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PROLOGUE
Life is such a bitch. I’ve had a very beautiful life so far. I’ve learnt many things, seen many places, met a lot of people, and made a lot of memories. A lot of things have happened in my life so far- many many things, some I wish I lived a thousand times over, some I wish would perish from my life forever. Some people I met were wonderful, I couldn’t have asked for better people in my life, the others I wish I never met. Love , scrutiny , heartbreaks, drama. Eventful life ? Quite an understatement , isn’t it!
As a child, like any other person I often dreamt of an extraordinary life but never in the best of my dreams could I have ever imagined the future that awaited me. How that simple( not-so-simple) x factor audition changed everything.
I remember the way my heart broke when I dint through the bootcamp and the way it rejoiced when the band was formed. Our first few weeks as a band at Harry’s house were such a chaos that it still bmile to my lips every time I remember it. Us five boys, left to our own devices, against the world, a perfect recipe for a disaster. None of us could have imagined how our lives were changing or had changed gradually, little things at a time, yet all at once. The entire X-factor journey was the time of our lives. Happy days those were!
I remember our first live show, ah! the nerves. Our dressing sense still makes me wonder what on the earth was going on in our minds and the fact that we chose our wardrobe before the name of the band, such a shame. Who would have guessed what these five scrawny teenagers would end up achieving?
I remember my heart shattering to pieces when we did not win and an entirely different kind of hope lighting up when we signed our very first record deal. The albums , the theatres, arenas, stadiums, the movie…..meeting Perrie, everything was so great.
So as every coin has two faces, many bad things came hand in hand with the good ones. The scrutiny , the jabs on my colour , religion , ethnicity still make me frown. Regression to the mean , karma, balance, there are many names one could give to it. But it was a small price we payed for all the success we achieved , even though we learnt it the hard way.
When I left the band I remember thinking that , that was it for me. Oh , how wrong I was!!
I guess all of us had pretty much accepted that life could change within seconds. But nothing that ever happened could have warned me or prepared me for what was about to happen. How my life was about to change- for once , and forever.
The carousel, I guess , never does stop spinning. But in the end the only thing I learned is that life is a bitch but even in the shittiest situations, it somehow finds a way to resolve itself.