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1. Synesthesia by IsaRay946, orphan_account

   Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • Multi
   • Complete Work

   10 Dec 2023

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • Destiel
   • Endverse Dean Winchester
   • Endverse Castiel (Supernatural)
   • Endverse Chuck Shurley
   • Endverse Sam Winchester
   • Endverse Lucifer (Supernatural)
   • Charlie Bradbury
   • Donna Hanscum
   • Original Supernatural (TV) Character(s)
   • Risa (Supernatural)
   • Benny Lafitte
   • Rowena MacLeod
   • Crowley (Supernatural)
   • Heavy Angst
   • Heavy Drinking
   • Drug Use
   • Smut
   • Dean Winchester Loves Castiel
   • Dean Winchester is Bad at Feelings
   • Dean Winchester Has Self-Worth Issues
   • Dean Winchester Needs a Hug
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Alternate Universe - Croatoan/Endverse (Supernatural)
   • References to Croatoan/Endverse (Supernatural)
   • Castiel Behaves Like Endverse Castiel (Supernatural)
   • Established Castiel/Dean Winchester
   • Dean Winchester is So Done
   • Near Death Experiences
   • Character Death Fix
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Dean Winchester Has Panic Attacks
   • Angel Castiel (Supernatural)
   • Protective Castiel (Supernatural)
   • Hurt Dean Winchester
   • Hurt Castiel (Supernatural)
   • Depressed Dean Winchester
   • Depression
   • suicidal ideations
   • Dean Winchester in Purgatory
   • Castiel in Purgatory (Supernatural)
   • Suicidal Dean Winchester
   • douchebag dean
   • Flashbacks
   • Nightmares
   • Castiel Loves Dean Winchester
   • Angst and Feels
   • Rough Sex
   • Dean Winchester Likes It Rough
   • Dean Winchester is Not Okay
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Bisexual Dean Winchester
   • It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better
   • Graphic Description of Corpses
   • Graphic Depiction Of Suicidal Ideation
   • This is not an easy read
   • Adult Content
   • This Is One Of The Darkest Things I've Ever Written
   • Alternate Universe - Dark
   • Dark images
   • I read Stephen King it's like that
   • Accidental Prayers
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Angst and Fluff and Smut
   • Dean Winchester Almost Dies
   • Dean Winchester Almost Commits Suicide
   • gratuitous angst
   • Not Canon Compliant
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • First Time
   • First Time Bottoming
   • The Love Is Requited They're Just Idiots
   • Major Original Character(s)
   • Original Character(s)

   Summary

   After Sam Winchester's sacrifice in a bid to save the world and reset everything to before the Croatoan Virus happened, Dean Winchester doesn't know how to live. As he slowly begins to resurface after becoming mute from trauma, he returns as a shell of the man he once was. Everyone tries to help him, but you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved. Not even when you're his lover and an angel of the lord.

   Series

   • Part 2 of Croatoan

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   114,621

   Chapters:

   50/50

   Comments:

   111

   Kudos:

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