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Lena was nervous as she walked up the stairs. When Kara asked her out two weeks ago, she was shocked. She never thought that someone with such a bubbly personality would go for her. She was initially happy. She had wanted to be with Kara since they first met, but their signals kept getting crossed, and she was with Mike for the longest time. However, ever since they started dating, Kara had become more and more distant. Lena was even more worried when Kara called her a couple of hours ago to meet her at the apartment to “talk” about their relationship before everyone arrived for game night.
She really wouldn’t break up with me before having friends over, would she?
Those thoughts have been spinning around in her head for the last several hours. She had sweated through her last outfit in panic and had to quickly shower and change clothes before going to the apartment. Once she reached the top of the stairs to the roof entrance, it felt like her heart was beating out of her chest. She looked around rapidly and spotted Kara sitting on the edge of the roof. She sprinted over to her. As she approached, Kara looked up startled at first, and then frowned.
“Lena, are you okay? Your face is flushed.”
Lena stopped in front of her nearly gasping for air.
“I am fine,” Lena panted.
Kara took Lena’s hand in hers and guided her to sit down on the roof next to her.
“No, you are not fine. You are panting like crazy. What happened?”
Lena stared at her for a minute before looking away. She didn’t want her to see the tears forming on her face. She took several deep breaths and sighed.
“You said that we needed to talk about our relationship,” said Lena softly.
Kara frowned at her for a minute until a light bulb went off in her head. She started rubbing soothing circles around Lena’s hand.
“Lena, I don’t want to break up with you.”
Lena looked up with tears streaming down her face and asked meekly, “Really?”
Kara gave her a soft smile while caressing her face and wiping away her tears.
She kissed her on the cheek and said, “Asking you out has been one of the best decisions that I have made in a long while.”
Lena smiled softly and said, “Ohhh.”
She paused for a moment then frowned.
“Then why did you say that we needed to talk about our relationship?”
Kara sighed and shook her head.
“I kind of forgot how loaded that connotation was. I didn’t mean that our relationship was in trouble. Let me start over again.”
She took a couple of breaths while twiddling her thumbs. She looked back up at Lena hesitantly.
“You know that I have been going to therapy a lot since breaking up with Mike?”
“Yes, I remember,” said Lena softly.
She tried to keep her face passive, but she couldn’t help balling up her first in rage.
When she was dating Mike, it was like she became a shell of herself. She had nearly isolated everyone except for Lena. Part of the reason is that she just remained a listening ear instead of constantly telling her to break up with Mike like everyone else. She wanted to scream it too, but she knew that Kara needed to make that decision herself. When they finally broke up, Lena was overjoyed at first but was devastated at the state it left Kara in. She was despondent for the longest time. She barely ate anything, which was scary in itself considering how much she loved food. However, she started to stop bathing, cleaning her apartment, and going to work. Lena had to buy Catco to make sure Kara wasn’t fired.
Everyone around her tried to get her to come out, but she wouldn’t budge. She just became more and more of a recluse. However, Lena would always go by every day just to be a sounding board or just to sit there with her. She would like to believe that it was because she did those things that Kara finally listened to her suggestions about therapy. She wasn’t really happy with her choice of therapist, Harley Quinn, especially given her psychotic background. However, their arrangement seemed to work. Gradually, Kara started to feel better. Thinking about everything now kind of made Lena feel a little stupid with her thoughts earlier. She always assumed that Kara would leave because of her family’s reputation, but she didn’t think to consider that Kara may not be ready for something serious.
She grabbed Kara’s hand and kissed it.
“You have been progressing well since seeing Harley despite her craziness.”
Kara chuckled and said, “She is eccentric. I will give you that. However, she gets it you know.”
Lena smiled and said, “As long as she is helping, I am happy for you.”
They stared out into the city lights before them. Both were too hesitant to say anything else.
Kara took a couple of deep breaths and said, “I told her that I recently started dating again.”
