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December 14, 2018
Dear Reader,
I haven't wrote to someone for a while now, well for once everything is still normal despite the heavy holidays, my brother Sunoo seems to keep alot of secrets from me these days he wouldn't look and talk to me the same way since he turned 16, well for once I'm only 14 the two year age gap isn't that too big for someone right?
My mom always smiles at me whenever I talk to her about it, "Well, it's normal to be distant to eachother as siblings, don't worry I'll talk to him about this." she always says this to me and whenever I go to bed I always hear loud screaming coming from my Sunoo's room, I always ignore it since I always think of it as he watched a football game and his team scored a touchdown, is that what's it called?
Anyways, school was very very weird these days, since Sunoo was my only best friend that I could talk to, now he doesn't even want to see my shadow in the hallways, one time I saw him talking to a senior, I heard his name was "Park Sunghoon", I admit he was really handsome and so I understand Sunoo talking to him
For one thing Sunoo loves senior people, he said that he would date any senior if they're hot and handsome in the same time, "Aren't hot and handsome the same thing though? You're really just exaggerating" I said to him
"You don't understand, you're just 13 and I'm 15, if somebody tells me they love me, the probability is I'm gonna believe them" these were the last conversation we had ever since
Also in highschool my one teacher talked about this one myth, well I'm gonna call it a "theory", it's where two people who are soulmates have invisible strings attached to eachother, the string will cause them to meet one day, it could not be seen but you would've met your soulmate by now, this "theory" changed my perspective in love, well I wonder if my invisible string stretches that far
That is the only thing interesting though, I spent the rest of my class thinking and thinking about the invisible string, well I wonder if I already met my soulmate by now, maybe he will be one of my friends someday, and he will confess his love to me and we will be together
My mom always asked me if I had a crush in highschool, I always said no to her, and she always don't believe me, I'm really telling the truth
One time, she told me that my dad is her first love in highschool, "Your dad was a very popular boy in highschool, everybody wants him, but he chose me" She giggled when she said this to me
My mom and dad rarely fights, except when my dad is drunk, which he rarely does, they really do love eachother, and my dad is always sweet to my brother Sunoo and me, he didn't want Sunoo and me to date in our early ages, but eventually he gave up this rule
I think about love when I'm bored, I make up fake scenarios and hurt my own feeling sometimes when the characters suffer a painful faith, like when this girl named "Sam" got forced to marry another man and not the man that he loves
My cheeks are growing tired these days from faking smiles in highschool, how I wish I make more friends other than Sunoo
My hand hurts now, I'm going to sleep
Love,
Yang Jungwon