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monday .
It was early in the morning when Dan Heng felt like something shifted . Not objects moving in his room, but the feeling that something is just not right.
He tried to brush the feeling away by pre occupying himself with a bunch of school works and responsibilities. Whatever it was he was feeling, he was sure it would go away.
Boy, he was dead wrong.
Walking down the hallway, he saw Ren from a distance. The taller man would often go and say hi, sometimes just waving his hand and making hearts for him. He would, but not today for some reason.
Ren continued walking like Dan Heng was not there, like he was non existent. Like he hasn't been doing that routine for a year. To say that Dan Heng felt confused and hurt was an understatement; he really did not know what to think of the entire situation.
Dan Heng didn't make this affect him too much, he continued to walk past Ren and to go to the office. It was weird, to have Ren not even looking back at him or stopping him. Maybe it was just a bad day, maybe.
tuesday .
Dan Heng was much earlier than usual. He really couldn't sleep after what happened yesterday so he decided to go to school and maybe sleep there. He opens the door to find Ren, with a lollipop on his mouth, sitting at one of the desks further from his spot.
He makes eye contact with Ren but the taller man paid him no mind, looking away like he didn't leave flowers on his desk on his birthday. Dan Heng quietly shuts the door and sits on his chair, getting into a comfortable position before dozing off.
He wakes up minutes before the class starts, he really was not in the right headspace to think about school. Not only was he tired from the teachers asking him to do stuff yesterday, but the whole ordeal with Ren is making him lose his footing over a lot of things.
He didn't do anything to Ren, or did he? This wouldn't happen if he didn't, a sudden change like that... he really couldn't believe it. Dan Heng might be overanalyzing their entire situation but honestly? He still trusts Ren to talk to him.
wednesday .
Caelus dragged Dan Heng into an empty room during their break. He didn't really get a heads up with this.
"What happened between you and Blade?" Caelus asked. Dan Heng just looks at him defeatedly and sighs.
"Like I Know, Cae. He... he just. Started ignoring me." He looks to the ground and puts his arms together.
Caelus stared at him with furrowed eyebrows. It seems like he thinks that he's lying.
"He wouldn't do that."
"He did, Cae." Dan Heng's voice quivered. He looks at Caelus with glassy eyes. "He did."
There was silence between them, no one really knew what to say next. It wasn't Caelus' problem to begin with.
"Why do you ask?" Dan Heng breaks the ice.
"It... seemed like he really didn't want to talk about you... nor did he want your name mentioned."
It hurt. It hurt more than it should.
"Is that so." Dan Heng starts walking up the door, opening it until Caelus stops him.
"Hey—"
"Cae. I've already heard what I need to hear." He looks back at Caelus. "Thank you."
He leaves.
thursday .
Dan Heng didn't go to school. It was a good decision that he didn't, everything just drained him. His responsibilities, his work, Ren . He feels so pathetic thinking about what he did wrong for Ren to start acting like that.
It has been a year since Ren started courting him. This day marks the 1 year. It's the reason why Dan Heng doesn't want to do anything today. He doesn't have the energy to, all his energy went to overthinking and blaming himself.
It was hard at first for him to open up to Ren, having him being approached first. They first started out as friends, very close ones to be exact. The moment Ren confessed his feelings to Dan Heng felt surreal. It wasn't the first time he got confessions, but it was the first time that his gut told him that it was going to work.
When Ren asked Dan Heng if he could court him, he really thought he was going to say no. Ren was there when the man in front of him was confessed to, and asking him a question that he already knew the answer to was calming some of his nerves, maybe even breaking his heart a bit. But what Dan Heng said proved him wrong.
"Okay." Dan Heng looks at him. "You can."
Ren couldn't believe his ears. He froze on the spot and stared at Dan Heng like he just said something stupid. Dan Heng's ears were starting to turn red, so he looked away.
"I said what I said, please don't make me repeat it."
A wide smile formed on Ren's face. He takes Dan Heng's right hand and kisses it. He does the same to his left hand. He puts holds both of his hands firmly while looking into the blue eyes of the man that he adores the most.
"Thank you. I'll make sure to get that 'yes' of yours."
Dan Heng was supposed to give him his answer today. He was supposed to say yes to the man who he fell in love with wholeheartedly.
But maybe it was too late.
friday .
Dan Heng's phone kept on buzzing due to the amount of concerned friends that he has. It was really not like him to miss a day of class, let alone two.
He slept all day from exhaustion and it was about 6.30 in the evening. He went through his phone's notifications to have a glimpse of what's going on in his classes. What he didn't expect what a message from Ren.
*Ren: Can we talk?*
*Ren: I'll be at the park nearest your house.*
*Ren: I'll be waiting.*
*Sent: 4:00 PM*
Dan Heng immediately got up in bed and ran downstairs, almost tripping. He hurriedly put his slippers on and ran to the park where Ren told him he would be.
He spots a figure sitting on a bench, holding a can on his hand. It was Ren, waiting for him.
He slowly approached the man while catching his breath. It seemed like Ren felt him approaching and looked at his direction. Ren's eyes were blown wide at his state. Surely, he looked like shit after having a breakdown and sleeping for the entirety of the day.
"... You didn't have to run all the way here." A bottle of water was handed to Dan Heng. He looks at it and takes the bottle, opening it slowly.
"You said you wanted to talk."
"I did."
Dan Heng lets out a sigh.
"Can I ask something first?" He looks at Ren in the eye.
"Okay." Ren spins the can in his hand to ease
"Are you giving up on me?"
Ren stopped spinning the bottle and gives him a questioning look. He then sighs and scratches his head, looking at the right words to find.
"First of all, no I'm not. Dan Heng, look. I'm sorry for not... saying anything. But I'm not giving up on you."
"Then, why?" He tried to put a strong front, but his voice betrayed him. He could hear his own sadness and confusion in his tone.
"Because I realized that you getting involved with me might not be the best decision. You know me, I'm way different than you in all aspects. It's just, I feel like I'm too selfish for wanting you all to myself. I feel like I don't... deserve you." Ren confesses. What utter bullshit .
Dan Heng walks closer to him and cups his face. He could see tears in Ren's eyes about to fall. Ren was so vulnerable in Dan Heng's hands, and Dan Heng is taking care of him.
"Then be more selfish." It didn't take a minute for it to register to Ren that Dan Heng was *pleading* for him to be more selfish with him.
Dan Heng puts his forehead on Ren's and closes his eyes, letting a tear drop from his face. "Please."
Ren stood up and engulfed Dan Heng in a warm embrace. The man in his arms did as well. They stayed like that for a long while, also embracing the comfortable silence that they were sharing.
"Please don't do that again." Dan Heng speaks. "You wouldn't want your boyfriend to be sulky, would you?"
Ren takes Dan Heng's shoulders and pulls him away. He kept looking for any kind of hint that it was a joke, but the man in front was not showing it. It was like he *meant it*.
"Can you repeat that?"
"You heard me."
"You know what I'm asking you to repeat."
Dan Heng looks away, ears turning red as he says, "Boyfriend. Your boyfriend."
Ren couldn't help but smile at his *cute boyfriend* in his arms, feeling embarrassed with his previous words. He was so in love with this man, he wouldn't think of letting go of him.
"Can I kiss my boyfriend now?" Dan Heng's head snapped back in Ren's direction. He faintly nods and closes his eyes.
The two shared a loving and passionate kiss under the moonlight, and they will continue to share until their days end.