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Penelope woke up in the guest room of the Bridgerton home, still entangled with Colin.
The room was bathed in the soft, early morning light, and the world outside was just beginning to stir.
Birds chirped gently in the garden, and the distant sounds of the household waking up floated through the open window.
For a brief, blissful moment, she allowed herself to believe that everything would be alright.
She shifted slightly, trying to get more comfortable in Colin's protective embrace.
But as she moved, a sharp pain shot across her chest, causing her to whimper involuntarily.
The sound immediately roused Colin from his slumber, and his arms tightened around her as he woke.
"Penelope?" he murmured, his voice husky with sleep. He blinked a few times, his eyes focusing on her face. "Are you alright?"
She bit her lip, tears of pain and frustration welling up in her eyes.
"I'm fine," she whispered, though the pain was evident in her voice. "I just moved wrong."
Colin's brow furrowed with concern, and he gently lifted the covers to get a better look at her.
In the light of day, her injuries were even more visible.
The bruises on her face had darkened, the swelling around her eye was more pronounced, and the cut on her lip had scabbed over but still looked angry and raw.
Her collarbone and chest bore the marks of the attacker's brutal grip, bruises blossoming in dark purples and blues.
"Penelope…" Colin's voice was filled with sorrow and anger. "I'm so sorry this happened to you."
She looked up at him, seeing the genuine concern in his eyes. "It's not your fault, Colin. You saved me."
"But I should have been there sooner," he said, his voice cracking. "I should have protected you."
Penelope reached up, her hand trembling slightly, and cupped his cheek.
"You did protect me. You were there when I needed you most. I don't know what would have happened if you hadn't come."
Colin covered her hand with his, leaning into her touch. "I'll always be there for you, Pen. Always."
She gave him a small, grateful smile, though it was tinged with sadness. "Thank you, Colin."
They lay there for a moment, the morning light casting a gentle glow around them.
Despite the pain and the horror of the previous night, being around Colin had always made her feel safe, and securely enclosed in his arms the feeling only amplified.
She snuggled closer to him, resting her head on his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart.
Colin stroked her hair gently, his touch soothing and tender.
“Try to rest, Pen. I'll take care of everything."
Penelope closed her eyes, letting the rhythm of his heartbeat lull her into a sense of calm.
The household gradually came to life around them.
The sounds of maids bustling about their morning chores, the distant chatter of family members beginning their day, and the clatter of breakfast preparations in the kitchen filled the air.
The normalcy of it all was a stark contrast to the turmoil she felt inside, but it was also a reminder that life would go on.
As she lay there, her thoughts drifted to their engagement.
It had been born out of necessity, but there was a part of her that couldn't help but wonder if it could become something more.
She loved Colin deeply, though she had always believed he saw her only as a friend.
Now, with his arms around her and his words of comfort still echoing in her mind, she dared to hope that maybe, just maybe, he felt the same.
Colin, too, was lost in his thoughts.
Holding Penelope so close, feeling the fragility of her small frame against him, he realized just how much she meant to him.
He had always cared for her, but seeing her so vulnerable and hurt had awakened something deeper within him.
He wanted to protect her, to be there for her in every way possible.
But he was afraid to hope that she might feel the same way.
Penelope shifted slightly again, wincing as the pain flared up.
Colin immediately noticed and adjusted his hold, trying to make her more comfortable. "Easy, Pen. Don't strain yourself."
She nodded, grateful for his attentiveness. "Thank you, Colin. For everything."
"You don't have to thank me," he said softly. "I'm just glad I could be here for you."
They lay there in silence for a while longer, each lost in their own thoughts, yet finding solace in each other's presence.
Colin eventually pulled away reluctantly, knowing he had to leave Penelope's side even though it pained him to do so.
Just as he was about to speak, the door to the guest room opened, and Kate entered quietly, a gown draped over her arm.
Her eyes widened slightly at the sight of Colin in bed with Penelope, her gaze flickering with a mix of concern and judgment.
"Colin," Kate said, her voice calm but firm. "I brought a gown for Penelope."
Colin met her gaze, understanding the unspoken reproach in her eyes. "Thank you, Kate," he murmured. He turned back to Penelope, his expression softening. "I'll be just outside if you need anything."
Penelope nodded, offering him a small, grateful smile. "Thank you, Colin."
With a final, lingering look at Penelope, Colin rose from the bed and made his way to the door.
Kate stepped aside to let him pass, watching him with a critical eye as he left the room.
Once he was gone, she turned her attention back to Penelope, her expression softening.
"Let's get you dressed, shall we?" Kate said gently.
Penelope nodded, her movements slow and careful as she sat up.
Kate helped her out of the bed, supporting her as they moved towards the small dressing table. The soft morning light cast a warm glow over the furnishings.
Kate laid the gown out on the bed, then turned to assist Penelope in changing.
The gown was a simple yet elegant creation, its soft fabric a soothing contrast to the rough nightgown Penelope had worn.
