭐

Beomgyu is currently in front of desk on his chair with his laptop on top of it, legs bouncing up and down anxiously as he refreshes the page again and again.his marks will be shown up , he got the news that how they are going to reveal the scores two days ago and now here he is, waiting impatiently for marksheet to be shown on the screen.his parents are sitting somewhere on his bed murmuring to each other as he focuses solely on the laptop in front.when he refreshes it again and sees the screen show the results of his and he screams and shuts his laptop halfway,taking deep breaths in." What happened?" He hears his mother's worried voice and he turns back."nothing." he says, "the results just popped in on the screen and i was too nervous to look at it so i shut the laptop halfway so the tab doesn't close."

"Come on, you are going to pass, don't be nervous, open the laptop and look at it."

"okay" he says and takes a deep breath in,"okay I'm gonna do it."by the time he turns around and opens his laptop,his parents are on each side of his chair he is sitting on.he shuts his eyes as he open the laptop and slowing opening them when he finds himself ready to look at it.he just stares at the screen in front of him.the words passed and the grades glares at him through the screen and he just sits there,taking it all in.there is no way he just scored all A's in all of his subjects combined.that's more than pass for me .he thinks his parents cheers pull him out of his shock as he shakes his head a little hard,he then beams at the screen he never expected this.yes he is a little bit good in studies but he never got all straight A's ,it's always along with B's but now he just scored all A's in his finals , he is delighted because of it.

He stands up from his chair suddenly startling the other two people present in the room and he turns around and hugs them tight yelling into their ears."mom,dad i passed with all A's.Im so happy !" and pulls away picking up his phone which was thrown on the bed and skipping away from his room and his parents just laughs, endeared by their son's antics and his happy yelling.

He calls Soobin immediately and straight up yells ," i got all straight A's in everything,god !!"

"Yes I can hear you,gyu'' he hears his best friend say" i got all A's too !!" And beomgyu gasps "we really are best friends for a reason." he says,laughing while sitting on the couch with his legs crossed and he hears soobin laugh at that 

"What about Kai? Did he do well!?"

"You know he's great in academics,he scored straight A+ in everything as always,I'm sometimes jealous of how he could do so well.." there's yelling on the other side of the call,he thinks it's kai. His statement is confirmed when he hears his voice through the phone.

"Hyung, congratulations to all of us !! "

"You too kai you did so well the hard work finally paid off,oh god "

"Thank you hyung you did well too ! "

And there's bickering from the other side of the call again and he laughs."Okay both of you,you guys carry on I'm going to go now."

"Bye, hyung !"

"Bye gyu ,hope you sleep well !"

"Goodbye guys hope you sleep well too! "And then he's pressing the end button switching off his phone.sighing softly As he stares into thin air.

His bestfriends are so in love even there bickering is flirting in one kind of way.he doesn't know when he is going to able feel it but he needs it.the love,the caring,the staring into each other's eyes like it's the end of the world,the soft touches.he needs all of it.

He yearns for all of it. 

The seven year old beomgyu who was crazy over the idea of soulmates and how he finds them the most fascinating thing in this world,he is still like that .just like his seven year old self who's eyes brighten with a hint of envy in it when he sees a couple with their tattoo walking the street enjoying each others company.he is still like his seven year old who wants to meet his own soulmate but the feeling didn't subside, instead it grew.it grew inside of him like a wildfire that's spreads across the dry forests as it burns it totally.the feeling inside him burns and he doesn't know when and how that burning turns into ache as it cremate into ashes onto the land and just disappears,still lingering.The ache which he just wants to stop.

Now when he looks at soulmates passing by,the burning in his chests grow as his chest heaves.he so badly wants to meet his soulmate but the soulmate in question was nowhere in sight.sometimes he wonders if he still has a soulmate or ever had one.he parents have said not lose hope,that he is going to find them one day.he tries to say that to himself that yes he is going to find them one day but when? He is nineteen years now.all of his friends circle found one.his own best friend has kai but he doesn't.he feels so lonely even when the emptiness always makes him feel like he is edge of a cliff ready to fall but he takes a step back acting like everything is fine when all he wants to do was to fall over and let everything go.

Now he has a love and hate relationship watching couples.love because it's always nice,pleasant to watch something so beautiful.hate because it isn't him and his soulmate walking side by side as they laugh at their own silly jokes,there is no other person's hand in his palms as he walks through the lonely street.

He still waits,he has been waiting since he was seven years old and he is going to wait until as long as it takes for his soulmate to be by his side and fill the void in his heart.

He doesn't know when he let his thoughts control him as stares into the air that he doesn't even realize when he chokes on his own sob which bubbles up in his throat ,he tries to swallow it to make it stop,to make the pain in his heart stop but the tears flow from his eyes as they wet his shirt which he tries to stop by rubbing his eyes but it doesn't.so he lets go.

When beomgyu's father comes out of the room just to see his son crying he hurries himself beside him as he sits down. "gyu honey what happened? Are you okay?"he asks as soon as he reaches him and beomgyu just shakes his head.

"Dad, why does it hurt so much?" He sobs as he throws himself in his father's arms seeking comfort.

"What does,gyu? You can tell me anything.you know that right? Are you hurt?"

"It hurts here".beomgyu says as he reaches his own hand to put it on his chest"when i look at soulmates."and this time he doesn't swallows the sob which builds up comes right after he says that."It Hurts so much dad and i don't know what to do it feels like someone just took my heart away from me and it doesn't belong to me anymore,empty.so freaking empty.Does that mean something? I am surrounded by people I love, people who love me but why does it feel this way like it does right now,like most of the time.I just want it to stop."

"Gyu,honey look at me."he hears his father say and he looks up.his whole face is tear stained and the tip of his nose is pink and his father just hug him tighter not being able handle his son teary face."gyu,it's going to be okay.its because you miss your soulmate even when you don't know who they are,even if you didn't meet them.In some cases it happens like this,just like how you said that you feel empty and it hurts,you don't know what to do.it's just-"he stops his sentence and hesitates if he should continue or not to but when he sees the way his son is looking at him he decides that he deserves to know."its because",he continues 'you are already in love with them.'"

You are already in love with them.

You are already in love with them.

The words ring in his head as he hears what his father says about it.how can he be in love with them when he doesn't know who they are.hell he didn't even meet them not alone see their faces.his tears didn't stop instead the fall of it increases as he takes in whatever his father said to him.this doesn't make any sense at all and now all he wants to now is to just lock himself in his room and not come out,ever.

How did this happen? Minutes before he was celebrating how he got good results in his finals and that he finally can go to college along with soobin and now this.its like universe is playing games with him,he feels like the junk which floats helplessly in the space with no way to go somewhere.he feels lost,so lost right now.

"They are cases where some people can see the glimpse of their future with their own soulmates in their dreams ,which makes it hard for the heart to forget it.even if you forget it and your mind forgets about it,your heart doesn't.you know that something can only be kept inside for sometime and then it just explodes? That is what leads to all of this,to whatever emptiness your feeling inside right now."he hears his father say in his ears softly and he registers his father's fingertips playing with top of his hair.beomgyu just lies helplessly in his arms as he listen,when he hears something about dreams he pulls away suddenly looking into his father's eyes,which looks nothing but full of worry swirling as he stares back at beomgyu.

