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1. I've Got Guns, Spirits, In My Head by cybergreen

   Fandoms: Fallout 4  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Other
   • Work in Progress

   31 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Nonbinary Sole Survivor (Fallout 4)
   • Companion(s) (Fallout 4)
   • Jules (Fallout 4)
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Past Suicide Attempt
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Past Abuse
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • religious trauma
   • Slow Burn

   Summary

   THE END OF THE WORLD IS COMING -- ARE YOU PREPARED ?

   What Ellis Ordell knows: how to field-strip a rifle. Reassemble. Disassemble. Again. Five ways to purify water. How to push through the cramps if you don’t. How to start a fire when the weather hasn’t let up in days and your fingers are half-frostbit. How to ration a single MRE for a week. How to get back up after a beating. How to suture a wound. Splint a broken bone. How to aim. How to fire. Again. Again. Until it’s reflex, until it’s easier than breathing.

   What Ellis Ordell doesn’t know: how to say goodbye. How to carry all of these ghosts.

   Their best friend is dead. Shaun is missing. There is no trail through the snow-covered wasteland. Ellis is entirely alone.

   They were forced to prepare for the end of the world.

   No one ever taught them how to prepare for what comes after.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   30,155

   Chapters:

   13/?

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

   14

   Bookmarks:

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