Kate worked deftly, her hands gentle as she helped Penelope into the dress.
The gown was designed to cover her neck and shoulders completely, hiding the bruises that marred her delicate skin.
Kate fastened the fichu around Penelope’s neck, adjusting it until it lay perfectly.
"There," Kate said softly. "You look lovely, Penelope."
Penelope forced a smile, but it didn't reach her eyes. "Thank you, Kate."
Kate helped her to the mirror, and Penelope gazed at her reflection.
The gown and fichu did their job well, covering the worst of the bruising on her neck and shoulders.
But there was nothing they could do for her face.
The scabbed lip and the purple bloom of bruises that spread across her cheek were stark reminders of the night's horrors.
Penelope stared at herself, feeling a wave of despair.
The face that looked back at her didn't feel like her own.
She felt like a stranger in her own skin, the bruises and cuts making her look as battered on the outside as she felt on the inside.
"It's still you, Penelope," Kate said softly, as if reading her thoughts. "You're still the strong, brave woman you've always been."
Penelope's eyes filled with tears, and she turned away from the mirror. "I don't feel very strong or brave right now."
Kate placed a comforting hand on her shoulder. "You survived something terrible, Penelope. That takes incredible strength and bravery. And you have people who care about you, who will help you through this."
Penelope nodded, but the tears continued to fall. "I just...I feel so broken."
Kate pulled her into a gentle embrace. "It's okay to feel that way. But you are not alone. We will get through this together."
Penelope clung to Kate, drawing comfort from her friend's steady presence.
After a moment, she pulled back, wiping her tears away. "Thank you, Kate."
"Of course," Kate replied, her voice filled with warmth. "Now, let's get you downstairs. Breakfast is ready, and I think a cup of tea will do you good."
Penelope nodded, allowing Kate to guide her out of the room and down the stairs.
The house was fully awake now, the sounds of the Bridgerton family filling the air.
As they reached the top of the stairs, Penelope took a deep breath, steeling herself for the day ahead.
She made her way down, flanked by Colin, Kate, and Anthony.
Normally, she would have felt comforted by the house's familiar charm, but today it felt different.
She was different.
As they neared the dining room, the sounds of laughter and cheerful conversation floated through the closed door.
The Bridgerton family was already gathered for breakfast, their lively banter a stark contrast to the turmoil inside Penelope.
She had joined them for breakfast before, usually after staying up too late with Eloise and crashing in her best friend's room.
But this morning was different.
Everything was different.
The door to the dining room loomed in front of her, and as the noise from inside grew louder, Penelope's heart began to race.
She felt her breathing become shallow and erratic, a tightness constricting her chest.
She couldn't move.
She couldn't face them.
The memories of the previous night were too raw, too vivid.
Anthony noticed her distress first. "Penelope, it's okay. You're safe here," he said softly, trying to reassure her.
But his words didn't reach her.
The panic was rising, threatening to overwhelm her.
She clutched at her chest, trying to draw in a breath that wouldn't come.
It felt like the walls were closing in on her, the noise from the dining room growing louder and more oppressive.
"Colin," she gasped, her voice barely a whisper. "I can't... I can't do this."
Colin stepped closer, his arms encircling her in a protective embrace.
He held her tightly, his chin resting on the top of her head. "Shh, Pen. It's okay. Just breathe with me," he murmured, his voice a calming balm to her frayed nerves.
He squeezed her gently, a massive bear hug that enveloped her in his warmth.
She could feel his heartbeat, steady and strong, a lifeline in the midst of her panic.
She focused on the rhythm of his chest rising and falling, the comforting feeling of his arms around her.
Slowly, her breathing began to match his, the erratic gasps for air turning into more controlled, steady breaths.
Anthony, seeing the depth of Penelope's distress, excused himself and slipped into the dining room.
The noise inside quieted slightly as he spoke to his family, though Penelope couldn't make out the words.
All she could focus on was Colin, the solid presence anchoring her to reality.
Minutes later, Anthony returned with Violet by his side.
Violet's face was etched with concern, her eyes searching Penelope's for an explanation.
She stepped forward, her hand reaching out to gently touch Penelope's arm.
"Penelope, my dear, what happened?" Violet asked softly, her voice filled with maternal worry.
Penelope looked up at Violet, fresh tears welling in her eyes. "I... I can't..." she stammered, unable to find the words to explain the depth of her fear and shame.
Colin tightened his grip on her, his voice firm but gentle. "It's okay, Penelope. You don't have to explain right now. Just know that you're safe here."
Violet nodded, her expression one of deep understanding. "Come, let's get you seated. You don't have to join the others if you're not ready."
Kate stepped forward, offering her support as well. "We'll be right here with you, Penelope. You're not alone."
Penelope allowed them to guide her into the drawing room adjacent to the dining room.
The familiar comfort of the Bridgerton home was a small solace, but the fear still lingered.
They settled her onto a plush settee, Kate sitting beside her and Colin taking the chair opposite, close enough to reach out if she needed him, and she immediately did so, taking his hand in hers, a necessary lifeline.