"Dreams? Dad, is it possible? How can-How can I be in love with them,this does not make any sense to me "

"Yes there are some cases like that, I have read,very rare but it does happen.I saw that for many soulmates who happened to go through something similar like this, only one party is involved and not the other."

"So like clairvoyance?" He asks his father.

"Yes and no ,it's not the same but it is at the same time? Clairvoyance is dreaming something about the future of yours and any other person but this is like ..you only dream about your soulmate,only them."

Beomgyu nods his head,not really having the strength to talk.

Fucking great.how many things he is going to know in one day? First he got to know that he is already in love with his soulmate and now he might possibly be a clairvoyant? Okay maybe not a clairvoyant but it is something similar to that…

"Of Course I was the only one to dream which I can't even remember." He whispers to himself bitterly. beomgyu vaguely remembers when he had a weird dream when he was fifteen but he thought it was a meaning less dream and thought it was basically him dreaming how he is going to spend his lifetime with his other half or how wants it to be in the near future but that wasn't the damn reason why he dreamt something like that night.it was so different,was this the reason why it felt so real?He can't really pinpoint on what the dream was but what he does remember is the feeling which settled in his heart as the dream played in the back of his head.The warmth spreading through his body when he was lying on his bed.

"I had a dream like that.I think,I'm not sure if it was like what you said,but dad it was weird."he states looking at his father again,playing with his own hands which settled on his lap after he pulled away from the hug.

"Wait? Oh gyu, come here." his father says when he sees beomgyu tearing up again,patting the space beside beckoning him to lean on him."It's okay there's nothing wrong with falling in love with them."

"But what if they won't even like me when I meet them? What if they don't want to be with me once they see me?" He questions his father,voice mixed with many emotions that he can taste in his tongue.the fear which creeps inside threatening his whole being.

"How can they not when it's you beomgyu? You are literally the most wonderful person anyone can ever have."

"You're not just saying this to make me feel better right dad?" He sniffs his nose resting his head on his father's shoulders and just sits there.

"You know i don't lie,gyu."his father says firmly and he just nods his head.he doesn't have it in him to answer nor ask more questions about the matter anymore,his head and heart is already a huge mess that he doesn't want to cause anymore pain today.he snuggles into his father's side and sighs.

"Let's go into your room now it must be hard for you to take it all in,in such a short period of time.go freshen up and sleep for a while.it will clear your head a little bit." beomgyu's father says as he stands up bringing beomgyu with him as he supports his son to go back to his bedroom.

He collapses on the bed as soon as his father puts him gently on it and tugs him under the comforter.he just need to sleep so he can forget everything happened but deep down he knows he can't.and that everything is going to change when he wakes up later but now he lets sleep consume him as he drifts into sleep.

He dreams of something again after that conversation,two days later.

 this time all he could hear was sobs and cries in the room and it's loud,too loud ringing in his ears as he listens.after a while the ringing stops in his ears and now that he can he can hear clearly it's his own sobs as his body shakes violently because of it.there is nothing in sight and his vision is pitch black,like someone just blindfolded him and all he could do was see the darkness listening to his own cries.then there were gentle voices and it soothes him just for a while they are very faint that he can barely hear it but they are still there he can feel it and once his own sobs and cries turns into little sniffs he can hear the voices a little clearly and looks like they are talking to themselves.

But he hears a voice talk to him.

"Gyu,please let us in ,it's going to be okay we will be okay."the voice shakes and his eyes are filled with tears again

"You can't just let us go without even trying ,please don't leave."

Another voice.

But he find himself not being able to talk.the darkness is fading slowly now and he sees the place he is in but everything is blurry,very blurry that beomgyu can barely see anything.he sees two people standing in front of him and there were tears in their eyes.he can hardly make out their faces,the only thing he can see are the tears in their eyes which slowly rolls down their cheeks which makes his heart tug at that which fills his whole body with discomfort and all he wants to do was just to run in their arms but he pushes it away.his feet move on their own as he turns around and sees a door in front of him. beomgyu walks towards towards the door holding the handle in his hand,he turns his head again to look at the people behind before turning back to the door 

And then he leaves.

Beomgyu wakes up gasping for air as he sits up clutching his own heart.the dream felt so real that he can still feel himself present there,that it was really happening right in front of his own eyes.he reaches his face to rub his eyes he registers the tears present in his eyes.he still is crying from the dream he dreamt.he rubs his eyes and checks his phone replying to the worried texts his best friend sent him.his parents must have said what happened yesterday,he replies to him that he feels a little better now (no he doesn't) and switches off his phone throwing it beside him on the mattress.he can't help but think about the dream,the eyes of the two people present there filled with tears.why were they two people? Were they..were they really his soulmates? Two people.there is no way he has two soulmates? He first found out that he was in love with his soulmate and now he finds out that he might possibly have two fucking soulmates which he finds out through a freaking dream? His head starts to hurt thinking of the possibilities of what could happen and he doesn't want to think.so he gets up, enters his bathroom and washes his face, clutching at the end of sink he looks at his own reflection and he almost doesn't recognise himself.there are dark bags under his eyes ,looking swollen and red.

He gets out of his bathroom grabs his laptop from the desk and sits himself on his bed with his back resting on the headboard."i have got some research to do."he says to himself as he opens his laptop.so he opens the chrome and searches everything that has been happening to him since yesterday ,why was it happening? 

It turns out what his father said to him was right the falling in love even before meeting or seeing them,the dreams but he sees the stories related to that.people posting their own Stories with their soulmate who faced the same thing.he reads.reads everything he could and collect information about it.and finds out that only ten percent of the world experience this according to the things he read.and most of them didn't really end up together and that shakes him whole.soulmates are meant for each other right? But why did they not end up with each other? Was it something connected to the dreams? Or is it just their own opinion to separate ways?

He knows some soulmates keep it as 'just friends' or 'just being acquainted with each other between them and be together with other person but they still need them to be in there life because once you meet them you can't let go.platonic or not ,lovers or not they need each other by their side when something is wrong.just like a rope which has each ends they need to hold on to each other so the rope doesn't break.so they themselves don't break.

Then he searches for the thing which he has been thinking about since the dream.

"Does a person have more than one soulmate?"

He presses search after he types the question and sees the screen light up as the searches pop up and reads every story that people have posted about having more than one soulmate.

He comes across a story on Tumblr which he finds interesting and opens it to start reading about this person who happened to have two soulmates and shared their experience on the internet.

