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Chuuya just found his friend Lippman dead.
dead.
dead.
dead.
Chuuya ignored any Adam's try to stop him and ran to the store to look and check the other of the flags. Adam followed him and so did Dazai.
As they were outside something seem off.
Dazai was next to him not daring to say a word. Chuuya entered and he saw all of his friends. He stopped.
Dead.
They were all dead.
All of his friends.
"C...Chuuya! you're fine.."
"Albatross!" Chuuya ran to him. He was on the floor near death.
"Thank God" Albatross let out a deep sigh, like he was relieved. The tension disappeared from his face. "Chuuya... I have a motorcycle in my garage... For work... For you... you can use it... whenever you'd..."
"Stop" Chuuya's beautiful eyes were ready to cry "Do not waste energies for talking"
"Albatross?"
A tears ran down his cheek. He was dead too.
Dazai was still outside while Adam entered, meeting a furious and sad Chuuya.
"This is my fault isn't it? Answer me!" Chuuya shouted. He stared at his friends' bodies. "You're a machine! You're supposed to give me a perfect, object answer!"
Adam was silent for a few seconds, his face expressionless like he had lost track of the time. But he opened his mouth to speak
"It is Chuuya's fault."
Silence.
"You're right. It's my fault."
Dazai was still outside. He was still outside. For the first time not knowing what to do now.
He looked at Chuuya and how desperate he was with all of his friends' bodies around.
Dazai looked away and then made his way in.
Chuuya was sitting on the floor, not moving a muscle, breathing deeply and fast with his eyes on Albatross body.
Dazai broke the silence keeping his eyes on Chuuya's back "Adam. Leave us."
"I can't-"
"Leave us." he repeated
"..Alright" then he left.
Chuuya didn't say anything. Neither did Dazai. The only thing audible were their breaths.
Then Dazai moved and went closer to Chuuya.
"Chuuya?"
He didn't answer
He kneeled down next to him.
"Chuuya?"
He looked better and he saw tears on Chuuya's face leaving his beautiful brown and blue eyes.
Dazai didn't know what to do. For really the first time ever. He felt bad for his partner.
He started to think what normal people would do in a situation like that.
Dazai awkwardly place his arm around Chuuya pulling him into an hug, with his bandaged hand caressing his hair gently. Chuuya relaxed his shoulders a little still hardly breathing.
"It isn't" whispered Dazai "It's not your fault, Chuuya."
Chuuya didn't answer him, he doesn't believe him, instead he moved his hand on Dazai's side gripping on his coat and resting his head on his chest. But his eyes never left the body of his friend.
They stayed like this for a while until Adam knocked on the door asking if he could come in now. Dazai moved a little to look at Chuuya. With the noise that Adam made, Chuuya moved his head so now he wasn't staring at Albatross or the others anymore. Dazai made sure he wouldn't move again cleaning his wet cheeks with his thumbs. Chuuya looked directly into his eyes making Dazai feel weird. His heart was beating faster.
Dazai helped Chuuya get up and Chuuya's hand never left the other's coat.
"Let's leave, mh?" said Dazai surprisingly gentle. Dazai started walking until Chuuya stopped him by taking his hand
"Can you" Chuuya takes a deep breath before continuing "come with me?"
Dazai smiled at him and nodded, squeezing his hand gently. He wanted to help, he didn't want to see his partner this sad.
They went out and told Adam to go so they could go and take Albatross' motorcycle.
Dazai kept an eye on Chuuya that was particularly quiet. Of course he was. Who could blame him after all?
When they arrived Chuuya stopped before opening the garage.
Dazai posed his hand on his shoulder trying to rescue him. The shorter one took a deep breath and opened it and took a look at the vehicle.
"I can't do this" admitted Chuuya
"What do you mean?"
"I... I can't take it"
"Sure you can" said obviously Dazai
Chuuya didn't answer and took some seconds before speaking again "Everything's shit"
"I know"
"Albatross wants you to take it. He told you. You must take it" Dazai added seeing that the redhead didn't move
Chuuya closed his eyes before go and sit on the motorcycle. Dazai followed him and wait for something.
Chuuya looked at him "What are you waiting for?" he asked raising an eyebrow
"Me too?"
"Yeah? Jump on"
Then he drove home.
Once they arrived out of Chuuya's door Dazai was leaving
"...Dazai?" called Chuuya
"Yeah?"
Chuuya looked away regretting what he was doing.
"Oohh, you want me to stay?"
"I didn't say that?!" said angrily Chuuya and Dazai smiled. He was getting normal again.
"So.. what do you want?"
"I do not want you to stay, shitty idiot. I.. Would you... Do you want to stay?" asked rolling his eyes opening his door
Dazai entered quickly "Sure I do!"
They took their coats and went into Chuuya's bedroom.
Chuuya was silent again. And Dazai didn't know how to deal with that.
