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The ten year old can see his own father screaming at the teenage girl. His mother, Sarah was standing next to the man with her arms crossed and a disappointed look on her face.
The father screamed at the girl and told her to repent for her sins for getting intimate with him. The teen girl looked confused and scared, but the man kept screaming at her…
“ I hope that one day that you see the light! May God have mercy on your soul, but I won’t! “
He walked away while Sarah followed him. She turned around and called out to the little boy “ Come on, Mason. We’re going home and away from the sexual deviant. “
“ C-Coming, mommy! “
Mason ended up following his parents.
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It’s been a few years since that happened…
Mason is now thirteen years old and he’s been experiencing certain feelings for a while now. His father, Richard found out and yelled at him.
“ I did not raise my boy to be a sinner! Are you mad!? Insane!? I told you that God watches your every move! When he sees that, he feels utter disappointment! “
Mason looked down in shame and quietly apologized “ I’m sorry, dad… “
“ You should be. Me, your mother, and you will be attending church this Sunday, so you can repent for your sins. Are we clear? “
“ Yes, dad. “
“ Good. “
Richard walked away and opened the door. He says one last thing before closing it…
“ By the way, I know you’re secret little crush on the spic girl. Forget about her and go be with someone else. What about Candace? Me and your mother don’t mind her around you. We think you two make the perfect couple. “
“ I’m not in love with her, dad. “
“ You say that now, but you’ll end up falling in love with her soon. “
Mason shakes his head “ No. I can already tell she’s in love with me, I told her that I don’t feel the same, but she- “
“ Ahhh… young love. Beautiful isn’t it? Don’t worry, Mason. You’ll realize it when you’re older and you’ll thank me for it. “
Richard closes the door and Mason is left alone, feeling disgusted with himself…
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He doesn’t know what to feel disgusted more at…
The fact that he had to become racist in order to please his parents…
Repressing his sexual thoughts…
Becoming a bigot in general…
It left a huge scar internally …
Always having the fear having a big important person watching over him 24/7. Mason was currently in his room, sitting on the floor, curled up into a ball, and silently crying.
Now it’s many years later. He has a beautiful wife, adopted a daughter, and is great at being a stay at home dad.
Despite this he hates himself for his past mistakes . If he wasn’t a bigot, could his life been more different?
This wasn’t just leaving the church…
He lost many close friends due to leaving Christianity and now he doesn’t talk to his own parents. Not only that, but he STILL fears someone watching over him…
Watching his every move because one wrong move and he’s done for…
Someone walked towards him…
“ M-Mason? Honey, are you okay? “
The man looked up and shook his head “ N-No… I’m really scared right now. “. Crystal nodded and sat down next to him “ Do you wanna talk about it? “
“ I-I… don’t want to right now. I can’t find the right words. “
“ Okay. Do you wanna be alone for a while? “
Mason holds her hand “ No… please stay. “. Crystal ends up hugging Mason…
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He immediately hugs back…
It feels so painful, but a huge weight can be lifted off his shoulders now…