Me and one of my soulmates met when we were just kids,our parents were best friends. So we met at a party one of the family arranged,it was sudden .our meeting .. you can say that neither of our parents expected us to be each other's soulmates so when it did happen both of our parents were delighted.since then we've been together,we didn't really confess to each other because we known each other since we were so young that we never really need to tell the other how we felt each other. We could feel it , through the blank ink on our bodies ,how we take care of each other without even noticing it.it was just there,our love for each other . We went to the same highschool and the same University,even the same company because we shared a lot of common interests leading us to the same desirable job we want to work. Even in our busy lives and doing our own jobs we always tried to find time for ourselves. Yes we do live in the same apartment but after a long day all we did was to have our dinner and go straight to bed. And in the company we work at different departments so we don't see each other in the office timings but we always find ourselves sitting in the cafeteria eating our lunch while talking about work or whatever we wanted at that moment. But one day changed everything,it was a normal day like always.the sun shining,the birds chirping and the wind blowing. There were people walking their way in and out of the company building and people talking to each other like we both were doing at that time.we were enjoying time there,eating and enjoying each other's presence. But then it happened,I happened to turn my face to the corridor of the cafeteria and made eye contact with someone. A handsome person,dark brown hair,wavy locks and tall structure. I was in awe and when my partner who was sitting beside me saw that I was staring into thin air ,she turned her head too,looking in the direction I was looking . She froze just the way I did ,we both looked at the third person as the person wouldn't stop looking at us. A new marking found its place beside our old ones ,engraving its place there permanently . It felt like a new and old experience at the same time, deja-vu except now we know what the feeling was . It scared us first of how it's going to work out so we didn't do anything, didn't talk to him neither did he, but we both always find ourselves within a few reaches near him ,so we decided to risk it and talk to him. It was hard because we were scared that it's going to affect us, affect our bond with each other but it didn't, instead we grew closer . We both had different experiences with him in a pleasant way . It felt full,we felt full. He came into our life, suddenly crashing on us and finding us, fitting right in like a missing piece of a puzzle and now the piece is in and set in its place , completing the laborious puzzle,completing us.

(To the people reading this,you might be confused and think you don't deserve them but you do they are made for you so don't push them away just like that.you will just end up hurting everyone in the process )

As he reads everything,beomgyu is just left there stoned. How was it possible? There were many possible things that could happen if there is a third party involved but how did they just talk it out and get together? "God why am I stressing myself out? It's not like I'm going to meet my soulmates now," he said to himself as closes his laptop, grabbed his phone from his bed and left the room to go for a stroll.thinking how some fresh air is gonna clear his mind even if it's just a little bit.

As he walks on the empty streets watching the trees sway with the rhythm of the wind,the cold breeze touching his skin pleasantly.he hides himself under the thick layer of clothing he wore and stuffs his now cold hands into the depths of the pockets of his brown long coat.the winter is reaching its peak so the day are shorter and the nights gradually comes faster than than the other days,the sun already hiding behind as the dark sky takes over, covering the blinding light showing its blackness little by little,making the the flock of birds singing in the sky as they pass by,old people enjoying their evening walk and little kids fluttering around behind their parents just like how a baby ducks does ,following their mother around . he knows one thing for sure,he has two soulmates based on his Dream.he has two of them.it's hard for him to accept the fact that though,very hard .even when the universe has decided everything ahead it doesn't mean that he can handle that much information.Then he thoughts wonder if the other two have met already or they were just strangers just like how he is to them.And if they did.Are they in love already? Do they hold hands as they walk side by side ? Do they share soft kisses under the blinding rays of the sun.i hope they are happy if they did meet and are together already He mumbles to himself as he reaches the park as lets his thoughts trail further and goes to sit on the wooden bench.

It's a pleasant evening and the wind blowing around him makes the plants dance in the air ,he pulls out his phone and texts soobin.then slips it back in his pocket.

Me                                                           >>Soobin,come to the park near my house                        

>>I have to tell you something.                                                                                                             

Binnie<3

>> Is everything alright?Are you okay?

>> will be right there.

He sees soobin walking hurriedly towards him after a while ,his long legs striding towards him.he is panting until he reaches and stops right in front of beomgyu." Are you okay? Everything alright?" He questions as soon as he reaches, beomgyu not knowing what to do,pats the space beside him on the bench, silently beckoning him to sit down,and he does sits beside him and looks at his best friend worriedly who just looks down at his own hands playing with the hem of his shirt.

"Gyu?" Soobin says softly,not wanting to scare his friend who looks like he has been through a lot. 

That pulls him out of his trance and he looks at his best friend beside him,who is looking at him with nothing but patience painting his features. "Yeah,right" he starts " i don't know what is happening and i probably won't be able to describe it properly cause there's a lot going on in my head but something happened that i need to tell you.."

"Hmm?"He hears his best friend make a soft noise,telling him that he is listening and he feels a comforting hand on his knee." So you know the other day when we got our results?" Soobin nods." Everything was fine ,I was fine . I talked to you and Kai on the phone right? But all of a sudden,I started crying. I don't know why that happened " he says and stops mid sentence and soobin shuffles closer,rubbing his back with his hand when he sees small pricks of water sparkling in his best friend's eyes. "There's more" soobin states and beomgyu nods his head.`there's more,dad came up to me and talked to me and asked me why I was crying ,so i said to him . I told him that my heart hurts whenever I see soulmates." 

"Oh gyu ..i-i don't know what to say" he says as takes hold of beomgyu hand in his ,thumps rubbing circles hoping beomgyu would understand his gesture. Beomgyu feels his heart warm at how caring soobin is ,so he squeezes his hand and tries to give him a smile. "You don't have to say anything and I'm not done yet." 

"He said that's because I miss my own one" he says and looks at soobin ,eyes looking into the other's." And that I'm already in love with them" soobin blinks as he takes what beomgyu just said to him,his hand which was holding the other's comfortingly,loosens a bit and stares at beomgyu wide eyed,panic and anxiousness swirling in the black orbs as he stares at him.

"How–" he trails , his hand which was holding beomgyu's retreats back to rest on his own lap,rubbing his palms over the cloth of his black slacks back and forth. Beomgyu knows the taller person doesn't understand anything and he himself gets that cause when this issue was told to him yesterday,he felt like a whole bucket of ice cold water fell on his face in his sleep and he was suddenly wide awake. Soobin looks like he is having a hard time already so he gives him time to recover from the shock he gives him,then continues to tell him after some initial time. When he does recover he looks at beomgyu."what?" He says with his eyebrows raised like he thinks beomgyu is making this up. "Hyung,this is true. It's not just it. I didn't even tell you the real reason yet."

"Real reason.." he voices out,"what is it?"

Beomgyu releases a breath."i had a dream two years ago.. the day you met kai,i thought it was just a simple dream,hyung. I really thought it was just me fantasizing about my life ,how it was going to be in the future so i let it be but it was not,it was not just a mere dream" he says as he looks at soobin who is looking at him like he has grown two heads but he decides to continue,telling someone is better than keep everything to myself,he tells himself ."Dad said there are cases like this which are very rare but it happens. In a case like this a person who dream about something similar to mine are mostly about their soulmates" he pauses himself,needing to breathe before he resumes," it's because of the dream i fell in love with them,it's like my heart couldn't stop itself after the dream so i fell from them without knowing it myself,that's the reason why it hurts so much to look at soulmates." he says the next line in a whispered voice," to look at you and kai."