Violet excused herself briefly and returned with a cup of tea, the steam curling invitingly from the delicate china. "Here, my dear. Drink this. It will help," she said, pressing the cup into Penelope's free hand.
Penelope took a tentative sip, the warmth of the tea spreading through her, helping to calm her nerves.
She looked around at the faces of the people who cared for her, drawing strength from their presence.
"Thank you," she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. "I don't know what I would do without you all."
"We're here for you, Penelope," Colin said, his eyes filled with determination. "We'll get through this together."
Violet reached out, taking Penelope's hand in hers. "You are like family, Penelope. Whatever you need, we will provide."
Kate nodded in agreement. "You have us, Penelope. You're not alone in this."
Penelope took another sip of her tea, the warmth spreading through her, and allowed herself to lean into the comforting presence of those around her.
She wasn't alone.
As the silence in the room stretched on, Violet, ever the pragmatic matriarch, broke it with a gentle but firm question.
"What is going to happen next?" Her eyes flicked between Colin and Penelope, the way their hands were still entwined, her concern for their future evident.
Colin, feeling Penelope's hand tighten around his, took a deep breath.
"Penelope and I are engaged," he announced, his voice steady. "I have proposed to her, and she has accepted."
Violet's eyes widened in surprise, and for a moment, she was speechless. She glanced at Penelope, still clinging to Colin’s hand as if it were the only thing keep her afloat, her eyes filled with unspoken fear and gratitude.
Colin’s hand was warm and reassuring, a silent promise of protection and care.
Seeing Penelope’s inability to speak, Colin continued, his voice tender yet firm.
"I found her last night and brought her here. We’ve been friends for years, and there are far worse foundations for a marriage than friendship and trust."
Violet, ever the diplomatic mother, attempted to navigate the delicate situation. "I understand, but we must consider all aspects. Penelope, dear," she said, her voice soft, "do you know if... if there could be a child from what happened?"
Penelope's face paled, her mind racing back to the horrors of the previous night.
The thought hadn’t even crossed her mind in the chaos of her emotions.
She opened her mouth, but no words came out.
Colin, sensing her distress, squeezed her hand and spoke up again.
"No, there’s no chance of that. I arrived in time to prevent anything that would lead to a child. Her lower dress was untouched, save for some mud."
Violet visibly relaxed, a small sigh of relief for Penelope and for her future, escaping her lips. "Thank you, Colin," she said sincerely, then turned to Penelope. "I am so sorry for what you have endured, my dear. Congratulations on your engagement. You will always have our support."
Penelope felt tears welling up again, but this time they were tears of gratitude and relief. She managed a small smile and whispered, "Thank you, Lady Bridgerton."
Just then, the door to the drawing room opened, and Eloise burst in, her eyes wide with curiosity.
"What on earth is going on? Everyone is missing from breakfast."
Eloise stopped short when she saw the scene before her: Penelope’s tear-streaked face, Colin’s protective stance, Kate’s reassuring presence, and Violet’s concerned expression.
"Penelope?" Eloise’s voice was filled with alarm. "What happened?"
Penelope looked to Colin for support, and he nodded, giving her the strength she needed to speak. "Eloise, Colin and I are engaged," she said, her voice trembling slightly but gaining strength. "There was... an incident last night, but Colin saved me."
Eloise’s face transformed from confusion to shock, then to fierce protectiveness.
"Engaged?" she repeated, her voice rising with emotion. "What happened to you, Penelope? Why didn't you tell me?"
Penelope took a deep breath, trying to steady herself. "It all happened so quickly. I didn't want to worry you..."
But Eloise was already shaking her head, her expression torn between anger and sadness. "You’re my best friend, Penelope. How could you not tell me something like this? How could you keep this from me? And now you're engaged to my brother? Just like that?"
The betrayal she felt was palpable, each word laced with the sting of a friendship she believed had been impervious to secrets.
"Eloise, please," Colin interjected, firm yet gentle. "This isn't how we wanted to tell you, but it's the truth. We're engaged, and Penelope needs our support now more than ever." His tone was pleading, a mix of authority and desperation, trying to bridge the gap that had suddenly yawned open between his sister and the woman he cared for deeply.
Eloise’s eyes filled with tears as she looked between her brother and her friend.
Her heart felt as though it were being torn in two, the safe world she had always known unraveling before her.
"I want to be supportive, but I don't know how. Everything's changed so suddenly."
Her voice broke on the last word, a single tear slipping down her cheek as she fought to maintain her composure.
The room seemed to close in around her, the walls pressing down with the weight of her confusion and grief.
Before anyone could stop her, she turned and fled the room, her sobs echoing down the corridor.
A stunned silence fell over those left behind, the gravity of the moment settling heavily on their hearts.
Penelope felt her heart shatter. "She hates me," she whispered, her voice breaking as sobs wracked her body once again. “Eloise hates me."
