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Luz was always very dramatic, or at least that's what everyone who knew her said. As much as she wanted to make friends, interacting with people always stressed her out. After her 18th birthday, she'd gone to a psychiatrist who advised her to improve her sex life. Knowing she wouldn't be able to pick up anyone without having several mental breakdowns simultaneously, she decided to just hire a prostitute. Instead of having sex, she'd ended up just rambling about her problems while he simply ignored her and waited out the time he was hired for.
Then she met Amity Blight.
At first, Luz thought Amity was a great friend. She was very helpful with college coursework, and always stuck around to help Luz through her breakdowns. The purple-haired girl was also openly lesbian, and Luz admired her for her courage. Eventually, Luz found herself panicking and blushing around Amity in ways she hadn't before. She started to get paranoid that she would fuck up and drive Amity away like she'd driven a lot of friends away earlier in her life. She felt like she was trying to hold on to her sanity, but at the same time she felt like she was trying to regain it.
Luz tried to talk to people about her problems, but they didn't have time to listen to her whine.
Luz was sure she was giving herself the creeps, since Amity had been nothing but kind to her, but her mind was playing tricks on her. She couldn't understand her relationship with Amity, she couldn't understand why she always drove her friends away, and she couldn't tell what was wrong in her head. She hadn't tried marijuana before, but when she some other students smoking it, she impulsively decided to join them in getting stoned.
It made her panic attacks worse.
Although she was getting high, Luz felt more paranoid than ever. Looking at everyone around her, Luz saw judgmental gazes in the unfocused drug-addled eyes of the surrounding youth. She ended up passing out from hyperventilating, and when she woke up, she was looking into Amity's eyes. Amity was asking her if she was ok, but Luz was operating on autopilot and suddenly pulled Amity in for a kiss. Her lips were soft and sweet, but when Luz realized what she'd done, she started panicking and having a breakdown. Amity held her close until she calmed down, then softly asked Luz to be her girlfriend.
Luz gently and carefully kissed her girlfriend.