 Soobin eyes soften at that, eyebrows relaxing a bit which was furrowed before," oh,gyu–i didn't know.if i did we wouldn't ha–" but the other stops him before he could what he was supposed to say." Hyung,no don't ever say that'' he says,pleading." Please don't,I would never want that. You both can be free with me as much as you like so don't say that." Soobin nods his head so beomgyu carries on,"i had a similar dream yesterday and hyung it was scary ,i was- i am scared,hyung" he looks up to blink his tears away when he remembers the dream,the tears. The only thing he sees when he looked back at them."beomgyu,look at me" soobin says firmly making the other turn his head towards him." He holds his face gently,wiping the tear with his thumb which flows down his cheek."what happened in the dream?" He asks gently,trying not to scare the other. Beomgyu shakes his head as more tears roll down his cheeks." Hyung,they were crying,crying because of me.It was like i hurt them,i don't know- ,it frightened me." Beomgyu chokes out,the tears running down his cheek like rainfall which pours endlessly on a raging windy day. Soobin looks at him still cradling his best friend's head ,holding it gently before pulling the other towards him,making him lay his head on his shoulders. Beomgyu fists at his shirt pulling the other's body,needing something, someone to hold on . And soobin lets him,just like always. He pats beomgyu's head and whispers,"it's okay,nothing to worry about '' whispering sweet, comforting words into his ear until his cries turn into little sniffles.

Then he halts,his hand pausing its movement on the other's fluffy hair which tickles his chin.

"They?" He questions not being able to stop himself from asking when he finally realizes. Beomgyu pulls away and stares into his eyes again.his eyes puffy and red from crying,his nose pink from all the sniffing and the furrow of eyes forming wrinkles in between his forehead. His lips wobble again,he nods just a single movement of his head before the tears are back again. “They as in you don’t know the person or—?”

"There were two people,both in my first one and in yesterday's dream."

"No,gyu, please don't cry," Soobin says when he sees the endless tears rolling down his pink cheeks. "C'mere" he opens his arms and beomgyu crashes into his chest who catches himself so that they wouldn't fall off the bench and holds the other closely. "There's nothing wrong about having more than one soulmate." He murmurs softly choosing the right words, not wanting to say something he shouldn't to his fragile friend.he feels beomgyu shake his head but he doesn't say anything. So soobin stays quite too,hugging the other tighter ,leaving a small peck on top of his head,barely there but beomgyu feels it and rubs his face into his chest and sighs. 

Soobin will always be there for the other at times like this,giving warmth and a shoulder to cry on,even if it wets his t-shirt.

They pull apart after a while and sit there ,beside each other on the bench.the silence calming as they watch the people in the park."don't think about it that much" soobin says after a while turning to face the other,taking ahold of his hand again."I know what goes in that head of yours,don't think about anything,we will see what happens when the time comes ." He rubs their hands together when a sudden wave of breeze hits them.

"But–"

"No buts beomgyu,it's not like it's going to happen, tomorrow,right?" When the other doesn't reply nor look at him,he questions again."Right?" Beomgyu nods his head at that but doesn't answer. Soobin sighs,not knowing how to make his best friend feel better. He threads his fingers into the soft hair as beomgyu continues to lay on his chest.they stay like that for a while , beomgyu in his own world ,which is him full of thinking and contemplating about his future while soobin just pulls beomgyu close to his side and the other notices, a sign that he is going to be there no matter what.

Soobin gets up from his place on the bench abruptly making beomgyu almost fall back but the taller one is already pulling him up on his feet,he swings an arm around his shoulders and starts walking in the opposite direction which is not where beomgyu lives. "bin? Where are we going?" He questions when the other doesn't say anything,simply walking now on the pavement of a road near to the park." We–..." Soobin starts, "are going to get ourselves some ice cream !" "..hyung–,what ? No !" Beomgyu shrieks," "not in this cold weather." He digs his hands back into his pocket while making his point .his bestfriend can be so stupid sometimes."uhh, i didn't really think about that." The other admits scratching his neck in a sheepish way. "Well, hot chocolate.. Yes , Hot chocolate! We can drink that ! Perfect for this weather too !" Soobin beams at beomgyu when he sees a small smile blooming on his face. Well at least he is smiling,even if it is only a little bit. He thinks to himself,pulling him closer to his side as he drags the other ,making him almost stumble for going too fast.

They order their hot chocolate and go to sit where the seats are empty. Their drinks arrive after around ten minutes of their waiting.the staff set the drinks down gently and whisked away from there as soon they served along with a small mutter of 'enjoy' . Beomgyu wraps his fingers on the handle of the cup, picking it up and bringing it closer to lips,he blows air when he sees it is still hot and starts to drink it taking small gulps ,sighing softly when the hotness melts on his tongue .they sit there in silence enjoy the calmness vibe the cafe gives them,soft music playing in the background. Beomgyu won't admit that he is still shaken by everything that happened in just a few hours but he thinks he had enough breakdowns for two days so he calms himself down , taking deep breaths and enjoys his hot chocolate. He sees Soobin sip his own hot chocolate happily,making content noises whenever he drinks it.

When they are done,the both make their way out of the cafe and bid their goodbyes to each other when soobin says he has something to do,it is probably cause he needs to look for apartments to stay and beomgyu himself remembers that he needs to do that too.he let's the other go and walks towards his house,taking long strides on the side pavement for the way towards his home.

The next day goes by fast as he decides to stay in his room ,cooped up there with his computer as he searches the places that he could live in ,which was supposed to be done way before but was put on halt because of his 'problems' . Soobin let him know that he has already found an affordable apartment near their college and he himself hopes he finds one somewhere near to his University,cause if that's not the case it's going to be a pain in the ass to travel back and forth to his place to the university.

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Beomgyu is hurriedly making his way to the bus stop, walking hastily where Soobin is waiting at his own apartment. He is late for the meet up with Soobin and Kai and is currently freaking out about it. (Because he is sure soobin would yell for being late) He doesn't know when his first year went by so quickly,one day he was moving out of his parents house and the next thing beomgyu knows he is alone in an apartment of somewhere in depths of the Seoul city and the fact that his apartment his far from his University doesn't help at all ,it was like the universe was against him an year ago that all of the apartments were rented because of many people joining which led him to renting one away from his University by almost 30 minutes, soobin is a lucky bastard,he thinks. because he was quick in making deals with someone and enjoying waking up late while he has to wake up early and should be on his feet right after his rising even when there is haziness in his eyes for getting up early. His freshman year went quite good,he thinks . Majoring in dance was nice . It gave freedom to dance freely without anybody judging him and learning new things everyday . The new assignment without a worksheet was good for his dancing was nice but it came with endless loop of practicing in the empty room for late hours, exhaustion taking over his body, sleeping late in the morning,his part time job shifts and spending time with his friends in between was tiring,very tiring. But it was also what he enjoyed because with tiredness sometimes comes sleep which makes us not to overthink and that is exactly what beomgyu needs,sleep. It was hard for him to sleep ever since the dreams ,thinking about them made him uneasy which led him to be awake for hours but being tired means you don't think and the body sometimes gives up,giving us the rest we need . He has made friends many of them, still soobin and kai will always be his forever best friends but being in different departments has its disadvantages and soobin choosing photography because of his interest in looking at the world through the lenses doesn't let them meet a lot anymore which is sad but they always make plans on the weekend,either going to the club for some fun or it is cuddling in one of their apartment while watching a movie cozily. Kai has recently moved in with Soobin after his graduation in highschool,they spent the entire vacation showing him around and having fun. Today is just like one of the days ,the three decided to go shopping before the second semester starts the day after tomorrow and beomgyu doesn't really have new clothes to wear.he sighs and holds the strap of the bag which hangs on his left shoulder and increases his pace. His previously trimmed hair is now in long black luscious locks ,reaching his shoulders in a wolf cut, his loose strands waving carelessly along with the wind in the midday sun.he climbs into the bus , finding him a seat at the very back,sitting there. he sighs out At Least i got to catch the bus in time.