Chuuya took off his gloves and his choker and Dazai put his bandage that covered his eye away.
They stood up in front of each other not talking. Dazai sighed and opened his arms and Chuuya walked closer wrapping his arms around Dazai's waist, head resting on his chest. Bandages arms wrapped around Chuuya's neck caressing his hair once again.
Chuuya left his waist and took a step away looking at the floor. Dazai really wanted to kiss him.
His eyes were on his lips. They do look soft. Maybe they are...
Dazai went down at Chuuya's height and pressed his lips on Chuuya's really lightly.
Chuuya was shocked but he secretly wanted too. It was about damn time.
Chuuya didn't even had time to return it that he suddenly stopped and took a step away too "'M sorry! I don't know what I w--"
He got interrupted from Chuuya's lips on his again. Dazai, of course, returned the kiss.
Chuuya was pulling him down from his shirt collar rudely. His lips were moving faster than Dazai's before did.
Dazai blushed but tried to keep with the movements Chuuya's mouth did. He walked pinning Chuuya on the wall and moved his hands on his waist.
Dazai tried to pull him even closer making their hips meet. Chuuya left his shirt wrapping his arms around Dazai's neck sucking his bottom lip. When their tongues met Dazai stopped the kiss and walked away while Chuuya stayed with his back on the wall trying to catch his breath.
Dazai was now sitting on Chuuya's bed "It was... i-it..."
Chuuya chuckled a little getting closer to him "Did you stutter?"
"S-Shut up!"
Chuuya placed his knee between Dazai's leg kissing him again with his hand behind his neck. Dazai closed his eyes after that he saw Chuuya closing his.
Chuuya's tongue was already inside the other's mouth making him moan slightly. Dazai moved his hand on Chuuya's thigh making him place it on the other side of his leg. Then he tried to rest his hand on Chuuya's ass but he didn't let him, grabbing his hand and placing it on his waist.
Dazai really loves his waist, so it was fine either way. He melted in this kiss, following every movement Chuuya made.
Chuuya's hands were one on Dazai's shoulder trying not to fall and the other on his chest.
When they both were without air they separated and Chuuya left his body rolling on the other side of his bed. While Dazai was so overwhelmed that he was so red in face that he covered it with his hands laying on the bed hiding his face even more. But under his hands he was smiling, it was a real smile.
"Mackerel are you okay?" Chuuya asked with a little blush on his cheeks too
"Sure, why wouldn't I?"
"Are you blushing?" he asked teasingly
"Of course not!"
"Oh god" he laughed "Did I make the demon prodigy blush?" he asked taking his wrist trying to see his face while the other was trying every way to fight him, but he was too strong even without his gravity ability.
"You did not!!" he kicked his feet and pushed Chuuya away. Dazai was so embarrassed. Not only was this ginger idiot giving him a reason to live, he was making him feel like a fucking teenager with his first crush ever.
Thinking about it: Dazai's a teenager and Chuuya is his first crush ever.
But he didn't realize it yet.
Chuuya rested his head on the pillow giving his back at Dazai and Dazai lay on the other side of the bed staring at the ceiling.
But he couldn't forget how good Chuuya's lips felt on his. When a sudden question came into his mind.
"How did you kiss so well?!"
"Was my kiss good?" teased the other with a smirk, but actually glad that he liked it
Dazai rolled his eyes trying to hide his blush
"Was it your first kiss?" Chuuya asked him
"..yeah.."
"I got your first kiss?" Dazai nodded "How lucky"
They didn't said anything more. They were tired.
"Chuuya what are we?"
Chuuya rolled on his back facing Dazai "What?"
"Nothing"
"No, what do you mean?"
"Nothing nevermind"
"No do not "neverminding" me. Do you mean like... like that?"
"Like that"
Silence
"Do you want us to be boyfriends?" asked Chuuya awkwardly
"no ew" Dazai answered in a few seconds.
Then Chuuya realised it. God if they were stupid. "Dazai"
"What?"
"I like you too"
Dazai jumped sitting on his bed looking at Chuuya "What?!"
"I like you"
Dazai was a little confused. He doesn't mean that. Not in that way anyway. He can't like me. No one will ever like someone like me "Like like?"
"Like like, shitty idiot" confirmed him and Dazai's heart melted
"I like you too. Like like" smiled Dazai
"I know"
"Shut it" he punched his arm gently
They both get back on the bed ready to sleep
Chuuya couldn't not think about that "Dazai"
"Yes, slug?"
"You're the only one I have now. Friend or boyfriend or whatever"
"Don't die"
Dazai didn't know how to answer it "Chuu--"
"Don't get killed and do not kill yourself"
Dazai nodded, but even if Chuuya couldn't see him he knew he was nodding
"Please" he added
Dazai hugged him tightly from behind.
"I won't."