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It was supposed to be you. It was always supposed to be you. You here, not me. You, using my greatest creation to bring Topside to their knees.
You.
You were always the saviour of the Undercity. This was your dream - to lift us out of the darkness, to create the "Nation of Zaun". I shared your dream because I should. Because you wanted me to.
Because… Because I love you. Loved you.
It was supposed to be you.
It's heavy. I built it for you, after all. Through all your demanding. Through all your pushing. All your pleading. Your bargaining. Your begging. I built this for you, and you were always so much stronger than me, in so many ways.
The treatment that saved my life made my arms strong, my back strong, my legs strong… So why is this so heavy?
… Because it didn't make my heart strong.
What am I supposed to do without you? You were supposed to be there. Here.
You were supposed to be here!
You were supposed to be here. To lead Zaun into the light.
You were supposed to be here. To watch me grow up. To teach me. Guide me. Help me. Love me.
But I jinxed it. Again.
The blood-red moon looming in the sky tonight just reminds me of that damn eye of yours. Like you're watching me. Guiding me, even now...
Is that you? Are you here?
I'm so lost without you. I always was. You found me and gave me purpose. You praised my inventions. My mind. You made me feel like I was worth something. All I ever wanted was to make you happy, to bask in your sweet, overwhelming praise. To be worthy of you.
You always made me feel worthy.
You always made me feel… Loved.
So what do I do without you?
You, who always quieted the voices in my head?
The voices are quiet now.
Now, there's only one… One soft voice, faint in the back of my mind. It hasn't found its foothold yet. Hasn't found its place. Its home.
I can't quite tell what it's saying. Not yet. Soon, though… Soon, it'll be clear as day. Loud. But not too loud, I think.
I'm glad it's you.
Had to be you…