When he punches the code of Soobin's and Kai's shared apartment,sliding in . There's a flying pillow coming straight towards him,hitting him on his head and he winces, rubbing his forehead with a frown on his face.

"Choi beomgyu ! You are late again." Soobin says as soon as he marches his way towards him ,pointing him a finger. " This is like the third time." 

Beomgyu rolls his eyes as he looks at his best friend who now has his hands on hips , giving him a pointed look at how a mom does when their kids do something wrong. 

" I slept in." He says meaninglessly and soon picks the pillow again. " You always sleep in ! I swear to god beomgyu– if you don't fix it you are going to be late for the classes everyday , considering how far you stay from the University." Soobin says while chasing after him with a pillow he sees Kai making his way out while fixing his hair, seeing him hide behind the other's larger figure using him as his shield , holding his arms while dodging the pillow Soobin keeps hitting him with. Seeing the exchange he sighs,here they go again.

Taking the matter into his hands he stops soobin while catching his wrist and throws the pillow away. " Enough." He says and feels his boyfriend relax in his hold ,there's a small pout forming on his face. " But he–fine." He says, shoulders slumping when he sees his soulmate giving a look with his eyebrows raised.

Behind kai,beomgyu pokes his tongue out sheepishly while still hiding behind him and kai turns his head towards him just in time and folds his hand over his chest,moving aside." Beomgyu hyung?"

"Alright, alright!" Beomgyu replies,Hands raising up defensively." Let's go now ! We are already late."

"And whose fault is it !?" 

Kai just shakes his head watching their banter.

He is looking through the clothes , picking out the ones he likes and stands in front of the mirror, beomgyu turns hai body left and right looking in the mirror seeing if the cloth he choose would be perfect for him , he is startled when he soobin says something and he turns around, " that one looks nice." He says pointing at the white sweater vest with blue strips around the neck and at the ending of the sleeves. He raises the piece of clothing higher to confirm and the other nods , he gives it to him and pads his way to choose more, ignoring the loud calls he gets from soobin. " I'm not your bodyguard to carry your things !"

When they are done the three decide to eat their dinner early not wanting to go another place just for the food. beomgyu and kai sit at a table while soobin goes to give to their orders  "so kai-ah,how is Seoul?"Beomgyu asks and the other looks at him before shrugging.

"so far,so good.i guess? not really sure how it's going to be after the classes start." And beomgyu nods his head,understanding. " The real hell starts then." He states. Kai had said to him that he is going to major in music because of his love and beomgyu thinks it's perfect for him with his voice and his passion for music will surely let him shine in many ways , he has seen the other sing and talk about music very enthusiastically and he couldn't help but ruffle the younger's hair whenever he does that. Being a dancer himself,he has to understand music so that he could do better , to dance his way and express the raw emotions through his moves and steps. So he is always up with music talk with kai because soobin looks a minute and a half from his sleep whenever he starts to talk about it . So kai always prompts to come near him whenever he wants to talk about it and beomgyu welcomes him open handedly.

Soobin comes with the food in his hand and they both clap their hands excitedly, rubbing his hands,beomgyu grabs a delicious looking chicken wing and takes a small bite of it , humming in delight he starts munching on it and the other two start eating their own.

When they are done beomgyu goes his own way, bidding goodbye to the other two.

Sitting on the window seat of the bus now , he watches the world outside of the bus with his headsets plugged in,some random song humming in his ears . The night has come to its surface now,painting everything black. But today,to his surprise the moon is shining brightly , glistening in the dark sky making the blackness look less gloomy,the stars are gleaming too,dancing in the pitch black , blinking brightly along with the moon . He notices that they both help each other shine in the discolored sky. Stars and moon help each other to beam in a way that makes the night sky look less disastrous and scary. He thinks and sighs ,a small smile blooming on his face looking at the sky.

He throws his bag on the couch, the shared apartment he lives in is not shared anymore,the person who used to live moved out and beomgyu is left alone to pay the rent for the apartment. He just hopes the owner finds someone soon and he won't have to pay for it all and directly goes into the bathroom to take a cold shower.

I have been sweating since morning. It is better to take a cold shower to get rid of the stickiness.

He discards his clothes in the pile of his unwashed ones ,turning on the shower he steps in. Letting the cold water hit his warm and hot skin washing away the sweat which has been sticking ever since. He shivers, reaching for the bath loaf, he scrubs all the dampness away and steps out. Grabbing his towel from where it is hanging he hangs one around his lower body and one around his neck . He dries his hair with one hand and the other digs into his closet taking one of his regular casuals. A plain white shirt and black slacks . Beomgyu quickly changes into them and sits on the bed with his leg crossed one on another . He texts soobin that he has reached home( he is going to get an earful if he doesn't.) And all he got in return was "great,glad to know you remembered to text not fall asleep right after you entered the house." to which he sends a bunch of emoticons along with a middle finger and shuts his phone , swinging it beside his pillow. He flops his head on it bringing the thin layer of comforter with him and falls asleep, drifting into a long slumber.

The next day all he did was laze around the house and listen to music all day.since he can't do anything from the next day. He watched the tv , scrolling through his phone when he got nothing. He tried to practice his dance steps and tried some stretches, failing miserably because of the space there. He sighs , plopping on the couch with a pout. "I am so bored!!" He says loudly even though there are no people present there, flinging his hands and legs childishly. His shift at the cafe doesn't start for at least 4 hours and he doesn't really have anything to do !! His attempt to dance in the living room failed. He listened to every song he liked from his playlist,he watched TV and found nothing interesting,his scrolling through the phone went into misery too and he didn't really know what to do. In the past he had been spending so much time with Soobin and Kai that he hates being alone after a long time with them. He slams his head into the softness of his couch ,his long hair falling into his face and he grunts ,reaching for the band around his wrist ,he ties his hair into a pony which is too small but he doesn't seem to care and just lies on the couch with his hands helplessly resting on the side of his frame.

Beomgyu blinks his eyes and pats the space beside him, searching for his phone without putting an effort into it so that he could still lay his head from where it is resting. He grabs it when he feels it under his palm ,dragging it towards him and squints his eyes as the light of the screen hits his eyes. He blinks again and looks at the time,4:17. He shuffles, sitting up right and rubs the sleepiness from his eyes. He has around ten minutes to dress up for his shift (which he can do it.) And leave . He always likes to be there beforehand so he gets up on his feet from the couch and goes into his room, he finds something to wear and throws himself into them. 