Colin pulled her into his arms, holding her tightly as she cried. "She doesn't hate you, Penelope. She's just overwhelmed. She needs time to process everything. We all do."
Violet stepped forward, her eyes filled with compassion. "Penelope, dear, Eloise loves you. She's just struggling to understand everything right now. Give her some time."
Kate, who had been quietly watching, approached and placed a comforting hand on Penelope's shoulder. "It’s a lot for everyone to take in, but you have to believe that Eloise will come around. She cares about you deeply."
Penelope nodded, but the tears continued to flow. "I just want things to be normal again. I don't want to lose her."
"You won't," Colin assured her, his voice full of conviction. "We'll get through this together. All of us."
Anthony, who had been standing by, observing the scene with a mixture of concern and determination, spoke up. "We need to support each other now more than ever. Penelope, you're a part of this family, and we'll do whatever it takes to protect you and help you heal."
Penelope looked around at the faces of those who had become her family.
Despite the fear and uncertainty still lurking in her heart, she felt a glimmer of hope.
"Thank you," she whispered, her voice trembling but sincere. "Thank you all."
Violet nodded, her expression resolute.
"We'll take it one step at a time. For now, let's focus on making sure you're alright."
Colin held Penelope close, his presence a comforting anchor in the storm of emotions. "We'll be alright," he murmured, pressing a gentle kiss to her forehead without thinking. "I promise."
As Penelope clung to him, she felt a sense of security and hope that she hadn't thought possible after the horrors of the previous night.
There was still someone she had to tell. Her mother. All she had to do was cross the street, but it felt like an insurmountable task. The very thought of leaving the Bridgerton home, stepping out into the world again, made her chest tighten with fear. Her breath grew shallow, her heart pounding as if it were trying to escape her chest. She wrapped her arms around herself, a futile attempt to keep the panic at bay. The walls of the room seemed to close in on her, and the idea of facing the outside world became unbearable.
"Penelope, it's okay," Colin said softly, noticing her distress. He reached out and took her hands in his, grounding her with his touch. "You don't have to do this alone. We're here with you."
Penelope looked up at him, her eyes wide with fear. She wanted to speak, to tell him how terrified she was, but the words wouldn’t come. Instead, she squeezed his hands, clinging to the strength he offered.
Kate stepped forward, her voice calm and practical. "Let’s choose a cloak for you, Penelope. Something that will keep you warm and hidden. We don’t need to rush. We can take our time."
The suggestion provided a welcome distraction. Penelope nodded, allowing herself to be guided to the wardrobe. The simple act of choosing a cloak became almost a game, a small reprieve from the overwhelming anxiety. Kate pulled out a deep green cloak with a hood, but Colin shook his head.
"Too bright," he said. "We need something that blends in more."
Kate nodded and rummaged through the wardrobe again, finally pulling out a deep blue cloak lined with fur. Colin took it from her, draping it over Penelope's shoulders and fastening the clasp at her neck. He pulled the hood up, gently tucking stray strands of hair away from her face.
"There," he said, his voice warm and reassuring. "This will keep you hidden."
Penelope managed a small smile, the absurdity of the situation not lost on her.
Here they were, treating the selection of a cloak like a matter of great importance. But she was grateful for the distraction, for the way it allowed her to focus on something other than her fear.
Colin offered her his arm, and she took it, drawing strength from his presence. Kate walked on her other side, a steady and supportive figure.
Together, they made their way downstairs and out the front door. Each step felt like an immense effort, the distance across the street seeming to stretch out endlessly before them.
Penelope’s breathing grew rapid, her vision narrowing as the panic threatened to overwhelm her again. She clutched Colin’s arm tighter, her fingers digging into his sleeve. He paused, turning to face her, his expression filled with concern.
"Penelope, look at me," he said, his voice gentle yet firm. "You’re safe. I’m right here. We’ll take it one step at a time."
She focused on his eyes, drawing in deep, shaky breaths. Colin placed his free hand over hers, his touch calming her frayed nerves. Slowly, the tightness in her chest began to ease, her breathing returning to a more even rhythm.
"That’s it," he murmured, his thumb rubbing soothing circles over her hand. "Just breathe. We’re almost there."
With Colin’s reassurance, they continued their journey. The short walk felt like an eternity, but with each step, Penelope felt a little stronger, bolstered by the presence of her two protectors. They finally reached the Featherington home, and Colin knocked on the door, his hand never leaving hers.
Portia Featherington opened the door, her eyes widening slightly at the sight of her daughter flanked by Colin and Kate.
The early morning light cast long shadows, illuminating the dark look etched on Colin’s face and the quiet determination on Kate’s.
The stark contrast of Penelope's bruised face against the familiar backdrop of their home caught Portia off guard.
Her eyes, normally so keen on observing the minutiae of social interactions, now zeroed in on the discolored swellings and cuts that marred her daughter's delicate features.
Each mark seemed to tell a story of pain and fear, stories Portia wasn’t prepared to hear.
