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Three days. I only had three days left. Because there was no hope for surgery. I wanted to do something. To run from it. Run from the hospital.And martin... My doctor... He decided to help me.
"Go off together?" I still can remember his voice. I knew I'm not gonna make it, and i just didn't want it to end like this, in a white room, dead before dying and dying as an old corpse. ye know? So we just got into his car. And left.
It was his daughter's birthday. The best birthday I've ever seen in my life. It was a long time i haven't had a family. And to be inside his home, with them, just felt as I'm in heaven.
We were in my last day. Martin couldn't take the risk, and asked me to back and take the surgery. I wish he wasn't so caring. I wish i was more hopeless that couldn't see that sparkle of life. And never accepted his word. But i did...
He was happy. And was telling me all the way, how he feels good about my surgery. And How he is excited about his daughter going to school this year. And then, there's a gap.
I can't remember when i felt sleepy. And nothing more. Then there came pain. I have felt pain so many times, but that was different. I remember some vague images. Of how he was there, lying beside me. It was hard to recognize his face... It was covered with blood. I couldn't hear anything.. Just a buzz in my ears. I couldn't understand anything...
And when i could, i lost my vision, because tears just didn't let me see any longer... And then darkness just drowned me. When i woke up, i didn't have a last day anymore. I was all fixed. But, martin didn't come. I waited and waited. No one told me anything. So i waited more till the moment i couldn't. And i stepped out of my room.
And then, i found him. I found martin and his daughter sitting beside him.
"it's all because of you" i turned and faced his wife.
"He is suffering, you know that? They ask me every day to let him go. That he wont wake again. But.. I just can't." and then, i felt a killing pain in my chest. I passed out. And time passed. I'm sure of that.
When i found my self in my cursed bed, again, i saw her beside me. And she said:
"This is his last day."
She was going to let them end it all. I begged her. I couldn't believe... How she could do this? I begged her. I begged desperately. But maybe that was only in my mind and i just stayed silence and shocked.
My last day, didn't end, but a few days later, i found out his last day, did.
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+ Oh no please wait...You can't take him from me. You said it's too late. But i can't believe you. I can't believe god to be that cruel... When he was so nice, so kind. I can't believe he is hurt. I can't believe it when i even kissed the mistletoe...