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He wakes up to the blaring alarm ringing right into his ears and beomgyu grunts ,reaching for it for he stops the annoying sound and rubs his eyes,still lying on his soft pillow. He gets up and sits down, still on the bed.Every morning is like this,he just needs to sit like this and get over hazy daze. When he is out of it, he heads to the bathroom brushing his teeth and takes a shower as the tiredness and sleepiness disappears. He changes into his clothes which he ironed yesterday after reaching back home from his shift,which went surprisingly good. The cafe was almost full ever since his shift which is kind of a pain in ass but he managed to do everything right. All he wants is that the month ends soon and he gets his paycheck. He is working for that anyway. He checks himself in the mirror and a pleased sound escapes his throat. Beomgyu is wearing a green checkered shirt inside an oversized green hoodie with brown jeans, completing his fit for the day. He dusts his pants and hoodie undoing the wrinkles formed in places and gives him a thumbs up through the mirror and winks at himself.oh,i look good ! He turns left and right appreciating himself before he goes to do his hair ,combing the strands,untying the knots. He ties the thick layer of his hair into a half pony . He wears his regular pair of sneakers which Soobin gifted him on his birthday,making sure everything is in his backpack and steps out of his apartment,padding his way into the elevator. He punches the number and the elevator dings and zooms down . He steps out , excitedly marching outside. He is so excited for his new semester,new semester as in , new dance forms,he gets to learn new things and maybe new friends too? He is so excited that his whole body is thriving,adrenaline feeling his veins with exhilaration that he almost bounces his feet , jumping in Criss cross while making his way to the bus stop,but stopping himself before he gets any weird glances people throw at him.

His ride was around fifteen minutes and now he is standing in front of the entrance , a big gate covering the rest of the buildings inside. When he first got there he thought he was entering a palace,gaping at it like a fish but now getting used to it . It just makes him good but sometimes all he wants to do is get out of there and return. But today he can't help but feel his lips tug upwards in a small smile. So excited for this semester. He says to himself clutching the strap of his bag tight and goes in,skipping away leaving the crowd in the hallway behind.

He sees his senior there and immediately greets him. "Soonyoung hyung,how are you ? How did your vacation go?" He asks excitedly and the older one pats his back smiling "it went well gyu,how was yours?" Soonyoung asks and nods his head excitedly,``I had so much fun ! Soobin's soulmate is in town now that he graduated so we showed him around." 

"Ah,really? That's great" 

Soonyoung is one of the greatest dancers he knows and beomgyu admires him a lot,the way he dances ,the way he presents himself while dancing he really looks up to him as fellow dances and a good hyung who leads him further and pushes him further to be a good performer. Soonyoung wraps an arm around his shoulders and pulls him towards the others and he goes easily. He is greeted with loud cheers and he says it back just as enthusiastically they all are currently in the practice room which their timetable told them to be ,some people might think that it's horrible to have the dance period first class in the morning but he wouldn't say the same thing as much as he will be sleepy ,it's better have dance the first in the morning cause other classes makes you tired and exhausted that won't have it in you to give your best in the classes while dancing.

The first class was just them warming and stretching which the new teacher they have assigned them too taught,how to do it so they wouldn't end up cramping something they weren't supposed to and led them in a calm manner , beomgyu likes the person already.

His other classes go by in a rush and would never admit that he wasn't paying that much attention to his other classes as much as he did for his first one. 

Now he is on the way to the cafeteria,the bell rang approximately five minutes before and soobin is already spamming the gc with a bunch of messages. He rolls his eyes, sends him a reply that he is on his way and makes his way to the cafeteria . When he enters inside the cafeteria is already bustling with people chattering and eating ,some people just sitting and beomgyu looks for his two friends in the crowd,when he spots them ,they both wave at him towards them, beckoning him to come and he does , stepping towards them avoiding bumping into other people on his way . He takes the seat in front of the both,dragging the chair backwards, plopping on it with a loud huff. Soobin is giving him a look and beomgyu already knows he won't like whatever nonsense the other is going to utter.

"What the fuck are you wearing?" He says and there it is ,he knew it . Beomgyu snarls ,looking at his best friend with a look of irritation painted on his beautiful face.

"What do you mean?"

"You look like fucking tree !" He exclaims," an 180 cm tree walking around the campus." Beomgyu had enough so he picks a chopstick from the plate which was lying in front of him, which the other two have already bought his share of food and throws it towards his face not bothering if the other might get hurt,it hits square one soobin's forehead,who winces and tries to pick the same chopstick to throw back but kai halts him taking it from his hand and placing it back in its place. " You both can't be serious,look around." And when they do,most of the people in the surroundings near him are staring at their table, some laughing while some look like they are here and beomgyu throws his head down, embarrassed. his neck flushing from the sudden attention he put himself in with soobin. " It's his fault !" He says pointing at soobin." He can't tell me that when he is dressed in a fucking white t-shirt and black tracks on his first day." Soobin glares at him but beomgyu doesn't even bat an eye." And he is telling him me i look like tree when he looks like he got wasted and woke up hungover.`` 

"Fuck you !" 

"Hyuka, your soulmate is bullying me !"

"Goodness,why are you both like this? Stop it you two ,you are just embarrassing yourself." Kai says, munching on his food not even looking unfazed by what's happening going on the table. They both pout but doing as he said.picking up his chopsticks which soobin passes with glare he snatches it away from his hands,chewing on his lunch.

Soobin and beomgyu's bantering continues ,kai sitting there regretting every single moment of his life while he watches his boyfriend and best friend bicker. 

The whole cafeteria unbothered by the loud noises coming from the small corner ,being in their own world. Just like every day in one's college life.

Beomgyu's not excited for his next class, history. He hates history. Why does he even have history when he doesn't even major in it and when he asked soobin about it all he got was a smack on his head and others telling him how "history is for every major,idiot. '' he snarls a remark before pouting. He doesn't want to learn about some king being an asshole or him just destroying the country cause he doesn't care nor does he care about the stories of lost love stories about two lovers,It's all in the past anyway.

He basically stomps towards the room while Soobin and Kai walk beside him. Can you-like,not stomp your way there,you are going to scare people away by the way you are walking." Kai says as he stares at his friend beside him." Good ,I don't want anyone in my way,I have to secure the last seat at the very back and people won't come in between and take my seat if I look scary." He fists his left hand in front of his face,shaking it as if showing how he is going to fight them."If they don't move,I will fight them and win it."

"You look like a mad puppy going to throw a tantrum for a treat, that is not scary." Soobin retorts from beside Kai who huffs like he expected something from his boyfriend. Beomgyu glares at him." I don't ! " He says angrily,crossing his arms over his chest and walks hastily leaving both of his best friends behind who call out for him.

"Hey ! Wait up for us,puppy maltese"

'Beomgyu hyung,wait for us." Kai whines and beomgyu stops , turning to look at them ." I do not look like a Maltese." he says pouting at kai who melts on the spot looking at the older. "Okay,okay." He agrees and beomgyu skips ahead by a few steps in front of the couple ,leaving them behind. 

Soobin and Kai look at each other,sharing a look,before blurting out at the same time "he totally does." They both say together and share a laugh ,shaking their heads to catch up to their friend who is walking fastly ahead of them.

History class as to say went boring as always,all he did was sleep but from all the whines he got from soobin and kai about how they had so many notes to take and write, proves that he indeed was right.

And just like that his first day of University ended with a great start for his dancing and boring history class.

Until it didn't .

Until something very unexpected happened.