She said nothing as they entered, her gaze sweeping over Penelope, taking in every detail with a mixture of shock and growing anger.
Penelope held her gaze steady, willing herself not to flinch under her mother’s scrutiny.
She knew that any sign of weakness would only fuel her mother's temper.
Her heart pounded in her chest, but she stood firm, drawing strength from Colin’s reassuring presence beside her.
Colin, with a calm and measured tone, addressed Portia.
"Lady Featherington, Penelope and I are engaged. We will marry in a matter of weeks."
His voice was steady, each word carefully chosen to convey both respect and resolve. He made no mention of the injuries, his words focused solely on their impending union.
The announcement hung in the air, a stark declaration that brooked no argument.
Portia's face remained impassive, a mask of stoicism that Penelope had seen many times before.
Her eyes flickered briefly, betraying a flicker of emotion before returning to their usual guarded expression.
She offered a curt nod, acknowledging the news without comment.
The silence stretched uncomfortably, the unspoken questions and accusations simmering just below the surface.
Colin and Kate, sensing that this was a private moment between mother and daughter, took their leave.
Colin squeezed Penelope's hand one last time before stepping outside with Kate, leaving Penelope alone with her mother.
His touch lingered, a silent promise of support and protection.
The door closed behind them with a soft click, sealing Penelope in a bubble of tense quiet.
As the echoes of their departure faded, Penelope found herself standing in the familiar yet suddenly alien space of her childhood home.
The walls seemed to press in on her, the air thick with unspoken words.
She drew a shaky breath, preparing herself for whatever was to come.
For a long moment, silence hung heavy in the room.
Penelope could feel the weight of her mother’s gaze, scrutinizing her with a mix of curiosity and concern.
The grand clock in the hallway ticked steadily, each second stretching out interminably.
Finally, Portia spoke, her voice surprisingly gentle, a stark contrast to the stern expression she wore.
"You'll need to learn to manage tempers alongside the household quickly," she began, her tone pragmatic and devoid of the warmth Penelope craved.
As she spoke, Portia moved to the window, adjusting the heavy drapes that framed the view of the street.
Her hands smoothed over the fabric, fingers lingering on the intricate patterns as if the touch could distract her from the worry gnawing at her heart.
Penelope watched her mother’s restless movements, the way she meticulously straightened a vase of flowers on the table and adjusted the cushions on the settee.
It was as if keeping busy could keep the reality of the situation at bay.
"No situation is entirely bleak," Portia continued, her voice steady but her hands betraying her anxiety as they fidgeted with the hem of her sleeve. "Eventually, there will be children, and you will love them more than you thought possible." She paused to tuck a stray lock of hair behind her ear, her eyes avoiding Penelope’s.
"Children can bring light into the darkest of circumstances," she finished, her voice softening just a fraction.
She glanced at Penelope then, a fleeting look that combined concern and an attempt at reassurance before she quickly looked away, her fingers now tracing the edge of a frame.
As Portia spoke, Penelope realized with a sinking heart that her mother believed Colin was the one who had hurt her.
The advice, though practical, was laden with the assumption that Penelope’s future with Colin would be fraught with difficulties and that the bruises on her face were evidence of his temper, not his protection.
Portia's words were filled with a resigned acceptance of hardship, a belief that enduring and managing were the best one could hope for in marriage.
Penelope swallowed hard, her mother’s words both comforting and heartbreaking.
Her throat tightened, tears threatening to spill once more.
"Mother," she began, her voice trembling despite her efforts to steady it, "Colin didn't hurt me. He saved me. I was attacked in the street, and Colin came just in time to stop... to stop something terrible from happening."
She took a deep breath, steeling herself to speak the truth. “These bruises, these cuts, they are not because of him. He would never hurt me."
For the first time in as long as she could remember, Penelope saw her mother's stoic facade crack.
Portia's eyes softened, and she stepped closer to her youngest daughter. "Oh, Penelope," she whispered, her voice breaking.
"I don’t know who they were," Penelope admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. "But Colin fought them off and brought me to the Bridgerton house. He’s the reason I’m safe now." She paused, gathering her courage. "Mother, Colin is not the villain here. He is my protector."
Penelope felt a sob rising in her throat, and she couldn't hold it back any longer.
She broke down, the tears flowing freely as the weight of the past day’s events crashed over her.
Portia hesitated for a moment, then did something she had rarely done before: she pulled Penelope into a tight embrace, holding her as she wept.
Penelope clung to her mother, the floodgates of her emotions fully opened.
She wasn’t alone; she had Colin, and Anthony and Kate, and the rest of the Bridgertons, and now, in a way she hadn’t before, she had her mother too.
In the absence of Lady Whistledown’s column - the latest edition released only the day before Penelope’s attack, the next one not due until the weeks end, days away still - it was Portia who spread the word that her youngest daughter was under the weather, ensuring that no one would suspect the real reason for Penelope's seclusion.
The “illness” that Penelope was suddenly afflicted with, to cover her absence from society wasn’t even all that contrived.
