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A little worker drone limped home from school.
Her name was Uzi doorman but most people seemed to forget that. Instead of that they called her other names "freak" "emo" "loser"
Didn't shock her much anymore but it was still annoying. It was more annoying when they got physical. Slamming her visor into the ground and cracking it, using her as some sort of punching bag.
She would try to put up a fight but her lack of height didn't help. She would just hope they got it over with.
Today they dented her leg back and it hurts like H.e.l.l
She limped inside ignoring the intense pain. Her visor had a long crack through it that gave her a splitting headache.
She went to her bathroom and found the one thing that helped with the pain provided. She knew N wouldn't approve but she didn't care... That much...
She took a large blade to her arm, slicing the metal. She was provided with a burn and stinging effect that made everything feel less hard. She knew it was wrong...
..N would hate it...
She should have just went to him... He would hold her and tell her it's alright...
But what he doesn't know can't hurt him right?
She dug it deeper feeling a wave of overwhelming guilt. She pushed it aside when the oil began to spill out of her arm after hitting a large oil tube. She felt the warm steaming oil drip down her arm and heard it falling the the floor in satisfying drops. The black substance staing her metal and her floor.
The deeper she went the better it felt. It was like she had a itch she couldn't scratch. Beneath her metallic skin and the oil within. Never deep enough.
All the scars, all the blood, more and more it's never done... Not enough, not enough...
Why was she doing this again?
"My dad wouldn't care even if he knew... Ive been doing this for so long... I don't even know if I can stop..." She whispered to herself, synthetic tears welling in her eye lights.
"What am I doing to myself..."
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She packed a bag, she was gonna stay the night with N and V.
She walked in a hoodie with a long sleeve shirt.
"UZIII" The tall male disassembly drone lifted her and hugged her tight.
Uzi hissed through her teeth, the sensitive dents on her chest being squished. "H-hey N" she hugged her "best friend" back.
"Uzi what's wrong?" He paused and set her down "are you in pain?"
"Nope no pai-"
"You are lying to me..." N looked deeply concerned and tried to lift her sweater.
"HEY! YOU CAN'T JUST DO THAT!" She snapped back at him with a glare.
"Sorry I just wanna know what's wrong!" He paused and reached for her arm hoping to comfort her "you seem like you are hurting"
Uzi slapped his hand away "I'm fine! I just fell"
V began to laugh "you... Feel!?" She leaned down and put her hands on her knees laughing "worst lie ever!"
N gasped "are you lying to me!!!" He sounded offended.
"NO" uzi defended
"Liar!" V glared
"Ok whats happening!" N for once looked a bit upset
Uzi looked down at her feet in a attempt not to cry but alas she was uzi doorman! She can't do anything right. So with her failed attempt she started sobbing
"Uzi-" And was cut off by Uzi running and hugging him holding him tight in her arms.
"The kids at school! And then I did it because it felt right and I didn't realize and I'm SORRYYYYY" she cried into his shoulder.
"What... Did... The... Kids... Do?" This was the first time ever uzi has seen him actually mad. His tail flicking as he held her.
"The kick me..., crack my visor! My legs-... and chest are dented!" She sobbed
N held uzi close but his visor flickered to a X and he fought the urge to tear them, open one by one. Slowly, but not killing them, making them feel the pain and then having them watch as he killed their entire bloodline off in front of them. Then burning their metal. The snow melts beneath them, causing dirt to get into it and sticking to the melted metal, making them die and agony or putting them into a pit with all of their metal broken and bent so they couldn't fight back as roaches ate their internal slowly.
Alas, he knew he had to be there with Uzi and he knew he had to comfort her "Uzi... You don't deserve any of this. I don't know why they do this. You're so perfect and amazing. Don't blame yourself for any of this..." He ran his fingers through her hair
"I... I hate it..."
"What was the part about "it felt right"? What felt right?" He rubbed her back and V walked away.
Uzi froze up. She should tell him... She really should... "My arms..." She muttered.
"What about them?" N was so oblivious.
She pulled up her sleeves to show him the huge cuts in her metal the busted oil tubes could be seen. Still dripping some covered by her black hoodie.
"..." N took her arm and teared up. He hated this every little part he wanted Uzi to get what she deserved and what she deserved was happiness. She didn't deserve any of this pain or suffering. He remembered the day when her dad left her for dead the day he couldn't forget because he felt so much resentment towards the father figure of hers. Knowing all this new information made him want to go to The colony and wipe them out.
"I'm sorry N..." Was all she could muster out.
"Don't apologize zizi... You have nothing to be sorry about..." He paused trying to find words to comfort her with "in this awful world. Sometimes we have to find coping mechanisms and sometimes they aren't the best. I understand that you do this just to hold on a little bit longer. I understand that sometimes things are as easy as people make them out to be and I understand that you don't want to do this and this isn't a far and it doesn't define you. You are your own person.... So please Uzi... Can we work on this?"
Uzi looked at him and the arm N was holding.
N took her cheek in his hand "baby steps? Together?"
"Together" Uzi nodded crying in his coat.
"How about we go get some battery acid?" N offered pulling back from the hug "and then we can watch anime!"
"I would like that" uzi smiled.
The two walked in the pod and had a amazing night.
"I'm gonna kill that stupid colony!" N yelled once she left in the morning