They all pack their bags, stuffing their belongings while sitting there ,his things already in his bag from not caring to remove them outside.he waits as his two best friends pack them with drool on the cover of his mouth from sleeping so soundly in his seat while the lecturer ranted something about the past,boring. When they are done. Soobin smacks him with his bag and scrunches his face at him,annoyed. " There's drool on your face,clean it up stupid." He says and beomgyu is quick to do that,using the back of his hand to wipe the wet drool from his face then looking at his now dirty hand . He blinks at that before looking at soobin then the bag in his hand and smiles. " Don't you fucking dar–" but before soobin could even continue he wipes his hand on the bag, grinning at him. " That's so fucking gross beomgyu." 

"Gotta agree hyung,what the fuck?" Kai says and he shrugs" shouldn't have called me a Maltese."

"You are so disgusting." Soobin says while wiping the front of his bag with a tissue kai handed him.

" Don't act like you wouldn't do the same if you were me ."

"Okay that, i kinda agree." Kai says beomgyu gives him a smile, scoffing when he sees Soobin face contour into a look of shock and betrayal. Dramatic bitch.

"Okay now let's go, I wanna go home already."

The classroom which was previously filled with people is now empty with only 10 to 12 people lingering around with them included. He slips his bag onto his shoulders and the three make their way out of the room with heavy steps , tiredness taking over their body after the first day.

The walk into the busy hallway, students talking and laughing while they get out of there ,it's noisy but when they finally go out of the main door ,he sees people look into a certain direction and being the nosy person beomgyu is ,he drags his best friends by hand and takes them there. From here he sees two males walking into the building.why were they going in when the classes already ended? Two handsome men he thinks when he sees their faces from far,the people around them all turn their heads towards them when they walk with such grace and beim raises his eyebrows,amused ,impressed.

"Oh,it looks like two new people are going to take away beomgyu's spot at being the most popular in the university." Soobin says and beomgyu scrunches his nose." I'm not popular." He says still watching the pair ."sure,you don't know how many people have a crush on you." Soobin says ,shrugging. Beomgyu stops them after a few steps, prompting to stand and watch them ,folding his hands over his chest.

"We are going to look like creeps if we keep staring at them like that." Kai says after a few seconds and beomgyu glances at him before turning back." Okay then,let's go." 

Just when he was about turn away from the two people,one of them turns to the side he is standing,looking at him and beomgyu freezes,his world stopping when he feels a sensation thrumbing through his body,a feather of touch on the middle of his wrist as the dark ink imprints it's permanent place there but that doesn't stop there. When the other male turns his head to look at him,he feels the sensation again like he is on a cloud,floating helplessly in the vast sky when all he wants to do is go down,to get rid of the sudden breeze that hits him ,get rid of the warmth that hits him and fall down,fall down from the place ,from the sky and get lost just to never be found again. When the other person looks at him as he tears his eyes away from the person who is supposedly his soulmate,he feels his body going iced again,the feeling on his wrist coming back,he dugs his nails into his palm and takes in a shaky breath.

The other people notice them,coming closer to see what happened while beomgyu is just there frozen looking at them ,the other two not being able to take their eyes off him. Beomgyu hears gasps from beside him and a warm hand on his shoulder but he can't move and can't take his eyes off them. It's like someone nailed his legs to the concrete ground and he is just left there preserved,stopped to stand there still. They were the first one break the eye contact and beomgyu lets on a breath he didn't know he was holding , he sees them talking, murmuring to themselves while beomgyu's brain is telling him to run,every part of his being screaming at him to get away ,to run and hide so they that they could never find him again. When he sees them turning towards him again ,taking a step forward. He takes one backward,two backward,three backward before he turns and does what his whole being was telling him to.

He runs.

He runs ignoring every call and every yell he gets from his best friend as his feet take him to,away from the two people,away from his soulmates.

He runs and runs until he thinks it is fine to stop,his chest heaving from how fast he has ran,feet burning from the sudden exercise he put himself in. His shoes dig into the back of his leg when he stops abruptly. Placing both of hands on his knees he tries to take deep huffs,panting through it to even out his breathing, his eyes prick tears as he reminisces what just happened and a sob escapes past his lips.

His head is a mess and he couldn't think anything ,it's like all his senses are flooding his mind and he couldn't do anything but drown himself in them,in the flood he himself created from the whirlpool of emotions.

why now?he thinks. why now out of all the times I needed them?

He hears raging footsteps towards him and he turns around in horror just to see his two soobin and kai run to him and he runs towards them ,the grass beneath him crushing and crunching when he steps on it. The other gathers him in his arms as beomgyu sobs in their shoulders,they rub his back comfortingly,patting his back when his hiccups and sniffs grow louder echoing the quiet place ,some people who were walking around turns to look at them to see if he was alright but the two taller male dismiss them by waving a hand and continue to hold him in his arms.

Beomgyu just stays there wrapped up in them,in their warmth ,in their comforting pats and comforting words until his cries turn into little sniffs and huffs.

When they part, beomgyu struggles to stand,so he puts himself between them ,shuffling until cozy ,soobin and kai hooks his arms to their own . " Can I stay at your place?" He asks them quietly.

And soobin nods even if he can't see him" of course you can,hyung" kai says instead, glancing at his soulmate who has a worried look on his face."he is going to be okay" he mouths looking at him and the other smiles,grateful.

Beomgyu doesn't want to go back to his apartment,the apartment which is empty,the apartment which is alone,alone without no people, he doesn't want to be alone . 

"I'm sorry." He whispers to them . He feels bad that he is always with them and that they never get time for themselves." You both must have plans,I'm sorry." He continues and soobin's head snaps towards him,looking down " you are not ! He says sternly but beomgyu just shakes his head" I'm always ruining–" 

"Hyung you are not ,now stop and let's go home." Kai says making him press his lips together,he can't help but feel like is always in between them, ruining their moments. " We stay at the place so we could always spend time together,you live far from us, we are more than glad we could spend some time with you." 

I really don't deserve you both,he thinks but doesn't voice it out.

Soobin and Kai both make him sit on the couch while Kai goes into the kitchen ,Soobin decides to sit beside him ,putting a comforting hand behind his back and beomgyu leans in resting his head on his best friend's shoulder. The other rests his cheek on his head." Why did you run away? He asks even if he knows what the answer is going to be ,he just wants to make sure to distract the younger one in one way or another if that's what it takes for him to stop thinking .

"You know it already."

That makes him sigh,pulling away so that he makes the other look at him "yes,I do know that.." he starts and wipes the tears which start to swell in his eyes." You don't have to be afraid ,gyu. You waited for them for so long .." 

"Hyung,trust me all i wanna do is run to them but my mind is screaming at me to hide,the possibilities that could happen ,the hundreds of what ifs eating me alive is so scary. even if they are my soulmates and i knew there could be the possibilities of me having two of them ,it's hard to actually see them when until now they were just a figmentation of my thoughts but now that they are suddenly in front of me,right in front of my eyes i can't bring myself to go to them. Can't do it when I know I'm already in love with them,while they are not."

While they were talking,Kai has returned from the kitchen with a glass filled with water and placed it on the table in front of them, sitting down on the opposite side of them. He chooses not to say anything,not wanting to interrupt the older but when he hears what beomgyu says,he voices out his own thoughts.