She needed time and space to heal, and this was a necessary lie, one that allowed her bruises and cuts to heal in the privacy of the Featherington home, shielded from prying eyes and wagging tongues.
Yet the days passed slowly, locked away in her room and Penelope found herself yearning to rejoin society.
She missed the bustling markets, the lively balls, and the simple pleasure of a stroll through the park.
But every time she caught sight of her reflection, the reality of her situation hit her hard.
The bruises on her face had begun to fade, but the scabs that formed over her other injuries were still painfully visible.
She couldn't imagine stepping out in public like this, not without a veil to hide her scars.
Worse still were the panic attacks that gripped her whenever she tried to leave the house.
The first time she attempted to venture out, her heart pounded in her chest, and her vision blurred.
She was only trying to cross the street, to call upon the Bridgerton family.
Instead she stood there, paralyzed by fear until Colin appeared at her side in her own house, his presence a comforting anchor in the storm of her emotions.
She clung to him, unable to take a single step without his support.
Colin had become her constant protector, accompanying her on short walks around the garden and sitting with her in the drawing room when the walls of her bedroom felt too confining.
He was always there, patient and reassuring, but Penelope couldn't shake the feeling that he was doing it out of obligation.
She didn't want to be a burden, to tie him down with her fears and insecurities.
In truth, Colin was tormented by his own feelings. He had always cared for Penelope, but the depth of his emotions had taken him by surprise.
Seeing her so vulnerable, so in need of protection, had awakened something fierce and protective within him.
Yet, he feared she only accepted his presence because she felt she had no other choice.
One afternoon, Penelope was surprised by a knock on her door. Her maid announced that Miss Eloise Bridgerton had come to call. Penelope's heart leapt with a mix of excitement and anxiety. She hadn't seen Eloise since that morning in the Bridgerton drawing room, and she wondered how their reunion would unfold.
Eloise swept into the room with her usual vivacity, her eyes scanning Penelope with a mix of concern and relief.
"Penelope," she exclaimed, wrapping her friend in a gentle hug that barely made her wince in pain anymore. "I've missed you terribly."
Penelope returned the embrace, feeling a warmth spread through her chest. "I've missed you too, Eloise."
Eloise pulled back, her eyes narrowing with determination. "That's why I'm here. I've been pestering my brothers for the truth, and they finally told me what happened. I can't believe someone would do that to you. I was so angry when I found out. How dare someone think they could harm you and get away with it! It makes my blood boil just thinking about it. I can't even imagine how frightened you must have been. I'm so sorry, Penelope."
Penelope's eyes welled with tears, her vision blurring as she fought to keep her composure. She managed a shaky smile, her voice trembling with emotion. "Thank you, Eloise. It means a lot to hear that from you. Your support... it means everything to me. You’ve always been my rock."
Eloise sat down beside her on the settee, her expression softening with concern and tenderness. "And now you're engaged to Colin," she said, her tone a mixture of surprise and curiosity. "It’s... strange, I admit. Seeing my best friend with my brother... it’s something I never really imagined. But if anyone deserves to be happy, it's you, Penelope. You've been through so much, and if Colin makes you happy, then I support you both wholeheartedly. I know he’ll do everything he can to protect you and make you feel loved."
Penelope reached out and grasped Eloise's hand, her heart swelling with gratitude. "Thank you, Eloise. Your acceptance means more than I can express. Colin has been so kind and supportive through all of this. I... I don't know what I would have done without him. But your friendship, your understanding, it gives me strength too."
Eloise squeezed her hand back, her eyes shining with unshed tears.
"We'll get through this together, Pen. You're not alone. You have me, you have Colin, and you have the entire Bridgerton family behind you. We’re all here for you, and we always will be. No matter what happens, we’re your family now too."
Eloise blinked, and waved a hand dismissively, her usual nonchalance back in place. "And you should hear the ton. They're all abuzz about your sudden illness. Everyone’s hoping it won’t turn into an epidemic. It’s almost amusing how they’ve turned you into the main subject of their concern. They're more worried about their own health than anything scandalous."
The comment, intended to be lighthearted and reassuring, sent Penelope into a mental spiral.
As Eloise continued to chatter about the latest gossip—who was courting whom, which debutante had made a social faux pas—Penelope’s mind raced in circles.
If society really believed she was merely ill, then there was no real scandal to worry about.
No whispers, no rumors about an attack.
It meant that Colin wasn't actually obligated to marry her to protect her reputation.
The realization hit her hard: Colin had proposed out of a sense of duty, not because he truly wanted to.
The thought gnawed at her, making her feel both relieved and heartbroken.
She had accepted his proposal, thinking it was necessary to salvage her reputation, but now she understood she wasn't truly ruined in the eyes of society.
Penelope's heart ached with confusion and longing.
Did Colin feel anything for her beyond obligation?
She glanced at Eloise, who was still animatedly discussing the latest scandal involving Lady Danbury’s new protégée, and felt a pang of sadness.
