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1. what pain it was to drown by winteratdusk

   Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   04 Feb 2024

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Winifred Barnes
   • George Barnes (Marvel)
   • Original Male Character(s)
   • 1940s
   • World War II
   • Pre-World War II Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Addiction
   • very vaguely implied past child abuse
   • Bucky Barnes-centric
   • Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug
   • Anxiety
   • Intoxication
   • Vomiting
   • Headaches
   • Established Relationship
   • Steve Rogers Loves Bucky Barnes
   • Period Typical Attitudes
   • Pre-Canon
   • Canon Divergent?
   • but like canon is barely a suggestion at this point
   • it's mine now
   • Oral Sex
   • Drunk Sex
   • Protective Bucky Barnes
   • Gay Bucky Barnes
   • Hurt Bucky Barnes
   • Semi-Public Sex
   • Panic Attacks
   • Whump
   • Bathing/Washing
   • Anal Sex

   Summary

   It was November of 1941, the air was bright and clear and cold, and Bucky was starting to feel like he was living at the end of the world.

   Or, with the world at war, responsibility on his shoulders, and the draft looming closer by the day, Bucky's just trying his best to stay afloat. Drinking seems to help, until it doesn’t.

   Language:

   English

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