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what you have done is terrible (and now you carry it with you) by chronically_ill_chemistry
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
23 Jan 2026
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Summary
It goes like this: Jisung thinks about Minho every day. A piece of him is missing and he knows it. He will never be whole again. It is his fault. He deserves it.
Jisung looks perfect. He always looks perfect. Every morning it feels like he is putting on a costume. Every day he feels like he is part of play in which everyone received their lines except him. He speaks to almost no one. Jisung can barely get out of bed. Looking in the mirror makes him feel as if he’s being shredded inside. Every time someone looks at him tears pool in his eyes.
It goes like this: On days when getting dressed feels impossible he imagines Minho with him telling him it is okay. Telling him that it doesn’t matter, that he loved him anyway. He imagines Minho sitting on the floor of his dorm room, tucking Jisung against his side as he struggles to change out of the clothes he’s been wearing for the past 48 hours.
AKA. Jisung broke up with Minho in the parking lot outside their high school. Jisung thinks about Minho every day for eight years, through college, through his transition, hoping that if he ever sees Minho again Minho won't hate him. He sees Minho again. Minho doesn't hate him.