Eloise’s presence was comforting, but it couldn’t quell the turmoil brewing inside her.
After Eloise left, the girls as close as sisters could be once more, Penelope sat alone in the quiet room, her thoughts a whirlwind of confusion and hope.
She had to know the truth, even if it meant facing the possibility that her engagement to Colin was based on a sense of duty rather than love.
She did not have to wait long, as they sat in the Featherington drawing room that very evening, the fire casting a warm glow on their faces, Penelope mustered the courage to speak.
"Colin, I've been thinking," she began, her voice trembling slightly. "No one knows about the attack. The bruises are fading, and I can recover from this...privately. The ton believes I am merely ill and the news of our engagement has not spread further than both of our families.”
She paused momentarily, steeling herself to potentially ruin her own life. “If you want to end our engagement, I would understand. You shouldn't have to marry me out of obligation."
Colin's heart clenched at her words.
He reached out, taking her hand in his, feeling the slight tremor in her fingers.
"Penelope, look at me," he said softly, waiting until her eyes met his. "I don't want to end our engagement. I want to marry you because I love you. Not out of obligation, but because I can't imagine my life without you."
Tears welled up in Penelope's eyes, her heart pounding with a mix of hope and disbelief.
"But why?" she whispered. "Why would you want to marry me after everything that's happened?"
Colin cupped her cheek, his thumb brushing away a tear.
"Because you are the strongest, most courageous woman I know. You've endured so much, and yet you still stand. You make me want to be a better man, Penelope. I love you, not despite what happened, but because of who you are."
Penelope's breath hitched, and she threw her arms around him, clinging to him as if he were her lifeline.
"I love you too, Colin," she sobbed, she hadn’t known people held so much water within them before this longest not quite week of her life. "I just...I didn't want to be a burden."
"You're not a burden," he murmured, holding her tightly. "You're my heart, Penelope. And I want to spend the rest of my life proving that to you."
As the warmth of their embrace lingered, Penelope's mind began to swirl with a tumult of emotions.
The terror of her recent ordeal still haunted her, but here in Colin's arms, she felt a glimmer of safety and hope. Yet, there was one more hurdle she needed to overcome, one more piece of her shattered heart that needed mending.
Colin," she whispered, her voice trembling as she pulled back slightly to meet his gaze. "If you truly mean that, if you want to start making it up to me, then there's something I need from you."
She took a deep breath, her eyes filled with both vulnerability and determination. "I need you to kiss me. Show me what it feels like to be kissed by someone who loves me."
Colin's brow furrowed with concern. "Penelope, I don't want to hurt you. You're still healing, and—"
"Please," she interrupted, her eyes filling with tears. "The only time I've been kissed, it was cruel and forced. I need to know that it's not always like that, that it can be... gentle, and loving."
Colin's heart broke anew at her words.
He reached out, cupping her cheek with a tenderness that made her lean into his touch.
His thumb gently wiped away a stray tear. "Alright, Penelope," he whispered, his voice full of emotion. "If you're sure."
She nodded, her breath coming in shallow gasps, her heart pounding in her chest.
Colin took a moment to steady himself, his eyes locked on hers, silently promising to be the balm her wounded heart needed.
Slowly, he leaned in, his movements careful and deliberate, as if she were a fragile piece of porcelain.
The anticipation built between them, a soft tension that heightened every sensation.
When his lips finally brushed against hers, it was so gentle, so tender, that it felt like a whisper of a kiss.
Penelope's eyes fluttered shut, and she felt herself melt into the tenderness of his touch.
The kiss was a promise, a soothing balm over the raw wounds of her past.
Colin pulled away slightly, searching her face for any sign of discomfort, but Penelope reached up with a desperate urgency and pulled him back.
This time, their kiss deepened, a melding of souls rather than just a meeting of lips.
The room seemed to disappear around them, leaving only the two of them in that moment.
Penelope's heart raced, and she forgot how to breathe, lost in the sensation of Colin's love.
His arms wrapped around her, holding her close, as if he could shield her from all the pain and fear she had endured.
Her hands tangled in his hair, drawing him even closer, as if she could merge their hearts into one.
When they finally broke apart, both were breathless, their foreheads resting together.
Penelope looked into Colin's eyes, seeing a depth of love and devotion that took her breath away anew.
The raw emotion in his eyes was almost too much to bear, and before she could stop herself, words tumbled from her lips.
"I love you, Colin," she whispered, her voice barely audible. "I've loved you since I was sixteen. I've always loved you."
The confession hung in the air between them, a fragile truth that had been hidden for so long.
Penelope's heart pounded in her chest, a mix of fear and hope swirling within her.
She had never meant to reveal her feelings so openly, but now that the words were out, she couldn't take them back.
Colin's eyes widened in surprise, and for a moment, he seemed at a loss for words.
He pulled back slightly to look at her fully, his expression a blend of astonishment and tenderness.