“Oh, and what did she have to say about that?”
Kara smiled and said, “She is happy for me that I am ready to put myself out there again and allow myself to be more open and vulnerable with someone else. However, she made one suggestion.”
Lena frowned and said, “Which is?”
Kara looked down and fidgeted with her shirt and said, “One of the reasons why my relationship with Mike didn’t work was that we weren’t open in communication with each other and I didn’t express my boundaries. That is something that I want to start today.”
“Okay. How did you want to achieve that?” asked Lena hesitantly.
“I thought we start with an icebreaker game that Harley taught me. Two Truths and a Lie.”
Lena gave her a deadpan look and asked, “You really want to start a serious conversation with a common high school game?”
“Can you please humor me? It is a fun way to open communication and also to learn things about each out.”
“We have been friends for several years. What more is there to know?”
Kara smirked and asked, “So you are saying that I know everything about you to the very last detail?”
Lena rolled her eyes and said, “Well, no…”
“Good. So this will be a good way to start.”
Lena shook her head and said, “Fine.”
She wasn’t fond of the idea, but Kara was right that it would get them to know more about each other’s likes and dislikes.
She turned to Kara and asked, “Did you want to start?”
“Do you mind going first?”
“Okay let me see.”
Lena pondered while tapping her fingers on her leg. Then she smiled at some good tidbits about herself.
“All right. I was nearly expelled from school for streaking across the courtyard in the middle of winter on a dare. I built a spaceship when I was 10 to try to escape my family, but it exploded on a test launch, and I was arrested for reckless driving for speeding 150 mph in a 20 mph residential area.”
Kara chuckled.
Lena frowned while picking at her skirt.
“What’s so funny?”
“I’m sorry. I was just trying to imagine you in a lab coat as a child building a spaceship. That had to be so adorable.”
“So you believe that one is true?” asked Lena coyly.
Kara smirked and said, “I know that it is true. As far as the others…”
She thought about it a minute, and said, “The arrest is a lie.”
“You’re sure about that?” asked Lena coyly.
“I am positive,” smirked Kara.
Lena sighed and said, “I knew that might have been too easy.”
Kara chuckled and said, “Yeah kind of. You wanting to run away from your family tracks given your family’s history and the reckless driving arrest would have made leading news if it really happened. Which leaves the streaking in the quad…”
Lena placed her hands over her face blushing.
“Don’t remind me.”
“Oh, but I want to know what led to that?”
Lena chuckled and said, “I was rebellious back then…”
“And you are not now?” smirked Kara.
Lena lightly slapped Kara’s arm and chuckled, “I still have a rebellious side that comes out now and then, but back then, I did a lot of bat-shit crazy things.”
“I wish I could see that side of you back then.”
Lena smirked and said, “Well, if you play your cards right, maybe we can do some of the things I was into back then.”
Kara blushed and squeaked, “Really?”
Lena kissed her on the cheek and said softly, “Only when you are ready of course. I don’t want to do anything that would make you feel uncomfortable.”
Kara smiled and said, “You always make me feel safe. It is one of the reasons why I wanted to do this exercise with you.”
Lena took her hands in hers and said, “I feel safe around you too.”
They stared into each other’s eyes for a moment before Kara said hesitantly, “I guess I should go next.”
Lena smirked and said, “I am curious to see what I don’t know about you.”
Kara chuckled nervously and turned away. She began twiddling her hands and took a couple of deep breaths.
She turned back to Lena nervously and said, “I am a famous artist on this planet. I have male and female genitalia, and I am Supergirl.”
She stared at Lena with a lot of hesitancy in her eyes. Lena picked her hand up and held it close to her chest.
“You are not a famous artist. The other ones are true.”
Kara stared and her startled.
“You knew about those two things.”
“For a while now actually.”
“How!”
“Well, Lex told me you were Supergirl about a year ago.”