"Beomie,you can't just watch them from afar when you they are there,take your time and when you think you are ready go to them ,you know we are always by your side no matter what right?" Kai says and beomgyu nods his head,wiping his tears before sitting straight.

"When I'm ready." He whispers to himself he doesn't know when it's going to come or ever come at all he thinks. the other two hear him , looking at each with worried looks painting their faces. They are scared for what's going to happen to beomgyu in the future if he keeps on scaring himself away from his soulmates.they know how it must be so hard for the other and seeing them for the first when you are already in love with them might have caused his emotions to fall all over the place , soobin just wants beomgyu to be happy which he knows the other is going to get when he is together with them.

They all sit there in silence while beomgyu contemplates whether or not to pull his sleeves up to see the engravings present there. He really wants to see them but he can't,can't bring him to do it so he pats soobin who is beside him and points his sleeve of his left arm to the other who understands what he was pointing, slowly pulls the fabric upwards, revealing the black ink adorning the side of his wrist and soobin gasps , beomgyu who had his eyes closed all while the other pulls his clothing up. he opens his eyes at the gasp he lets out ,kai who was sitting opposite of the couch comes beside beomgyu, sitting on the other side of him and looks at his hand. Beomgyu still doesn't look at his hand ,soobin meets his eyes ,tearing his sight from the hand and looks into his " look at it." He says softly,his fingers moving on its own ,padding his way to the tattoo there with the softest touches and wills himself to look at it.his eyes following where soobin's fingers are who removes them so that he could have a good look at it. Beomgyu's eyes sparkle with tears again when he looks at it. The black lines on his skin are the star and the moon ,so beautiful. just like the two people. He traces them with his own fingers ,feeling his skin shiver under the tip of it as he touches it . He couldn't describe what he was feeling at that very moment, is this what it feels like to have a bond? Is this what it feels like to find someone who is meant for him and only him? But that's not the case for him ,he has two of them,two soulmates,the two people who were in his dreams twice,the two people who he unknowingly fell in love with,the two people who he finally saw after the dreams he dreamt of, two years ago. The dream still haunts him, sometimes pushing him over the edge when he remembers the tears,the pained voice,them calling out for him just for him walk away .. he never wants to experience something like that neither he wants them to go through that just for him to leave,just for him to hurt them. That's the reason why he ran away,that's the reason why he is so hesitant to approach them,that's the reason he wants to stay away.

He texts to his manager and let's him know that he cant make it today,cause he cant . He thinks that he won't be able to focus on the job and will surely mess it up and he doesn't want to this job cause he really likes it.

                            ☀️🌙⭐

Yeonjun and taehyun were speechless from what happened at the University,it felt like a movie scene, yeonjun interprets when asked,cause it really was. it was magically and he would do anything to be present at that moment again, totally different from what he felt when he saw taehyun for the first time.yeonjun can only think of one word when he saw him, breathtaking , breathtakingly beautiful.

If you ask Taehyun how he felt ,he didn't know ,he didn't know but what he knows was he felt warm,very warm. It was incredible.he saw the beautiful face of the person and he was enchanted ,pulled towards them like a magnet. They knew it was coming but they never expected it to be this soon,right as they step foot in seoul. and that left them feeling nervous,more anxious when he saw the other runaway.

Runaway from them.

Yeonjun is resting his head on Taehyun's shoulder while he rests their joint on his lap, looking at the new imprinting which was beside their previous ones,a sun. Tracing it with his other hand,he looks at the other who has eyes on their hands ,blinking at the little sun present there. He leans in to rest a small peck on his cheek and the other smiles softly before squeezing their joint hands.

They were confused,a little hurt when they saw him just run away like that.It all happened suddenly after all . Yeonjun and Taehyun thought they would look around the campus before officially starting their classes there and went to visit the university. They were just walking around the campus when it happened people were gathered around when they entered.of course he is very much aware of their visuals. So that made them uncomfortable from all the sudden attention they were getting and yeonjun was the first one to turn his head looking in a certain direction and see three people standing not far away from him and taehyun. He and the person in the middle just happened to make eye contact and his world stopped looking at the person,feeling drawn to him,the sensation on his wrist burned slightly, making him wince but not enough to close his eyes,he couldn't,not when he was looking at someone so beautiful. Taehyun notices the frozen state his soulmate is in so he grabs his hand giving it a light squeeze . When the other still doesn't notice him he frowns turning towards where he is looking,just when he turns he sees someone a few meters away turn his eyes towards him,looking into his . His eyes widen the feeling of the sensation returns when he first saw yeonjun rushingly,chills and warmth fills his body as the stares at the "most beautiful person aside from yeonjun" 

Taehyun forced himself to look away and both him and yeonjun meet their eyes,filled with freshly formed tears as they look into each other's eyes. Yeonjun lips wobble slightly and he squeezes his hand which he is holding, giving him a small smile and nods at him . Just when they were about to take a step forward,Taehyun sees him take a step backward,then one more and one more again before he is running ,running away until he can't see the person's back anymore. He sees the two people who were beside the boy glance back and forth towards them and the disappearing boy. When he meets one of their eyes , he halts and takes a step where he was originally standing. Something about the others' gaze told him not to follow and go over to the boy so he didn't and stayed right where they were standing,feet glued to the ground.

Yeonjun gives him a confused look but he just shakes his head." I don't think it is right if we follow him." He says and the other presses his lips but nods.

Now sitting in their dirty apartment they got rigged too. He can't help but think about the person beside the boy who looked worried. Yeonjun's voice pulls him out of his trance and he looks at him. " Why do you think he ran away?" He asks softly ,face crumbling from thinking about it .

" Maybe because he was overwhelmed? It was sudden." He says when a year roll down yeonjun's cheek,he lifts his free hand to wipe them and lets go of their intertwined hands." Don't think about it that much." He holds the other cheek gently in between his palms and leans in, yeonjun meeting him halfway as their lips meet in a soft kiss,lips mending against each other in a perfect way. Taehyun feels a hand rest on his waist and he sighs into the kiss,pulling away to rest his forehead against yeonjun." We will talk to him when we can,okay?" The other nods and he moves back,resting his back against the couch and threads through yeonjun's hair when he feels him lie down on his lap. 

" First we have to get out of this shithole." He says because unfortunately when they were looking at places they rented a place which looked good,very good actually,a decent looking apartment but it turned out to be the worse once they got there .the windows were cracked slightly and the smell around the area smells like trash ,he thinks there might be cockroaches somewhere around the corners who knows ? After all the place they thought they will be living in didn't look like how it was when they saw the pictures on the website,it was far from it,way far.

" We totally got rigged,didn't we ?" Yeonjun whines, turning his face towards taehyun's stomach burying his face there , grumbling something and taehyun laughs ." We totally did,it's your fault. by the way." He adds and the other glares up at him then starts attacking him with tickles."It's not just my fault,you agreed to it !"Yeonjun says,his hands planting themselves on the side of Taehyun's hips,wiggling his fingers there.

Soon the empty living room is filled with laughter as they forget their worries,leaving them behind even if it is just for a bit.