"Penelope," he began, his voice thick with emotion. "You've loved me... all this time?"
Penelope nodded, feeling tears pricking at the corners of her eyes.
"Ever since you fell off that horse and made me laugh when I thought I never would again," she admitted, her voice trembling. "I've loved you through all the years, through everything. And I thought... I thought you only saw me as a friend."
Colin cupped her face in his hands, his touch gentle yet firm. "Penelope, I’ve always cared for you deeply. But it’s only recently that I’ve realized just how much. Your strength, your kindness, your courage... you’re everything to me."
He kissed her again, this time with a passion that left no room for doubt. When he pulled away, he rested his forehead against hers.
"I love you, Penelope. More than words can express. I want to spend the rest of my life showing you just how much."
Penelope's heart soared at his words, a flood of relief and joy washing over her. "I want that too, Colin," she whispered, her voice choked with emotion. "I’ve always wanted that."
They held each other tightly, the world outside their embrace fading away.
The Bridgerton drawing room was a lively, welcoming place, filled with the hum of conversation and the soft clinking of teacups.
Penelope sat on a plush settee, her gaze drifting occasionally to Colin, who stood across the room engaged in a lighthearted discussion with Benedict.
She felt a sense of peace in his presence, even from a distance.
She could breathe without pain now, a testament to the healing she was slowly undergoing.
She felt almost herself again.
The room was bustling with the usual Bridgerton energy, and Penelope found comfort in the normalcy.
It was as if the house itself was a balm for her frayed nerves.
Suddenly, a loud crash echoed from the hallway, followed by a chorus of laughter.
Before Penelope could react, Gregory burst into the room, his arms flailing as he chased after a wayward cricket ball.
The unexpected commotion startled her, a jolt of fear gripping her heart.
In an instant, she was back in that dark alley, the terror of her attack surging up from the depths of her memory.
She let out a sharp cry, her body trembling uncontrollably as she slid to the floor.
Gregory, realizing what he had done, froze in place, his eyes wide with shock and regret.
"Penelope!" Colin was at her side in an instant, his strong arms enveloping her, his presence grounding her.
She clung to him, sobbing into his chest, her fingers digging into the fabric of his waistcoat.
The room fell silent, the weight of the moment settling over everyone.
Gregory took a tentative step forward, his face pale with guilt.
"Penelope, I'm so sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you. I was just—"
"It's alright, Gregory," Colin said firmly, though his focus remained on Penelope. "You didn't mean any harm."
Anthony stepped forward, his expression stern but understanding.
"Everyone, let's give them some space. Gregory, come with me."
Gregory nodded, his shoulders slumping as he followed Anthony out of the room, casting one last apologetic glance at Penelope.
The rest of the Bridgertons filed out quietly, their expressions a mix of concern and sympathy.
Once the room was empty, Colin gently lifted Penelope to her feet and guided her back to the settee.
He sat beside her, holding her close, his touch soothing her frayed nerves.
"You're safe, Penelope," he whispered, his voice a steady anchor in the storm of her emotions. "I'm right here. Breathe with me."
She nodded, focusing on the rhythm of his breathing, slowly matching it with her own.
The terror that had gripped her began to ebb, replaced by the warmth of Colin's embrace and the solid comfort of his presence.
"I'm sorry," she whispered, her voice shaky. "I didn't mean to make such a scene."
Colin cupped her face in his hands, his eyes filled with tender concern. "You have nothing to apologize for. You're healing, Pen. It's going to take time, and that's alright. We'll get through this together."
She nodded, leaning into his touch, drawing strength from his unwavering support. "Thank you, Colin. I don't know what I would do without you."
He pressed a gentle kiss to her forehead. "You'll never have to find out."
Penelope was pacing the room when Colin arrived, her hands clutching a stack of papers, her fingers stained black with ink.
She was talking rapidly, her words tumbling over each other in a jumbled rush that made it impossible for him to understand.
"Penelope, slow down," Colin tried to interject, but her frantic energy was unstoppable.
Her voice wavered, and he could see the sheen of tears in her eyes.
"Colin, I have to tell you something, and it's... it's so important, and I don't know how you'll react, but you need to know, and I—"
Her words broke off as she caught sight of him, her eyes pleading.
He almost laughed at the absurdity of the situation, but the sight of her near tears stopped him short.
Instead, he closed the distance between them and pulled her into a hug, feeling her tense body slowly relax against his.
She nestled her head against his chest, her breathing gradually evening out as she listened to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.
The banns were to be read in church for the first time in just two days.
Penelope was so close to having everything she was supposed to want in life: security, love, a future with Colin.
But she wanted this too—this secret, this other life that had been hers alone for so long.
She pulled back slightly and held out the papers to him, her hands trembling.
"You need to read this, Colin," she said, her voice barely above a whisper.
He took the papers from her, his brow furrowing in confusion.
"Penelope, what is this?"
As his eyes scanned the page, his face turned pale.
The first three words were enough to make his heart stop.
"Dearest gentle readers..."