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Zinyi tiredly walked out of her room on the ship. She had been lacking sleep for many days. Unfortunately, her bottle of sleeping pills had run out a few weeks ago. She had no other choice but to wait for the ship to dock and then go buy it quickly. A new bottle of sleeping pills, that's all she needs right now. Without it, she can't sleep well, especially when the person she wants to kill the most is still alive. But first, she still has to deal with the nightmares that still torment her every day.
At times like these, what did she usually do? Zinyi remembers the past, before she decided to become a Sinner of Limbus Company.
- Cigarette...
Yes, a few cigarettes, to forget the suffering she had gone through, forget the nightmare that was always waiting in her every sleep, recalling the pain and loss that would never go away. But where can she find cigarettes? The answer is simple, ask Ryoshu or Gregor.
- Are you going to just stand here forever? You're blocking my way.
Speak of the devil, this deep and sharp voice couldn't belong to anyone other than Ryoshu. She glared at Zinyi, who just realized she was standing in the middle of the hallway.
- Certainly not... Sorry for blocking your way but first... May I have a cigarette?
Her voice was tired and weak, as if she was about to faint. But she didn't. Ryoshu's sharp eyes widened a bit then she smirked.
- Didn't think you are that T.O.G who smoke.
Type of girl. Zinyi can, of course, translate the word herself. Ryoshu just gave her a cigarette and left.
- R.T.R, looking at you like that, A.G.T could make you faint.
Remember to rest, a gentle touch. A useful advice that Zinyi knows she must follow. She looked like she was about to faint. If it kept going like this, the boat would have just docked, the first thing she did was not get off the boat to buy sleeping pills but go to the hospital.
Zinyi takes out a lighter, light the cigarette, take a breath and then exhale deeply. Cigarettes are really good for reducing stress. Within just a few seconds, Zinyi felt much more alert, breathing quickly but evenly.
- How long ago did I quit smoking? Maybe I should buy pack of cigarettes when I arrive.
Don't try to remember the past, it's only full of misfortunes. Zinyi took another breath and let it out, leaning her back against the wall. Then she sat down on the floor, rubbing her temples. What a headache... She thought for a while then suddenly came to a conclusion. "Best not to think about anything, it will only give you a headache."
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Zinyi suddenly woke up, not knowing when a few drops of sweat and tears came out. She felt like she was resting her head on someone's shoulder, her body draped over with a coat.
- I told you, R.T.R. As soon as I turned back, I saw you S.I.T.M.O.T.H. If you want to sleep, go back to your room.
Sleeping in the middle of the hallway. Zinyi figured fainting would be more appropriate when no matter how hard she tried to sleep, she would only have nightmares. Yet the nightmare still refused to let go even after she fainted. Zinyi unconsciously leaned closer to Ryoshu. She just laughed.
- Guess you had a nightmare. Crying and calling for your brother and mother.
- Did I actually do that embarrass thing...?
Zinyi's face turned slightly red with embarrassment, she didn't dare look at Ryoshu, who witnessed the whole thing.
- Pfft... If you're awake, then I'll take my leave now.
Ryoshu stood up, took back her coat and draped it over her shoulders. It wasn't until Ryoshu left her sight that Zinyi noticed that in her lap was a pack of cigarettes, some are used but there were still many left. Maybe she should buy Ryoshu a new pack in return.