Kara sighed and shook her head, “That jackass.”
She turned to Lena with worry in her eyes.
“Are you mad?”
Lena caressed her face and said, “No, darling. I am not mad.”
Kara frowned and asked, “Why? I thought that you would be furious with me for the lack of trust.”
Lena chuckled and said, “That is why Lex told me. He wanted to prove he was more trustworthy than you.”
“And he didn’t sway you?”
Lena shook her head and said, “If he had told me sooner, I admit I may have been swayed, but at that point in my life…”
Kara frowned, “What do you mean?”
Lena sighed and said, “I always had trust issues with people. Everyone I have ever known has lied to me. Lying is one of my biggest pet peeves and Lex was counting on that to get me to turn against you.”
“But that didn’t work. Why?”
“Honestly, your relationship with Mike changed my perspective on the issue.”
“What?” asked Kara startled.
“I know that sounds weird, but hear me out. When Lex told me the truth, I had just got back into my apartment after visiting you. I had found you crying hysterically on the floor in the middle of your apartment. I asked you what was wrong and do you remember what you told me.”
Kara shook her head, and said, “Honestly, a lot of things are a blur back then.”
“You said the following: How could someone I love and trust in this world cause me so much pain? That stuck with me for a while. By that point, you have begun withdrawing from everyone. I was angry at first, but after the conversation with Lex, I could see why. You bared your soul to Mike, and he abused your trust. Why should I expect you to extend that trust to me, someone you haven’t even known that long?”
Kara looked down and sighed.
“Back then, I doubted everything about myself especially who was on my side at that point. Mike kept telling me that no one would love or understand me and I am ashamed to admit that a part of me believed that for the longest time.”
Lena hugged Kara and said, “I know darling. That was why I didn’t push. I wanted you to be able to tell me on your terms.”
Kara smiled and kissed Lena on the cheek.
“Thank you for being understanding.”
Lena shook her head and said, “There is no need for understanding here. I just realized that trust needs to be earned, and it was worth waiting for might I add.”
Kara beamed and cuddled up to Lena closer. They stared out into the distance until Kara frowned and turned to Lena.
“Did Lex know about my anatomy as well?”
“No, I kind of found that one out by accident actually,” said Lena hesitantly.
“How?”
“Well, I have slept over quite a few times, and we usually would share the same bed. Sometimes, when I woke up earlier than you, I would see the little member of yours displaying proudly.”
Kara looked away blushing and exclaimed, “That is so embarrassing!”
Lena smirked and said, “Why should you be embarrassed? Most men on Earth would be envious of what I saw.”
Kara looked at Lena startled and said, “You think so. You weren’t repulsed?”
Lena grabbed Kara’s face with both hands and stared her directly in the eyes and said, “Nothing you could do would make me see you any less than the awesome person that you are.”
Kara kissed her and said, “I don’t know what I did to deserve you.”
“I say the same thing about you every day,” murmured Lena as she began to kiss her deeper.
They kissed for a while before Kara broke off the kiss and said, “I probably should be honest about one more thing.”
Lena frowned and said, “What else is there?”
“I was a famous artist, but it was on Krypton.”
“Really!”
Kara looked at her sheepishly and said, “Yeah, I would do tours around Krypton showcasing my work.”
“It is too bad that I can’t see any of it now,” pouted Lena.
“Clark’s family had the foresight of saving a lot of the family memorabilia. They managed to get the majority of my work back from museums and sent it here with Clark and the fortress of solitude. If you like, I could take you now.”
Lena looked down at her watch and frowned.
“Are you sure we would have time for that? Everyone will be here in an hour for game night.”
Kara smirked and lifted Lena which caused her to yelp.
“Forgot already that you are with a super? We have enough time to check things out before everyone arrives.”
Lena chuckled and said, “I guess it is up, up, and away then.”
Kara chuckled and kissed Lena on the forehead. Then she zoomed them off into the night sky.